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Part/Chapter: 3
Everyone was suppose to be sleeping. But there were three people up thinking. Ron was at his house. He didn't understand why Snape would write to him and Hermione to tell them not to write to Harry. Yes, school would start in a month, but still it was a month away. That wasn't very fair. Ya ya, he thought, life's not fair get over it. No, this is Harry. Snape sent a letter no less. Not anyone else, Snape. Why him? What if he was pulling a joke?
Meanwhile Harry was in his room pacing. Lupin wanted him to take a sleeping potion. Why? He knew he looked bad, but not that bad. Right? Oh, who cared if he did? It was his choose. No one elses. He could do that right. He was tired though. The trip did wear him down. He needed to get back to studying, which he did.
Snape was in the room next to Harry. He brought down some music and played it softly. He needed to be up and that was the only way. He could use a wake potion, but he didn't fell like taking one. Not to night. He listened to see what Harry was doing. He was pacing then it was silent. Snape had no idea what he was doing so he made a window in the wall that was invisible. Harry sat at his desk and was studying. Snape never thought Harry would study like that. But he was. All of a sudden he jumped up and started pacing. Something Snape would do. Then he put on music. Funny thing was it was the same Snape was listening.
The next morning Lupin woke up and took a shower. Then Tonks woke and also took a shower. After getting ready for the day Lupin walked down to the breakfast table. No one was there yet. He wondered how it went last night with Harry. After about twenty minutes of sitting there Tonks joined him. After twenty more minutes Snape joined them telling them Harry would be down soon. He would have told more, but knew that Harry would be down soon.
"Morning," Harry said coming into the room.
"Morning," everyone else said in unison.
They sat down getting ready to eat when Jets came in followed by Herms shortly after then Dumbledore. They all sat down at the table and said greetings. The food arrived and everyone started to eat. Harry looked around at the food and took some fruit. That's the only thing he had at the Dursleys anyways. Lupin was curious as was everyone else, but Herms and Jets. They didn't know what Harry's habits were.
After Harry finished the fruit he asked to be excused. Tonks was hoping Lupin wouldn't make him stay right then. Lupin looked at Snape who answered.
"Yes, Harry. If you could stay in your room for awhile it would be wonderful," Snape said using his regular sneer.
"Why wouldn't I stay in my room?" Harry was about to ask, but realized and walked out of the room.
After Harry was out of ear shot Dumbledore started to speak.
"What did they say Herms?" Dumbledore said softly.
"Hermione is aloud to come in a day and will be here in a day unless you would prefer later. Ron is aloud to come when ever we want him," Herms replied.
"Very well. So they both shall come tomorrow," Dumbledore announced.
"Um, Professor, can I ask it be delayed until next week?" Lupin asked looking at Tonks and Snape to make sure they gave their approval.
"Why Lupin?"
"It seems Harry is in depression, or some kind of mood. He only eats a little. To tell the truth he only had fruit since he's been here and that was this morning as you saw. We also decided to watch his sleeping pattern last night. Only because he would take a dreamless sleep potion and he looks like he hasn't slept since school was out," Snape answered for Lupin.
"Well, I don't see why we can't delay them. I would like to know more when you get information, please. And Severus are you going to be nice to him now and tell him the truth?" Dumbledore asked.
"I think I will if I need to. I'm prepared for it, but I don't want to." Snape said. (Yes, you'll still find out the secret in this chapter.)
"Well, I think you should tell him anyways. He should know; it'll help," Dumbledore said gentle.
"Professor, how can you tell me to tell him about myself when you your self haven't said a word about who you really are to him?" (sorry it just popped in my head you'll find out later.)
"Ah, yes, Severus, I will in time. Sometime soon I guess. I don't think I can hide for to much longer."
"Okay, if you'll tell him before school I'll tell him before school," Snape said with twinkling eyes.
"You know I can't promise, but how about before Halloween I'll tell him?"
"Okay, sounds fine to me."
"Good."
"Jets, any news that no one knows about?" Dumbledore asked getting back to business.
"No, not that you guys don't know," Jets said while looking in a magazine.
"Okay then. I need to leave. Meet back here around three o'clock. I'll see you later. Bye," with that Dumbledore left.
