The Life of Master Remus J Lupin

by Erin10

Summer before Remus's last year, but he's having a rough summer. He's beaten and disowned by his father, and the death of his brother is beginning to look suspicious, how exactly did Romulus die? Lily and Remus are a couple, except no one else knows! RR

1. Default Chapter

The Life of Master Remus J. Lupin – By Erin

Disclaimer : - Most of this belongs to the wonderful JK Rowling, but anything you don't recognise I do own. I am making no profit from this. Anastacia owns the lyrics.

Chapter one: - Disowned and Neglected

Life doesn't promise a bed of roses
Or white knights
Fields of emotions I'm trapped in darkness
Why me
Save me
To win this twisted war inside me
Won't justify the pain
Life doesn't promise a bed of roses

Lightening strikes the pages keep on turning
Help me to be strong
I'm floating in a sea of strange believers
Where do I belong?

They paint a picture of perfect nowhere blue skies
Within every lie there's a web of comfort
For them
Not me
To win this twisted war inside me
Won't justify the pain
They paint you a picture of perfect nowhere

I said now
Lightening strikes the pages keep on turning
Help me to be strong
I'm floating in a sea of strange believers
Where do I belong?

Where do we go from here?
I wish I would disappear
I'm a lonely soul
So far from home

A young man with light brown hair and deep brown honey colour eyes strode up the hill that would take him to Potter Manor. He grimaced slightly; it wasn't so much a manor as it was a mansion. His friends lived a comfortable life, however they had yet to realise it, although Remus pondered Sirius probably did, after all he had run away from home and without the Potters sympathy he would now be living on the streets. He reached the wrought iron gates and opened them, checking his clothes for a second time. His black t-shirt was considerably worn, but still looked quite respectable and his jeans had the custom hole in one of the knees, the muggle fashion apparently, according to Crystal anyway.

He walked up the path looking for his two friends. James Potter and Sirius Black sat in front of a tent, Sirius's residence for the summer. Remus smiled softly, The Potters had offered Sirius a room in the manor however Sirius's pride would not allow him to take it. Old man Potter had respected that though and encouraged his wife to invite him in for his meals.

"Oi Moony!" Sirius bellowed, "Well come on! Welcome to my humble abode!" James grinned and elbowed Sirius. "Keep the noise down, you don't want to be evicted!"

Sirius laughed, his dark eyes twinkled mischievously, "Is that a threat Mr. Prongs?" He asked seriously, "It is if you bellow in my ear one more time Padfoot." Sirius looked at him sheepishly, Remus looked at them both amused.

"How the job going Remus?" Sirius asked passing him a butterbeer. Remus smiled, "Not bad, one of the other bar men, Jermyn invited me to a party last night. It was quite amusing, down near the cove." He told them. They looked at him in horror, "A party and you didn't invite us? I'm offended Remmy." Sirius told him softly. Remus's smile faded. He looked at them pointedly, "You don't know the first thing about muggles, and you wouldn't fit in Sirius." He told him.

James raised his eyebrow, "You know that I know about muggles." He deadpanned, Remus squirmed, "James, trust me when I tell you that you wouldn't fit in." Sirius looked at him. "Why not Remus? If you can then I'm sure we will."

Remus shook his head, "No Padfoot, you wouldn't. You don't live the lives they live… trust me when I tell you it would get ugly pretty quickly."

James stood up and shook his head, "This is about money isn't it?" He asked frowning. Remus nodded, "Mostly yes, but as I say they live a different life to you. To them you live the life of Royalty in comparison to their mega hovels of homes."

Sirius crossed his arms, "Really? Enlighten us Remus because we don't seem to understand." Remus shook his head.

"Everyone who goes to the cove knows how it feels to live in hard times, and I don't mean though the bloody war Sirius… I mean without money, without schooling, without parents, they work every hour of the day for a pittance of money that barely keeps a roof over their heads. Many of them have been abused, they are lower than the low, and they can barely life their heads from the gutters. No one trusts them; even to other muggles they are vermin. This is why you won't fit in, because you don't understand that, because you've never lost someone you loved, you have never had a job." He finished solemnly knowing that they still wouldn't understand.

