A New Beginning

Hey everyone, I'm so sorry for not updating for so long and that the chapter is so short. I promise to do one sooner and hopefully a little longer.

Disclaimer: I do not own Inuyasha or Yu Yu Hakusho, but I do own the story line so don't you dare sue me if I have anything wrong or you don't like on it.

I made this chapter extra long since I haven't updated in such a long time. Sorry about that and I hope you like the chapter.

I've been really stuck on some of the parts in this chapter so if something doesn't make since then tell me and I'll try to figure it out in the next chapter.

"Talking"

'Thinking'

Authors POV (two blocks away from Kagome's place)

Kagome and Yusuke walked silently down the street. Neither had spoken a word sense they left the roof at the school. Yusuke has his arm around Kagome's shoulder while Kagome tried to keep him up from the waist.

"It's to quite." Kagome whispered.

Yusuke didn't respond. He didn't know how. He wouldn't even look at her and it really started to annoy her.

"Say something would ya?" She asked with a little more urgency.

"Like what?" he asked with little to no enthusiasm.

Kagome sighed. "How about you tell me your name for starters?"

Yusuke was a little shocked by this. He forgot that she didn't know his name. "Yusuke Urimeshi." He expected her to shrink back in fear but she just smiled at him. "You haven't heard of me, have you?" It wasn't exactly a question but it was more of a stated fact.

Kagome's head slighted in confusion. "No, why would I hear about you? I'm new to the school."

Yusuke almost sighed in relief 'finally someone who wont judge me for my reputation at least.' "No reason, I was just wondering."

They both went silent again until they got to the shrine steps.

Yusuke groaned, "We have to climb that?"

Kagome nodded. "Do you want to rest here for a while?"

Yusuke sighed, "No, I heal pretty fast and I think I got most of my strength. I probably been able to walk by myself ever since we left the school gate."

"Then why were you still leaning on me?" Kagome asked suspiciously.

Yusuke ignored the question and started to walk up the steps. Kagome decided to leave the question alone for now and wondered if her mother was still waiting for her to come home. When they got up the steps they both saw the lights still on in the house.

"Looks like your folks are still up. Are you sure it will be ok if I stay the night?" Yusuke asked

"Well it's probably my mom and grandfather sense my dad left when I was younger like yours, but they wont mind they probably just want to know were I've been all night. As long as I'm not in jail or the hospital they really don't care if I'm out as long as they know were I am." Kagome giggled slightly.

'So her father left her too huh?' Was the last thing Yusuke thought when they got to the door?

When Kagome answered it her mother was the first thing he saw as she had a bear hug on Kagome. "Oh Kagome, I was so worried. I thought that Inuyasha took you back after only being back home for a day without even saying good-bye or something got through the well like the Mrs. centipede Demon..."

'Demon?' Yusuke thought for a second but then heard what Kagome said.

Kagome interrupted her before she could say anything else. "MOM calm down nothing happened and you have got to stop talking to Souta when you're worried. You should know by know that he has a huge imagination, for anyone let alone you to take him that seriously."

Her mom turned her head in confusion until she saw Yusuke. "Oh yeah, how silly of me to forget that kids imagination." She laughed nervously then she turned her attention back to Kagome. "So why were you out so late and who is that?"

Yusuke visibly tensed and both Kagome and her mom saw it. "Well this is Yusuke and we were doing a project on the school's roof and fell asleep." She said calmly, and then she turned to Yusuke. "Yusuke this is my mom Shelley." (I don't know her real name so I used my mom's name.)

They nodded their hellos to each other and shook hands before Kagome started to talk again. "Um, it was kind of late so I was wondering if Yusuke could spent the night so we could finish our project tomorrow." (It's Friday night/Saturday morning.)

Shelley's face lit up with excitement. "Sure, that's no problem. Grandpa and Souta are visiting another shrine at the moment and won't be back for another week or so so you can have Souta's room. It's right across from Kagome's so she'll show you."