"Well, I should go tell Ron and Hermione to come next Monday, right?" Herms asked.
"Why don't you make it Tuesday? That way we have a few more days," Tonks asked.
"Okay. I'll do that. See you at three. Bye," then he disappeared.
"Well, Jets you going to leave us too?" Lupin asked hoping, but then he wasn't in much hurry to know about last night.
"Well, um, yes. I need to go into London. I'll be back later. If I'm late don't worry I'll be here within the half hour, okay?"
"Okay, bye," Snape said standing up.
After everyone left Tonks, Lupin, and Snape walked into the common room. Then they decided the one on the third floor. The other way from Harry's room too. So, they took the opposite stairway to see if he was in his room, then went up to the hallway and walked to the brass common room.
When they got settled in to comfortable chairs Tonks started to talk. She needed to fill them in on her schedule. It was getting busy as she was the new Defense Against the Dark Arts teacher. She had to get stuff for that, then she had to do whatever Dumbledore needed her to do for the Order. After she was done talking it went to Lupin, then lastly Snape.
Meanwhile, Harry was in his room looking over charms. He really liked to learn all this stuff, but he was getting a headache. He wondered if this was what Hermione did. Maybe he would ask her one day. Although he doubt she skipped sleep. Oh well, it was all for a good cause. He would learn and get revenge. Yes, he was trying to suffer because of Sirius too. But soon he realized he could get through it if he got revenge. He wondered why Lupin wanted him to take the sleeping potion again. Do I look that bad? He pondered. Oh well. Hopefully he wouldn't ask him to do it tonight. He didn't want it. He still had a few days he could go with out sleep. And why did Lupin make him stay at the dinner table? Maybe he was catching on, or maybe he just wanted Harry's company, but then why didn't he start a conversation. He couldn't figure it out the whole way and went back to reading about charms.
"So, what did he do last night Severus?" Tonks asked carefully. She wanted to know, but at the same time she didn't.
"Ah well he didn't sleep at all. I had a hard enough time staying awake all night. I don't see how he really could," Snape said.
"So, if he didn't sleep he must have had something to do, right? That would explain how he could stay up all night. You only had to watch, and yes, its Harry, but it can be boring," Lupin said.
"Yes, he had something to do all right. It no better than not having anything to do though. Well for him anyway. He was up looking up spells. I have a felling he studies all the time."
"Well, then studying is better than other things, although I prefer he sleeps. If not all night, some. What do we plan on doing then?" Lupin said.
"Well, I thought you said you were going to make him take the potion? That's a really good idea," Snape replied.
"I don't know, it is additive," Tonks said as she changed her hair to orange. She loved Harry as if he were a brother.
"Well, that it is. I don't know anymore though. Maybe we should look at his sleeping patterns first," Lupin said softly.
"Well, yes, that would be good. But aren't you forgetting that his friends are coming over next Tuesday?" Severus said. (got tired of calling him Snape all the time.)
"Well, we can still do it. I think it would be good to talk to his friends and warn them what Harry's been up to. You know he might not like it if they come. We should tell him they're coming too," Tonks said in her none- sense-tone.
"Ah, well, you're right we can talk to Ron and Hermione on what little we know. Then tell them at night just stay in their room unless they go to each others. But stay away from Harry's. Then we can still watch him and have them know why. You're also right to think he might not like them here. Although I see no reason why they still can't come. The worse he can do is be a withdrawn with them as he is being with us," Lupin talked while thinking.
"True, but he's not being withdrawn from me," Snape said looking at the ceiling.
"Really. And why is that? Could it be you've only been mean to him since you saw him? Is it that all you do is yell, or sneer at him all the time? No, maybe it's the fact that you haven't told him you're his uncle and that James was your brother. But then you should have been nicer to him," Tonks said testingly.
"All of those. I couldn't be nicer. I didn't want to be mean to him I really didn't, but I couldn't help it," Snape said softly unlike him.
"Well, I can't believe you put that bet on with Dumbledore. So, when do you plan on telling him, because he needs to know," Tonks said surprised.
