Kinny: sorry it took so long to update...many problems lately. I haven't had the time to write cause i've been really busy and there's been alot of family problems and such. some idiot is sueing us for something we didn't do...and...i have some relatives that are true pains in the ass ; anyway...my computer's always been going out on me ALOT my browser barely ever works properly and neither does aim...i'm very very sorry...
anyway...this chapter is filled with thoughts. and it's very one-lined :/ as much as i hate that...and there's also alot of "his" and "he" and "him"s...which REALLY bothered me but yeah...sorry if this chapter displeases you xx;
Warning: There's major Sakura bashing in this chapter. I'm a Sakura basher so what d'ya expect? I probably went a bit overboard in the fic cause I don't think I hate her THAT much xD;; But yeah...if you don't like. don't read :/
This is a dream.
It's all a dream.
This can't be happening.
Please, someone wake me up.
Please.
Tears pour down his face as he rushes down the street. He pushes people aside, not caring if they stare. All that mattered was getting away.
"Watch it kid!" Someone says pushing him over, causing him to fall to the ground.
"Hey isn't that kid, kyuubi?" another person asks, disgusted.
Naruto gets up and heads on, not bothering to look back. Slamming the door behind him, he slumps to the ground, burying his face into his arms and crying.
It's all a dream.
This can't be happening.
Please, someone wake me up.
Please.
Tears pour down his face as he rushes down the street. He pushes people aside, not caring if they stare. All that mattered was getting away.
"Watch it kid!" Someone says pushing him over, causing him to fall to the ground.
"Hey isn't that kid, kyuubi?" another person asks, disgusted.
Naruto gets up and heads on, not bothering to look back. Slamming the door behind him, he slumps to the ground, burying his face into his arms and crying.
He wanted to die. It hurt so fucking much. He'd been forgotten by the one person he loved most. Life was so cruel...he was tired of everything always happening to him. Pounding his fist into the ground, his breath shallow, his vision blurred, everything goes black. Darkness takes him in and he is lulled unconscious from exhaustion. After all, he had not slept or eaten all week just to stay by Sasuke's side.
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"Oi, dobe. Get up."
Naruto pulls the covers over his head.
"Ieee....let me sleep..." he whines, shutting his eyes tightly from the bright light. Suddenly sitting up, he glomps Sasuke.
"You're back?!!"
Sasuke pushes him off and looks at him as if he were a walking block of poop {domo-kun!! xDD}
"What the hell are you talking about? I was never gone, usuratonkachi."
Naruto looks up into dark eyes.
"Huh...?...but..."
He blinks and the eyes in front of him suddenly turn blood red. In Sasuke's place, stands Itachi, covered in blood. A bloody kunai is raised in the air and brought down swiftly towards Naruto's neck.
"Iiyaaa!!!! Nooooo!!!!! Sas..Sasuke...TASKETE!!!"
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He wakes up in a cold sweat, his face covered in tears.
Ugh....It was just a dream...
It felt so real though..
Man, I'm really losing it.
Naruto gets up off the ground and plops into bed, not bothering to change his clothes. Sleep quickly takes over and he falls into a more comfortable, dreamless sleep.
(Next Morning)
There was a thought nagging in the back of his head as if he had forgotten something. And he had. He had forgotten his dream. The only thing remembered was, it was one hell of a weird dream.
"Shikshou!! I forgot to set my alarm clock!! Ahh Sakura-chan's gonna scold me again..."
Off and out of the house, Naruto rushes to the bridge, totally forgetting the past week's events. {typical Naruto...-.-;}
"Eh...?" Naruto looks around to find a very deserted bridge. "Kya!! I'm such an idiot!! Of course they aren't here...they're probably all at the hospital...seeing...him." A sharp pain stabs Naruto's heart, almost like a knife were buried in and twisted. Tears pour down his face as last night's events replay in his head.
What's happened to me...I've become so weak.
Is this what love really is? Being hurt and forgotten...?
If so, then I don't want to be in love. I don't want to live.
It hurts so fucking much...everything we did together, the good and bad, he doesn't even remember anymore.
Seriously....what's the use...
He looks up as footsteps approach and a tear slips down his cheek, threatening more to fall.
"What're you doing here..?" he asks, voice dry and cracked from crying.
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I'm Sasuke.
Uchiha Sasuke.
Last of my clan. An orphan.
#1 rookie of the year.
Teamed with Naruto and Sakura.
That is all I know.
All I've been told.
Although Kakashi-sensei had mentioned something about that Naruto kid.
The kid that made my heart clench at the thought of him crying.
