Dangerous To Know
Rating (up to PG-13 only): PG-13
Any warnings to readers (e.g. slash, other ships)? OotP spoiler like WHOA, and very angsty
Summary: OotP spoiler! One-Shot: Harry's been distant since Sirius died. When Hermione confronts him, feelings he didn't know were there start to come out. Song Fic to Hilary Duff's 'Dangerous To Know.'
Disclaimer: I own NOTHING! Not the characters, not the song- well, you get the picture.
Some secrets need to be kept
Some stories should never be told
Some reasons shouldn't be understood
They just might turn your blood cold
"Harry, it's not healthy to keep everything inside! Why can't you talk to me?" Hermione pleaded with Harry, "Please! You're scaring me." Tears rolled down her face. They sat, facing eachother, in Buckbeak's room at Number 12 Grimmauld place. "Ever since Sirius died, you've just, well... Given up." Now it was Harry's turn to cry. Hermione had never seen Harry cry.
"It's not really about Sirius anymore," said Harry quietly. "Well, that's part of it, but there's so much more."
"Tell me, Harry."
Who needs all the answers?
Who takes all the chances?
Who said the truth's gonna save you?
When the truth can be dangerous
"I can't, Hermione."
Like the way I feel
It's all right to steal
What I need from you
Do what I have to do
Say what I have to say
Go where I have to go
And that's dangerous
Dangerous to know
"I can't, Hermione," Harry repeated. "For so many reasons, I just... Can't."
"Why not?" Hermione cried softly.
"Because I'm scared!" Harry burst out.
"What on earth are you scared of?" Hermione said, looking quite alarmed. "Don't you trust me?"
"Of course I trust you! I trust you more than anybody else in the whole world. I really can't involve you. It's too much for me to ask of you."
I was a law onto myself
When you found me out on my own
Together nothing was sacred
Together we were alone
"In that case, I have only one question to ask." Harry nodded, and Hermione continued. "What makes you think any of us are better for it? You said it last summer, don't you remember? That it's better to know what going on, even if it isn't pleasant? Do you think I'm too weak to know what's hurting you so much?"
Who needs all the questions?
Who lost their direction?
Who said a lie's gonna break you?
When a lie could be dangerous
"I can't lie to you," Harry whispered. "Not anymore. Telling you everything would be risking your life. I won't do that. I won't put you in danger again, especially after what happened," Harry sobbed, "at the ministry. You almost died, and I was the only one to blame."
"It's not your fault, Harry!" Hermione cried, "I'd never blame you! I admire you so much for what you did. It was brave, and, well... To see that there's someone you love so much you'd risk everything to make sure they're alright."
"What do you think I'm doing right now?"
"What do you mean?" Hermione asked, quite confused.
Like the way I feel
It's all right to steal
What I need from you
Do what I have to do
Say what I have to say
Go where I have to go
And that's dangerous
Dangerous to know
"Don't you think that it would be a whole lot better for me if I told you everything everything I knew? I'm sure I'd be alot better for it. I refuse to risk your safety for my own peice of mind. That's not only unfair, it's what Voldemort would do. I'm not Voldemort, Hermione, I won't let myself be like him."
Hermione threw her arms around Harry, sobbing. Harry hugged back, harder than he had ever hugged anyone. "I don't want to hurt anymore, Hermione. I just want the hurt to go away."
Hermione pulled away slowly, but moved in once again, and pressed her lips to his. After a few moments, Harry jerked away.
"Hermione! We can't do this! I- I can't do this!"
"And why not?" Hermione asked pointedly.
"Because everybody I've ever loved has been taken away from me."
"Harry, I'll never be taken away from you!"
"I'd like to see you try and stop Voldemort when he comes after you!"
"As if I'm not already a target! I'm your muggleborn best friend- of course he's going to come after me. I won't let the fear of dying stop me from living. That's what he wants, Harry. That's what he wants us to do."
Ignorance is bliss
You're safe when you resist
There's no safety in a kiss like this
It's dangerous
So kiss me
Kiss me
Hermione kissed Harry once more. This time, he did not pull away.
Like the way I feel
It's all right to steal
What I need from
Do what I have to do
Say what I have to say
Go where I have to go
And that's dangerous
Dangerous
Like the way I feel
It's all right to steal
What I need from
Do what I have to do
Say what I have to say
Go where I have to go
And that's dangerous
Dangerous to know
"Maybe one day I'll tell you, but not today," Harry said as they broke for air.
Some secrets need to be kept
THE END