WOW! I got loads of reviews. I am so pleased. IT'S MY BIRTHDAY TODAY TOO! Two birds with one stone. Go me. And no I'm not telling my age. A writer never tells! Hehe! I am sorry if the fic was a bit too lemony for you guys to handle. I did tell you it was going to be lemony but hey. So, let's continue shall we. Let's find out why Sakura left Syaoran in the early hours of the morning? Hmmm. Hehe!

Disclaimer: I do not own card captor sakura nor do I own CLAMP

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Chapter 9: Love is such a hard word to say

Sakura treaded home bracing herself for her Father. When she opened the door what she didn't expect was to come face to face with her father pacing up and down the carpet.

"Sakura!" He said relieved, and to Sakura's surprise and delight he went up and hugged her. He held her there for a long time, but Sakura did not react. Slowly he pulled away.

"Dad?" Sakura asked sceptically.

"I was so afraid I lost you. I went looking for you everywhere. Don't you ever do that again!" He said and pulled her in for one more hug. Sakura, thinking it was a dream, hugged him back. This was one of her dreams. When her father would stop abusing her and treat her like his daughter.

"Dad why are you…?" Sakura trailed off and her dad pulled back and scrutinized her.

"Sakura. I've missed you so much. When you left I realised how much I loved you. I'm gonna stop drinking. I promise. You can check the house. I chucked it all out. All of it. I want us to be a family again. Please?" Sakura looked into her dad's face and started to cry. To Sakura's horror her dad also started to cry.

Sakura wrapped her arms around his neck and cried freely. "I love you dad." She choked out.

Her dad stroked her hair soothingly. "I love you too sweetheart." And as the words hit the air Sakura burst out crying again.

They were both sitting on a couch, talking about everything and anything, trying to catch up on 15 years of lost communication. Sakura found out that whenever her dad left her after a beating he would go to the graveyard and pray to mum and Touya. Sakura was instantly saddened by this and realised it explained why he went off for long periods at a time.

They watched T.V and Sakura and her dad tried to make a stir fry. They were laughing and having fun and Sakura realised how much she missed it. Maybe her relationship with Syaoran was only so she could feel loved. Maybe she wanted Syaoran to love her like a father loves their daughter or son. Maybe she was the one using Syaoran.

Sakura was dreading today as today was a school day. Her father dropped her off on his way to work and as Sakura stepped out of the car she caught Syaoran looking at her as he made his way to the classroom. Shit! He would want to talk about it now.

She slowly made her way to the classroom and throughout the whole lesson Syaoran kept trying to catch her eye. But Sakura kept avoiding and ignoring his attempts and after a while he gave up.

Detention came all to quickly and yet again Sakura was sitting in the classroom for Syaoran. She was sitting in the furthest row from the front and Syaoran noticed this when he walked in. He took his seat and didn't waste anytime, asking the first question literally when he first made contact with his chair.

"Who was that man who dropped you of at school this morning?" Sakura could denote a hint of jealously and smiled on the inside.

"That was my dad." Sakura replied and she noticed the shocked look on his face.

"Your dad?" He asked confused. "Why the hell was your dad dropping you off?"

"Because he's changed." She said simply.

"Yeah right!" Syaoran scoffed. Sakura felt a burst of outrage towards her father.

"Yes! He has! He loves me. He told me last night. He didn't mean to kill mum and Touya but he visits their grave more times than I do!" She finished off breathing heavily and Syaoran looked at her in shock.

"Sakura? You don't believe him?" He asked sceptically.

"He's my father! Of course I believe him!" She yelled at him. Syaoran looked down and decided to keep quiet. "Anything else you have to tell me?" Sakura asked sarcastically.

"Yes." He replied quietly. "My mum wants me to go back to Hong Kong."

Sakura was shocked by the news and couldn't help a little bit of sadness showing through. "Why?" She asked softly.

Syaoran looked up at her. "Why did you leave this morning?" Sakura was shocked by the question but she noticed that he did want an answer.

"Because…you said it was for one night only. I thought of it as a seal to end our relationship." Sakura said shakily. She cowered a bit as Syaoran stood up.

"God damn it Sakura! This wasn't a kiss or a hug. We committed ourselves to each other." Syaoran yelled and Sakura felt slightly angry. She got up and took a few steps towards the front.

"No we didn't! We had sex! Meaningless, bog standard sex! The kind of sex where people get caught up in the passion! We did it for our own pleasure! Nothing else! There was no emotion involved!" Shouted Sakura.

Syaoran stared at her for a minute before speaking. "Well I put emotion in it."

"Shut up Syaoran! Don't you dare say that! Don't you dare!"

"Why are you so scared about the fact that I-"

"Shut up Syaoran! I'm not scared! I just don't want to get emotionally involved. This was a one off, lust and pleasure relationship. There was no other emotion involved. Not one Syaoran!"

"Sakura please. Listen to yourself."

"I am listening. Now tell me why your going to Hong Kong." Sakura waited with bated breath for the answer.

"I'm going to Hong Kong tomorrow. To marry Meilin." He said quietly. Sakura felt her stomach turn and she knew she was going to be sick. She ran out of the classroom and to the toilet, the calls from Syaoran echoing down the hallway.

Sakura leaned back against the cubicle door and breathed in deeply. Soon she heard footsteps coming in.

"Sakura-" Started Syaoran.

"Leave me alone." Sakura said in a deadly voice.

"Sakura, all you have to do is tell me not to marry Meilin and I won't."

"And why would I want to do that?" Asked Sakura, sarcasm in her voice.

"Because you lo-"

"Leave! Now! Leave!" Sakura started screaming. She threw up again. "Please leave me alone." She started crying. "Why can't you leave me alone? Why did you come into my life Syaoran. Why?"

"Because I love you." Came his quick reply.

"Shut up!" Screamed Sakura. "No you don't! You don't even know what it is!"

"Yes I do!" Came his firm reply. "Sakura. Why are you hiding from the truth?"

"I-I'm not." She replied shakily.

"Yes you are! Sakura, I think your afraid of love. I think your afraid of a broken heart. I won't leave you Sakura."

"You just did." She said softly and she threw up again.

"Wha-"

"Your leaving for Hong Kong. Your leaving tomorrow."

"Not unless you tell me otherwise." Came Syaoran's soft voice.

"Don't leave for Hong Kong. Stay here." She barely whispered.

"I don't want to hear it like that." He told her.

"Then I'm afraid your going to Hong Kong." And she threw up yet again.

"Sakura, what is wrong with you? Why are you throwing up so much?"

"I don't know Syaoran!" She yelled at him.

"Alright, alright. Sakura, your detentions over. Do you want a lift?" He asked gently.

"No. I'll walk. Can you leave now?" She heard him get up. "Syaoran?"

"Yeah?"

"It was nice while it lasted." She said softly. She felt a whole new set of tears sting her eyes.

"Yes. Yes it was." Said Syaoran just as softly. And he closed the door. Forever.

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Okay! Done! Last line a bit confusing isn't it? It's meant about there relationship not that he physically closed the door to the bathroom forever. Hehe! I am sorry if I spell Sakura's surname as Kinimoto when a reviewer pointed out it is Kinomoto. I cannot be arsed to change all the chapters so deal with it! Hehe! Review guys! Tell me if you want more.

Sitting next to me as I type is a pile of presents. I want to open them soooo bad but I have to wait for my mum to get up! Oh well. Love you all! Ciao!