It's been so long since I have been this relaxed and warm. I don't want to leave the comfort of his arms. I turn my head to look at the man who is holding me close. We are at the beach watching the sunset. I love that.
I like this place. The smell of the ocean, the feel of the sand between my toes, this is what heaven is made of. I lean against his body, trying to bury myself even more in his chest. That is where I should always be.
"My Angel" I whisper looking in his eyes. A small smile pulls his lip.
" Wherever you go I will follow, I love you Ionúin" I like it when he calls me beloved in his native tongue.
" I love you" I say as I turn to face him fully. I look at his chocolate eyes and wonder how I go on without him. I have never loved someone as much as I love him. Not that I have not tried to love other people. But when it comes to him I don't think straight. He loves me I can read it in his gaze. He makes me feel whole; with him I am strong and weak. He is my solace. I tip toe on my feet as I pull him down towards me for a kiss.
"Angel!" comes a strangle voice behind me. Who would come here? I feel him freeze in my arms as he head shoots up at the sound of the voice.
I turn around to look and it's my turn to freeze. How did she get here this is my haven. Her now blond hair is framing her teary eyed face. Her white dress makes her look like an angel. She looks so hurt.
I feel Angels arms let go of me as he takes a few steps towards the newcomer. He stops. He looks at me than at her. Indecisive. New love versus Old love. Who will he choose? The one he loved on sight or the one he learned to love. His slayer or his seer. Should he choose the one who sent him to hell or the one who turned into a demon so she could be with him?
"Cordy!" As I hear him say that name, I feel my heart shatter. I look at him as he walks to her. I let myself slip on the sand as I watch him take the former May Queen in his arms. I watch them disappear. I hug myself. I am alone. Tears are flowing from my eyes as I lay myself on the sand. I look at the sky. Night has fallen and now I am surrounded by darkness. I don't care. He chose her. I always thought that I would be able to bring him happiness. Well I did once and it almost cost me the world. I always that no matter what in the end we would end up together, even after I found out about Connor, I still had hoped for us. I still thought that we had a chance that our love wasn't doom, but I was wrong.
Angel, my angel has found someone. Someone he loves and loves him back. I wish him happiness. I don't hate her. I can't she deserves to be loved and taken care of and I know that Angel can do that for her. I wish them a happy life but I hope they can forgive me if I am not strong enough to see them be that happy. I was never one of those kids who like to share so they have to pardon me the fact that I can't take their happiness. I really want them to be happy but I can't help wish that he were with me. I am not strong enough to put on a happy face and drink Champaign at their wedding. Angel and Cordy. I refuse to pretend. So I'll stay here. In my haven. Even though he is gone. My champion, I will love you always.