anjel919: lol well, I'm glad I can help make your floor filthy with confetti. I'm SOOO relieved that I did the therapy and confession right. :D (yay, you get a special smily face!) Good, I really like my poem. I'm glad-umm, ecstatic- that you like it too. OH my god, I ate too much.... Thanx for reviewing!
Faith Evans: Oh, okay. Well, I was close with the word. Thank you for R&Ring!
man freakzoid: Oh. You classified Degrassi? I'm still so confused...lol. Oh, and FYI, the Body Shop is a clothing store, there's one at the mall I always go to.
Thank you for reading my poem! I love writing poems....
You don't think it'll be Marco and Dylan? (sigh) Now I'm sad....
No, I haven't seen any of the new episodes. What has happened with Marco and Dylan!? TELL ME! Thank you for the review!
Squrlie Jack: Thank you, I'm so happy you love it! Reviews make writing worth while.... I SOO hope your right about Marco and Dylan! I doubt it though...oh well, we can always hope REAL hard. Maybe if we do it at the same time, it'll happen! Ready...1...2...3! (hopes) Thank you for reviewing and voting! :)
Visitor-to-the-Echoside: Good. I'll just have to end them all with cliff hangers to ensure your reviews! Mwhahahahahahahah! Just kidding...maybe.... Thank you for reviewing! But not thank you for your lack of a vote! :P ha ha ha ha haaaaaa....
sprite: Thanks for pointing that out, I really couldn't remember if it was 'providence' or not.... Oh, well. Thanks for reviewing!
green eyed dragon: Eew, I so hope it's not Emma! (shudder) ugh, ANYway... is it the worst cliffhanger by just being bad, or by being the most 'ahhh!' inspiring? I hope its' the latter....okay, thanks for the review!
AllAboutDegrassi: lol I love my cliffhanger. Hah hah.... Yes, Bregar is like John Bregar. I was trying to think of a last name, and my mind wandered to Dylan, (as usual) and so I started thinking that I wish John Bregar had a Degrassi: Unscripted thing, and so I thought, "Hey! Bregar!" Yay...okay, I doubt you really cared how I came up with that....
I'm so happy you loved this chapter! Lol, Paige is fun to write. I enjoyed torturing her with the visions of Marco and his dad having sex together...(shudder) Eew....
Okay, the 'penance' that Marco had to do, it's a silent spiritual cleansing that helps erase his sins in the eyes of the Lord and the Catholic Church, and you complete it right there in the confessional.
You didn't get to see "It's Raining Men" for a week!!!??? You poor thing! Here, let Dylan comfort you...hee hee............ okay, thank you for reviewing!
Read300300: Yay! Thank you for reading, I'm so glad you like the story! Thanks for reviewing!
cutiepye06655: Hah hah! I'll never update! Mwahahahaha! Um, okay....sorry, I feel weird right now....and I ate too much. :( Anyway, thank you for the review!
Roxie24: I so hope your right about Marco and Dylan! That would be totally awesome!
You like my poem? Yay! I'm so happy.... Okay, thank you for reviewing!
dexter: lol I'm updating! I hope you like this chapter! Thank you for R&Ring!
Vixen-Dragon16: Hah! It's fun reviewing myself, and adding my story to my favorite stories list! Hah hah....
Alex3262: (jumps up and down) You think this chapter is the greatest? Yay! I'm so happy... Hee, I love reading reviews like yours....I'm glad you liked my cliffhanger. It just suddenly hit me when Marco was leaving the therapy office. Yay! Okay, thank you so much for reviewing!
Yelak: I know, I STILL love the kitten thing...:)
Eew, Liberty! Yuck! Gross....(not thinking) (shudder) Damn you...lol. Okay, thank you for your review!
soccergurl1990: Hooray! You like my story AND poem! (bows) Thank you, thank you.... I love those little '....', don't you? Hee....hah! Thank you for reviewing!
rioko: I know, aren't I mean? Mwahahahaha.... lol, okay, JUST since you said please, I'll update. If you didn't, everyone would just have to suffer. :) lol, riiiiight. Anyway, thank you for the review! Oh, and what does your screen name mean?
StorytellerD: Yay, your very first review for me! I love reviews....and those little dots!............... hah. Anyway, ahem, sorry 'bout that. Good, I'm glad it keeps getting more interesting. I'm struggling, 'cause I'm running out of ideas, but luckily, anjel919 helps me out. :) Thanx for R&Ring!
