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MIRANDA'S POV
It had been two weeks exactly since the last time I spoke or seen Gordo. My parents let me stay home from school since it was only two days before the Christmas break. I was clearly distraught, but once Christmas arrived my family's festivities kinda got my mind off of things.
My parent's were struggling with money since we moved back to Hillridge. So the rule was this year you could only buy 1 gift. My parents gave me a new C.D. player that I really wanted. I gave my parents a picture of the New Mexico sunrise which they loved. Instead of buying me a gift, my grandmother made me a quilt. I gave her a locket with me and Maria's pictures in it.
Accompanied with food (both traditional and non-traditional) and music my mind sort of wandered away from the pain I was feeling about everything.
Christmas came and went and slowly but surely, all I could think about was Gordo. I missed him so much, but every time I think about him I feel and think about the pain he caused me.
He tried to call me on several occasions but I never picked up the phone. Thank God for caller I.D.
Before I knew it, it was the New Year. Of course my family kept my mind off of things for a little bit. As I watched the ball drop I couldn't help but to think about Gordo. We were supposed to spend New Years together, but obviously those plans were cancelled.
Finally January 1st arrived, a new chance to start things over. A chance to forget about Gordo, Lizzie, and Jason. This was the perfect opportunity to get my mind off of what happened and move on. I mean it was Gordo who messed up not me. Why should I be crying myself to sleep every night because he jacked up and kissed Lizzie, and screwed up the dynamic of our relationship?
I mean if anything Gordo should be upset more than me because he's the one that forced me to break up with him...he should suffer just like he made me suffer.
Or maybe he already is and I don't know it.
No! Miranda don't feel sorry for him, he didn't think about your feelings when he started sucking face with Lizzie did he?
But he did look so pitiful when he was apologizing. Maybe he really didn't realize he was kissing her back. Whatever the case maybe me and Gordo are history and I just have to accept that. It's time for me to move on and that's that.
After declaring myself a new independent surviving woman, I set out to celebrate my new found freedom. I got myself ready to go to the Digital Bean since I hadn't been out the house in so long.
After showering, giving myself a much needed manicure and picking out the perfect outfit I was ready for my adventure back to civilization. I kissed my mom and told her my plans. She agreed it was about time for me to get out of the house and told me to enjoy myself.
I was really confident walking out my front door. But when I got outside I saw something really unexpected.
"Um.... Hey Miranda" said Gordo. He shuffled back and forth on his feet. I could tell he was nervous. He looked so cute when he was really nervous. Stop Miranda! Remember you're independent now. Get your focus back.
"What the hell are you doing here" I said kinda harshly.
He looked sorta surprised that I spoke to him that way but I had to keep my composure.
"I...I... was just dropping by because I bought your Christmas presents in advance before we broke up. And I was just dropping them off cause you deserve to have them. I tried calling you but you never picked up the phone, which is understandable" he said in one breath.
"Oh" was all I could muster up.
He moved closer to me. I wanted to step back but my feet wouldn't move.
"Listen Miranda, I know I messed up horribly but I was hoping that you would forgive me. I know there is probably no chance that we would ever get back together but it's killing me that we don't even talk anymore. I think about you constantly, all day everyday and it's killing me that I can't even talk to you let alone hold you. Anyway I was just saying all that to once again apologize for every thing and to give you your Christmas presents in hope that you will accept them from me" he said.
"Gordo I told you I already forgave you I just need the space you know" I said kinda chocked up.
"I understand" he said. He turned around and went to his dad's trunk to get out my gifts I assumed. I never really said I was going to accept them but I guess I had no choice now.
I went and sat up on the porch and waiting for his return. Once he came back I seen all these boxes wrapped in wrapping paper with bows every where. He placed all the gifts in front of me. Then he pulled an envelope out.
"Please read this after I leave" he said. He then gave me a kiss on my cheek. I felt that tingly sensation go through my whole body that I had gotten so used to. After he kissed me he jumped off my porch and went across the street to go home. I watched him walk in his house then I opened the envelope.
