Disclaimer: GREAT NEWS! You all know how there will be a sequel to 'Losing Myself', right? Wellllll…I worked out a bunch of stuff and I planned a sequel to the sequel, and a sequel to that and a sequel to that! Six parts! The sequel to losing myself will be called 'A simple smile, a scream inside' and the sequel to that will be called 'Love and Belonging' and the sequel to that (which is a monologue) will be called 'I just don't understand' and the final sequel to that will be called 'Starting a new path'. 'Love and Belonging' is when Harry's child is born and the next two stories have to do with his or her life. I will NOT tell you who Harry is going to marry or whaat his child will be named. But I hope that I will get to writing it.

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The Perfect Family

Chapter 5

Am I Going To Die?

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That night Sirius woke to the sound of the bed sheets rustling. He quickly opened his eyes and looked over to the bed that he was sitting next to. Harry was slightly turning over in his sleep. No! He couldn't be waling up, could he?

Sirius jumped up, knocking down the chair that he had just been sitting on in the process. He sat down gently on the side of the bed and took Harry's hand in his. He began to massage his hand comfortingly as he began to gently whisper to him.

"Come on Kiddo, it's time to wake up"

This provoked nothing but a small moan from the boy. Harry turned over his bed and continued to move around slightly in his bed. Sirius turned to Remus. Remus was fast asleep on a chair, opposite side of Sirius to Harry.

"Remus!" Sirius whispered loudly "Remus, wake up"

Remus slowly opened his sleep incrusted eyes and glared at Sirius. He looked annoyed and pissed off.

"What!" he yelled "Can't you see that I'm trying to sleep!"

"Shh, calm down. I think Harry's waking up"

Sirius pointed at Harry, who was still rolling around in his sleep. Remus was surprised to see that he was actually moving, not in the immobile state that he had been in just hours before.

"Harry?"

This time Harry began to talk softly.

"Uncle…no…please…don't…hurts"

Harry was having a nightmare.

"Not…belt…me…not…anything"

Sirius' heart broke to see how much his godson was suffering after his uncle's abuse. He wondered is Harry would be any different after this. He hoped not. He wanted the same old Harry. Sweet, caring and brave like he'd always been.

Suddenly Harry erupted in a high pitched scream. Remus jumped out his chair.

"I'm going look for Albus!"

He ran to the door and disappeared through the doorway. Sirius began to shake Harry gently, hoping that he wouldn't hurt him. He didn't want to cause him any more pain; he had had enough of that already.

"Come on Kiddo, wake up. It's just a nightmare"

Harry's eyes suddenly opened, wild and unpredictable. Tears began flowing down his cheeks as he began to cry silently. Sirius pulled him into a loose hug and began to rub soothing circles on his back.

"Shh Bunny, its okay. Your uncle's never going to hurt you again" (A/N: My friend's dad calls him Bunny so don't say it's stupid. I find it cute)

Harry's body began shaking with silent sobs.

"Calm down Harry, just calm down"

Harry's heavy breathing subsided as he fell limp into Sirius' arms. Sirius wondered if he was still awake.

"Harry, are you awake?"

"Yes" Harry whispered through his mask

Sirius gently placed Harry against his pillows.

"Comfortable"

"No"

Sirius chuckled silently.

"I guessed that"

Sirius wiped the tears from Harry's face and ran his hand through his messy locks of jet black hair.

"You gave us quite a scare, you know"

"I…sorry"

"Don't be sorry, it wasn't your fault. I should have come there sooner"

"Not…your…fault…either"

"You know your uncle had no right to do this to you. It's not normal for adults to hit and abuse children. It's sick. As sick as it gets"

Harry nodded slightly.

"I would never hurt you Harry. I love you, unlike that filthy excuse for a family you were forced to live with. I would never hurt you, ever"

"Promise?"

"I promise" (A/N: Liar, liar, pants on fire!"

Harry smiled, though less visible through his mask.

"Where…I?"

"At St. Mungo's Hospital. We brought you here after we found you in your house. I wanted to kill those muggles"

"Sirius?"

"Yes?"

"Am I going to die?"

A look of horror appeared on Sirius' face.

"NO! Of course not! You're going to have surgery, but then you're going to be just fine"

"Surgery"

"It's just to fix the bullet wound. Don't worry; it's a simple task. You're going to be week for another month or two but don't worry, me and Remus will help you"

"Professor Lupin?"

"Yup! He's going to be living with us in my place! We're going to help you with all of the stuff that you can't do while you're sick. You'll be fine in no time!"

Harry's eyes suddenly brightened.

"I…live…you?"

"Yup! I was cleared of all charges! I bought us a house near Ron's so that you can see him more often. Isn't that great?"

"Yes!" He smiled "Thank…you…so happy"

"No problem. I'll do anything just to see that you're happy. You're my godson and I want you to have the best of everything"

Sirius opened his mouth to continue but was interrupted by the door flying open. Dumbledore and Remus burst inside and ran over to Harry's bed.

"Harry, are you alright?" Remus asked, "You were screaming"

"Yeah…just a…nightmare"

Dumbledore placed a hand on Harry's forehead. Harry's first instinct was to pull away but he was too week for such movement.

"Are you feeling alright?"

Harry yawned.

"Tired"

"Sleep Bunny, sleep" Sirius whispered "You need your rest"

Harry yawned and closed his eyes.

"Harry?"

"Hmmm…?"

"I love you"

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