Michelle: I know, I like writing Paige. I'm happy you like her, and the rest of the story! Yay! Hope I updated quick enough! Thank you for reviewing!
Fucted Up Kid: Yaaaaaaay! Another obnoxiously-long review! (hugs Fucted Up Kid again) you shall get a hug for every long review! :)
When are you EVER going to finish, let alone update, Emotionless? I love that story, it was one of the first one's I read and loved, but it's been so long since you've updated! (sob) Don't make me take away a hug! :P I can't wait to read your story about Pride...hee. It'll be beyond greatness!
I didn't see the new episode...(cry) It greatly saddens me.... I'm so happy that Marco and Dylan were in it though! Yay! AND THEY SORTA-KISSED AGAIN! THAT MAKES ME SO HAPPY! But, why were they dancing? Whatever....I can't wait to see it, or this next one. It looks so good!
I can't wait until I can skip ahead to where Marco's ready to make sweet passionate love to Dylan....(long, drawn-out sigh) That'll be awesome....
Lol wow. Let me guess, you loved this chapter? Yay! That makes me giddy with ecstatic-ness.
:)
Okay, your ideas. I really like the dog one. I don't know if it would be the THERAPIST'S dog, though. I doubt she'd be allowed to take it into her office, but I really have no idea. I'll definitely use that some time, maybe not this chapter, since I've already got it written, but soon. And the group therapy, I thought of that, but I don't know if I want to write any other therapy things, since I really don't know what goes on in there, even though I've been told. But, I dunno. Thank you for your ideas again! (hug)
Okay, I'm updating VERY soon. I think. But, since your reading this now, I've already updated. So, hopefully it WAS soon. Okay, I only have a few reviews left to reply to! Guess I should really go do that now....bye! I look forward to your future reviews! Thanks for this one! :)
P.S. Oh, I DON'T have any more reviews....huh. I thought I did. Oh, well. I guess I'll proof read my story now, and then, if my dad hasn't kicked me off yet, I'll update!
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"Marco. There you are."
Marco stood there paralyzed. He felt as if he couldn't' breathe. His father stepped out of the elevator and grabbed him by the arm.
"Come with me. Keep quiet."
Marco nodded shakily and allowed himself to be pulled back into the elevator.
"Push the button fag."
As Marco pushed the button for the first floor, he remembered that Dylan said he would be waiting outside for him.
-Oh god, I hope he got here on time. Oh please....-
Marco thought he had better give Dylan as much time as possible to get here, so he 'accidentally' pushed a few other buttons as well. His father glared at him suspiciously.
-Oh god, please Dylan, be out there. Please....-
After stopping at a few of the other floors that Marco had pressed, the elevator finally arrived at the first floor.
"Now, get out and walk to my car. Don't you dare disobey me."
"Y-yes sir."
As they left the building, Marco looked around desperately for Dylan's car, but he didn't see it.
-Nooo...please no. Dylan....-
His father sneered at him.
"To the car, now."
Marco nodded dejectedly, and began walking to his father's car. As soon as he opened the car door, he heard someone call his name.
"Marco! Wait!"
Marco turned around and saw Dylan climbing frantically out of his car.
"Dylan!"
Marco ran before his father could stop him and crashed into Dylan, wrapping his arms around his back. Dylan hugged his boyfriend tightly, who seemed as if he was trying to bury himself into Dylan's chest and disappear.
"Dylan, thank god, help me!" Marco sobbed into Dylan's chest.
"Shh, its okay kitten, I'm here."
Mr. Del Rossi stormed over, and Dylan let go of Marco and stepped in front of him.
"You! Get away from Marco, you fag!"
Dylan glared at Mr. Del Rossi. All the anger he had been feeling since Marco confessed everything to him came bursting forth. He stepped forward and punched Mr. Del Rossi as hard as he possibly could in the face. Mr. Del Rossi stumbled back holding his nose, blood seeping through his fingers.
"Leave. Marco. Alone."
Mr. Del Rossi glared viciously at Dylan, but walked back to his car. As he opened the door, he turned around.
"Marco! Come!"
Marco looked as if he didn't know what to do. His whole life he could never disobey his father, and he made as if to walk over.
"Marco," Dylan said sternly. "Don't."
Marco stopped, looking up at Dylan, and nodded.
"Marco, come here now!"
Dylan glared at Mr. Del Rossi.
"He's NOT coming. Ever."
