A/N: 'Ello again! Well, here's chapter two! glares even though I only got THREE reviews (glares at all the people who didn't review), I'm gonna still post this one because I'm cool. Yeah, you damn well better be grateful! Lol. So... I'm trying to extend my chapters... Plump them up a bit. Well, this one's rather dramatic and Sirius is really down in the dumps and seems sort of out of character, which I profusely apologise for, but he should be back to his old self fairly soon. Oh... and onto the reviewers...

NOCTURNAL007: Thanks for the okay! Glad you like it!

Amber Spirit: Thank you! (Even though I am far from perfect!)

EVILMWHAA HA HA HA HAA: Thanks! Yeah, I really love Sirius too. I just keep hoping that maybe he isn't dead... sniffle

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Disclaimer: Don't own it... wish I did, but sadly no...

Summary: Wow, Sirius is no longer a brainless git. Go figure. In his seventh year he falls for a girl named Mia. Problem is, Sirius' novelty has worn off for most girls and they have come to realise that he's really just an insecure boy. Mia can't trust him, so Sirius sets out on a journey to get her! (A/N: Sounds very much like a soap opera, no?) But can a worn down, emotionally distraught boy with an evil family constantly on his back win back the heart of his woman?

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"Sirius?"

Sirius rolled his eyes and sighed in frustration. Why did everyone insist on pestering him?

"Sirius?" The voice continued.

"Go away," he said crossly, his own voice startling him after almost a day of not using it. His normally bouncy voice was monotonous and hoarse.

What has this girl done to me?

"We're worried about you."

"James, I'm not in the-"

"But-"

"GO AWAY!" Sirius slammed himself back onto his bed, fuming.

The door clicked shut and he could hear the receding footsteps of his best friend.

He sighed and rolled out of bed.

Damn James and his ability to make me feel guilty, he thought irritably as he walked over to his wardrobe. He sucked in a breath of shock as his feet came in contact with the cold wooden floor.

He grabbed a towel from the top shelf of his armoire and headed into the bathroom. If he hurried, he could still make it to breakfast.

He stepped into the shower stall and turned the knob, letting the warm water rush over him like a warm breeze. He let his mind drift into daydreams as his muscles relaxed and he became calm...

Five minutes later found Sirius hurrying out of the portrait hole shaking his hair dry (much like a dog) as he hurried down to the Great Hall. He glowered at a pair of giggling first years standing outside of the portrait hole and they cowered in fear.

It had been two weeks since she had rejected him and he decided that starving himself was not going to get her to go out with him. But for once Sirius didn't have a plan to get the girl. This one was different.

He had generally been skipping dinner and breakfast though, but unfortunately James had forced him to come out of his hiding spot. As much as he hated him for it, James was right.

He hurried through the doorway of the hall and quickly strode to where his group of friends were sitting, ignoring the whispers and pitying looks of many females. One exceptionally emotionally young woman had tears brimming in her eyes. They became a torrent of tears when Sirius snorted in contempt. He supposed he should be sorry, but these stupid people were just intruding on his personal life. The story had spread around Hogwarts quickly and avid gossipers still found the whole event quite fascinating.

James looked up in surprise, his brown eyes behind his wire glasses widening slightly. "How mice of you to join us mate. Eggs?"

Sirius shook his head, purposefully allowing his long black hair to fall over his right eye in order to ignore the girl staring at him from across the table two seats down. The idea of looking into her eyes would be just too painful to risk.

Her light brown hair was braided into pigtails that framed her delicate face. Her dark eyes seemed almost black and Sirius could feel them burn into him. Her hands drummed on the table, a nervous, but endearing, habit that Sirius had discovered from watching her on several occasions.

"It's alright," whispered the pale boy with brown hair next to Sirius.

"Thanks Remus, but it doesn't help." He and the pudgy boy on the other side of him smiled sympathetically at Sirius, which he pointedly ignored.

He took a piece of toast and began to nibble on it half heartedly, all the while trying not to think about the beautiful girl not too far away from him. She, at the time, was looking at him fiercely, as if yearning for him and hating him at the same time.

"Calm down Mia," James said under his breath. "That look is so evil it just might kill him, and I don't want my best friend dead." Mia muttered something under her breath. James leaned closer to Mia and whispered, "I doubt that you'd want him dead either, for certain purposes."

Mia's face blushed crimson.

Meanwhile, on his left, Lily laid her hand on his thigh and squeezed it affectionately. "I'm glad to see you down here. And I'm almost sad to say that I miss your huge appetite as well."

Sirius smiled weakly, but before he could make his half hearted reply a familiar swoosh could be heard all around the dining hall.

