Chapter 3: No Hope
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Before Kairi could even turn to say something to Sora, he was out the door. "Damnit!" she said under her breath. Mr. Thomas looked up from his desk. "What was that Kairi?" he asked glaring at her. "Nothing. I didn't say anything." Kairi said defensively. She then quickly grabbed her books and left the classroom, in hopes to find Sora somewhere in the hallway.
She frantically looked around, while pushing past crowds of people. It was so surreal. She would never believe, in a million years, that she would be in a position like this: looking for Sora, the one she loved, and giving one last try to see if he loved her back.
"Freak." Someone whispered behind her. ~Ugh will they ever grow up?~
She finally found Sora at, what she guessed, was his new locker. ~Thank god, I don't think I could wait any longer.~ Slowly she walked up to him. He didn't even look at her, just stared intently in his locker. She took a deep breath. "Sora... we need to talk." she said hesitantly. "I think I deserve the truth from you. Tell me what's wrong." She could feel anxiety building up and her heart rate speed up. ~Am I really ready for this?~
"Kairi, we had this conversation last night." Sora said impatiently. Kairi sighed. "No we didn't Sora. You did. You left me there before I could even reply." She was staring at him, waiting for him to turn around and actually look at her. But he didn't. "Kairi, I'm sorry I left you there but you have to understand that I don't have feelings for you anymore." He closed his locker and looked down at the ground.
Kairi knew Sora well enough to know that there was something...missing. Something just wasn't right. "Sora...how can I believe you when you won't even look at me in the eye." She said nervously.
Sora's eyes suddenly darted to her, glaring. He softened when he saw her pale blue eyes shimmering with tears. "Kairi," he said softly. "In all this time I've known you, have I ever lied to you?" Kairi was silent. It was true. He was the most honest person she has ever met. Sora saw the look of defeat in her eyes and flinched.
"Hey Sora," giggled Selphie, one of the most beautiful girls in school, walking by. Kairi hated that girl. Selphie made fun of Kairi non-stop for no reason at all. A typical cheerleader. "Hey there Selph wait up." Sora responded. Selphie giggled again, and Sora gave Kairi one last look. "Good bye." He said dully, and then ran over to Selphie, putting his arm around her shoulders.
Kairi stood there. This was the second time Sora had left her speechless. But wait. Did she just see, for a moment, Sora look at her the way he did those three years ago? No she couldn't have. She was just getting desperate. ~I can't take this anymore~, thought Kairi. She quickly went over to her locker, and cleared it out-grabbing her books, stickers, gym clothes...everything. Struggling to hold all of her possessions, she walked as quickly as she could towards the exit of her high school, heading home.
When Kairi stepped outside, she looked up to see that it was another beautiful day. Everyone and everything was so happy, except Kairi. She felt so alone and left out. Sora was the last light in her body, her last hope of ever surviving in this damned world. And now, he was gone.
About 5 minutes later, she arrived at her house. She stepped through the door to find Mary in the same rocking chair, reading the same book as before. "Shouldn't you be in school?" Mary asked blankly, still looking at her book.
"Yeah but I don't feel so good, I'm going up to my room." ~Like you care. ~
She ran up to her room and threw her books and everything else on her bed. She turned around and slowly walked into her bathroom. Staring back at herself in the mirror, she began wiping away her smeared eyeliner. But then she stopped. ~What's the point? There is no one to impress, no one cares about me.~ She looked into her eyes that were once full of life and joy. Now, they were empty and dark. ~I can't face another day of this. I can't face another day alone, knowing that no one loves me.~ She could feel this emptiness inside her deepen. She was no one. She was nothing. ~My parents probably abandoned me. Mary was the only one who offered to take me in, and she doesn't even care about me. I have no friends. And, Sora...well he's gone now.~
She slowly looked over to the shower. In a sort of trance, she walked over to it, picking up her razor. All that was going on through her head was Sora. ~He doesn't love me anymore.~ She set the blade on the inside of her lower arm, right above her wrist. ~He thinks I'm nothing.~ She put pressure on the blade and slowly sliced her skin open. She didn't stop until she was almost at her elbow. ~And he is right.~ It felt so good. Blood began to drip down her arm, but she didn't care. She felt so relaxed. The pain occupied her mind, and she soon forgot about Sora. Her heart felt so relieved.
~Was that a knock at the front door downstairs? Whatever.~ She quickly re- focused on her pain.
She began cutting her other arm, when her vision began to blur. Everything was going black. She could feel her breathing get shallow. This was just like her dream. She smiled as she felt herself sink to the ground. She heard Sora's voice echo her name. Ironic isn't it?
Then... darkness.
~AN~: Hey you guys. Thanks for all of your reviews! There are only 3 more chapters left. I know *gasp* its short but give me a break, its my first one. Plus it's gunna have a pretty good ending if I do say so myself. After this one I'll write some other stories. My "beta reader" (silentchill13) and I are gunna do a kinda role playing story. It should be really good lol. Cya!