Mr. Del Rossi stood for a minute, and then got into his car, slamming the door furiously and speeding off, nearly side-swiping a truck in the process.
As soon as he was sure Mr. Del Rossi was gone, Dylan turned to Marco and put his hands up, cupping Marco's face.
"It's okay Marco. Don't worry, he's gone. I won't let him do anything to hurt you."
Marco started crying and buried himself back in Dylan's chest.
"Oh god, I was so scared. He was on the elevator, and I pressed the buttons, but you still weren't here, and I thought-"
"Shh, I know baby. It's okay, it's okay...." Dylan whispered soothingly as he stroked Marco's hair. "It's all right."
After Marco had calmed down somewhat, they both walked to the car.
"Do you want to go home now?" Dylan asked.
Marco nodded and climbed in.
As they drove home, Dylan kept glancing over at Marco.
-God I wish there was something I could do. Those group therapy things say there isn't really much, but there's GOT to be. He's so miserable. God damn his father. I am going to kill him if he does anything again.-
Twenty minutes later they got home and went inside.
"I'm gonna go to bed."
"Okay Marco. Call me if you need anything."
Marco raised his eyebrow.
"Like what?"
"Um....hmm." Dylan furrowed his eyebrows, thinking.
"I don't know."
Marco laughed weakly.
"Dylan, I'm not dying, just a little shaken up. I can get up and get something if I want it."
Dylan nodded.
"Sorry. I just like to pretend that there's some way I can help you. I hate not being able to do anything at all."
Marco smiled and put his hand on Dylan's arm.
"You ARE helping Dylan, by being there for me. I couldn't possibly get through this without you."
Dylan smiled.
"All right."
Dylan leaned down and kissed Marco softly.
"Okay, good night. Err, afternoon. Um, sleep well."
Marco laughed and went upstairs, shaking his head. Dylan smiled, watching him walk.
-Good, I AM helping.-
"What are you smiling about?"
Dylan glanced over and sighed.
"Nothing, Paige."
Paige huffed and crossed her arms, causing Dylan to laugh.
"Dylan, is that you?" Mrs. Michalchuk called from the kitchen.
"Yeah."
"Could you come in here for a moment?"
Dylan hung his car keys up and walked to the kitchen, Paige trailing behind him.
"Paige, mom called ME."
Paige rolled her eyes.
"I know THAT. It probably means something's going on, and since nobody in this family seems to want to tell me anything lately, I'll just have to hear it first hand."
Dylan shook his head and kept walking.
"What's up mom?"
Mrs. Michalchuk turned around from the stove, where she was busy cooking some green beans(1).
"What happened today?"
"What do-"
"Something happened? What?" Paige interrupted.
Dylan and Mrs. Michalchuk looked at Paige for a second, and then turned back to eachother.
"What do you mean, mom?"
"I mean, did you run into Marco's father?"
Dylan raised his eyebrow.
"How do you know?"
"You ran into Marco's dad!?"
Mrs. Michalchuk sighed. "Mr. Del Rossi called here, screaming about you hitting him-"
"You hit him!?"
"-and something else, but I couldn't really understand him, his accent is so heavy, and I think he started yelling in Italian at some point."
"Why would he do that?" Paige asked.
They both looked at her again, but this time Dylan answered her.
"I dunno, Marco does that too. Whenever he's high on some emotion, he'll just start talking in Italian like it's completely normal. He doesn't even realize he's doing it." Dylan shrugged.
"Anyway," Mrs. Michalchuk said. "What happened?"
Dylan sat down.
"Well, I went to pick Marco up from therapy, and when I got there, Marco was getting into his father's car. I called him, and he ran up to me and started crying. Then his dad stormed over, yelling at me to let him go, I punched him, he yelled some more, we came home, and Marco went to bed. I don't know what happened before I got there, but I'm guessing not much."
"Oh. So, is Marco all right?"
"Yeah, I think so. He said he was just a little shaken up."
"Just a little shaken up?" Paige asked, raising an eyebrow.
Dylan nodded. "Yeah."
Paige shook her head.
"Whatever. Can I go now?"
Dylan looked at her incredulously.
"No one forced you to be here, Paige!"
Paige shrugged and left the kitchen.
-Hopefully that's all the interesting things they had to say....-
As she walked up the stairs and headed towards her room, Paige heard what sounded like someone crying. She walked over to the bathroom and put her ear to the door, and heard Marco sob again.