"Well, I know that, but it doesn't change the fact that I don't want to hurt him anymore. Nor do I want him to hate me anymore. I'm prepared to tell him, but not ready," he said.
"Ok, well tell him soon. Most preferably before school starts. Now Who wants to take tonights shift?" Lupin asked getting on with business.
"I will. Unless you want to Serverus?" Tonks said cheerfully.
"Well, I don't care which ones takes it. I can't because there's a full moon tonight. I'll take tomorrow. I need to go and do some stuff before tonight. Bye," Lupin replied getting ready to leave.
"Okay, bye. See you later," Serverus said.
"Yep, bye," Tonks also said.
"Well, I have to go to Diagon Alley. I'll see you later," Tonks said leaving.
"I guess that leaves me and I can't go anywhere," Snape said at loud. Snape went to his room and decided he would take a nap until lunch time, which he did. He only got up because a house elf said it was lunch time and he needed to get up. Harry, while he took a nap, studied and took notes. That was until he received his Hogwarts letter and owl results. He took his Hogwarts letter and read it. He was surprised at the books. Only two were new. That being potions and the regular Basic book grade 6th. He basically knew everything in the other books. He wondered who the new Defense Against the Dark Arts teacher would be. He was even more surprised by his owls. The note said:
Dear Harry Potter, Here are the following owl results. Your head of house teacher already knows and has scheduled your classes. If you have changed your mind on anything talk to them. Transfiguration Outstanding Charms Outstanding Herbology Exceeds Expectations Defense Against the Dark Arts Outstanding Potions Outstanding Care of Magical Creatures Outstanding History of Magic Exceeds Expectations Astronomy fail Divination fail
Each subject is worth two OWLS each. You have achieved 14 OWLS altogether. Congratulations. Great job. There is only one person who received higher and two with the same score. Good luck in school.
Sincerely, Professor Lingo Head of Owls scoring.
He wondered how Ron did. He knew Hermione was the one who received higher. He hoped Ron didn't fail half. Oh well. He could take potions. He was really unnerves without Snape. Maybe that was because he wasn't getting yelled at every two minutes. He would see what happened when the time came for potions this year. Professor McGonagall said she would help him. He was sure she wouldn't be yelling at him all the time. His thoughts were interrupted by a knock on the door. "It's open," Harry said. Like it would be locked. Snape stuck his head in. "Lunch is ready, come downstairs." Snape said in a bored tone. "Okay, give me a minute please." "Fine, you have ten. If you're not down there I'm coming up," Snape replied and left. Well fine be like that, Harry thought. What does it matter if I go down, or not anyways? Well, I better get a move on before Snape comes back. He went out his room and down to the dinning room. He was surprised to see only Snape and him were there. He thought, oh great, Snape and I. This is going to be pleasant. So he sat down and the food appeared. "What did the house elves think? There's an army up here, or something?" He said out loud. "No, they thought you might be hungry considering you didn't eat last night and had very little this morning," Snape said plainly.
"Oh, well, I'm not." Harry replied getting more fruit and some veggies. Snape raised an eyebrow to that.
"Harry, why don't you get more than that?" Snape replied trying not to give in to being soft.
"Why would I want to eat more? I'm not hungry," Harry said evenly.
"You would eat more because it's obvious you've lost at easily thirty pounds. And what do you mean you're not hungry?" Serverus said the last part with a sneer. He didn't need to look to soft, did he?
"Well, one would say they're not hungry when they didn't feel like eating. I can't help it if it looks like I lost weight."
What have I gotten my self into? Snape thought as Harry went on. I didn't mean it to be like this. I wanted silence. But for peed sakes he needs to eat. I'm ready to open his stupid mouth for him and stuff it down his throat. I remember when James did this once. But we were way younger. We actually were nice and brotherly then. He wouldn't eat for a month before mother either said he ate or there was something wrong with him and she was going to take him to St. Mungo. That made him eat. He wasn't going there, no way.
"Harry, why won't you eat? Did the Dursleys only give you a little food a day? Is it because you're trying to starve yourself? Or are you sick and not telling someone?" Snape said levelly. Not a sneer, but all the way soft and caring.
"What does it matter?" Harry said once again evenly.
