I love regular updates, don't you?I don't know how I'm going to manage this once I go back to school, and am writing "A New Titan". But I'll manage it somehow, I always do find a way. After all, I did manage to update my old stories three times in an hour. What was I thinking? Anyways, I must warn you. There probably isn't going to be much RaeRob stuff in this story, though it does focus on them. It's going to be a lot of jacked up relationships in one story, should be fun! So read on I suppose... and review.

I do not own Teen Titans.

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Chapter 2: Easier Said Than Done

Raven's View

Raven woke up to an unusually loud radio station. It was blaring the song "My Paper Heart". She quickly jumped up and hit the snooze, needing some time to think to herself. The night had been one full of difficulties. She had barely been able to sleep at all, not getting to bed until nearly three a.m. And here she was, just five hours later, wide awake somehow.

Raven tossed and turned, trying to get comfortable, but she just couldn't. She was hot, her head hurt, and she couldn't get that one thing out of her mind. 'Robin'. Raven shook the thought away, or tried to at least. Lately, Robin had been the only thing on her mind, and it was driving her insane. True, she had always had a thing for Robin since they met over a year ago. He was good looking for one. But that wasn't what caught her.

Robin was calm, controlled. Something Raven had always wanted herself. Control was a big issue for her at times. But that wasn't the only thing that Raven liked about him. Robin cared about her, like he cared about all of the Titans. He understood what people were going through, and was always there to help when she needed it, though she rarely excepted a helping hand. Raven shut her eyes in an attempt to fall asleep, knowing that she would have to face those quiet moments alone with Robin in the kitchen if she got up.

She could hear the distant clink of what sounded like dishes, perhaps being washed by Robin right now after an early breakfast. Raven debated getting up right then, and telling the Boy Wonder of her growing like for him. But she couldn't, what if he rejected her? Raven doubted that rejection was something she could take at a time like this, when she was feeling so alone. With Terra gone, everyone else seemed to latch onto someone. Beast Boy and Cyborg started to hang out more and more, and Starfire practically had Robin on a leash half of the time. It was a sickening sight.

Finally, Raven got out of bed, flipping of the covers and kicking her legs over the side. She slipped on her boots over her cold bare feet and stood up, yawning quietly as she did so. Raven was just about out the door when she noticed that her cloak wasn't on. She quickly threw it on and pulled up the hood, wanting to hide herself from Robin as usual.

Raven entered the living room and found the TV already on, the news showing there had been a break out at the mental home. She stopped listening after that, not wanting to hear about what psycho they would have to stop next. Robin was at the sink, his back to Raven as he washed the dishes. She sat down at the table quietly and observed him, enjoying how he acted, even while washing the dishes he managed to somehow make her feel good. She sighed.

Robin turned around at the noise, looking slightly shocked. "I should have figured that it was you," Robin said, his paranoid look fading. Raven held back smiling at his cute face. "Considering that I'm the only Titan, besides you, that gets up before ten... yeah," She trailed off. An awkward silence followed, in which Raven absentmindedly counted the amount of pots and pans in the sink.

"You want something to eat? Or drink? I could whip something up right now, I really wouldn't mind," Robin said, pulling her out of the trance. "No thank you. I can just make some tea, you're doing enough already," Raven replied and got up to help herself to the cupboards. She nervously grabbed the tea kettle from the sink and placed it on the stove, and then gathered the rest of the things that she needed.

After setting up the tea, she reached across the sink to grab a clean cup already on the drying rack. She froze. Robin, who wasn't looking, had gone for a dish and grabbed her hand that was in the way. "Er..." She managed before Robin looked back down. He quickly let her hand go, which fell in the water. Raven didn't notice, she was to shocked about being touched by him, even if it was on accident. Robin blushed. "Sorry," He mumbled to her and stepped back. Raven grabbed a cup quickly and shuffled away, drying her hand on her cloak as she did so.

Her heart seemed to be beating a mile a minute. She could feel her neck pounding, and quickly checked her heart rate. It had to be going at at least 140 beats per minute. Raven let out a few deep breaths, savoring what had just happened. It made her remember so much, just the times that they had touched, those rare moments. Most of them were in battle of course, but those still were exhilarating. It had been just a few weeks earlier that she had been struck by Jinx while fighting the H.I.V.E, and Robin had helped her up, making her heart speed up even more than it had during the battle.