Before Kairi could even turn to say something to Sora, he was out the door. "Damnit!" she said under her breath. Mr. Thomas looked up from his desk. "What was that Kairi?" he asked glaring at her. "Nothing. I didn't say anything." Kairi said defensively. She then quickly grabbed her books and left the classroom, in hopes to find Sora somewhere in the hallway.
She frantically looked around, while pushing past crowds of people. It was so surreal. She would never believe, in a million years, that she would be in a position like this: looking for Sora, the one she loved, and giving one last try to see if he loved her back.
"Freak." Someone whispered behind her. ~Ugh will they ever grow up?~
She finally found Sora at, what she guessed, was his new locker. ~Thank god, I don't think I could wait any longer.~ Slowly she walked up to him. He didn't even look at her, just stared intently in his locker. She took a deep breath. "Sora... we need to talk." she said hesitantly. "I think I deserve the truth from you. Tell me what's wrong." She could feel anxiety building up and her heart rate speed up. ~Am I really ready for this?~
"Kairi, we had this conversation last night." Sora said impatiently. Kairi sighed. "No we didn't Sora. You did. You left me there before I could even reply." She was staring at him, waiting for him to turn around and actually look at her. But he didn't. "Kairi, I'm sorry I left you there but you have to understand that I don't have feelings for you anymore." He closed his locker and looked down at the ground.
Kairi knew Sora well enough to know that there was something...missing. Something just wasn't right. "Sora...how can I believe you when you won't even look at me in the eye." She said nervously.
Sora's eyes suddenly darted to her, glaring. He softened when he saw her pale blue eyes shimmering with tears. "Kairi," he said softly. "In all this time I've known you, have I ever lied to you?" Kairi was silent. It was true. He was the most honest person she has ever met. Sora saw the look of defeat in her eyes and flinched.
"Hey Sora," giggled Selphie, one of the most beautiful girls in school, walking by. Kairi hated that girl. Selphie made fun of Kairi non-stop for no reason at all. A typical cheerleader. "Hey there Selph wait up." Sora responded. Selphie giggled again, and Sora gave Kairi one last look. "Good bye." He said dully, and then ran over to Selphie, putting his arm around her shoulders.
Kairi stood there. This was the second time Sora had left her speechless. But wait. Did she just see, for a moment, Sora look at her the way he did those three years ago? No she couldn't have. She was just getting desperate. ~I can't take this anymore~, thought Kairi. She quickly went over to her locker, and cleared it out-grabbing her books, stickers, gym clothes...everything. Struggling to hold all of her possessions, she walked as quickly as she could towards the exit of her high school, heading home.
When Kairi stepped outside, she looked up to see that it was another beautiful day. Everyone and everything was so happy, except Kairi. She felt so alone and left out. Sora was the last light in her body, her last hope of ever surviving in this damned world. And now, he was gone.
About 5 minutes later, she arrived at her house. She stepped through the door to find Mary in the same rocking chair, reading the same book as before. "Shouldn't you be in school?" Mary asked blankly, still looking at her book.
"Yeah but I don't feel so good, I'm going up to my room." ~Like you care. ~
She ran up to her room and threw her books and everything else on her bed. She turned around and slowly walked into her bathroom. Staring back at herself in the mirror, she began wiping away her smeared eyeliner. But then she stopped. ~What's the point? There is no one to impress, no one cares about me.~ She looked into her eyes that were once full of life and joy. Now, they were empty and dark. ~I can't face another day of this. I can't face another day alone, knowing that no one loves me.~ She could feel this emptiness inside her deepen. She was no one. She was nothing. ~My parents probably abandoned me. Mary was the only one who offered to take me in, and she doesn't even care about me. I have no friends. And, Sora...well he's gone now.~
She slowly looked over to the shower. In a sort of trance, she walked over to it, picking up her razor. All that was going on through her head was Sora. ~He doesn't love me anymore.~ She set the blade on the inside of her lower arm, right above her wrist. ~He thinks I'm nothing.~ She put pressure on the blade and slowly sliced her skin open. She didn't stop until she was almost at her elbow. ~And he is right.~ It felt so good. Blood began to drip down her arm, but she didn't care. She felt so relaxed. The pain occupied her mind, and she soon forgot about Sora. Her heart felt so relieved.
~Was that a knock at the front door downstairs? Whatever.~ She quickly re- focused on her pain.
She began cutting her other arm, when her vision began to blur. Everything was going black. She could feel her breathing get shallow. This was just like her dream. She smiled as she felt herself sink to the ground. She heard Sora's voice echo her name. Ironic isn't it?
Then... darkness.
~AN~: Hey you guys. Thanks for all of your reviews! There are only 3 more chapters left. I know *gasp* its short but give me a break, its my first one. Plus it's gunna have a pretty good ending if I do say so myself. After this one I'll write some other stories. My "beta reader" (silentchill13) and I are gunna do a kinda role playing story. It should be really good lol. Cya!