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Prologue
Summary: A depressed person plus a bet equals trouble. (bad summary will update it as soon as I get the plot down.
Warnings: Nothing yet
Disclaimer: I don't own it, if I did I would be rich.
A/N: Yo! This is going to be a really really short chapter. Umm I got the GC cd on saturday, it's really good go buy it (10/5/04). Uhhh well onto the story!
A mask, a guise, a cover all surround me and my darken thoughts. No one has seen the true me in a long time. No one really ever tries, they just don't care. So many sleepless nights, so many wounds in my heart, never healing wounds. Everything seems to be alright, I make sure I cover my own thoughts with it, but I don't think it's gonna be alright anymore.
I know about the bet that was made, and I know about the feelings that were never there. It was all a show, all a game. Something to pull me out of the deep black hole that I was sucked into. Everything seemed fine when you were around, but now, I don't think it's gonna be alright.
So this is what I will do for you, I will ease your guilt. I will forgive you for all the pain you caused. I won't suffer anymore, I won't be around. Tonight I will end my life, tonight I will say goodbye because it's not gonna be alright.
Pessimests say that the glass is half empty, but I say there was nothing there. It was full of nothing, nothing but air. Then again it was full, but I couldn't let that happen now could I? So I smashed the fucker on the ground. I let it drop then I laughed madly and picked up the pieces. Then I cried, because I realized that the glass was just like my life. Once complete, no flaws, then scattered, no hope. Maybe I should explain how this all came to be, how you hurt me and how the pain seemed to comsume me. Maybe I should let you know just what you put me through, maybe then you will know how I felt.
Or maybe I should just forget it and make you suffer. Make you feel the pain that you put me through. I thought you had loved me, I thought you cared. How I was so very wrong, so very stupid. I should have known that it was fake, who could love me? I'm nothing, a nobody. I'm worthless, I'm just was waste of breath. I know I'm not gonna be alright now.
I know I can't do that to you, can't leave you without an explanation.
Even though you used me, even though you never loved me, I still love you. I love you so much it hurts and I can't stand the pain. I wouldn't be able to stand the guilt as I sat in a puddle of my blood and died slowly; knowing that you never knew why. You still think the game is still hidden, you never would know that I know. So now I will tell you what I know, I will tell you how I found out, and why I'm slowly dying.
A/N: Really short I know, it's kinda like a prologue I guess... Yes I know it's way way short, but the chapters will be long I promise, er semi promise. Guesses on who the speaker is! It might shock you, maybe not. Update and I'll try to get the next chapter out soon. This will have no slash in it, I'm taking a break from slash fics. Well that is until I can get Bob to leave me alone and work on WMoOC's next chapter... Please read it (WMoOC) and review. As soon as I get two more reviews on it I will update it(if the chapter is ready) Enough rambling go review this story.
Prologue
Summary: A depressed person plus a bet equals trouble. (bad summary will update it as soon as I get the plot down.
Warnings: Nothing yet
Disclaimer: I don't own it, if I did I would be rich.
A/N: Yo! This is going to be a really really short chapter. Umm I got the GC cd on saturday, it's really good go buy it (10/5/04). Uhhh well onto the story!
A mask, a guise, a cover all surround me and my darken thoughts. No one has seen the true me in a long time. No one really ever tries, they just don't care. So many sleepless nights, so many wounds in my heart, never healing wounds. Everything seems to be alright, I make sure I cover my own thoughts with it, but I don't think it's gonna be alright anymore.
I know about the bet that was made, and I know about the feelings that were never there. It was all a show, all a game. Something to pull me out of the deep black hole that I was sucked into. Everything seemed fine when you were around, but now, I don't think it's gonna be alright.
So this is what I will do for you, I will ease your guilt. I will forgive you for all the pain you caused. I won't suffer anymore, I won't be around. Tonight I will end my life, tonight I will say goodbye because it's not gonna be alright.
Pessimests say that the glass is half empty, but I say there was nothing there. It was full of nothing, nothing but air. Then again it was full, but I couldn't let that happen now could I? So I smashed the fucker on the ground. I let it drop then I laughed madly and picked up the pieces. Then I cried, because I realized that the glass was just like my life. Once complete, no flaws, then scattered, no hope. Maybe I should explain how this all came to be, how you hurt me and how the pain seemed to comsume me. Maybe I should let you know just what you put me through, maybe then you will know how I felt.
Or maybe I should just forget it and make you suffer. Make you feel the pain that you put me through. I thought you had loved me, I thought you cared. How I was so very wrong, so very stupid. I should have known that it was fake, who could love me? I'm nothing, a nobody. I'm worthless, I'm just was waste of breath. I know I'm not gonna be alright now.
I know I can't do that to you, can't leave you without an explanation.
Even though you used me, even though you never loved me, I still love you. I love you so much it hurts and I can't stand the pain. I wouldn't be able to stand the guilt as I sat in a puddle of my blood and died slowly; knowing that you never knew why. You still think the game is still hidden, you never would know that I know. So now I will tell you what I know, I will tell you how I found out, and why I'm slowly dying.
A/N: Really short I know, it's kinda like a prologue I guess... Yes I know it's way way short, but the chapters will be long I promise, er semi promise. Guesses on who the speaker is! It might shock you, maybe not. Update and I'll try to get the next chapter out soon. This will have no slash in it, I'm taking a break from slash fics. Well that is until I can get Bob to leave me alone and work on WMoOC's next chapter... Please read it (WMoOC) and review. As soon as I get two more reviews on it I will update it(if the chapter is ready) Enough rambling go review this story.