"What does it matter?" Serverus was now angry. How stupid could he be? Those Dursleys must have made him that way. He comes from an intelligent family. Yes, I'm admitting James was smart. "It matter's to everyone. Lupin is trying to come up with a logical reason and Tonks isn't trying to stop him and is thinking herself. If you have to defeat Voldermort you can't go around being starved. You need food. It does give you energy," Snape said heatedly.
"Oh, sorry, but I can't eat anymore than I do. Plus even if I tired now it wouldn't be a pretty sight," Harry said thinking going the way he intended would make Snape madder and didn't want that.
"You can do liquids then work onto more," Serverus gave the suggestion hoping Harry wouldn't see behind it.
"Oh, well, that's okay. Do I have to sit here, or can I go back to my room?" Harry asked.
"Let me think about it.. You may go to your room, but I will be up in a half hour and I'm going to tell you something. Be ready," Snape said sharply.
"Fine," with that Harry stormed up the steps.
He wondered where everyone else was. Why hadn't he asked them? That was silly of him. But more importantly what was Snape going to say to him? And why would he need to be ready? He didn't know if he would ever be ready for Snape to tell him anything.
At the same time Serverus was thinking along the same lines. Well, silly me. Now I'm going to tell him. He's going to blow up and that'll be the end. I'm not ready to tell him. Not yet. But yet would he ever be? He could always use that excuse. He needed to do it now. While there was still a chance to redeem himself in Harry's eyes. He hope he could have this conversation in a neutral way. "Like that'll ever happen," He said out loud.
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I leave you there. How mean of me right? It's not that bad though. Ok Sorry for last chapter. I know that is was messed up when I went to look through it after I posted. I fixed it though or tried to if you didn't notice.
I'm thinking about cutting my chapters but I don't know. If I do that I can possible update more. Then if I don't I update once and get a lot in one chapter. I also will be very happy if I get this done before August 25th. School starts and I'll get busy. Although I'll have about two weeks before I have no life anymore. If you care what I do tell me please. Thanks.
Thanks again to princess55, Hufflepuff1324, and BlackLupin. You guys are the best.
Thank you to end of innocence for betaing
Part/Chapter: 3
Everyone was suppose to be sleeping. But there were three people up thinking. Ron was at his house. He didn't understand why Snape would write to him and Hermione to tell them not to write to Harry. Yes, school would start in a month, but still it was a month away. That wasn't very fair. Ya ya, he thought, life's not fair get over it. No, this is Harry. Snape sent a letter no less. Not anyone else, Snape. Why him? What if he was pulling a joke?
Meanwhile Harry was in his room pacing. Lupin wanted him to take a sleeping potion. Why? He knew he looked bad, but not that bad. Right? Oh, who cared if he did? It was his choose. No one elses. He could do that right. He was tired though. The trip did wear him down. He needed to get back to studying, which he did.
Snape was in the room next to Harry. He brought down some music and played it softly. He needed to be up and that was the only way. He could use a wake potion, but he didn't fell like taking one. Not to night. He listened to see what Harry was doing. He was pacing then it was silent. Snape had no idea what he was doing so he made a window in the wall that was invisible. Harry sat at his desk and was studying. Snape never thought Harry would study like that. But he was. All of a sudden he jumped up and started pacing. Something Snape would do. Then he put on music. Funny thing was it was the same Snape was listening.
The next morning Lupin woke up and took a shower. Then Tonks woke and also took a shower. After getting ready for the day Lupin walked down to the breakfast table. No one was there yet. He wondered how it went last night with Harry. After about twenty minutes of sitting there Tonks joined him. After twenty more minutes Snape joined them telling them Harry would be down soon. He would have told more, but knew that Harry would be down soon.
"Morning," Harry said coming into the room.
"Morning," everyone else said in unison.
They sat down getting ready to eat when Jets came in followed by Herms shortly after then Dumbledore. They all sat down at the table and said greetings. The food arrived and everyone started to eat. Harry looked around at the food and took some fruit. That's the only thing he had at the Dursleys anyways. Lupin was curious as was everyone else, but Herms and Jets. They didn't know what Harry's habits were.
