I was watching InuYasha episode 25 when this hit me! well that and an angry moth that wanted revenge for trying to kill it ::looks around for the moth:: its still out there!!! well anyway here it is my inspiration ;p I didn't really like Sesshoumaru but from these past few episodes I've begun to understand him...I just hope hes not too OOC and taht it doesnt sound like hes whining...even though he is rambling....but uhh yeah on with the story...

Disclaimer: I do not own InuYasha or Sesshoumaru or any other characters they all belong to Rumiko Takahashi

Meaningless

-Flashback-

Why...why did you leave me Tenseiga....

"Retreat! They're too strong!"

Why...why is there no Tetsusaiga....

"Lord Sesshoumaru! I have terrible news!"

Why...

"He is not coming..."

WHY!!

-Flashback End-

My father was weak. He loved a pathetic weak human. He mated with that human and made my half brother.

A filthy hanyou. When will he learn from his mistakes. He will never understand and never stop shaming us. That stupid excuse for a hanyou who shames our already shameful father. Fifty years ago he did not help us fight because he fell in love. He fell in love just like our father. He got Tetsusaiga while I'm stuck with this lowly excuse of a sword.

Love. An uneccissary emotion. Love shuold be left only with pathetic humans. It leaves you weak. Just like father. You died in love, you fell in love and mated with a weak human, had my half brother. Where are you now father, you are dead and you were weak. You brought shame to our family, to our lands.

Inuyasha, you also claim to have fallen in love. Yet what happened to you, your wench of a miko seals you to a tree. You didn't help with the war because of love. You found Tetsusaiga and you don't even use it properly. Love is a meaningless word. Another miko, a reincarnation of your first miko. When will you learn and stop bringing more shame to our family. You will never know what kind of shame you have brought. Falling in love with weak humans just like father.

Tetsusaiga should have been mine. A useless sword like Tenseiga should be given to a useless hanyou. I may owe Tenseiga my life but it has given me nothing. A sword that cannot cut is not a sword at all. Tetsusaiga can kill 100 youkai in one swing. Tenseiga can save 100 in one swing. Why give me Tenseiga, I do not save life I destroy it. I am suppose to be the most powerful, the Lord of the Western Lands with a sword that can't cut. While a worthless hanyou has a Tetsusaiga.

Shame. That is all that Inuyasha and Father have brought upon this family. That is all the Western Lands are, shame. The shame of a great Taiyoukai mating with a human. The shame of a hanyou son. The shame of a hanyou being pinned to a tree by a miko who claimed loved him. Shame of being brought back by her reincarnation only to fall in love again.

I have to save the Western Lands. I must clean the slate of our tarnished history. No matter how great Father was as a Youkai, no matter how strong. Those actions cannot undo all the mistakes he made just because of love. Because of love which also led to my half brother.

Everything shuold have been mine. Tetsusaiga should have been mine.

Love is meaningless. It is never worth the trouble.

"Sesshoumaru-sama?" asked a small girl

"Yes Rin." he answered

"I can't sleep." she said "I had a nightmare."

"Come then, you are safe with me." said the great youkai.

"Arigato Sesshoumaru-sama..." said Rin as she drifted to sleep.

Love is meaningless. It is always worth the trouble