That made my heart skip a beat when I thought of him smile, even though I have no memory whatsoever of him smiling.
Kakashi had said that he was very important to me.
Like he really needed to tell me. -inwardly rolls eyes-
That boy was in my head 24-7.
Everytime I tried to think of something else, my thoughts would drift to his tear-streaked face.
And my chest would hurt. A lot.
I wanted to see him. So I've gone to find him.
I don't know why but I have this crazy feeling I know where he is.
And so he was off, his feet leading to a place slightly familiar but unkown to him. Odd stares followed him everywhere he went and it was very, very disturbing.
Do I have a 'kick me' sign on my back or something..?
He checked.
Nope. Nothing. Just some wrinkles and lint.
Maybe...I'm horribly ugly?!!
Looking through a window to check how he looked, a gasp escapes his lips.
I...I look DISGUSTING!!
I don't remember looking like this in the morning!!
Kami-sama, I'm horrendous!!
At this thought, the dark-haired boy ran. Ran so fast that all the villagers saw was a big blue blur. {try saying that 3 times fast...}. Too bad what those poor black eyes had seen was not him, but just a fat pimply kid staring back at him. Suddenly bumping into a disgusting pink-haired...thing, Sasuke was stopped.
"Sasuke-kun!! You're finally better?!!!" the 'things' high annoying voice rang. "Wanna go do something maybe? Let's celebrate you getting better!!!"
The world began to spin, his head throbbing and his ears ringing in pain.
"First of all, I don't know you. Second, I don't care to know you. Third, you're annoying and thanks to you I now have a headache. So if you'd please excuse me, I'd like to leave now." He said coolly, casting a dark glare at the big-foreheaded thing. Speeding off before the loud annoying voice could start again, dark eyes closed and a light sigh escaped soft lips.
This place is so weird..
How the hell did I ever manage..?
It hasn't even been a day and my head's throbbing like a bitch.
Mostly cause that crazy girl...ugh.
Disgusting.
Shuddering and coming to a stop, he found himself in an oddly familiar clearing. Giving a glance around, his eyes stop on the lake.
"It's so...beautiful..", he breathed his eyes watching the slight ripples move fluidly and smooth across the surface.
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His face was flushed and hot red as the child in his arms rubbed into his chest. Slowly wrapping his arms around the sleeping boy, careful not to wake him, he stares at blonde boy's face. Dark eyes gazed upon the calm angelic face in front of him and he held the boy closer. The warmth was so comforting...he wished this moment would last forever.
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Sasuke blinks and looks around. He felt oddly cold and...alone. The warmth that was in his arms only moments ago was gone and an empty feeling filled his heart.
What was that just now..?
But the sight before him interrupted his thoughts.
"What're you doing here?" a choked voice questions. An odd silence fills the air for he could not answer. He just stood there, his dark eyes straying from the red, tear-stained cheeks to the blue eyes that were now red and puffy from crying. He suddenly found his hand wiping the tears away.
"I...really don't know.." he said softly, truly unsure of why he had come. Hadn't it been to come see the boy? There was no true reason he knew of but somewhere in his heart he knew, he had needed to find Naruto.
"I wanted to find you..." he started slightly embarrassed at saying such bold words. "to...you know...um...saysorryforyesterday." He quickly finished, inwardly slapping himself for turning into a coward.
"Oh."
Naruto's heart plunged at the words.
To say sorry...go figure.
Like he'd really come just cause he wanted to see me.
"Well...um...I'm sorry..."
He laughed and shook his blonde head. "Iiee..don't apologize. It's not like it's your fault. I just overreacted. I should be the one apologizing if truth be told.
"Eh? Oh...well ummm....you wanna get something to eat? I'm starving...hospital food really sucks."
A smile spread across Naruto's face and he nodded eagerly. Sasuke could practically feel his heart swelling up in his chest as he returned the smile. The child's smile was something he was going to treasure forever.
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"Kyaa", Naruto burped contently. "Ramen is sooo good....Okawari!!"
Dark eyes widen then close, a slight smirk upon the smooth pale face.
"Mattaku...and I thought you were finally done. If you get anymore I'm going to make you pay you know!!"
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"Oi, dobe. Get up."
Naruto pulls the covers over his head.
"Ieee....let me sleep..." he whines, shutting his eyes tightly from the bright light. Suddenly sitting up, he glomps Sasuke.
"You're back?!!"
Sasuke pushes him off and looks at him as if he were a walking block of poop {domo-kun!! xDD}
"What the hell are you talking about? I was never gone, usuratonkachi."
Naruto looks up into dark eyes.