Raven closed her eyes and thought back some more. When she had lost her powers and made the creatures from "Wicked Scary" come to life. She had fallen down a long elevator shaft, and Robin had caught her, saving her life. Raven smiled slightly at the memory, almost feeling the warmth of Robin's arm around her waist that night.

'I think he needs to know' She thought to herself, staring at Robin as he dried the last dish. Raven got up nervously and walked over to him. She stopped next to him, letting out a shocked noise as he turned towards her, almost running her down. "Oh hey Raven, what's up?" Robin asked her, sounding surprised to see her so close. She backed up slightly, feeling even more nervous that she was within a three foot distance. "I have to tell you something," Raven said and bit her lip. "Sure," Robin said and went to the table, where he sat down. She sat down across from him.

"Listen... Ever since I've joined this team I've been..." She trailed off again. Robin stared blankly at her, his mouth hanging open slightly. 'Does he know?' Raven thought. "It's just that you've been- and you're always- it's just," She kept changing what she was saying, feeling not like herself at all. 'Calm down!' She told herself angrily. "What is it Raven? You can tell me anything you know," Robin said to her. Raven looked up at him, his expression as serious as could be. "Thanks. Here it goes," She said and started to talk. "I think I li-" Screech!

Raven glared angrily at the pot of tea on the stove, the pot that she just had to make. 'I was so close!' She said, beating herself up mentally. She quickly poured herself a cup, then offered one to Robin. "No thanks. What were you saying?" Robin inquired. Raven tried to psyche herself into being confident again, but couldn't quite capture it. "I don't remember," She lied, guilt passing through her quickly. Robin looked mildly disappointed but still mumbled a reply. "Well I'll be here if you ever need me", He said and walked over to the couch to watch the weather.

Raven stared at him dreamily, wondering if it would ever happen. She watched him, staring at the Tv, watching the weather. 'Almost sixteen and watching the weather, so mature' She thought. That was something she liked about him, he was mature. Robin would crack a joke once in a while, but it was never at someone else's expense. Raven's thoughts turned to Beast Boy, and she cringed slightly. It's not that she didn't like Beast Boy, it's that he was very immature. 'But would you settle for him if you can't have Robin?' She thought to herself. "Yes," She admitted, feeling slightly ashamed.

Soon, the rest of the team was up. Raven and Robin never even said a word to each other as the time passed, both of them reading in silence. Beast Boy and Cyborg were both making their own breakfasts at the time, while Starfire sipped mustard. "Robin," She said to the Boy Wonder. Raven stared up at the mention of his name. "Yeah Star?" He answered, not looking up from the paper. "Would you like to go to the mall with me today? I need some new clothing and would appreciate a second opinion," Starfire answered.

Now Raven wasn't much for the mall, but why would Starfire ask Robin to go over her, another girl? 'You aren't the only one who likes Robin' A voice in her head reminded her, causing Raven to frown slightly. Raven always hated competition, especially against someone that she was friends with. She didn't want to hurt Starfire... but the Tamaranian girl was always happy, and Raven wanted a chance at it.

"Maybe another time Star, I need to train today," Robin said and got up, setting the paper neatly on the table. Raven smiled on the inside, glad to see that Robin would be sticking around. "Ok! Will you go with me friend Raven?" Starfire said to her. Raven felt a moment of stupidity before answering. "Not today Star, maybe another time," She answered, her thoughts trailing back to Robin.

The Boy Wonder was busy stretching in the hallways entrance, several cracking noises sounding off as he bent and twisted. Raven found that even the way Robin stretched seemed to make her like him more. 'I have never liked anyone so much' She realized. "Maybe it's not like at all, maybe it's-" "RAVEN!" She jumped as Beast Boy yelled in her ear. "What?!?" She yelled back. "I was just asking if you wanted some tofu eggs," Beast Boy said to her politely. "No thank you, sorry for yelling," She said apologetically.

Robin was gone when she turned back, probably to one of the training rooms. She glanced at the others, each busy with their own things. 'They won't notice if I leave the room, the never notice usually' She thought and got up, quickly going out of the kitchen. As she rounded the corners, she could hear loud noises, and someone talking. "It was probably-" BANG! "Nothing-" BANG! "At all!" BANG! Raven could see the shadow of Robin beating on his favorite punching bag. 'What is he talking about?' She asked herself silently.

