I can hear the heated words even from the living room where I'm stationed
on the couch, waiting for Scott to finish chewing Virgil out. I want
desperately to barge into Virgil's room and tell Scott it was entirely my
fault. I instigated the kiss that started it all; I acted on my feelings
when I shouldn't have. If he should be mad at anyone, it should be me, not
his brother.
But I don't need to tell him that. Scott's already fuming towards the person who's not being faithful to his little brother - the one he looks out for, the one he protects. I catch myself thinking again about Alan and how this is going to hurt him. It's not just him I'm worried about either. If only there was some way Virgil and I could continue our relationship without anyone finding out, and without Scott giving us away.
I know that's impossible. Really, I do.
A door slams and Scott stalks down the hallway towards me. He storms past and I can feel the rage bubbling out of him as if he were still yelling at me. He won't even meet my eyes, and I don't blame him.
Virgil soon follows and I stand up, curious as to why he doesn't look as angry as his older sibling. He looks so calm it almost frightens me; how can a person be so composed after the intense conversation I just overhead? It's not as if I were eavesdropping. . .when Scott's mad, you know he's mad and he won't let you forget it. Especially if there's no one around and he can yell at you freely, as much as he wants.
John is sleeping in the cliff house above Thunderbird 2, a sort of quarantine so the rest of us don't get sick. Gordon and his father have disappeared to the mainland to grab some groceries with Grandma Tracy and my father is out in the garden, tending the plants beneath the torchlight. We got lucky this time, but as the days wear on, it's going to become harder and harder to conceal our feelings for each other - especially if Scott's around and decides to give us the silent treatment as he tends to do after he's exploded.
"How did it go?"
Virgil raises an eyebrow. "You didn't hear?"
I nod ruefully. "Of course I did. But why do you look so. . ."
"At ease? I'm used to Scott's crabbiness, it doesn't faze me any more." He sees the grave expression on my face and gives me a hug. "Tin-Tin, please don't get so upset over this. We're in it together, and we're going to pull out of it together."
"I know, Virgil, but I'm so worried about Alan." I say quietly, my thoughts once again drifting back to him, all alone in Thunderbird Five.
"You know I'll be right at your side when you have to break the news to him. You do know that, don't you?" A sudden notion crosses his mind and I can see it reflected in his auburn eyes. "You are going to tell him, aren't you? I mean, you're not going to drop me as soon as Alan returns, right?"
"Yes and no. The excitement I've felt with you in the last few days is so different from anything Alan ever made me feel. It's new, different, thrilling." I look up at him and do my best to smile. "I think I love you, Virgil Tracy." It takes so much courage to say, but the phrase that could make us closer or eradicate our relationship entirely falls so easily from my lips that I almost gasp in surprise.
For a minute he doesn't say anything, and I think it is probably the longest sixty seconds I've ever had to live through. I want to go back in time and take back those few words that have made him go silent.
He surprises me by pulling me closer to him and kissing me hard. I don't know what to make of his reaction, but give in without vacillation since we're all alone even though we're standing in the middle of the lounge. When we break apart a moment later, both trying to catch our breath, I rest my head on his shoulder and look at Alan's portrait on the wall. I can't help myself; I feel so at fault for kissing his brother and getting pleasure from it. And now, I feel even worse because what I said about loving Virgil is true.
"I love you too, Tin-Tin Kyrano." The words whispered near my neck weren't expected and I tighten my hold on Virgil as he brushes his lips against my skin.
"What are we going to do about Alan?" I ask after a minute, my eyes closed but still envisioning the visual rendering of Alan.
"What else can we do but tell him? We'll be honest, completely truthful, and see where it takes us. It's the only thing we can do."
"I guess you're right, but I don't know if I can do it. I love him so much. It's killing me." I admit to him, swallowing hard to keep my tears at bay.
"Are you reconsidering us, Tin-Tin?" The question is filled with uncertainness and I open my eyes to look up at Virgil.
"I. . .I don't think so. I don't know, Virgil, I just don't know!" I cry, my tears finally falling down my cheeks. "I love you, I wasn't lying when I said that. But Alan has been with me through everything these past few years. Is a history that deep worth risking for a new relationship like ours? We don't even know if we're going to survive, Virgil."
"You can't think that way. We will get through this, I know we will." He lowers his head and kissed my tears away, then captures my mouth for another soft, reassuring kiss. "You have to believe me, Tin-Tin."
"I do believe you."
"Then we don't have anything to worry about."
