A/N: Yay! A new fanfic! ((crickets start chirping)) oooookaay... So I realize that noone actually reads my stories, save for my friends of course... but... IT'S JUST NOT THE SAME!... :( Now I feel all sad... Oh well, on with my unworthy attempt at writing a fic. Hurray...

Disclaimer: I'm only gonna put this here once so listen up. Inuyasha is NOT mine so don't go accusing me of attempting to steal Inuyasha from its rightful owner by changing my name to hers over the internet... 'Cuz I'm not... Really... Yeah...

Beliefs

Chap 1: Suicide

Kikyo stood at the very edge of her village, staring up into the sky as the rain washed away her tears. She didn't wish it to come to this, but she knew it was inevitable. The villagers just wouldn't listen. They scolded her for believing such things. Humans and demons living together in harmony? Bah! They figured it would've been easier in both mind and body, safer for they're families in the case of the humans, and simpler for both speicies to stay as far away from each other.

Kikyo didn't believe that. She never would.

And she earnestly hoped that a certain individual didn't either.

She looked down at the ground, only to spot her right hand. The appendage was dripping crimson from manually shattering a window from a deserted house not too far a walk away. She took a shard almost as long as the space from her wrist to her hand. She eagerly wished it needent come to this, she thought once more. But she rationized that the villagers would eventually be comming to her house to "get her", only to never find her. She would be dead to the world by the time they found out.

'They all hate me, they wouldn't care' she thought for only the hundredth time that day. She was the outcast, the one who thought things others didn't. 'But why should that matter? Everyone has the right to think what they wanted' She stopped and took the time to chuckle. 'Rights? What rights?'

The girl had midnight black hair cut into an uneven disarray topped off with split ends. She also sported chesnut eyes dimmed and puffy from heartbreak, hurt, and tears. She paced around the ground she was walking on, hoping, silently hoping that she could somehow delay this from happening. She tried to think of someone who would be sad if she left, in the hopes that she might be able to stay with said person. Nobody came to mind. Her parents were dead so she was taken in by the village as an orphan, she had no friends. The only person who came to mind was...

She stopped in midthought. He wouldn't be there for her. There was no way he would care even if he tried. More tears came to her eyes. She loved him and he didn't care. He more or less thought of her as a part-time companion, not a friend and hardly a lover. It was more of a job than anything else, and it was about time she quit.

Her right hand, which was grasping tighly at a razor sharp shard of glass, hovered over her stomach. The makeshift knife was cutting into her palms, drawing even more blood. It didn't matter anyway; it would all be over soon, all the pain would instantly disintegrate.

'It will all be over soon' she thought, and inwardly smiled. It was about time too. It was a wonder why people didnt do this all the time. 'Oh yeah...' she thought, 'They have people who care for them.'

Kikyo didn't waste anymore time as she plunged the piece of glass into her stomach. The pain was intense, yet over in a breath. All thoughts escaped her mind, but she managed to hang onto one and said it outloud as her last intention.

"Inuyasha..."

A pair of golden irises stared down atKikyo from the top of a tree, heavy laden with snow from yesterday. It was a cold winter, he thought, as a breeze slipped by him.

He wondered what she was doing out here. He had followed her to this place, the whole while watching from atop houses as he saw her and her tattered cloak swiftly moving through the houses of her village, and comming to a stop beside a house near a wild open field. He winced when he saw her smash her fist though a glass window, and looked on with a confused expresion as she picked up a piece from the debris, cluched it to herself and ran into the woods.

He followed, his red haori fluttering in the wind around him; his aura clearly showed he was worried. He stopped as he saw her pacing around in a clearing deep within the woods, tears freely streaming down her face. He wanted so much to comfort her and take all her pain and sadness away. He vowed he would kill whoever was responsible for her pain unbeknowst to him that it was infact partially his fault for all this. He watched silently as he saw her bring the shard to her stomach.

His eyes went wide as he put two and two together and figured that she was commiting suicide, he attemted to yell her name to stop her from doing this, but it was too late. As she stabbed herself she fell to the already blooded ground it was then that she said one word.

"Inuyasha..."

He leaped over to her earnestly hoping she was alive, he checked her heartbeat. Nothing. Her pulse. Nothing. Her breath. Nothing!

He punched the ground and made a giant hole with his fist. Damn her for not telling him! He could've helped her in her time of need! But nooo, she had to be a moron and try to take on her pain all alone! God how he hated her. But that was a lie, he could never hate one as kind, beautiful and intellectual as her. Even in her pain, she showed no outward signs of grief. She was strong, as strong as anyone could ever be. Noone, not even a goddess could surpass her in anything. Wait... that didn't come out right. She was a goddess, a beautiful one at that.

He decided to give her a burial as repayment for her company, and vowed that he would never forget her though all eternity. When it was all over he said just one thing as he was about to leave.

"Kikyo..."

A/N: Yay! Whoo hoo! I liked this story WAY better than my last one. And I'm sorry to all the Kikyo haters out there, I didn't mean for her to be all... Uhh unbitchy, ugg i need a better word... But I don't think that she was all that evil before her death, in fact i kinda like her... She kinda reminds me of Sessho... Or as we all LOVE to call him! Fluffy! YAY!

Anyway, I'd really appreciate it if i got at least 5 -10 reveiws from ppl other than my school friends... 'Cuz I already know they'll review lots lol. But, if i don't get at least 5 - 10 reviews i ain't continueing this... So be warned... Well maybe I'll update if I feel like it...

Kawaii says: oo moo (which translates to 'see ya' in cow language lol)