Chapter 2 You Love Me. . . You love Me Not
I'm late. Oh I just can't be late but let's face it I'm late for the first time. Well that's kind of a lie but the others times I had good reasons but this time I don't have a good excuse. This is just great Paige is going to have a fit and it will be one more reason to hate me. I love cheer but I really don't care if I go today because I don't want to be judged by the girls. You know wit h with the whole thing about Craig and me and I know there are rumors being spread already but it isn't a rumor. It's true! I run into the gym and they're already practicing. I even missed the warm-ups so now I'm not just late but super late. This day has gone completely wrong and is getting worse by the minute.
"Sorry I'm late. I just well actually just lost track of time."
"Ah well it happens, hun. It's no big deal. Really! Just warm-up and then you can join us when you're done." Paige said with a smile. An actual smile that wasn't forced but just out of pure kindness.
"Alright." That was strange. Unheard of! Paige being reasonable and understanding is well not a Paige way to act. After I warm up not all that great I go and join everybody else. Wonder what's on the agenda today.
"Hello girls! You've done a great job today. I have big news just the biggest. Next week we have a competition against ten other schools so we have to practice a lot this week so we'll be having practice everyday after school for four hours. I know it's a lot but our goal is to win." Paige said.
"So you mean on the weekends too?" I asked hoping to hear a no because that is my only time relax.
"Yeah that's some bad news that I was about to bring up but don't worry it's only for two hours so that shouldn't ruin your whole day but don't think of it as work think of as fun!" Somebody took a perky pill today. "Yeah Hazel."
"Um will we be throwing any fund raisers?" Hazel asked.
"Thanks for reminding me. In fact we will. Since it's in the middle of winter we can't have a car wash so we'll be having a bakery sale. Do we have any volunteers?" I think to myself why not? I raise my hand.
"Okay Manny and me will be in charge and it would be really great of the rest of you to bring all kind of goodies. Okay everybody get to practicing the routine I taught you today. Hey Manny let's talk about the fund raiser." Paige said.
"Sure so what do you want me to do?"
"Well you know make some colorful and eye catching signs to advertise and you can always flirt the guys into buying something. Us girls have to use our charm for something."
"Yeah well I can do that. Sorry for being late today. I still kind of feel guilty. Things have just been weird lately."
"Yeah is everything else okay? Today you seemed a little distracted."
"It's one of those Mondays. What can I say?"
"I hate to be nosey and really hate getting into others people's business but. . ." I laugh. She's a born comedian and doesn't even know it. "Don't laugh! It's true well half the time. Anyway did something happen between you and Craig at my party?"
"Wouldn't you just love to know? I mean you are the gossip princess of this school."
"Manny stop the act! I'm only asking you a simple question and I won't tell anybody. It's just between us." Paige said and sounded pretty sincere.
"Honestly?"
"Yeah completely! So come on hun give me the details."
"Something did happen at your party so there I told you. Moving on shall we?"
"No we're not cuz that's way to brief. I heard from my sugabear and Marco that you two kissed. I don't know how I missed that."
"Craig made the first move and I stopped him. I promise! He was cheating on Ashley with me and now wherever I go he's there. He's like my stalker and it's beginning to freak me out."
"You and Craig are dating."
"Duh that's just what I said but not anymore. He's a jerk."
"Okay well sorry that you lost your friends and boyfriend over this whole secret relationship."
"You don't hate me?" I asked thinking that she would hate me because if I were somebody else I would kind of hate me.
"No! I mean I'm not saying it is right but we are still friends." Then she walked away. Another shocker! This one goes in the books! Oh my gosh cheer went by really fast today and I'm excited about the fundraiser, which gives me excuse to be busy so I won't feel so lonely. I don't want to be late to dinner but I wouldn't be shocked if I was after all I was for a lot of other things today. I can't wait to go home and see my lovely family who love me and don't judge me.
"Hey Manny."
"Ashley is that you?"
"Have I have changed?" Ashley asked sarcastically.
"No, so is there anything you want to tell me?" I said knowing that this was going to get ugly.