Inside, my heart fills with elation, hoping he's right.
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Don't worry, Alan's coming soon. . .*wiggles eyebrows mischievously* Review please!
Angelina
But I don't need to tell him that. Scott's already fuming towards the person who's not being faithful to his little brother - the one he looks out for, the one he protects. I catch myself thinking again about Alan and how this is going to hurt him. It's not just him I'm worried about either. If only there was some way Virgil and I could continue our relationship without anyone finding out, and without Scott giving us away.
I know that's impossible. Really, I do.
A door slams and Scott stalks down the hallway towards me. He storms past and I can feel the rage bubbling out of him as if he were still yelling at me. He won't even meet my eyes, and I don't blame him.
Virgil soon follows and I stand up, curious as to why he doesn't look as angry as his older sibling. He looks so calm it almost frightens me; how can a person be so composed after the intense conversation I just overhead? It's not as if I were eavesdropping. . .when Scott's mad, you know he's mad and he won't let you forget it. Especially if there's no one around and he can yell at you freely, as much as he wants.
John is sleeping in the cliff house above Thunderbird 2, a sort of quarantine so the rest of us don't get sick. Gordon and his father have disappeared to the mainland to grab some groceries with Grandma Tracy and my father is out in the garden, tending the plants beneath the torchlight. We got lucky this time, but as the days wear on, it's going to become harder and harder to conceal our feelings for each other - especially if Scott's around and decides to give us the silent treatment as he tends to do after he's exploded.
"How did it go?"
Virgil raises an eyebrow. "You didn't hear?"
I nod ruefully. "Of course I did. But why do you look so. . ."
"At ease? I'm used to Scott's crabbiness, it doesn't faze me any more." He sees the grave expression on my face and gives me a hug. "Tin-Tin, please don't get so upset over this. We're in it together, and we're going to pull out of it together."
"I know, Virgil, but I'm so worried about Alan." I say quietly, my thoughts once again drifting back to him, all alone in Thunderbird Five.
"You know I'll be right at your side when you have to break the news to him. You do know that, don't you?" A sudden notion crosses his mind and I can see it reflected in his auburn eyes. "You are going to tell him, aren't you? I mean, you're not going to drop me as soon as Alan returns, right?"
"Yes and no. The excitement I've felt with you in the last few days is so different from anything Alan ever made me feel. It's new, different, thrilling." I look up at him and do my best to smile. "I think I love you, Virgil Tracy." It takes so much courage to say, but the phrase that could make us closer or eradicate our relationship entirely falls so easily from my lips that I almost gasp in surprise.
For a minute he doesn't say anything, and I think it is probably the longest sixty seconds I've ever had to live through. I want to go back in time and take back those few words that have made him go silent.
He surprises me by pulling me closer to him and kissing me hard. I don't know what to make of his reaction, but give in without vacillation since we're all alone even though we're standing in the middle of the lounge. When we break apart a moment later, both trying to catch our breath, I rest my head on his shoulder and look at Alan's portrait on the wall. I can't help myself; I feel so at fault for kissing his brother and getting pleasure from it. And now, I feel even worse because what I said about loving Virgil is true.
"I love you too, Tin-Tin Kyrano." The words whispered near my neck weren't expected and I tighten my hold on Virgil as he brushes his lips against my skin.
"What are we going to do about Alan?" I ask after a minute, my eyes closed but still envisioning the visual rendering of Alan.
"What else can we do but tell him? We'll be honest, completely truthful, and see where it takes us. It's the only thing we can do."
"I guess you're right, but I don't know if I can do it. I love him so much. It's killing me." I admit to him, swallowing hard to keep my tears at bay.
"Are you reconsidering us, Tin-Tin?" The question is filled with uncertainness and I open my eyes to look up at Virgil.
"I. . .I don't think so. I don't know, Virgil, I just don't know!" I cry, my tears finally falling down my cheeks. "I love you, I wasn't lying when I said that. But Alan has been with me through everything these past few years. Is a history that deep worth risking for a new relationship like ours? We don't even know if we're going to survive, Virgil."
"You can't think that way. We will get through this, I know we will." He lowers his head and kissed my tears away, then captures my mouth for another soft, reassuring kiss. "You have to believe me, Tin-Tin."
"I do believe you."
"Then we don't have anything to worry about."
Inside, my heart fills with elation, hoping he's right.
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Don't worry, Alan's coming soon. . .*wiggles eyebrows mischievously* Review please!
Angelina