"Marco?" She asked, knocking on the door. When she got no answer, she tried the knob, but found it locked.
"Marco, can I come in?"
"H-hold on."
Paige heard what sounded like a Marco was digging through something, and then a cabinet door close. Then the door opened, revealing a tear-streaked Marco.
"What?"
Paige stepped forward.
"What are you doing in there?"
Marco looked around.
"Um, nothing." He stepped out of the bathroom, forcing Paige out also.
"Okaaay....look Marco, I know what happened today. And I know you can't just be 'a little shaken up'. Especially so soon after what happened. Come here." Paige grabbed Marco's left arm, causing him to pull it away quickly, grabbing on to it like he was in pain. Paige raised her eyebrow.
"Um, sorry. Just...where are we going?"
"To my room...."
Marco nodded and allowed Paige to lead the way. When they got in, Paige shut the door and walked over to her bed.
"Come sit down."
Marco obediently walked over and sat down next to Paige.
"So, Marco. Um, how are things going? With this...."
Marco shrugged.
"I'm fine."
Paige rolled her eyes.
"Marco, please. I know better than that. I was SO not fine afterwards. Please, talk to me."
Marco raised his eyes to meet hers, his lip trembling.
"Okay, so I'm not fine. I feel horrible. I could have done something to stop him. Or at least TRIED to. But no, I'm just a worthless little fag who can never stand up to anyone."
"Marco, this isn't your fault."
"Of course it is!"
"Marco...." Paige sighed, thinking. She knew what he was going through, obviously. She too had thought it was completely her fault, that she surely she could have done SOMEthing.
"Marco, do you think it was my fault when I was raped?"
"No, of course not!"
"How come?"
"Well, because you said no. You never wanted to have sex with him, and he was stronger than you, so you couldn't fight him off either."
"Okay, then so what makes this your fault?"
"You told him no, right? He's stronger than you are, right?"
"Well, yes, but, I let it go on for two weeks! I could've done something, like told somebody, or called the police, or killed myself sooner..." Marco said bitterly.
"Marco, so what? I had no intention of telling anybody, and I doubt I would have even if Dean kept on doing it. And, just for the record, killing yourself is not the solution."
Marco shook his head.
"I...I suppose you're right. But god, I just feel so worthless. So...so dirty, and just like I don't deserve to live."
"I know Marco, I felt exactly like that too. But you know, as long as you know it wasn't your fault, and you try your hardest to move on-and I mean move on, don't just try to forget about it, that never works- you'll slowly start feeling better, you'll start thinking about it less, and you won't feel worthless. You'll realize that it doesn't change who you are, and that you actually do deserve to live, and you'll be fine. Now, I'm not saying that you will ever be over it completely. I know I'm not. But you WILL learn to just get on with your life."
Marco sat there in awe.
"I-I never....thanks, Paige. I don't know what else to say. Just...thanks."
Paige smiled and hugged Marco.
"If you ever need to talk, just come to me. I've been through it all; I know exactly what's going through your head."
Marco smiled.
"Now, are you going to come eat dinner, or are you actually going to bed?"
"I guess I'll go eat."
Paige nodded.
"Okay. That'll make mom feel better. I swear, she thinks any of the world's problems can be solved by eating lasagna."
Marco laughed and stood up.
"Oh, Marco."
"Yeah?"
"Give me your hand."
Marco raised his eyebrow, but obediently held out held out his hand.
"No, your left hand."
Paige grabbed his hand, and started to pull up his sleeve, but Marco jerked his hand away.
"What are you doing!?"
Paige looked at Marco for a moment, then sighed.
"Marco, is there anything you want to tell me?"
Marco shook his head slowly. Paige just looked at him.
"Paige, what are you getting at?"
"Why can't I see your arm?"
"Why should you?"
Paige sighed, and opened her mouth to say something, but Marco just opened the door and left.
-Oh, he better not....-
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Marco was digging through his locker, trying to find his history book.
-Where the hell is it?-
Suddenly, a thick book fell out of the locker and landed directly on Marco's foot.
"Ow!"
Marco bent down and glared at his history book.
-Well, at least I found it.-
"Hey, Marco."
Marco turned around to see Jay and his gang standing behind him. Jay looked Marco up and down, taking in his attire.
"God, could you possibly be any more of a fag? Look at you...I bet you don't even have sperm(2)." Jay's friends all laughed obnoxiously. Marco looked down at the ground, willing Jay to go away.
