Butterfly wings
Disclaimer: roses are red, violets are blue, I don't own Harry, so you do not sue.
Chapter eight
James walked carefully into the dark room were the from of a sleeping Lily lay in his bed. With a sigh he placed the Murlap essence on the bedside table. I don't know why I'm even here, the jealous voice in James' head said she doesn't give a dam. But you do, the reasonable side answered. James brushed a stray curl from Lily's pale, bruised cheek. Seeing her laying there made him sick. Now only because someone wanted to hurt her, but because James should have realized it earlier. She never went home other than at summer vacation, she never got any mail, Christmas gifts or family visits, he'd never seen her family at the platform, she never talked of them, ever and every day on the first day of school she came back with a bruise or a black eye, or in second year, a broken arm. He'd always assumed she got into a fight or fell down the stairs, but Lily normally didn't seem clumsy…
A soft moan broke James' train of thought. Glancing downward James noticed Lily was awake. He dabbed the essence on the gash by her hair as her eyelashes fluttered open.
"After yesterday I didn't think you'd be back," she weekly replied.
"You can't keep me away that easily" He said, putting on a false smile, making a poor attempt to disguise his anguish.
Lily smiled weakly and tried to sit up. With a gasp he clapped a hand on her bruised and broken ribs and fell back on the pillow, lips pursed in a tight line. James abandoned cleaning her numerous cuts to pull up her shirt to look at her ribs.
"I'm fine James" Lily lied tugging her shirt down again
"Your lying through your teeth' James retorted
"I'm–I'm fine" Lily persisted.
Ignoring the latest protest he lifted her shirt to expose her rib cage. Not only was her ribs its own Technicolor rainbow but one broken rib had punctured her skin and was bleeding profusely.
"Why didn't you tell me?" James cried as he conjured up bandages to cover her latest wound.
"I didn't want to worry you" she meekly replied.
"Oh don't worry I wouldn't be worried. You only don't contact me for three weeks, turn up on my doorstep bruised and broken with no explanation of how you got that way, lie about ribs sticking out of your skin, push me away the one time you actually need me and lie bluntly to the one person you should trust! Don't worry Lily I wouldn't worry" James shouted venomously.
"I'm sorry," she whimpered softly
"That does a lot," James maliciously snapped.
"Don't you see? This is why I couldn't tell you. I knew you'd react like this" Lily said quietly, tears forming in her eyes.
"I wouldn't react like this if I knew what happened to you! If you would just tell me god dam it!" James bellowed as he stood up, his six feet frame towering over her frail body.
"I'm sorry" Lily cried so soft he could barely hear her, tears falling from her bright eyes as she cowered before him, "I'm so sorry"
James' rage faded fast as he saw her before him, afraid of him, of what he became. Looking at himself he wanted to throw up. What the hell was he doing! Turning his back on Lily he left the room. Closing the door behind him he leaned against the wall, whatever he did was the wrong thing, but to do nothing at all was worse. James sank to the floor; he would give anything, anything at all to be anyone else but him. His heart felt like it was put through that muggle contraption the bender or something like that, mulched up till it was barely recognizable.
"Fuck" He said, His head tilted back to the wall "Fuck"
"Podmore discovered more proof behind the rumors Padfoot" Remus whispered to Sirius that night, "Should we tell James?"
"There's no need to worry him yet, there only rumors." Sirius insisted.
"But after yesterdays meeting of the Order…"Remus trailed off
"There still wasn't enough proof to worry James yet." Sirius persisted
"This is really serious, its his life were talking about here " Remus cried
"He's my friend to you know, but he has enough on his mind right now, with Lily and all. Or do you not remember our discussion the day Lily…arrived?"
"Yes Sirius I remember, I just don't want him to get hurt." Remus quietly said before walking in from the porch.
"Nether do I Remus. Nether do I." Sirius commented to the starry night sky.
Ok its kind of a short chapter but I have to finish my philosophy paper for Monday so its as good as its gonna get right now. Speaking of homework I have some for you…my reader dear…it's (you guessed it) REVIEW TIME!!! If you wanna find out
A) What Sirius and Remus were talking about (I gave you hints but there's more than what's there right now)
B) More about Lily's abusive dad, druggie mom, runaway sister and dead brother
C) More Remus and Tonks lovie dovie stuff
D) What James is going to do about Lily
E) QUIDDITCH!
F) Of course com L&J love
G) And last but not least engagement
H) Marriage if I get enough reviews
I) Baby Harry if I get even more
J) And there untimely demise if I get oodles
Alright so review review review please and make Prongsies a very happy writer…
-Prongsies