Raven crept up to the open door and peeked her head around the corner. Robin had his back to her, and was beating the punching bag furiously. She watched him for a little bit, her mind still on confessing to him. What's the worst that could happen? 'He could reject you and never speak to you ever again' She thought sadly. 'Good point' She added to her thoughts. Raven crept through the doorway, and gave a fake cough.

Robin jumped, and turned around quickly. "Hey Rae, what's going on?" He said. She was just about to answer when the punching bag came back hard, knocking Robin over. Raven stared at him on the ground mixed up in his cape. "Maybe this was a bad time," She said to him and turned to leave. "No! It's a fine time!" Robin yelled to her from the ground. Raven smiled, but hid it quickly as she turned back. "We need to talk," She said rather nervously. Robin nodded. "Yeah I think we should," He said to her and sat down on the bench against the far wall. Raven joined him quickly, sitting several feet away.

Neither of them looked at each other, both playing with something on their clothes. She moved slightly closer, eying Robin's hand on the bench near her own. "Well?" He said to her. Raven's heart skipped a beat as he turned to look at her. "I think that another time might be better, I need to do some meditation," Raven said suddenly, her nerves getting the best of her. Robin looked rather hurt, and Raven felt her guilt rise. "Then let me do some talking," Robin suggested. Raven nodded, unsure of what to expect.

Robin moved a little bit closer to her, causing Raven's uncomfortable feeling to rise even more. "Can't it wait?" Raven said, trying to escape. She was really getting far to worked up. "It's been too long a wait already," Robin said to her, now only a few inches away from her. She could feel his warm breath on the side of her head. Raven stared straight ahead, afraid to look at her leader. "Alright then," She said with some difficulty. 'Just hear him out' She told herself.

Now Robin looked uncomfortable, but he went on anyways. "I wasn't sure whether allowing you on the team was the best choice, you know that?" He said. Raven shook her head. "I can understand why," She replied. "Yeah well, it paid off. It's just that... you and me have never been very close, but I've always felt this sort of connection, do you know what I mean?" Robin continued. Raven held her breath, fairly sure that her ears were deceiving her. Robin almost sounded as if he was confessing to her.

Finally she turned towards him, letting out her breath as she did so. She found herself eye to eye with Robin, who looked just how Raven felt. "What are you trying to say?" Raven asked him, trying to keep up her unenthusiastic ways, though her voice didn't sound like she wanted it to. "Well, you see... I think- No I know, that I-" "ROBIN!"

Raven turned towards the sound, and found Cyborg in the doorway. "What!?" Robin yelled back at Cyborg, sounding quite angry, as if he had been denied a real treat. "We've got some bad news, you'll never guess who escaped today," Cyborg said quickly. Raven's memory kicked in, and she vaguely remembered a breakout from somewhere this morning. "I'll be right there," Robin said. Cyborg walked out of the room quickly.

Robin jumped up and ran towards the door, but turned back half way. "This seems to be becoming a trend, another time, alright?" He said to her. Raven nodded weakly and jumped up herself, then walked out of the room slowly. 'This is really getting to be way too hard' She thought as she walked out into the hall. "C'mon Raven! You won't believe who this guy is after," Cyborg called to her. Raven walked out into the hall and stared at the Tv screen, where they seemed to be talking about the psycho's demands. On there was a picture of a pale girl, with purple colored hair. "It's you," Beast Boy pointed out. The Titans stared at Raven, who had nothing to say.

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There we go. I love writing. That was fun. Couple of comments. Thank you any and all reviewers, new and old. Glad you decided to read. Now this story might be all nice right now, but that will change. This isn't gonna be some RobRae get together be happy all the time story. There will be yelling, and swearing, and fighting, and a lot of stuff that makes it more like a real life relationship. I did get a lot of what's happening in this story from actual experiences so that makes sense. But keep reading please, even if the story does go crappy. R and R please. Oh and, I know Robin sighed a hell of a lot in chapter one, but, wouldn't you have done it to? I would have. I sighed a hell of a lot after fanfiction deleted my account.

Next Chapter: After fighting an old villain and being saved by Robin, Raven decides to take it a little bit slower, and tell Starfire about her crush. But a certain green skinned Titan overhears this. What will Beast Boy do with this juicy piece of information?

Note to self: Never use the word juicy again. Keep on reading!

-SinFire