"Oh Manny stop playing dumb, okay. I heard about you and Craig secretly dating. I just can't believe you. Have you lost all common sense with you virginity? Thanks to you our relationship is over. So whose boyfriend are you planning to steal now?" She yelled. Ouch that hurt but I didn't want her to know that.
"Well don't blame this all on me. I'm glad he finally told you but if you want him back you can have him because we are over. He lied to both of us okay so maybe you should consider this a favor and I don't deserve all this back talk."
"I wouldn't want that jerk back especially since it wasn't even him who told me. I had to hear all of this from Marco and besides that he's crazy in love with you. Why? I don't know because I don't know what he sees in you. Would it hurt you to put some clothes? I mean all the girls are doing it."
"You can keep telling me off but I won and not you. You're just jealous. Face the facts Ashley and move on so you can do me and yourself a favor."
"You better watch your back Manuella Santos."
"Whatever. I'm not going to stick around for this. I got to go." I said and walked away. I understand her being mad and all but she should be mad at Craig and not me. He's supposed to be her boyfriend who loves her but now she knows how it feels to get heartbroken. My life use to be perfect but now it's not. Ugh I'm mad at the world right now. Why can't things just go my way? I just need a friend quick so I can tell them how I'm feeling and so they could give me some kind of advice. I have a family but I can't talk to them about this because they wouldn't understand especially my father. If he found out about Craig and me he would probably kick me out of the house and would deny the fact that I'm his daughter and just be ashamed that raised a daughter like me. No there has been enough drama today and I don't need anymore from my family. I go home and open the door and the first thing I hear is yelling and it's coming from the kitchen. I walk in and there is mom and dad arguing. This is my house. Isn't it? Mom drops a plate on the floor and then dad yells at her more.
"Mom, Dad is everything okay?" I ask wondering if they heard me because they didn't answer but just continue yelling. I ask them even louder.
"Mom, Dad do you hear me?" Mom stops almost crying but she wipes her eyes and puts on a smile but a phony smile and I'm not fooled by it.
"Hello sweetie! How was you day?" Dad asked.
"It could've been better. How was yours?"
"Fine. Everything's fine. Your dad's fine and I'm fine." Mom answers. She's a bad liar.
"Mom, Dad I'm not stupid and not a child so can you please explain to me why you are yelling?"
"Oh honey we weren't yelling because we aren't mad with each other. We just had a little miscommunication. Nothing serious!"
"Ah huh sure. Okay I'm only your daughter why do I need to know?" I say. Maybe they are just stressed. I know I am and maybe everybody is just having a bad day.
"You might want to get washed up because dinner will be ready soon."
I run upstairs to see if my brother is home which he probably is since
he's still on winter break and doesn't have a social life or
girlfriend. Maybe he could tell me more about dad and mom' s fight
because I'm pretty sure he heard them. The walls in our house are so
thin that you could hear my dad snoring at night even if he's sleeping
downstairs. I knock on his door but nobody answers so I just open the
door and nobody's there. Where is he? Then I find an envelope on his
bed and it's ripped with Steven on the front and a heart around it.
Steve getting a love letter from a girl has never occurred before.
Maybe in his dreams but never in the real world. I open it up just to
make sure if I really seeing what I think what I'm seeing. I read it
out loud.
Hey Honey! Saw you today at school. I miss you already. Why don't we get together tonight? Say about 7:00! Meet me at the Dot! Can't wait to see you again.
Love Christy
Has the world gone mad? Does God want me to be lonely? What is going on? Maybe I'm dreaming. Ah how I wish but I don't think wishing will help me right now. I need a miracle but is that too much to ask? Only God knows and I my mom always said that he has a plan for everybody and knows what's best for us. I need to know what's best for me.
Okay I finished writing this late at night so excuse the spelling errors if there are any. I hate reminding you to R&R but just a reminder R&R! Ah I know you're probably annoyed by now but I want to know your opinion . Please do not give me too much harsh reviews. Ahh now you probably will flame me. I better just stop now so I won't annoy you anymore! Okay bye!
