disclaimer: don't own wwe or jeff hardy

a/n: there are mentions of suicide

a/n: this is set 7 months after ryder left and around the time jeff left the wwe

Ryder got up to answer the phone. "Hello?"

"Hey rye, how are ya?"

"I'm good except for looking like a big fat whale" she heard Shawn laugh at the other end of the phone. "It isn't funny, I can't see my feet".

"Well you'll look as good as new soon"

"Hopefully. So how are things at your end?" She heard Shawn sigh at her question. "What's happened?"

"Jeff got released"

"So what's the real news?"

"Ryder don't be like that"

"Shawn not now I gotta go" with that she put the phone down. Shawn was the only one she had kept in touch with regularly; she also talked to Nora now and again. Celeste then came in with the shopping. "What you got for me?"

4 months later in Canada:

"I'm telling you jay, he's getting worse, I don't know what to do" matt said sadly. Jay came over and sat next to him.

"He'll be ok, he just needs time off to relax and gather himself" matt looked at jay.

"You've been ready to many agony aunt columns" matt said with a grin.

"Only five" matt rolled his eyes. Jay left for his match and matt was left in the locker room alone. There was a knock at the door and Nora came in.

"Hi matt, is Amy here?"

"No, she's with Vince talking about a storyline. I need your help Nora" Nora sat down next to him.

"What can I do for ya?" She replied.

"Ryder"

"Huh?"

"I know you still talk to her" Nora looked around the room, trying not to look him in the eye.

"No I don't"

"Nora you can't lie" matt said. Nora looked at him and sighed.

"Fine, why'd you need her?"

"Jeff, he's out of control"

"Matt I can talk to her but she probably won't be able to travel for a while and she's as stubborn as Jeff" with that she left.

The wwe was in England touring so Shawn and Nora were staying with Ryder. Nora was playing with phoenix while Shawn and Ryder were in the kitchen.

"She's beautiful" Shawn said referring to phoenix.

"I know, just like me" Ryder said.

"Na you're not that good" Ryder playfully hit him.

"Nora said matt is worried about him"she said softly. Shawn looked at his hands.

"He's been into hospital three times"

"Why?" Shawn saw the panic in her eyes.

"He tried to commit suicide" Shawn said softly. Ryder broke into tears and Shawn held her.

"He needs you rye" Nora said from the doorway. Ryder looked at Shawn and he nodded.

a/n: tell what you think, and if i should carry on?