disclaimer: don't own jeff or wwe

a/n: phoenix is ryder and jeffs daughter that jeff doesn't know about yet

a/n2: sorry if there's any spelling mistakes

Ryder looked at the sign, 'welcome to Cameron'. She couldn't believe she was going back. Celeste had come back with her so she could help look after phoenix. They got off the bus and went to the hotel.

"You going to see him today?" Celeste asked. Ryder shook her head.

"No, I'm not ready to face him yet" Ryder reply picking up phoenix to put her to bed.

The next day Ryder got up and got a cab to mr.hardy's house. She wanted to turn round and run away but she knew she had to do this. She knocked on the door and waited for an answer.

"Hello, may I help you?" Ryder smiled.

"Hey, it's me Ryder" she said a little unsure of herself.

"What a nice surprise, come in sweetie and I'll get you a drink" Ryder walked in and looked around. It all looked the same.

"Here you go, I nice cold drink of lemonade"

"Thanks" they sat down and he looked at her seriously.

"So what brings you here?" He knew why she was there really.

"Jeff, is he really bad as Shawn said?" She asked softly.

"I'm afraid so, I'm afraid I'm going to lose him if he gets any worse" Ryder saw the pain in his face.

"Where is he right now?"

"His house, Matthew is round there keeping a close eye on him" he replied.

"Um I think I should go and, you know" Ryder said awkwardly. She got up and thanked Mr. Hardy for the drink and went to Jeff's house.

She knocked on the door and matt answered.

"Nora told me you needed me" she said plainly. Matt just hugged her tightly.

"I missed ya rye" she smiled. Once she was inside she saw how cold the place looked. This wasn't how she knew the place; it used to ooze with life.

"Where is he?"

"In his room, he only comes down for food and hardly eats any of that" Ryder nodded then started to walk up stairs. "You sure?" Matt asked from the bottom of the stairs. She nodded then continued her way to Jeff's room. She knocked gently and opened the door. She saw him lying on the bed pretending to be asleep, but she knew he wasn't by the way he was breathing. She slowly walked over and sat on the edge of the bed and looked at him. He looked dreadful, you could see his cheekbones on his thin face and he looked so fragile. He even hadn't shaved like he used to.

"You can open your eyes, I'm not matt" she said. Jeff opened his eyes and looked at her. He reached up and touched her hair that was now long, straight and back to dark brown.

"It looks nice" he said hoarsely. He sat up and looked at her. "Why you here?" He then said coldly.

"To help you"

"I don't need help"

"You do!"

"No I don't! So why don't you just leave!"

"If you don't need help then why'd you try and kill yourself!?" She screamed at him. She held back her tears. She wanted to be strong so she could help him be strong.

"Because I wasn't needed, I have nothing to live for!" He said as he started to cry. She sat back down next to him.

"You do" she said softly as she held his hand to comfort him.

"Like what?"

"Our daughter"

a/n: ok i myself wasn't really pleased with this chapter, so sorry if it was crap. tell me what you think of the story so far