Sirius looked at him sceptically, "And why do you fit in? Your just like us!" He told Remus offended. Remus smiled sadly and shook his head. "No Padfoot, I may be a wizard but we are nothing alike." His eyes glittered. "Then show us! We can't understand if you always block us out Moony!" Sirius said angrily. Remus knew what he was talking about, he had never once invited them to his home, they hadn't ever met his family with the exception of Romulus and that didn't even bare thinking about.

"I can't Sirius… it wouldn't solve anything and I don't need your pity." Remus told him, his voice breaking slightly. James looked at him sadly, he couldn't bare that look.

"Good because I don't pity you!" Sirius shouted at him gripping his shoulders. Remus flinched, "If I invited you to my house you would, and you reaction wouldn't help Sirius. I know how quick you both are to get angered. Please leave it be." He said tiredly. Sirius eyed him, "I'll leave it for today but this isn't over." Remus smiled gratified, he sat down. "Thank you."

He chanced a look at James, something glittered in his eyes, Remus was sure he was planning something but what?

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"Get up you lazy half breed!" His father bellowed, Remus groaned. Thankfully he had today off. He had worked the day away yesterday, with hardly any breaks. His muscles ached with the physical labour and his head pounded from the lack of sleep. Sleepily he opened his eyes and quickly dressed. He looked at his calender; it would be a full moon tomorrow night. Grimly he walked downstairs into the kitchen.

He stood frozen in shock; James, Sirius and Lily sat at the table. He inwardly groaned. This was not going to be good. "Good morning Remmy." Lily smiled at him; he couldn't help but smile back.

"I don't know why you lavish you attention on him girl, he's done nothing to deserve it!" His father snapped, "Now stop slacking boy and make my breakfast… I have to meet Opulous Malfoy in an hour." Remus did as he was bayed and began to cook.

Lily stood up and stopped him, "You look half dead Remus, sit down and I'll make your fathers breakfast." She ordered. Remus looked at her and shook his head and whispered, "Don't it'll only make my old man angry and they'll be hell to pay when you leave." Her smile faltered and she sat down quickly. Ten minutes later they all sat at the breakfast table when the door opened. Remus groaned slightly, his mother would choose today to leave her bedroom

"Romulus? Where's my boy?" She pointed a withered finger at Remus. "Where is he?" She asked sternly, "He's dead!" Snapped his father; Remus winced at the harsh tone. She looked at Remus, "Its all your fault!" She screeched, "You killed him! Why him! Why my bright little boy? It should have been you!" She shouted poking him in the chest. His friends sat at the table frozen in shock. She stated to hit Remus in the chest and he allowed her. "He's gone and it's all your fault! It should have been you! Why couldn't you have died instead?" She cried slumping to the floor. "I know." He said softly picking her up and leaving the room.

He walked up the stairs and placed her in her bed. Pulling the covers over her he bent down and kissed her forehead. She recoiled still crying and murmuring. Remus walked into the kitchen, he noticed his father had left. He sat down heavily, "Are you all quite satisfied now?" He asked in a bitter tone. "Why couldn't you let it go when I asked?" To be honest he felt like crying, but he wouldn't.

"Because we care Remus." Lily told him, he looked at them annoyed, "I believe its about time for you to go, you've meddled enough today." His tone was sharp; Sirius was about to protest when Lily stopped him. "Your right Remus, we have, but sometimes… Sometimes Remmy meddling is needed, especially from those who care, and we care for you a lot." She smiled brightly, and placed her hand on his shoulders, whispering in his ear, "If you ever need to get away you will always be more than welcome at my house, my mother thinks your charming." She broke away squeezing his shoulder, "And don't be a stranger." With that she dragged the other two boys from the house.

Remus slumped in his chair, his father would be livid tonight, and as always he would have to bare the brunt of the mans anger.

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"Why did you do that?" Sirius shouted at the red head, "Something's not right! Don't you realise his brother's dead, he never mentioned that to us did he and we only met him last year! And his father! What a bigoted, mean bastard! He could almost put my family to shame!" He ranted; Lily scowled her emerald eyes narrowing.