Owls.

Sirius jumped in surprise when an owl landed on his empty plat. For a moment a look of curiosity and wonder wreathed his face, but it was quickly replaced by one of loathing.

"Jeremy," he said darkly, referring to his parent's owl. "And with a howler no less."

Resignedly, he pulled the crimson letter from the bird's talons. With an almost bored look on his face, he opened it. However composed he was on the surface, his heart was racing and his insides contorted with anger. He thought that he might have finally been free from his parents once he ran away, but that was obviously only wishful thinking on his part.

Everyone clapped their hands over their ears as the dining hall filled with the screeching of Sirius' mother,

"YOU IDIOT! YOUR FATHER AND I HAVE JUST GOTTEN NEWS OF YOUR LATEST SCANDAL! GETTING DENIED BY A MUDBLOOD? FIRST OF ALL, YOU HAVE SHAMED THE FAMILY EVEN MORE GREATLY BY FALLING IN LOVE WITH THAT HALF BREED IN THE FIRST PLACE!"

Mia flushed a deep scarlet at this and buried her face in her hands. Sirius' face showed no emotion, but Lily saw the hurt in his eyes and took his hand. James and Remus seemed too stunned to react.

"AND TO GET DENIED BY HER? THAT'S PATHETIC! AT LEAST YOU COULD HAVE THE SKILL TO GET THE GIRL. I MEAN, YOU'VE SLEPT WITH NEARLY EVERY GIRL IN THE SCHOOL, WHY NOT HER?"

Mia lifted her hands from her face and looked at Sirius coldly. He accidentally looked over at her, and the hate in her eyes nearly broke his heart. He quickly buried his head in Lily's robes.

Over his back, Lily threw a scathing look at Mia while mouthing, 'Now you've gone and done it.'

Mia looked coldly back at her. So what if she hurt his feelings (not that he had any)? He was just some womanizer who only wanted her for her body, anyway...

Then why did she feel so guilty?

"AND TO THINK THAT WE WERE HAVING SECOND THOUGHTS ABOUT DISOWNING YOU! I'M GLAD WE DID, AND NOT A MOMENT TOO SOON! WE SHOULD HAVE DONE THAT YEARS AGO!"

Sirius' grip on Lily's hand became viselike and her eyes began to water, but not because of his grip. Remus was patting Sirius on the shoulder, pleading him not to do anything stupid. Mia, by this time, was looking up in shock and pity at Sirius.

"CONSIDER THIS YOUR FINAL WORD FROM US AND YOUR FINAL DISGRACE! AT LEAST WE STILL HAVE YOUR BROTHER TO SUPPORT US!"

Over at the Slytherin table, Regulus grinned stupidly, as if he had won the lottery. Though that was understandable, since praise from their parents did not come to them very often.

"YOU'RE A DISGRACE TO THE FAMILY! I HOPE I NEVER SEE OR HEAR OF YOU AGAIN YOU POOR EXCUSE FOR A BLACK!"

The hall was silent for a few moments, waiting to see what Sirius' reaction would be. He seemed not to hear, the only giveaway was the hand under the table. It had gone limp and was shaking as Lily soothingly stroked it.

Mia looked at Sirius with a stricken face. "I- I'm so sorry."

That seemed to break Sirius and his sadness quickly evolved into anger. "I DON'T WANT YOUR PITY!" He shouted and stormed out of the dining hall.

After a few moments the talking began again, but it was very subdued.

Lily got up. "I'll go after him." James looked as if he would argue, but nodded. Lily did always seem to have a calming effect on Sirius.

Meanwhile, Mia was crying quietly, her face buried in her hands. James, being the closest to her, reached over and pulled her into a hug. "It's alright. Shh, it's okay..."

She looked up at him. "No it's not. He obviously hates me," she sobbed and burst into a fresh wave of tears.

Remus looked at James in astonishment. "No he doesn't. Far from it."

"He's just a little worked up at the moment," James said wryly, "and being a big strong man, he just couldn't take any pity."

"I'm sorry I'm so stupid." Mia wiped off her tears with the back of her sleeve.

"It's not your fault," James said softly. "He doesn't tell a lot of people about... his life before Hogwarts."

Mia nodded sadly. "I guess he would have told me if I had gone out with him. Guess it's a bit late for that."

"Not quite," said Remus with a quick grin towards James.

"Far from it," counter James, matching Remus' smile.

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"Sirius, don't be stupid. Just let me in. I know you're in there," Lily begged through the closed door. She pressed her ear against it, but heard nothing. "Please?"

