I don't own Sex and the City, but I do rent it from
time to time, lol.
I once heard a man in a suite at a bus stop say
"Life is like a box
of Chocolates never know what your gonna get" and that
is my life
rule. Fate is a funny thing, it happens and it is so
unexpected. Life
is fate and it always happens for a reason like for
example, what I
did to Big and Sam.
"Hello you two." I said while leaning into Big a
little closer.
"Hi." Sam said.
I took a look at Big and smiled, "Hey Sam? Can I
talk to this guy
alone?"
"Yeah, well bye I'll see you later."
Samantha turned the corner and I took a walk with
Big. "So
what do we need to talk about?"
I stopped and turned to him "I lied, I can't be
your friend."
"What? Why? When? How?"
"Your just to much of a bad memory."
"Now I'm a bad memory?" He said with an attitude.
"That's not what I meant. What I meant was you and
me, we
used to be "us" and now were not, so it's hard, you're
a bad memory
because now when I see you I can't process."
He grabbed me with a hug and looked at me. I
kissed him and he
didn't pull away, so I did. I walked all the way home
and knew he
watched me walk away.
I sat in my living room and thought about life and
love. And all I
could think was "He's with Samantha, he's with Sam,
he's with
Jones" but the next day my thoughts changed to that
kiss. Did it
mean sense he kissed me back that maybe he misses me
too? I didn't
know, but how would I even know.
The door bell rang as I was washing the dishes so I
wiped my
hands and left the sink on. I opened the door and saw
Stanford and
put the towel down and invited him and his full head
of brown hair
in. He sat on the couch and looked at the rug.
I turned off the sink and walked toward Stanford
and sat down.
"So what are you doing here?"
"Well we need to talk."
"About?"
"You and me, are we still friends or is that
weird?"
"Of course were still friends, it's just I have
things to deal with
these days and I don't want you to do to me what I
just did to Big,
so if were going to do this, are you capable?"
"I better go, and don't worry I can handle it."
888Next day888
At school Big kept looking at me and ignoring
Samantha. I turned
over to him and tried to talk to him but just walked
half way up
and turn around. There it was as I turned the corner
I bumped into
Big.
"Oh I'm sorry let me get those for you." He said.
He picked up my books from the floors and didn't
hand them to
me. "Where do you go next?"
"English, Mrs. Pearson."
"Can I walk you there?"
"You'll be late for your class."
"It never mattered before."
"Well it does now." I said while grabbing my books
and ran to my
class, I could feel the tears forming as I got ready
to read my report.
Did he want me...
My thoughts were interrupted by Sam sitting behind
me. "Hey?"
She whispered.
"What?"
"Why is Big turning away from me?"
"How should I know?"
"I saw you two talking in the halls."
"Oh," I paused. I turned my head and saw her
looking at me.
"Carrie! Carrie Bradshaw!"
I stood up and read my speech. Hand in hand I saw
Charlotte
walk by with Trey. I saw how happy they looked and
couldn't see
me doing that with anyone other then Big.
888The Halls on the way
home888
Everyone scattered around the halls when I spotted
Big talking to
Sam. She looked upset and glared at me for a second.
Then as she
slapped him and walked away he started to come for me.