Disclaimer: I do not own BTVS or Atvs If I did thing would be different, and maybe it might suck more.
Rating: this part is R, for the language.
Spoilers: Anything from Season 6 BTVS and 3 Atvs.
A/n: This story is about what could happen after the season four of Angel and season 7 of Buffy. So it is sometimes in the future so that when the new seasons begin I do not get spoiled and find myself unable to write because of that. Anyway I hope you enjoy and that you review my story. Tchao.
Cordelia POV
I wish I could wake up every morning like this, Warm and Comfy. I guess it is not everyday that you feel good in your skin and that you know that in a 72 hrs and 45 min you will wed the man, no vampire of your dreams.
I roll to Angel's side hoping to snuggle with him just a little bit more before I have to get out of bed an open the agency. I just feel empty air. I open my eyes and sit on my bed. Where is He? It's morning. I look at my watch. 9 AM, actually. Maybe he is making me breakfast. That is so sweet. For someone who did not need to eat regular food Angel was a great cook, which was good for me because Queen C cannot cook. I smile at myself it has been a while since I heard that name. Not since Sunnydale.
I need to start getting ready. I'll meet my Angel downstairs. Sunnydale. We had a visit from them yesterday. It was awkward. Seeing Willow and Xander. I mean I knew they were coming. I invited them but I had hope they had not come. The slayer had been invited to and I was so relieved that she had decline the invitation. The thought of him seeing her would have been too much for me. I know Angel loves me but I always feel a sense of insecurity when I hear him same the name Buffy. Why should I right? He loves me. He almost gave up his life so I could come back from my assignment as a higher being. Than why do I feel so unsure when it comes to those two? When Willow and Xander had gotten, I could not help the side glance at Angel. I mean the last time he had seen Willow was almost two years ago when we had come back from Pylea.
I can still remember the look of utter despair on Angel's face. The fact that when he had seen Willow he had understood as if he had felt that she had been no longer of this world. He had screamed her name and hugged Willow. I was afraid that seeing Willow might bring back these memories and that I would loose him. To what? to a memory? " Get a grip Cordelia!" I said to myself, as I walk into the bathroom.
I think I spend too much time thinking. But that is all I can do now that I am in the shower. I should be deliriously happy today. I was a few minutes ago till I started thinking about Sunnydale. "Who would have thought that Cordelia Chase would be marrying in a few day Angel." I wonder what last name I will have, Cordelia O'Connor maybe? I wonder if there is anything between Xander and Willow? I mean they seemed very in sync last night. Or maybe because I am happy I want everyone to be. Wasn't because of they were so in sync that you let go of Xander? Or was it the competition between Xander's love for the Slayer and his love for Willow. I hate where my thoughts are going. It wasn't like I was in love with him. I am in love now. With Angel.
Where is he? I can't stand waiting anymore and I am dress. I walk out of the room he and I share. I stop when I get in front of Connor's door. His door is open. I sneak a pick and notice the kid is not there. Angel and him must be having breakfast together. I hope that Connor has by now notice that his father loves him and that he is not mad at him for locking him in that box under the sea. Angel is so nice he forgave the kid. I on the other hand have not. I now I should not but I can't help but think that what would have happen if Wesley had not find out what had happened to Angel and confronted Connor with the truth.
Before I enter the kitchen I put on my happy smile and enter. "Hi sweetie" I cry.
" Hello Cordy " answer Gunn and Connor. No Angel.
"Where is Angel?" I ask. They both look at me as if I had just spoken Chinese or something.
"Shouldn't I ask that question?" ask Gunn popping a toast in his mouth. " Haven't seen him yet, I did notice that his car was not there?" He is not here where could he be? Buffy. Nah he doesn't know she is in town. Or does he? I walk out of the dining room and run to Angel's office. Maybe he got a call last night and went out to answer the call. " "Did you not turn off the ringer of the phones last night?" says a tiny voice inside of me. I had turn off the phones last night after Lorne had call.
I did not want to think about that call form the Host last night. Angel and I were getting ready to have a very romantic evening in our room when the phone had ringed. Angel was in the bathroom so I had picked up and Lorne was the one calling. HE had been talking about the slayer being in Caritas getting drunk and that she was singing and that there had been a mistake and that Angel needed to come now to the bar. I had told him that I would tell Angel about it as soon as possible. When he had come out of the bathroom with his towel around his waist I had forgotten. "Yeah keep telling yourself that!' said the voice in my head. I had not forgotten. I had been so happy about Angel and me together. Why did she have to come to my town and get drunk? I had been furious when Lorne had told me of her presence. SO she was getting drunk, she was old enough to know the consequences. She was not a minor. Why should my fiancée run and rescue her? Why should he leave my bed to be with her? I had not said anything and went to bed. What if Lorne had call back? Cordelia you are being silly, He must just be out on an errand or something. Maybe he went to get a gift for me. Yeah that was it, no way was he with Miss I-saved-the-world-a-thousand-time. No way.
Now that I am calm and that I have convinced myself that Angel was not with Buffy. "Hey we have some messages?" I hear gone say. "This one is from Angel" I run outside to the front desk but what I hear freezes me on the spot.
"Guys…it's me. I am at the hospital right now. Buffy…She got hurt. Her state is critical I'll keep you posted. I am going to stay there till Dawn, Willow and Xander come up." Gunn looks at me and comes near me. Oh my god. He is with her? Screams one voice inside of me, while another is saying, "What have I done?"
I feel Gunn's arms around me. I want to push him away but I can't. My brain is too busy fighting itself to make my muscle move. I hear him comforting me. I almost want to laugh. He thinks I am upset because the slayer I in the Hospital. I want to scream and tell him that what I am fucking upset about is that my future husband is by the side of his ex-girlfriend. He went to hell by her hand; he suffered a hundred years there still loving her. I was upset because he was fucking by her side. Calm down Cordy. I hear Connor say something. I try to focus. The teenager is asking about Buffy. He doesn't know about her. We never mentioned her name here while he was around. Does she even know about him? I think willow might have told her about it.
"Maybe we should go?" ask Connor. He is looking at me. " Yes we should" I manage to reply. Gunn letting go of me proposes to leave a note for Fred and Wesley to meet us there. If Buffy thought that she could pretend to be hurt to get my man she was Fucking wrong, I thought picking my bag and walking out in the sun.