I'm late. Oh I just can't be late but let's face it I'm late for the first time. Well that's kind of a lie but the others times I had good reasons but this time I don't have a good excuse. This is just great Paige is going to have a fit and it will be one more reason to hate me. I love cheer but I really don't care if I go today because I don't want to be judged by the girls. You know wit h with the whole thing about Craig and me and I know there are rumors being spread already but it isn't a rumor. It's true! I run into the gym and they're already practicing. I even missed the warm-ups so now I'm not just late but super late. This day has gone completely wrong and is getting worse by the minute.
"Sorry I'm late. I just well actually just lost track of time."
"Ah well it happens, hun. It's no big deal. Really! Just warm-up and then you can join us when you're done." Paige said with a smile. An actual smile that wasn't forced but just out of pure kindness.
"Alright." That was strange. Unheard of! Paige being reasonable and understanding is well not a Paige way to act. After I warm up not all that great I go and join everybody else. Wonder what's on the agenda today.
"Hello girls! You've done a great job today. I have big news just the biggest. Next week we have a competition against ten other schools so we have to practice a lot this week so we'll be having practice everyday after school for four hours. I know it's a lot but our goal is to win." Paige said.
"So you mean on the weekends too?" I asked hoping to hear a no because that is my only time relax.
"Yeah that's some bad news that I was about to bring up but don't worry it's only for two hours so that shouldn't ruin your whole day but don't think of it as work think of as fun!" Somebody took a perky pill today. "Yeah Hazel."
"Um will we be throwing any fund raisers?" Hazel asked.
"Thanks for reminding me. In fact we will. Since it's in the middle of winter we can't have a car wash so we'll be having a bakery sale. Do we have any volunteers?" I think to myself why not? I raise my hand.
"Okay Manny and me will be in charge and it would be really great of the rest of you to bring all kind of goodies. Okay everybody get to practicing the routine I taught you today. Hey Manny let's talk about the fund raiser." Paige said.
"Sure so what do you want me to do?"
"Well you know make some colorful and eye catching signs to advertise and you can always flirt the guys into buying something. Us girls have to use our charm for something."
"Yeah well I can do that. Sorry for being late today. I still kind of feel guilty. Things have just been weird lately."
"Yeah is everything else okay? Today you seemed a little distracted."
"It's one of those Mondays. What can I say?"
"I hate to be nosey and really hate getting into others people's business but. . ." I laugh. She's a born comedian and doesn't even know it. "Don't laugh! It's true well half the time. Anyway did something happen between you and Craig at my party?"
"Wouldn't you just love to know? I mean you are the gossip princess of this school."
"Manny stop the act! I'm only asking you a simple question and I won't tell anybody. It's just between us." Paige said and sounded pretty sincere.
"Honestly?"
"Yeah completely! So come on hun give me the details."
"Something did happen at your party so there I told you. Moving on shall we?"
"No we're not cuz that's way to brief. I heard from my sugabear and Marco that you two kissed. I don't know how I missed that."
"Craig made the first move and I stopped him. I promise! He was cheating on Ashley with me and now wherever I go he's there. He's like my stalker and it's beginning to freak me out."
"You and Craig are dating."
"Duh that's just what I said but not anymore. He's a jerk."
"Okay well sorry that you lost your friends and boyfriend over this whole secret relationship."
"You don't hate me?" I asked thinking that she would hate me because if I were somebody else I would kind of hate me.
"No! I mean I'm not saying it is right but we are still friends." Then she walked away. Another shocker! This one goes in the books! Oh my gosh cheer went by really fast today and I'm excited about the fundraiser, which gives me excuse to be busy so I won't feel so lonely. I don't want to be late to dinner but I wouldn't be shocked if I was after all I was for a lot of other things today. I can't wait to go home and see my lovely family who love me and don't judge me.
"Hey Manny."
"Ashley is that you?"
"Have I have changed?" Ashley asked sarcastically.
"No, so is there anything you want to tell me?" I said knowing that this was going to get ugly.