"Huh...?...but..."
He blinks and the eyes in front of him suddenly turn blood red. In Sasuke's place, stands Itachi, covered in blood. A bloody kunai is raised in the air and brought down swiftly towards Naruto's neck.
"Iiyaaa!!!! Nooooo!!!!! Sas..Sasuke...TASKETE!!!"
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He wakes up in a cold sweat, his face covered in tears.
Ugh....It was just a dream...
It felt so real though..
Man, I'm really losing it.
Naruto gets up off the ground and plops into bed, not bothering to change his clothes. Sleep quickly takes over and he falls into a more comfortable, dreamless sleep.
(Next Morning)
There was a thought nagging in the back of his head as if he had forgotten something. And he had. He had forgotten his dream. The only thing remembered was, it was one hell of a weird dream.
"Shikshou!! I forgot to set my alarm clock!! Ahh Sakura-chan's gonna scold me again..."
Off and out of the house, Naruto rushes to the bridge, totally forgetting the past week's events. {typical Naruto...-.-;}
"Eh...?" Naruto looks around to find a very deserted bridge. "Kya!! I'm such an idiot!! Of course they aren't here...they're probably all at the hospital...seeing...him." A sharp pain stabs Naruto's heart, almost like a knife were buried in and twisted. Tears pour down his face as last night's events replay in his head.
What's happened to me...I've become so weak.
Is this what love really is? Being hurt and forgotten...?
If so, then I don't want to be in love. I don't want to live.
It hurts so fucking much...everything we did together, the good and bad, he doesn't even remember anymore.
Seriously....what's the use...
He looks up as footsteps approach and a tear slips down his cheek, threatening more to fall.
"What're you doing here..?" he asks, voice dry and cracked from crying.
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I'm Sasuke.
Uchiha Sasuke.
Last of my clan. An orphan.
#1 rookie of the year.
Teamed with Naruto and Sakura.
That is all I know.
All I've been told.
Although Kakashi-sensei had mentioned something about that Naruto kid.
The kid that made my heart clench at the thought of him crying.
That made my heart skip a beat when I thought of him smile, even though I have no memory whatsoever of him smiling.
Kakashi had said that he was very important to me.
Like he really needed to tell me. -inwardly rolls eyes-
That boy was in my head 24-7.
Everytime I tried to think of something else, my thoughts would drift to his tear-streaked face.
And my chest would hurt. A lot.
I wanted to see him. So I've gone to find him.
I don't know why but I have this crazy feeling I know where he is.
And so he was off, his feet leading to a place slightly familiar but unkown to him. Odd stares followed him everywhere he went and it was very, very disturbing.
Do I have a 'kick me' sign on my back or something..?
He checked.
Nope. Nothing. Just some wrinkles and lint.
Maybe...I'm horribly ugly?!!
Looking through a window to check how he looked, a gasp escapes his lips.
I...I look DISGUSTING!!
I don't remember looking like this in the morning!!
Kami-sama, I'm horrendous!!
At this thought, the dark-haired boy ran. Ran so fast that all the villagers saw was a big blue blur. {try saying that 3 times fast...}. Too bad what those poor black eyes had seen was not him, but just a fat pimply kid staring back at him. Suddenly bumping into a disgusting pink-haired...thing, Sasuke was stopped.
"Sasuke-kun!! You're finally better?!!!" the 'things' high annoying voice rang. "Wanna go do something maybe? Let's celebrate you getting better!!!"
The world began to spin, his head throbbing and his ears ringing in pain.
"First of all, I don't know you. Second, I don't care to know you. Third, you're annoying and thanks to you I now have a headache. So if you'd please excuse me, I'd like to leave now." He said coolly, casting a dark glare at the big-foreheaded thing. Speeding off before the loud annoying voice could start again, dark eyes closed and a light sigh escaped soft lips.
This place is so weird..
How the hell did I ever manage..?
It hasn't even been a day and my head's throbbing like a bitch.
Mostly cause that crazy girl...ugh.
Disgusting.
Shuddering and coming to a stop, he found himself in an oddly familiar clearing. Giving a glance around, his eyes stop on the lake.
"It's so...beautiful..", he breathed his eyes watching the slight ripples move fluidly and smooth across the surface.
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His face was flushed and hot red as the child in his arms rubbed into his chest. Slowly wrapping his arms around the sleeping boy, careful not to wake him, he stares at blonde boy's face. Dark eyes gazed upon the calm angelic face in front of him and he held the boy closer. The warmth was so comforting...he wished this moment would last forever.