She heard a soft muttering and suddenly the door opened. The room was dark and she stood for a moment after closing the doors, allowing her eyes to adjust.

The room had no windows and was lit only by a single candle. The room was completely bare and Sirius was huddled in a little ball in the far corner.

Lily walked over to him and put her arms around him. "It's okay. You're parents are horrible, but you're gone from them now. You're living with James and once you graduate you'll never need them again."

She waited for a reply, but there was none. "You can start a new life without them. I'm like your sister... We're family now."

Sirius looked up at her and let out a soft sigh. To her surprise his eyes were red rimmed from crying.

"Oh, my darling," she cried pulling his face so it rest on her shoulder, "I'm so sorry."

Sirius let out a moan. "I know that I'm going to start a new life," he said softly, "but I'll never be rid of them. Even though they disowned me, they've still been contacting me."

Lily pulled away from him. "How?"

Sirius sat up straight and stretched out his legs before he continued. "About once every week they send me a letter inviting me to come to some Death Eater meeting or another. Or my brother Regulus comes and talks to me. But it's all very formal. It's as if I'm just some distant friend of theirs that's hated, but deemed necessary."

Lily looked shocked. "So your parents are-"

"Death Eaters? Yes." He looked at Lily's face again and let out a small sigh. His face became pained as he drew up his sleeve. "It's all clear."

Lily sighed in relief. "I trusted you, I just..."

She stopped at the look on his face. "I'm sorry. But haven't you told anyone about the notes?"

Sirius looked irked. "Of course! But they all have untraceable charms on them so they never have firm proof that they sent it. And lord knows Dumbledore has chased after them, but they always manage to slip away."

He slammed his fist down on the stone floor and cursed quietly.

"Look, I know you don't want my pity or anyone else's," Lily intoned softly, "But I am really sorry of what you had to go through. But I'm really glad you made the right choice and that you're here... with us."

Sirius smiled softly. "Yeah, me too."

Lily hugged him again. "So why couldn't you take that from Mia?" She knew she was taking a gamble, and she was just hoping that Sirius wouldn't blow up on her.

"I don't know," he admitted. "I just kind of snapped. Because she rejected me before, of course. But it just seemed that if I asked her out now, she would say yes just because she felt bad for me. And I couldn't stand that."

"But what if she said yes for another reason?"

"Why would she?" Sirius' face looked defiant. "Nothing else has changed."

"Except you," Lily said quietly. So quietly, in fact, that Sirius was not sure that it had really been Lily saying it, or a voice in his head.

"Want to go back to the common room?"

Sirius took a deep breath. "Yeah, I guess I'm ready."

Lily smiled. "Good, because James and Remus looked as if they might have heart attacks, they were so worried about you."

Sirius smiled again. "Thank you for being such good friends."

"What are friends for?" Lily asked rhetorically, giving him a quick kiss on the cheek.

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"Sirius!" Cried James and Remus simultaneously as Sirius stepped through the portrait hole. From behind him, Lily gave the boys a warning look.

James smile flickered slightly, but persisted nonetheless. "So... I'm glad Lily found you. She wouldn't let any of us after you. Just contempt for men, eh Lils?"

Lily grinned and rolled her eyes. "Just for you, Jamsie." She smiled in triumph when he winced at the use of his hate pet name.

"Ok, lovers-"

"Remus!" Lily and James shouted at the same time.

"Ok," Remus continued, not missing a beat, "I think that we should break this up and head up to bed."

James eyes flickered over to the corner before he nervously made a reply. "U- uh yeah. Let's be doing that now."

Lily looked at both of them oddly, but said nothing. Instead, she peered over towards the corner. He mouth dropped open in surprise and she let out a soft hiss of air.

"What was that, Lily darling?" Sirius asked tiredly, not really paying attention to any of the goings-on.

"Er, nothing," she stammered.

He looked at her oddly. "Why are you all acting so strange?" He demanded.

"No reason."

"No reason at all." James' voice came out slightly higher than usual and he adjusted his glasses nervously.

"James?" Sirius' voice became sharper. "I know that nervous habit of yours when you fidget with your glasses. Now what's up?"

James gulped. "Er. Well, there." He pointed toward the corner.

Sirius looked down his finger and scowled.

"I'm going to bed now."

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A/N: What did Sirius see in the corner that made him scowl? Find out next time... But you gotta review first! I'm expecting 10 reviews before the next chapter goes up!!!

Oh, and just to clear things up, I know Lily and Sirius seem kind of close, but they're just friends. There will be an eventual Lily James pairing, but that won't really be the focus, you know? Get it? Got it? Good.