"Oh Manny stop playing dumb, okay. I heard about you and Craig secretly dating. I just can't believe you. Have you lost all common sense with you virginity? Thanks to you our relationship is over. So whose boyfriend are you planning to steal now?" She yelled. Ouch that hurt but I didn't want her to know that.
"Well don't blame this all on me. I'm glad he finally told you but if you want him back you can have him because we are over. He lied to both of us okay so maybe you should consider this a favor and I don't deserve all this back talk."
"I wouldn't want that jerk back especially since it wasn't even him who told me. I had to hear all of this from Marco and besides that he's crazy in love with you. Why? I don't know because I don't know what he sees in you. Would it hurt you to put some clothes? I mean all the girls are doing it."
"You can keep telling me off but I won and not you. You're just jealous. Face the facts Ashley and move on so you can do me and yourself a favor."
"You better watch your back Manuella Santos."
"Whatever. I'm not going to stick around for this. I got to go." I said and walked away. I understand her being mad and all but she should be mad at Craig and not me. He's supposed to be her boyfriend who loves her but now she knows how it feels to get heartbroken. My life use to be perfect but now it's not. Ugh I'm mad at the world right now. Why can't things just go my way? I just need a friend quick so I can tell them how I'm feeling and so they could give me some kind of advice. I have a family but I can't talk to them about this because they wouldn't understand especially my father. If he found out about Craig and me he would probably kick me out of the house and would deny the fact that I'm his daughter and just be ashamed that raised a daughter like me. No there has been enough drama today and I don't need anymore from my family. I go home and open the door and the first thing I hear is yelling and it's coming from the kitchen. I walk in and there is mom and dad arguing. This is my house. Isn't it? Mom drops a plate on the floor and then dad yells at her more.
"Mom, Dad is everything okay?" I ask wondering if they heard me because they didn't answer but just continue yelling. I ask them even louder.
"Mom, Dad do you hear me?" Mom stops almost crying but she wipes her eyes and puts on a smile but a phony smile and I'm not fooled by it.
"Hello sweetie! How was you day?" Dad asked.
"It could've been better. How was yours?"
"Fine. Everything's fine. Your dad's fine and I'm fine." Mom answers. She's a bad liar.
"Mom, Dad I'm not stupid and not a child so can you please explain to me why you are yelling?"
"Oh honey we weren't yelling because we aren't mad with each other. We just had a little miscommunication. Nothing serious!"
"Ah huh sure. Okay I'm only your daughter why do I need to know?" I say. Maybe they are just stressed. I know I am and maybe everybody is just having a bad day.
"You might want to get washed up because dinner will be ready soon."
I run upstairs to see if my brother is home which he probably is since
he's still on winter break and doesn't have a social life or
girlfriend. Maybe he could tell me more about dad and mom' s fight
because I'm pretty sure he heard them. The walls in our house are so
thin that you could hear my dad snoring at night even if he's sleeping
downstairs. I knock on his door but nobody answers so I just open the
door and nobody's there. Where is he? Then I find an envelope on his
bed and it's ripped with Steven on the front and a heart around it.
Steve getting a love letter from a girl has never occurred before.
Maybe in his dreams but never in the real world. I open it up just to
make sure if I really seeing what I think what I'm seeing. I read it
out loud.
Hey Honey! Saw you today at school. I miss you already. Why don't we get together tonight? Say about 7:00! Meet me at the Dot! Can't wait to see you again.
Love Christy
Has the world gone mad? Does God want me to be lonely? What is going on? Maybe I'm dreaming. Ah how I wish but I don't think wishing will help me right now. I need a miracle but is that too much to ask? Only God knows and I my mom always said that he has a plan for everybody and knows what's best for us. I need to know what's best for me.
Okay I finished writing this late at night so excuse the spelling errors if there are any. I hate reminding you to R&R but just a reminder R&R! Ah I know you're probably annoyed by now but I want to know your opinion . Please do not give me too much harsh reviews. Ahh now you probably will flame me. I better just stop now so I won't annoy you anymore! Okay bye!