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Sasuke blinks and looks around. He felt oddly cold and...alone. The warmth that was in his arms only moments ago was gone and an empty feeling filled his heart.
What was that just now..?
But the sight before him interrupted his thoughts.
"What're you doing here?" a choked voice questions. An odd silence fills the air for he could not answer. He just stood there, his dark eyes straying from the red, tear-stained cheeks to the blue eyes that were now red and puffy from crying. He suddenly found his hand wiping the tears away.
"I...really don't know.." he said softly, truly unsure of why he had come. Hadn't it been to come see the boy? There was no true reason he knew of but somewhere in his heart he knew, he had needed to find Naruto.
"I wanted to find you..." he started slightly embarrassed at saying such bold words. "to...you know...um...saysorryforyesterday." He quickly finished, inwardly slapping himself for turning into a coward.
"Oh."
Naruto's heart plunged at the words.
To say sorry...go figure.
Like he'd really come just cause he wanted to see me.
"Well...um...I'm sorry..."
He laughed and shook his blonde head. "Iiee..don't apologize. It's not like it's your fault. I just overreacted. I should be the one apologizing if truth be told.
"Eh? Oh...well ummm....you wanna get something to eat? I'm starving...hospital food really sucks."
A smile spread across Naruto's face and he nodded eagerly. Sasuke could practically feel his heart swelling up in his chest as he returned the smile. The child's smile was something he was going to treasure forever.
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"Kyaa", Naruto burped contently. "Ramen is sooo good....Okawari!!"
Dark eyes widen then close, a slight smirk upon the smooth pale face.
"Mattaku...and I thought you were finally done. If you get anymore I'm going to make you pay you know!!"
"Eeeeeeehhhhhhhh?!?!!? Hiddooiii desu yo, Sasuke-kuunnn....inviting a person to get food then making THEM pay???????!!"
"...I was just kidding, dobe."
"Er....ehehe...I knew that..." he scratched his head nervously before laying his eyes on the pork ramen. "Ano sa...you really don't remember then, huh....?" He said slowly, voice slightly tinged with hurt. "The academy, the missions, when we saved each others lives...don't you remember?....don't you..rem..ber..our..lo...." He ended mumbling.
Sasuke frowned.
"What?"
"Nevermind. It doesn't matter. You've already forgotten anyway." He said coldly, trying to keep his voice hard and devoid of emotions so he wouldn't cry.
"..." Sasuke was no longer emotionless like he used to be. Forgetting everything had meant he did not remember Itachi. He did not care to be power hungry. And it showed. Pain was written all over his face. His eyes were hot with tears and his whole body was shaking. And..he exploded.
"Do you think I WANTED to forget?!?! OF COURSE I DIDN'T!! I want to know who I am!! I want to know who you are!! I WANT TO KNOW WHY I"M ALWAYS THINKING OF YOU!! It hurts you know?! You're always there wandering through my thoughts 24-7!! Always....and when you ran out of the hospital that day....I wanted to die. I wanted to kill myself for causing you that pain...!! I wanted to be by your side and comfort you...and hold you so you wouldn't cry anymore...but I didn't. I want to remember...I want to know what we did together. I wanted to remember our memories together."
"Er....ehehe...I knew that..." he scratched his head nervously before laying his eyes on the pork ramen. "Ano sa...you really don't remember then, huh....?" He said slowly, voice slightly tinged with hurt. "The academy, the missions, when we saved each others lives...don't you remember?....don't you..rem..ber..our..lo...." He ended mumbling.
Sasuke frowned.
"What?"
"Nevermind. It doesn't matter. You've already forgotten anyway." He said coldly, trying to keep his voice hard and devoid of emotions so he wouldn't cry.
"..." Sasuke was no longer emotionless like he used to be. Forgetting everything had meant he did not remember Itachi. He did not care to be power hungry. And it showed. Pain was written all over his face. His eyes were hot with tears and his whole body was shaking. And..he exploded.
"Do you think I WANTED to forget?!?! OF COURSE I DIDN'T!! I want to know who I am!! I want to know who you are!! I WANT TO KNOW WHY I"M ALWAYS THINKING OF YOU!! It hurts you know?! You're always there wandering through my thoughts 24-7!! Always....and when you ran out of the hospital that day....I wanted to die. I wanted to kill myself for causing you that pain...!! I wanted to be by your side and comfort you...and hold you so you wouldn't cry anymore...but I didn't. I want to remember...I want to know what we did together. I wanted to remember our memories together."
Naruto looks up, shocked at the outburst and very surprised at how open Sasuke had been.
I wanted to be by your side...