Inside was the bracelet I had given back to him when we broke up. I held the bracelet in my hand and I pulled the letter out that was also enclosed in the envelope. I opened the letter and began to read.
To my dearest Miranda,
I' m writing this letter because I just needed to get some things off my chest. The first thing is that I love you. You probably already now this but I'm going to continue to say it and tell you because you deserve that. Miranda I miss you so much. I miss your smile, I miss holding you in my arms, and I miss your laugh, the one that comes from deep in your soul. I miss the way your eyes are so intense. I miss your scent. Miranda I miss you period. I can't apologize enough for what I did to you. If there was one thing in my life I would take back it unquestionably would be that. I'm sorry for all the pain I caused you. I'm sorry for messing up our friendship as well as our relationship. I'm also sorry I messed up my friendship with Jason too. Lizzie is a whole other story. I told her I didn't want to see or talk to her for a long time. I know that is not much comfort for you but it's the best I can do for right now. About the gifts, I purchased everything that I knew you would really enjoy or at least I hope you enjoy them. Don't even think about not accepting them because I can't return a lot of it. Anyway once again I love you. I will always love you for today, tomorrow, yesterday, and forever. I hope one day you will talk to me again but until then I'm sorry and I hope you enjoy everything. We had some good times Miranda and I still have a small glimmer of hope that we will once again be in each others arms like it's supposed to be. That's why the bracelet is enclosed in this letter. Because I know that we are meant to be.
Love Always,
Gordo a.k.a Your Blue
P. S. I love you Beautiful :)!
I think Gordo knew this letter was going to have me crying. Just as soon as I thought I was miss independent he goes and hits my soft spot.
I wiped the tears from my eyes and picked the packages up and carried them to my room. After explaining to my mom what happened I began to open the gifts.
For an hour my mouth was wide open. Gordo really got me some great gifts. He gave me a guitar with a beginner's book included. On the guitar it had the letter M engraved on it. He left a post-it that said 'You better practice. I want to hear a new song at the end of the school year'. He gave me the complete Elvis box set of c.d's. Gordo gave me so many c.d.'s, they equaled 15 in all. He bought me two shirts that were actually cute. He bought me a new pair of red Converse. And he got me a manicure set.
Gordo thinks he knows me so well.
After throwing the wrapping paper away I noticed there was something else in the box. It was a video tape. I picked it up and put it in my v.c.r.
It was a collection of pictures and small videos that we had made back when we were in middle school. I couldn't take it no more. I just started crying. I know Gordo loves me but I also know I made the right decision about breaking up with him. We need time apart right now. I stopped the tape and I hung the bracelet on my lamp. I put all of my new things in the corner of the room. I love him so much that it kills me.
God why did he do this to me? I tried figuring out my feelings earlier now they are a mess. I absolutely have to get out the house now. I need fresh air to think about me and Gordo.
I washed my face and reapplied my make-up. And headed to the place I started to go before all of this.
Once I got to the Digital Bean, I noticed nothing had changed. I went and ordered a strawberry milkshake and sat at the counter to enjoy it and think about what to do.
I love Gordo but we can't be together now. I still am a little angry about the whole situation. I'm still mad at Gordo even though he is trying with some success to get me back. And I'm definitely still mad as hell at Lizzie. She had no right to go and kiss Gordo. That much I do know.
I sat there for about an hour trying to figure out what to do. I realized that this wasn't going to be settled in one day so I decided to go home. I paid for my milkshake and started walking home. I had my head down the whole time walking back home.
I turned the corner to my street and bumped into something really hard. I fell back but caught myself. I started to apologize then I realized who I accidentally bumped into. This can't be my luck. God is really testing me today.
"He...Hey Miranda" said Lizzie stuttering.
I just looked at her with hatred. And before I knew it, the two weeks of anger I had been suppressing came to a boil. I did the first thing that came to my mind and my heart. I slapped the hell out of her.