"Thanks Mama, good night." Kagome took hold of Yusuke's elbow and led him up the stairs. "Are you really tired? I mean we already slept about for about eight hours." Yusuke shook his head no. "Me either." She led him to her room and opened the door. "This is my room."

Yusuke just looked around then sat on the bed and leaned his head on the wall. "So who's Inuyasha and why would he take you away?"

Kagome had a small, yet sad face, but quickly hid it behind a smile. "Oh no one he's just Souta's imaginary friend and my family likes to play along with it."

'With the way she looked at that question there is no way that Inuyasha wasn't a real person.' But he left it alone for now and just sat there staring at the wall.

Kagome sat next to him and fiddled with the end of her skirt. "So do you want to talk about it?"

She didn't have to explain what she was talking about, he new damn well that she wanted to talk about why he tried to kill himself. "No."

She looked down at her skirt and realized that she was still in her school uniform. "Ok then I'll be right back. I'm going to take a shower and change out of my school clothes. If you need anything then just bang on the door and I'll be right there." She got up and got some clothes out of her closet and left the room.

Yusuke sighed and looked around the room. He saw a book in the trashcan across the room.

When he got close enough he saw that it said 'Diary' and couldn't help himself. He picked it up and sat back on the bed. When he opened it to about the middle; the first words that caught his eyes were. 'No one should be alone.'

He flipped back a few pages wear it looked wet with tear droplets filling the page and at the bottom corner there was a small drop of...blood?

Dated January 2, 2004

'HE'S SUCH A JERK !!!! Why can't he ever just leave me alone? I mean isn't it enough that I completely drop my whole life to go to the feudal era and help him kill demons to get his precious jewel shards? Why can't he just stop it all? It's just too much. I can't take it anymore. I want out. I WANT OUT OF HERE!!! I want to be free. I want to be free of him even if I have to die to get away from him.

It's not too much to ask for is it? I mean it's not like I'm asking him to go away completely but does he have to make my life more miserable then it already is? He is always making me cry and he's always with HER.

I'm just a normal girl. I have the same feelings and thoughts that every ordinary teenage girl has. I'm no different then any of them. So why is it me who's always alone and me who never has a normal day and me who would do anything to make you happy. I would do anything for you and if it means killing myself so you can be with someone else then so be it.

Yusuke looked at the book with utter disbelief and horror 'She tried to kill herself to? But why, I mean I know why I did it. I disserved it but she's to kind of a person to deserve any type of treatment this guy is giving her. And who is this guy anyway? He sounds like a real ass...'

"What are you doing?" Asked a very shaky voice from the door.

Yusuke turned to see Kagome in a blue robe looking strait at the book with fear. "Kagome I..."

Her face went from frightened to rage. Her voice was still shaky but became fiercer with each word she said. "Go to Souta's room now." She turned her head to face his and couldn't help herself when he didn't move. "Get out get out GET OUT." When she finished he could see the tears in her eyes so he got up and slowly walked toward the door.

(Shelley (Kagome's Mom) is a very hard sleeper so lets say she's still sound asleep thinking that nothings wrong.)

He didn't pause but when he got to were she was standing there was a small whisper. "Sorry."

She just stood there breathing heavily as she watched him go to Souta's room. Kagome's slammed the door shut and leaned up against the wall as she slowly dropped to the floor and brought her legs to her chest. She did the best thing she could think of to make her feel better. She cried.

Souta's Room:

Yusuke sat on the bed and starred up at the sealing. 'Why do I always have to screw everything up? I'm sorry for everything that happened Kagome, and I'm sorry you ever met me. Why did you have to save me? We both could have been so much happier if I was dead.'

He stayed there for a few more minutes. Not wanting to give anyone any more pain then he already had.

