Phil and Lil walked to their bus stop together the next morning. Lil had decided that this was her day to face her friends, even though they probably wouldn't accept any apology from her, especially Tommy. After Lil had comforted Phil and the two of them had cried together, Phil gently asked Lil to "quit her job". He told her that it would absolutely break their mom's heart if she found out, and that isn't what she needs right now. What had made Lil so mad at him when he said this to her wasn't the fact that she didn't want to be discussing that subject with her brother. It wasn't the fact that he sounded so sincere and concerned when he said it. What had made Lil so mad at him when he said that to her was the fact that he was right. Lil knew that she had to stop doing what she was doing. She knew it would break both her parent's hearts. She knew she was hurting her friends. Did she really care, though?
Phil and Lil reached the bus stop. Phil saw all his friends standing there, including Angelica, Suzie, and Harold.
Phil squeezed Lil's hand and she smiled at him.
"Wish me luck?" She asked.
"Only the best." He whispered.
Lil timidly walked up to the gang, Phil right behind her.
"Hey, guys." Lil said nervously.
Angelica responded for the gang with a glare.
"Don't you have somewhere to walk?" She snapped.
Lil could feel the tears coming. She turned around to leave.
"This was a bad idea." She muttered to Phil.
Phil stopped her.
"Angelica, we all know that Lil's been a bitch, but she has something to say to you."
"What? Is she gonna tell us another sob story so we can feel bad for her and she can go ahead and backstab us again?"
Lil choked back her tears.
"Look, Angelica, Lil made a mistake. She made a big one, no doubt, but she came here to apologize. If you aren't able to atleast hear her out, then you're as bad as she is."
Angelica huffed and crossed her arms.
"I'm listening."
Suzie and Harold stood on either side of Angelica. Chuckie and Kimi kept a firm gaze on the ground. Dil was doing his own thing and Tommy was looking straight ahead.
"Um...I just wanted to say that I'm sorry for what I did to you. All of you. I know you guys hate me-"
"I don't hate you." Kimi piped.
"And if you don't, then you should." Lil continued. "What I did to you guys was rotten. I don't expect you guys to welcome me back with open arms, but I do mean what I just said. I never lied to you guys, either. What I told you all was true. I never made any of it up."
"Do you think that makes a difference to us?" Angelica interrupted. "Do you think the fact that you never lied to us takes away any of the pain? That's probably not what Tommy wants to hear, anyway. Do you think that he wants to hear that you didn't lie at all? That-"
"Angelica." Tommy said. Lil noticed that was the first she heard him talk for the past couple of weeks.
Angelica ignored his interruption and continued. "He wants to know that you really only thought of him as a 'client'? That you really didn't want to-"
"Angelica!" Tommy said again, a little louder.
Angelica ignored him again. "You didn't have the same feelings that he had for you? You want him to know that? What do you-"
"ANGELICA!" Tommy yelled.
"What?" She snapped.
"Drop it, okay? Obviously Lil is only having a guilt trip. She doesn't care or else she wouldn't have done it in the first place. Not to mention I could live without you commentating on my personal life. It isn't necessary."
Angelica shrugged. "There's your response right there, Lilly. I don't think you're forgiven."
Lil's eyes met momentarily with Tommy's. He gave her a pained look and then set his gaze back to looking for the bus.
Lil backed up slowly. She wanted to get away as fast as she could. Lil started to walk to the school. She knew that Phil watched her go, but this time he didn't try to stop her.
As Lil was walking, someone grabbed her shoulder. It took everything inside her to not to scream.
"Lil, it's just me." Lil spun around to see Chuckie standing there.
"Chuckie? What are you doing here?" She asked him.
Chuckie started to walk with Lil.
"Look, Lil, there's no denying that you've been acting like an ass. And what you did to Tommy- well you're just lucky Angelica was in a good mood today. Lil, I know you feel bad about what you did to all of us. But, you can't expect to just apologize and everything will be back to how it used to be. Look, Angelica and Tommy are going to be the obstacles here. What I suggest you do is get through Tommy first. That way he could talk to Angelica."
Before either one of them knew it, they were face to face with the entrance of the high school.
"Thanks, Chuckie." Lil said sincerely. As she went to go to her first period class, Chuckie said one last thing to her.
"And, Lil? No matter how many amends you make, it's never going to get back to how it used to be. You really screwed up this time. There's no turning back."
Chuckie went off to his class, leaving Lil standing alone in the middle of the hallway, thinking about the last words that he spoke to her.