MIRANDA'S POV
It had been two weeks exactly since the last time I spoke or seen Gordo. My parents let me stay home from school since it was only two days before the Christmas break. I was clearly distraught, but once Christmas arrived my family's festivities kinda got my mind off of things.
My parent's were struggling with money since we moved back to Hillridge. So the rule was this year you could only buy 1 gift. My parents gave me a new C.D. player that I really wanted. I gave my parents a picture of the New Mexico sunrise which they loved. Instead of buying me a gift, my grandmother made me a quilt. I gave her a locket with me and Maria's pictures in it.
Accompanied with food (both traditional and non-traditional) and music my mind sort of wandered away from the pain I was feeling about everything.
Christmas came and went and slowly but surely, all I could think about was Gordo. I missed him so much, but every time I think about him I feel and think about the pain he caused me.
He tried to call me on several occasions but I never picked up the phone. Thank God for caller I.D.
Before I knew it, it was the New Year. Of course my family kept my mind off of things for a little bit. As I watched the ball drop I couldn't help but to think about Gordo. We were supposed to spend New Years together, but obviously those plans were cancelled.
Finally January 1st arrived, a new chance to start things over. A chance to forget about Gordo, Lizzie, and Jason. This was the perfect opportunity to get my mind off of what happened and move on. I mean it was Gordo who messed up not me. Why should I be crying myself to sleep every night because he jacked up and kissed Lizzie, and screwed up the dynamic of our relationship?
I mean if anything Gordo should be upset more than me because he's the one that forced me to break up with him...he should suffer just like he made me suffer.
Or maybe he already is and I don't know it.
No! Miranda don't feel sorry for him, he didn't think about your feelings when he started sucking face with Lizzie did he?
But he did look so pitiful when he was apologizing. Maybe he really didn't realize he was kissing her back. Whatever the case maybe me and Gordo are history and I just have to accept that. It's time for me to move on and that's that.
After declaring myself a new independent surviving woman, I set out to celebrate my new found freedom. I got myself ready to go to the Digital Bean since I hadn't been out the house in so long.
After showering, giving myself a much needed manicure and picking out the perfect outfit I was ready for my adventure back to civilization. I kissed my mom and told her my plans. She agreed it was about time for me to get out of the house and told me to enjoy myself.
I was really confident walking out my front door. But when I got outside I saw something really unexpected.
"Um.... Hey Miranda" said Gordo. He shuffled back and forth on his feet. I could tell he was nervous. He looked so cute when he was really nervous. Stop Miranda! Remember you're independent now. Get your focus back.
"What the hell are you doing here" I said kinda harshly.
He looked sorta surprised that I spoke to him that way but I had to keep my composure.
"I...I... was just dropping by because I bought your Christmas presents in advance before we broke up. And I was just dropping them off cause you deserve to have them. I tried calling you but you never picked up the phone, which is understandable" he said in one breath.
"Oh" was all I could muster up.
He moved closer to me. I wanted to step back but my feet wouldn't move.
"Listen Miranda, I know I messed up horribly but I was hoping that you would forgive me. I know there is probably no chance that we would ever get back together but it's killing me that we don't even talk anymore. I think about you constantly, all day everyday and it's killing me that I can't even talk to you let alone hold you. Anyway I was just saying all that to once again apologize for every thing and to give you your Christmas presents in hope that you will accept them from me" he said.
"Gordo I told you I already forgave you I just need the space you know" I said kinda chocked up.
"I understand" he said. He turned around and went to his dad's trunk to get out my gifts I assumed. I never really said I was going to accept them but I guess I had no choice now.
I went and sat up on the porch and waiting for his return. Once he came back I seen all these boxes wrapped in wrapping paper with bows every where. He placed all the gifts in front of me. Then he pulled an envelope out.
"Please read this after I leave" he said. He then gave me a kiss on my cheek. I felt that tingly sensation go through my whole body that I had gotten so used to. After he kissed me he jumped off my porch and went across the street to go home. I watched him walk in his house then I opened the envelope.