Yusuke calmly reached over and pulled out his favorite razor from his back pocket. It was green and black with three silver blades. He slowly took off his shirt before climbing out of bed. A few drops of blood welled up slowly and Yusuke casually licked at it. The coppery tang in his mouth was enough to let him forget, for just a second, how horrible his day had been. He picked up the razor again and made a substantially deeper cut right next to the first one.

Kagome's Room right after he left.

Kagome sat there and cried for a minute or two and then just starred at the floor. 'Why am I crying? And why am I so mad?' Kagome got up and looked at the diary. 'It's this book. It's my diary. So why don't I remember writing in it?" She picked up and looked at were Yusuke left it open.

'I'm just a normal girl. I have the same feelings and thoughts that every ordinary teenage girl has. I'm no different then any of them. So why is it me who's always alone and me who never has a normal day and me who would do anything to make him happy? I would do anything for you and if it means killing myself so you can be with someone else then so be it.'

Kagome starred at the book in disbelief. 'I wrote this? No, I couldn't have. Were did Yusuke find this and why does it make me so afraid to read more. I have to know.' Kagome walked to Souta's room and lightly knocked on the door.

NO ANSWER

She tried again a little harder. "Yusuke?"

NO ANSWER

Kagome slowly turned the knob and opened the door, but there was no one in the room.

In The Bathroom:

The blood flowed faster this time, and before long, it was running down his thumb and falling gently onto the sink. Yusuke wiped most of the blood away, savoring the burning sensation as he moved his arm. He ferociously cut deeper many more times in only about thirty seconds.

"YUSUKE? Where are you?"

Yusuke's eye's widened as he furiously tried to wash the blood away. "I'm in the bathroom. Give me a minute."

"Oh"

If Yusuke had never met Hiei and his barely audible 'Hn.' He definitely would never had heard that. She sounded so relieved that he answered.

He quickly shook away the thought and finished cleaning all the blood away. Yusuke put his shirt back on and opened the door to find a teary eyed Kagome. After he opened the door, she hugged him for all she was worth and started to cry on his shoulder.

"I thought you left before saying good-bye. And I'm sorry for yelling at you to get out but could you tell me ware you found that diary of mine?" She looked up into those sad and alone eyes but she needed to know and then she could try and make him feel better.

Yusuke was so confused. First she kicked him out of the bedroom after finding out that she also tried to kill herself. And then she's hugging him in the bathroom for not leaving without saying goodbye and NOW she's asking were I got her diary? This girl was maybe more screwed up then he was. "I found it in your trashcan. Why?"

Kagome looked confused and then noticed she was still hugging him so she quickly and reluctantly let go. "Oh nothing it's just that I didn't now where I had it last." She said nervously. Not wanting him to know that she didn't remember ever writing anything like that. 'I'll find out sooner or later.'

Yusuke looked at her a little worried but did not say anything. 'I now I don't like to talk about my bad experiences so I doubt she's any different.' "Well for what it's worth, I'm sorry for reading it."

Kagome smiled and thanked him.

Yusuke was about to say something when his stomach beat him to it.

Kagome laughed and started down the stairs. "Well I'm going down for a very early breakfast. I haven't eaten since lunch if you'd like to join me."

Once again Yusuke's stomach answered for him and even he had to laugh along with Kagome.

Well that's all for this chapter folk. I hope you liked it.

Once again I'm really sorry for the really late update but I'll try (key word there people. TRY) to be faster with the next chapter.

I'm really stomped on what to do next so if anyone could give me a few ideas' that would be great.

Here are the votes you all have given me so far:

Yus/Kag: 23

Kur/Kag: 3

Hiei/Kag: 3

Inu/Kag: 1

Yus/Kieko: 2

Kur/San: 5

I think it's unanimous on who Kagome is going to end up with but if you want you can keep voting. But I do need you to keep voting on any other pair you may want. And I need you to tell me how you liked it and to give me a few ideas. Sorry if that's too much for you but I NEED HELP HERE!

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