"Oh, wait, that's right. Now you have your DAD'S, don't you(3)?" Marco snapped his head up, a look of confusion and hurt in his eyes. The whole gang started laughing, and walked away.
-How...? How do they...?-
Marco slammed his locker shut, leaving his history book lying on the ground, and ran through the halls until he got to Dylan's locker. Dylan was just closing it and heading off to class.
"Dylan!"
Dylan turned around and saw Marco skidding to a halt.
"Marco, what is it?"
"Dylan, Jay knows what happened! How can he possibly know?"
Dylan raised his eyebrow.
"Jay knows...what? How?"
"I don't know!"
Just then, Paige came up.
"Oh, Marco, there you are! I just heard Jay talking those freaks he hangs out with, and...I think he knows about your father!"
Marco nodded.
"Yeah, I know."
"B-but, how do they know?"
Marco shrugged.
"I have no idea. But, if my dad somehow finds out that somebody knows, he will so kill me."
"Well, Marco, there is a way around that." Dylan said hesitantly.
"What?"
"Well, my parents were talking to me the other day, and they really think that you should press charges."
"What!? No way? I couldn't possibly do that!"
"Marco," Paige said. "You really should. I know it will be hard, but your father did something terrible, and he needs to be punished. And then, you can officially move in with us, 'cause right now, this is just like a really long sleepover. Your dad could make you go home anytime."
Marco stared at her.
"H-he could?"
Paige nodded.
"My parents don't officially have custody over you. But if you bring this to court, and they find your dad guilty, then you can live with us."
"But, what if they don't find him guilty?"
Paige sighed.
"Well, they shouldn't say he's innocent. I mean...I don't know."
"Marco," Dylan grabbed Marco's hand. "You really should do this. Really."
"B-but...."
"Marco, you have too. He will eventually come and get you, and we can't legally do anything about it."
Marco started crying.
"I don't want him to come get me!" He sobbed, putting his head in his hands.
"I know kitten. That's why you have to do this."
Marco looked at Dylan, then looked at Paige.
"It really is for the best." Paige said quietly.
Marco stared at the ground for a few moments. Then he looked back up at Paige and Dylan, and nodded.
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Okay, I know this wasn't exactly the longest chapter ever, but, whatever. Umm....I don't really have anything to say right now. Oh, except I can't wait to see next week's Degrassi!!!!!!!!!!!!
(1)My mom has been obsessed with making green beans lately, so....yeah. Just thought ya'll should know that.
(2)Yeah, that's from the Bubble Boy, incase you didn't know. I love that movie!
(3)Uh! Isn't that so mean of Jay to say! Poor Marco....and just so you know, Jay found out about Marco's dad because his parents make him go to therapy, you know, to 'straighten him out', and his therapist is Ms. Bregar. While Jay was there, Ms. Bregar went to the bathroom, leaving him there, and so he went through her stuff and found her notes on Marco. See, she knows who raped him, because the Michalchuks told her.... Yeah. It wasn't some big important thing in the story, it just was able to lead up to Marco realizing he needs to press charges, so if it doesn't make any sense, just don't worry about it.
Okay, people, I got to thinking how, if I suddenly died, I'd never be able to update again, and then you'd all be super-pissed and never know why I stopped. So, if I never update again, don't get mad. (Get glad! Sorry....) Just be sad because I died....oh, and the same goes for you, Melissa. If I never speak to you again, it's because I died, so I want you to know, I love our chats. You're practically the only person I ever get to talk to, and you're so funny. As soon as we get off, I'm already looking forward to talking to you again. Sorry everyone, don't mean to get all emotional....I just am. :) So, um, just wanted you all to know that! Is that depressing? I think it would be horrible if I died because I couldn't update? Of course, it's not the updating; it's everyone thinking mean thoughts about me....um, yeah. ANYway....
Okay, not many people voted, but I still have results for "Who will be the next to lose their virginity?" So here they are!
Marco/Dylan- 3
Jimmy/Hazel- 1
Liberty(?)- 1
Wow, a whole five votes! Lol Oh, well. But, everyone, you have to vote for this one that anjel919 also thought of, because I really like it.
Who will be the next gay couple?
Ashley/Ellie
Spinner/Sean
Everybody else....
Hee, I like this poll. VOTE! If you vote, you get a shirtless hug from either Marco or Dylan, whoever you want. Oh, and if you're a straight guy, or a gay girl, or bi and you want a girl, then you get, um.... Paige or Ellie. I like them....