After Harry finished the fruit he asked to be excused. Tonks was hoping Lupin wouldn't make him stay right then. Lupin looked at Snape who answered.
"Yes, Harry. If you could stay in your room for awhile it would be wonderful," Snape said using his regular sneer.
"Why wouldn't I stay in my room?" Harry was about to ask, but realized and walked out of the room.
After Harry was out of ear shot Dumbledore started to speak.
"What did they say Herms?" Dumbledore said softly.
"Hermione is aloud to come in a day and will be here in a day unless you would prefer later. Ron is aloud to come when ever we want him," Herms replied.
"Very well. So they both shall come tomorrow," Dumbledore announced.
"Um, Professor, can I ask it be delayed until next week?" Lupin asked looking at Tonks and Snape to make sure they gave their approval.
"Why Lupin?"
"It seems Harry is in depression, or some kind of mood. He only eats a little. To tell the truth he only had fruit since he's been here and that was this morning as you saw. We also decided to watch his sleeping pattern last night. Only because he would take a dreamless sleep potion and he looks like he hasn't slept since school was out," Snape answered for Lupin.
"Well, I don't see why we can't delay them. I would like to know more when you get information, please. And Severus are you going to be nice to him now and tell him the truth?" Dumbledore asked.
"I think I will if I need to. I'm prepared for it, but I don't want to." Snape said. (Yes, you'll still find out the secret in this chapter.)
"Well, I think you should tell him anyways. He should know; it'll help," Dumbledore said gentle.
"Professor, how can you tell me to tell him about myself when you your self haven't said a word about who you really are to him?" (sorry it just popped in my head you'll find out later.)
"Ah, yes, Severus, I will in time. Sometime soon I guess. I don't think I can hide for to much longer."
"Okay, if you'll tell him before school I'll tell him before school," Snape said with twinkling eyes.
"You know I can't promise, but how about before Halloween I'll tell him?"
"Okay, sounds fine to me."
"Good."
"Jets, any news that no one knows about?" Dumbledore asked getting back to business.
"No, not that you guys don't know," Jets said while looking in a magazine.
"Okay then. I need to leave. Meet back here around three o'clock. I'll see you later. Bye," with that Dumbledore left.
"Well, I should go tell Ron and Hermione to come next Monday, right?" Herms asked.
"Why don't you make it Tuesday? That way we have a few more days," Tonks asked.
"Okay. I'll do that. See you at three. Bye," then he disappeared.
"Well, Jets you going to leave us too?" Lupin asked hoping, but then he wasn't in much hurry to know about last night.
"Well, um, yes. I need to go into London. I'll be back later. If I'm late don't worry I'll be here within the half hour, okay?"
"Okay, bye," Snape said standing up.
After everyone left Tonks, Lupin, and Snape walked into the common room. Then they decided the one on the third floor. The other way from Harry's room too. So, they took the opposite stairway to see if he was in his room, then went up to the hallway and walked to the brass common room.
When they got settled in to comfortable chairs Tonks started to talk. She needed to fill them in on her schedule. It was getting busy as she was the new Defense Against the Dark Arts teacher. She had to get stuff for that, then she had to do whatever Dumbledore needed her to do for the Order. After she was done talking it went to Lupin, then lastly Snape.
Meanwhile, Harry was in his room looking over charms. He really liked to learn all this stuff, but he was getting a headache. He wondered if this was what Hermione did. Maybe he would ask her one day. Although he doubt she skipped sleep. Oh well, it was all for a good cause. He would learn and get revenge. Yes, he was trying to suffer because of Sirius too. But soon he realized he could get through it if he got revenge. He wondered why Lupin wanted him to take the sleeping potion again. Do I look that bad? He pondered. Oh well. Hopefully he wouldn't ask him to do it tonight. He didn't want it. He still had a few days he could go with out sleep. And why did Lupin make him stay at the dinner table? Maybe he was catching on, or maybe he just wanted Harry's company, but then why didn't he start a conversation. He couldn't figure it out the whole way and went back to reading about charms.
"So, what did he do last night Severus?" Tonks asked carefully. She wanted to know, but at the same time she didn't.
"Ah well he didn't sleep at all. I had a hard enough time staying awake all night. I don't see how he really could," Snape said.
