Disclaimer: I do not own Queer as Folk, or any of the characters in this story. They belong to Cowlip and Showtime. I'm just borrowing them, to create a story to cure my boredom.

CHAPTER 4

The Meaning of it All

When Justin woke up he felt soft breathing on the back of his neck. He smiled to himself, then turned around and nuzzled into Brian's chest. He was trying to figure out how Brian must feel, after all hes gone through and now this.

"Morning" Brian mumbled sleepily, interrupting Justin's thoughts. "Mmmm..." Justin streched, and grinned, looking up at Brian.

"How are you feeling?" Justin said quietly, while still pressing himself into Brian. Brian lightly kissing Justin's forhead, said "Never been better" and Justin couldn't help but grin, causing Brian to grin as well.

"I guess we should get up." Justin said running his hands through Brian's hair. "Why? What's the rush?" Brian said gently caressing Justin's back.

Justin smiled, and rolled Brian over onto his back, and he didn't resist, he liked it when Justin took the lead. So Brian just layed there, and melted into Justin's lips. Brian hadn't even realized where he was when he opened his eyes seeing Justin grinning above him. 'Fuck, that was some kiss' Brian thought to himself.

"Yeah it was" Justin said aloud. It was amazing. How did Justin always know what he was thinking? Brian thought to himself finally coming to a realization, he grabbed Justin for another kiss, and Justin pulled at Brians shorts, freeing his now full erection.

Someone was knocking at their door again, so Justin and Brian quickly pulled on some shorts.

"Jesus Christ, do we have to lock ourselves away in a fucking bubble to get any privacy?" Brian said loudly.

"It's Lindsay!" she said through the door, sounding worried, and anxious.

"Ok, just a sec." Justin said quietly to Brian, while he pulled on some clothes.

Brian opened the door, and saw Lindsay standing there, with Gus.

"Hey Sonny Boy" Brian said, and Gus smiled, causing Brian to smile. He loved Gus, he was such a beautiful boy.

"So?" Lindsay said, not wanting to wait another minute.

As Lindsay got up from her very long hug with Brian, she picked up Gus, gave Justin a hug and a quick kiss on the cheek, and walked towards the door, smiling as she turned around. Then she closed the loft door, and Brian ran over to make sure it was locked.

"Now," Brian said "where were we?" Justin smiled and walked over to him, and pulled down his shorts, placing his hand over Brian's crotch. "Right about there, I believe"

Justin took off his clothes as quickly and messily as he had put them on when Lindsay had suprised them. Then jumping on the bed, he sat there, looking at Brian. Brian was just standing there, looking out the window, and then he turned and looked at Justin, and smiled faintly.

He then sat next to Justin on the bed, and hugged him, pulling him closer. Justin just looked at him, as his mood had changed, before they were really getting into it, and now Brian just looked like he wanted to hold him.

Brian began to kiss Justin passionately thinking to himself 'What did I ever do to deserve such a wonderful person, like Justin? Who puts up with all my shit, and would never think twice about whether this was where he belonged or not.' Then he looked Justin in the eyes touched his fingers to his lips, gently caressed the faded scar where he was hit with the baseball bat, then placed his hand over Justin's heart, never letting his eyes leave Justins.

Justin thought to himself. He looked at Brian, and Brian stared back, Justin seeing something in his eyes he had never seen before, the same toughness you could always see. But this time, it was softer, he looked almost like a child. So Justin kissed Brian's chest softly, and said "I love you too."