Inside was the bracelet I had given back to him when we broke up. I held the bracelet in my hand and I pulled the letter out that was also enclosed in the envelope. I opened the letter and began to read.
To my dearest Miranda,
I' m writing this letter because I just needed to get some things off my chest. The first thing is that I love you. You probably already now this but I'm going to continue to say it and tell you because you deserve that. Miranda I miss you so much. I miss your smile, I miss holding you in my arms, and I miss your laugh, the one that comes from deep in your soul. I miss the way your eyes are so intense. I miss your scent. Miranda I miss you period. I can't apologize enough for what I did to you. If there was one thing in my life I would take back it unquestionably would be that. I'm sorry for all the pain I caused you. I'm sorry for messing up our friendship as well as our relationship. I'm also sorry I messed up my friendship with Jason too. Lizzie is a whole other story. I told her I didn't want to see or talk to her for a long time. I know that is not much comfort for you but it's the best I can do for right now. About the gifts, I purchased everything that I knew you would really enjoy or at least I hope you enjoy them. Don't even think about not accepting them because I can't return a lot of it. Anyway once again I love you. I will always love you for today, tomorrow, yesterday, and forever. I hope one day you will talk to me again but until then I'm sorry and I hope you enjoy everything. We had some good times Miranda and I still have a small glimmer of hope that we will once again be in each others arms like it's supposed to be. That's why the bracelet is enclosed in this letter. Because I know that we are meant to be.
Love Always,
Gordo a.k.a Your Blue
P. S. I love you Beautiful :)!
I think Gordo knew this letter was going to have me crying. Just as soon as I thought I was miss independent he goes and hits my soft spot.
I wiped the tears from my eyes and picked the packages up and carried them to my room. After explaining to my mom what happened I began to open the gifts.
For an hour my mouth was wide open. Gordo really got me some great gifts. He gave me a guitar with a beginner's book included. On the guitar it had the letter M engraved on it. He left a post-it that said 'You better practice. I want to hear a new song at the end of the school year'. He gave me the complete Elvis box set of c.d's. Gordo gave me so many c.d.'s, they equaled 15 in all. He bought me two shirts that were actually cute. He bought me a new pair of red Converse. And he got me a manicure set.
Gordo thinks he knows me so well.
After throwing the wrapping paper away I noticed there was something else in the box. It was a video tape. I picked it up and put it in my v.c.r.
It was a collection of pictures and small videos that we had made back when we were in middle school. I couldn't take it no more. I just started crying. I know Gordo loves me but I also know I made the right decision about breaking up with him. We need time apart right now. I stopped the tape and I hung the bracelet on my lamp. I put all of my new things in the corner of the room. I love him so much that it kills me.
God why did he do this to me? I tried figuring out my feelings earlier now they are a mess. I absolutely have to get out the house now. I need fresh air to think about me and Gordo.
I washed my face and reapplied my make-up. And headed to the place I started to go before all of this.
Once I got to the Digital Bean, I noticed nothing had changed. I went and ordered a strawberry milkshake and sat at the counter to enjoy it and think about what to do.
I love Gordo but we can't be together now. I still am a little angry about the whole situation. I'm still mad at Gordo even though he is trying with some success to get me back. And I'm definitely still mad as hell at Lizzie. She had no right to go and kiss Gordo. That much I do know.
I sat there for about an hour trying to figure out what to do. I realized that this wasn't going to be settled in one day so I decided to go home. I paid for my milkshake and started walking home. I had my head down the whole time walking back home.
I turned the corner to my street and bumped into something really hard. I fell back but caught myself. I started to apologize then I realized who I accidentally bumped into. This can't be my luck. God is really testing me today.
"He...Hey Miranda" said Lizzie stuttering.
I just looked at her with hatred. And before I knew it, the two weeks of anger I had been suppressing came to a boil. I did the first thing that came to my mind and my heart. I slapped the hell out of her.