"Do you take me for a fool Sirius? Don't you think I know all of that? I have eyes too, I saw exactly what you saw, and I am competent enough to put two and two together! Remus did not want us there, we interfered enough, don't you realise that we may have pushed him too far? By the looks of it we are all he has, and I would hope to high heaven that he'll still come to us when he needs help!" She spun around and looked at James accusingly.

"This is all your fault! For a person with such a high level of intelligence you can be remarkably dim-witted! You should have read the signs, and left him well alone. He would have come to you eventually and opened up to you, but you had to push him didn't you?" She snapped at him, his eyes grew wide.

"Oh don't you start on me! I didn't drag you here, you came with us freely! You're as much to blame as we are! You and your curiosity! You agreed that the trip was necessary! You're just angry because you feel helpless, because it didn't work out like you expected? Did you expect Remmy to throw his arms around you and thank you? To throw a parade in your honour? And you call me stupid!" He sneered.

A resounding crack echoed through the empty bus station, as Lily slapped James hard across the cheek. "Don't you dare presume to tell me what I feel James Potter! I thought you were both man enough to except the consequences of your actions! Don't you dare pass the blame to me, you both cooked up this little outing and it backfired big time! Scurry home now children, isn't it time you were both home and safely tucked up in bed?" She shrieked. They looked at her mortified, James's right cheek had inflamed and he did his best not to let the hurt show.

"Oh don't you bloody worry Evans! We're going!" He said coolly, "And as for passing the blame, why would I need to? There more than enough to go around." He strode briskly to the road and checked for muggles, seeing none he held his wand out and the day bus appeared.

"Hello and welcome to the day bus for any witch or wizard stranded. I will be your conductor this morning, the names Kieran Shunpike. How may I be of service?" Without a backwards glance towards Lily he entered the bus leaving Sirius to follow in his wake. Sirius glared at Lily angrily, and followed his friend.

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Remus looked at the kitchen, he had finished the housework and the gardening. All that was left was to cook the dinner, he grimaced, and his father would be home soon.

Remus became so intent upon his task that he didn't hear the door open behind him. A tutting noise startled him and he span around warily, what he didn't see was a large beefy fist bare down to strike his chin before it was too late. The impact of the punch brought tears into his eyes, he grunted falling back into the work surface.

"What the devil did you mean by it werewolf? A mudblood, a traitor and everyone's favourite little golden boy in my house? Do you have no shame? Isn't it enough that you drove your mother to insanity? That you caused your brothers death? But now you want to drag the Lupin name into the mud? You've already tarnished the name with your vile condition!" He bellowed, his spittle flying onto Remus's face.

"I didn't invite them here father." Remus told him quietly, tensed with anticipation. Another fist slammed into his face, this time he knew he would have a black eye by morning. The silver ring burned his flesh, he felt agony beyond words, but he knew there was more to come.

"I am not your father, I renounce you and everything you are. Do you know what Opulous and I did at the Ministry today? We drafted out a legislation that will later be passed on to the minister. The legislation contains a sanction against your kind. A mere muggle was Hitler, although some of his work was promising, by this time next year your kind will be locked up in concentration camps and good riddance to the lot of you." His speech followed a fury of punches into Remus's chest, the boy fell to the floor, his father kicked him in the face, and the silver buckles marred his face with welts and burns. He tried to shy away from the silver knowing that if it contaminated his blood enough he would die. After a while his father stopped, his anger spent.

"You are to gather your things, I want you out of the house and away from my family. You are no longer a Lupin, you are stripped of the family's inheritance, and you leave in disgrace. Is that clear?" The harsh tones grated on Remus's conscious.

His chest felt heavy, he tried to pull himself up from the floor but failed. His father yanked him up from the floor using his collar. He dragged him to his room, throwing him on the bed. "Pack!" He snapped. Remus flinched and tried to do as he was commanded. Somehow he managed to pack his belongings, he cast a shrinking and weightless spell on his trunk and he stumbled out of the house, and into the darkness.

Authors note: -

I have 20 more pages written. What do you think? Please R/R – Next you'll find out what happened to Romulus, and there will be a full moon. What will poor Remmy do?

Erin