"So, if he didn't sleep he must have had something to do, right? That would explain how he could stay up all night. You only had to watch, and yes, its Harry, but it can be boring," Lupin said.
"Yes, he had something to do all right. It no better than not having anything to do though. Well for him anyway. He was up looking up spells. I have a felling he studies all the time."
"Well, then studying is better than other things, although I prefer he sleeps. If not all night, some. What do we plan on doing then?" Lupin said.
"Well, I thought you said you were going to make him take the potion? That's a really good idea," Snape replied.
"I don't know, it is additive," Tonks said as she changed her hair to orange. She loved Harry as if he were a brother.
"Well, that it is. I don't know anymore though. Maybe we should look at his sleeping patterns first," Lupin said softly.
"Well, yes, that would be good. But aren't you forgetting that his friends are coming over next Tuesday?" Severus said. (got tired of calling him Snape all the time.)
"Well, we can still do it. I think it would be good to talk to his friends and warn them what Harry's been up to. You know he might not like it if they come. We should tell him they're coming too," Tonks said in her none- sense-tone.
"Ah, well, you're right we can talk to Ron and Hermione on what little we know. Then tell them at night just stay in their room unless they go to each others. But stay away from Harry's. Then we can still watch him and have them know why. You're also right to think he might not like them here. Although I see no reason why they still can't come. The worse he can do is be a withdrawn with them as he is being with us," Lupin talked while thinking.
"True, but he's not being withdrawn from me," Snape said looking at the ceiling.
"Really. And why is that? Could it be you've only been mean to him since you saw him? Is it that all you do is yell, or sneer at him all the time? No, maybe it's the fact that you haven't told him you're his uncle and that James was your brother. But then you should have been nicer to him," Tonks said testingly.
"All of those. I couldn't be nicer. I didn't want to be mean to him I really didn't, but I couldn't help it," Snape said softly unlike him.
"Well, I can't believe you put that bet on with Dumbledore. So, when do you plan on telling him, because he needs to know," Tonks said surprised.
"Well, I know that, but it doesn't change the fact that I don't want to hurt him anymore. Nor do I want him to hate me anymore. I'm prepared to tell him, but not ready," he said.
"Ok, well tell him soon. Most preferably before school starts. Now Who wants to take tonights shift?" Lupin asked getting on with business.
"I will. Unless you want to Serverus?" Tonks said cheerfully.
"Well, I don't care which ones takes it. I can't because there's a full moon tonight. I'll take tomorrow. I need to go and do some stuff before tonight. Bye," Lupin replied getting ready to leave.
"Okay, bye. See you later," Serverus said.
"Yep, bye," Tonks also said.
"Well, I have to go to Diagon Alley. I'll see you later," Tonks said leaving.
"I guess that leaves me and I can't go anywhere," Snape said at loud. Snape went to his room and decided he would take a nap until lunch time, which he did. He only got up because a house elf said it was lunch time and he needed to get up. Harry, while he took a nap, studied and took notes. That was until he received his Hogwarts letter and owl results. He took his Hogwarts letter and read it. He was surprised at the books. Only two were new. That being potions and the regular Basic book grade 6th. He basically knew everything in the other books. He wondered who the new Defense Against the Dark Arts teacher would be. He was even more surprised by his owls. The note said:
Dear Harry Potter, Here are the following owl results. Your head of house teacher already knows and has scheduled your classes. If you have changed your mind on anything talk to them. Transfiguration Outstanding Charms Outstanding Herbology Exceeds Expectations Defense Against the Dark Arts Outstanding Potions Outstanding Care of Magical Creatures Outstanding History of Magic Exceeds Expectations Astronomy fail Divination fail
Each subject is worth two OWLS each. You have achieved 14 OWLS altogether. Congratulations. Great job. There is only one person who received higher and two with the same score. Good luck in school.
Sincerely, Professor Lingo Head of Owls scoring.
