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To Look Again: Guilty

I feel guilty,

My words are empty,

No signs to give you,

I don't have the time for you,

You say I'm heartless,

And you say I don't care,

I used to be there for you,

And you've said I seem so dead, that I have changed,

But so have you,

Prue stood at the top of the staircase, her eyes transfixed on Piper's motionless body. Grams and Phoebe stood in the doorway, no one moved. Suddenly Grams sprung into action, she grabbed the telephone and dialled 911, whilst trying to manoeuvre herself into a position where she blocked Phoebe's view of Piper's body,

"Yes, I need an ambulance… my granddaughter, she fell down the stairs… no she's not conscious… yes she's breathing… ok… yes… ok, thank you," with that Grams hung up the telephone and darted back to Phoebe's side. "Phoebe, go and pack some of Piper clothes into a bag for her. Then go and make a sandwich for yourself, thank you honey," she smiled and kissed Phoebe's forehead, Phoebe done what she was told and headed upstairs immediately, stepping carefully over Piper's body.

Prue stood on the stairs, still not moving, hardly breathing… her eyes had still not moved from Piper's body. Slowly she sat down on the steps as she saw Grams running towards her out the corner of her eye. Grams sat down beside her and tried to put her arm around Prue, but she pulled away.

"Prue, what happened here? How did she fall?" asked Grams, but Prue remained silent, "Prue, please answer me… Prue!" said Grams, but still Prue didn't answer. One the outside she was quiet, but on the inside her mind was buzzing with thoughts.

Guilty, guilty I feel so,

Empty, empty you know how to make me feel,

Guilty, guilty I feel so,

Empty, empty you know how to make me feel,

Oh god, what have I done? Why couldn't I just have left her to storm away… how could I not have noticed what I'm doing to everyone around me… I've destroyed everything that I've every loved. How could I have been so selfish… why didn't I notice what was going on around me… how could I have missed so much. And now Piper's hurt, I've hurt the one person who cares for so much that she doesn't sleep at nights and she worries non-stop about me… how could I have been so stupid? I can't fix this… why can't I? How can I… its too hard…

On that thought Prue jumped off the stair and ran up to Piper's bedroom, she past Phoebe and on her way and bumped her out of the way. She ran swiftly into Piper's bedroom, once in she slammed the door and locked it. She threw herself onto the bed, and pulled Piper's pillow in close to her. She took a few deep breaths in attempt to hold back tears that she knew were forming. She heard sirens outside approaching her house; it was strange seeing things from this point of view. Suddenly she realised what Piper was seeing, how many times had Piper found her body and watched as the ambulance pulled out of the drive… watched as Prue had been carried out on a stretcher. How could I have been so stupid? I'm an idiot… she watched as Piper was carried out, and watched as Grams and Phoebe followed close behind… this is what Piper felt… she felt guilty for not protecting me… when I should have been protecting her but I wasn't… I just thought about myself and now I don't know what will happen to her. I didn't even check if she had a pulse or if she was breathing… I couldn't move, I couldn't breath… and I've put Piper through this so many times… what's wrong with me…

I put a shield upon you,

I didn't mean to hurt you,

I would have only poisoned your mind,

Never meant to make you cry,

You've been so thoughtless,

I can see right through you,

You used to be there for me,

Don't you leave say goodbye,

Cause you have changed but so have I…

Prue watched anxiously as the ambulance pulled out of the driveway and sped off into the night. She felt anger, frustration and pain building up inside her. Starting off slowly and lightly she began banging her fist again Piper's wardrobe, but within minutes she was hammering her fist against them but it still didn't hurt her. She began almost charging at it, throwing her small frame into the side of it. She banged herself off it one last time when she heard a crash inside, slowly she pulled the door open and looked around the wardrobe, her eyes fell towards the ground where she saw a battered old shoe box. Slowly she lifted it and its contents up and walked over to Piper's bed. She sat down and began fishing through the box, she lifted out photographs and Piper and herself as kids, and ticket stubs from movies they had seen. She lifted out a picture that she and Piper had painted together when they were younger, more photographs were lifted out with some more ticket stubs. Prue flicked through them, in all the photo's Prue had short sleeves on and a smiles spread across her face, slowly she saw a single tear drop onto the photo. She kept all this… because its before everything… when we were all perfectly happy, she kept everything… every movie we've ever been to since all this started, bus tickets, photo's, pictures, everything… Prue continued looking when she lifted out a handful of folded papers. She unfolded them and began to read the title lines on each one aloud,

"Stained By Piper Halliwell, Sidelines, Silent Nurse, The Fear… Temptations… by Piper Halliwell…" she continued to flick through them "Made it rain… there all poems… by Piper,"

Guilty, guilty I feel so,

Empty, empty you know how to make me feel,

Guilty, guilty I feel so,

Empty, empty you know how to make me feel,

I never thought that the time and the distance,

Between us made you so much colder,

I'll carry the world on my shoulders,

Guilty, guilty I feel so,

Empty, empty you know how to make me feel,

Guilty, guilty I feel so,

Empty, you know how to make me feel…

A/N: The song used in this fic was Guilty By The Rasmus. Also I hope everyone is enjoying reading this fic. Because I'm enjoying writing it and getting my feelings out about things so please keep with it. Witch x.