I opened my eyes and saw – Quatre? Oh hell no! Not him...not now...Wait. He was smiling. Why? Damn, I bet Niki told. Well, if I was going to die, this was the best way to go.
" Hey Duo..." His voice – so soft and sweet, filled with innocence. I loved it. But I couldn't. I'd end up hurting him...
And then he kissed me. Me, of all people. Kissed me. Quatre Winner. Me. Kissing. Joy spread through me. I couldn't believe it. When he pulled away, blushing like mad, I blinked.
" What about Trowa? "He giggled. It was cute, and I liked it.
" What about him? "I blinked again in surprise. Weren't they together? Guess not. "I love you, Duo. He's just someone I can confide in. "He giggled again. "Don't tell anyone I told you, but he's gotta crush on Wufei. "Wufei? I gaped slightly, and he giggled some more before staring at me. Those eyes...I loved them. Sparkling with passion and happiness, so large I easily got lost in them.
" What happened to Niki? "I asked.
"
She's...well, pretty shaken. She told us everything...I'm really
sorry Duo..." I shook my head. At least he knew why I couldn't
love him, so now I wouldn't have to explain. But if he knew, why'd
he kiss me?
"But then – "
" I don't believe in curses. They're just stories, at least that's what my beliefs say. "He smiled, and so did I.
' Am I going home? Will I hear someone? Singing solace to the silent moon. '
" Tell me Duo, is your sister right? Do you love me as much as I love you? "I sighed, looking at the floor.
" I love you more than anything, Quatre...but I cant..."
" Oh? And why not? "
" Everyone I love is always hurt or dead! I – I cant – I don't want that to happen to you, "I choked out. Tears were forming in my eyes, and his small hand gently brushed them away. "She told you. I'm cursed. Shinigami follows me, and kills everyone I care about. I'm doomed to a life of isolation. "
" But remember? I don't believe in curses. "
' Zero gravity what's it like? ..... (am I alone?) '
He kissed me again, and I returned him the favor. After all, how could I not? This is what I had always wanted...but I wanted, no, NEEDED to despise it. I'd hurt him. Kill him. He was better off without me.
I was the God of Death, damned into isolation and deprived of everything. Cursed to kill.
But why did this feel so right?
Quatre stopped, tears in his eyes. Why? I reached out to him, and he lay his head on my chest, a few tears running down his face.
"Please Duo...I love you...you are no demon, no God of Death. You are an angel, a God of Life. Think of it. You're always happy – and don't tell me it's a mask. You've been happy with us for a while, although sometimes you aren't. I can tell when you are lying and when you truly forget and have fun. I want you to continue to be happy, please don't just give up on life. Please..."
"But what if I hurt you? Or..."
"If you kill me, I'd die the best way possible. I wouldn't think of it as betrayal. I'd think of it as you just wanting me to be happy. But you'd be killing me if you give up, and yet I'd still be living. I'd be here, but I'd never, ever love another as I love you. "
' Still the road keeps on telling me to go on '
I gazed at the ceiling, thinking. Maybe he was right. Quatre was almost always right.
"I want you to be happy. "
"And I can only be happy if you're with me. "He hugged me tightly, and I smiled. Perhaps Niki was wrong...maybe there were some people who you could trust. Perhaps she only meant some people when she told me trust wasn't an option. She was trying to protect me then because I was so young. Now that I'm older, that rule might not apply as much. Yes, that had to be true. I loved Quatre, and he was to caring to hurt someone he loved.
' Something is pulling me... '
He pulled on my sleeve, and I gently kissed him again. Yes, I was right. I could tell I needed to be with my blonde angel. 'The enemy is never a friend' – Quatre is no enemy, so he must be a friend. I could trust him with my life, every part of me was telling me that. He was not pretending, he meant it.
Maybe I wasn't cursed after all. No, I couldn't be. I'd hurt Quatre if I refused to love him. So, if I didn't want to hurt him, I had to love him. And I wanted to. It seemed confusing, but I could understand everything now.
At last, I was finally happy. And I think I can stay that way.
'...I feel the gravity of it all '
Yeah, that was a bit confusing...but if you reread it a bit, you can eventually understand it. So yeah. Pretty much to summarize it, everyone ends up happy. I would put in a Trowa/Wufei part, but they really aren't a focus in the story, so it'd be awkward.
The song was Gravity by Yoko Kanno, and it's the ending theme to another of my favorite animes, Wolfs Rain. I didn't do a full songfic ending because I didn't like how it would end up. So I just did tidbits of the song here and there. Oh, and I don't own the song or Yoko Kanno either...'tis a pity.
Anyway, COOKIES AND PLUSHIES FOR ONE REVIEW! JUST ONE!
Sanku.