He wondered how Ron did. He knew Hermione was the one who received higher. He hoped Ron didn't fail half. Oh well. He could take potions. He was really unnerves without Snape. Maybe that was because he wasn't getting yelled at every two minutes. He would see what happened when the time came for potions this year. Professor McGonagall said she would help him. He was sure she wouldn't be yelling at him all the time. His thoughts were interrupted by a knock on the door. "It's open," Harry said. Like it would be locked. Snape stuck his head in. "Lunch is ready, come downstairs." Snape said in a bored tone. "Okay, give me a minute please." "Fine, you have ten. If you're not down there I'm coming up," Snape replied and left. Well fine be like that, Harry thought. What does it matter if I go down, or not anyways? Well, I better get a move on before Snape comes back. He went out his room and down to the dinning room. He was surprised to see only Snape and him were there. He thought, oh great, Snape and I. This is going to be pleasant. So he sat down and the food appeared. "What did the house elves think? There's an army up here, or something?" He said out loud. "No, they thought you might be hungry considering you didn't eat last night and had very little this morning," Snape said plainly.
"Oh, well, I'm not." Harry replied getting more fruit and some veggies. Snape raised an eyebrow to that.
"Harry, why don't you get more than that?" Snape replied trying not to give in to being soft.
"Why would I want to eat more? I'm not hungry," Harry said evenly.
"You would eat more because it's obvious you've lost at easily thirty pounds. And what do you mean you're not hungry?" Serverus said the last part with a sneer. He didn't need to look to soft, did he?
"Well, one would say they're not hungry when they didn't feel like eating. I can't help it if it looks like I lost weight."
What have I gotten my self into? Snape thought as Harry went on. I didn't mean it to be like this. I wanted silence. But for peed sakes he needs to eat. I'm ready to open his stupid mouth for him and stuff it down his throat. I remember when James did this once. But we were way younger. We actually were nice and brotherly then. He wouldn't eat for a month before mother either said he ate or there was something wrong with him and she was going to take him to St. Mungo. That made him eat. He wasn't going there, no way.
"Harry, why won't you eat? Did the Dursleys only give you a little food a day? Is it because you're trying to starve yourself? Or are you sick and not telling someone?" Snape said levelly. Not a sneer, but all the way soft and caring.
"What does it matter?" Harry said once again evenly.
"What does it matter?" Serverus was now angry. How stupid could he be? Those Dursleys must have made him that way. He comes from an intelligent family. Yes, I'm admitting James was smart. "It matter's to everyone. Lupin is trying to come up with a logical reason and Tonks isn't trying to stop him and is thinking herself. If you have to defeat Voldermort you can't go around being starved. You need food. It does give you energy," Snape said heatedly.
"Oh, sorry, but I can't eat anymore than I do. Plus even if I tired now it wouldn't be a pretty sight," Harry said thinking going the way he intended would make Snape madder and didn't want that.
"You can do liquids then work onto more," Serverus gave the suggestion hoping Harry wouldn't see behind it.
"Oh, well, that's okay. Do I have to sit here, or can I go back to my room?" Harry asked.
"Let me think about it.. You may go to your room, but I will be up in a half hour and I'm going to tell you something. Be ready," Snape said sharply.
"Fine," with that Harry stormed up the steps.
He wondered where everyone else was. Why hadn't he asked them? That was silly of him. But more importantly what was Snape going to say to him? And why would he need to be ready? He didn't know if he would ever be ready for Snape to tell him anything.
At the same time Serverus was thinking along the same lines. Well, silly me. Now I'm going to tell him. He's going to blow up and that'll be the end. I'm not ready to tell him. Not yet. But yet would he ever be? He could always use that excuse. He needed to do it now. While there was still a chance to redeem himself in Harry's eyes. He hope he could have this conversation in a neutral way. "Like that'll ever happen," He said out loud.
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I leave you there. How mean of me right? It's not that bad though. Ok Sorry for last chapter. I know that is was messed up when I went to look through it after I posted. I fixed it though or tried to if you didn't notice.
I'm thinking about cutting my chapters but I don't know. If I do that I can possible update more. Then if I don't I update once and get a lot in one chapter. I also will be very happy if I get this done before August 25th. School starts and I'll get busy. Although I'll have about two weeks before I have no life anymore. If you care what I do tell me please. Thanks.
Thanks again to princess55, Hufflepuff1324, and BlackLupin. You guys are the best.