Hi! I started this chapter and suddenly found myself obsessed with finishing it, so I went ahead and finished it before I finished my chemistry homework. Also, I really wanted to make it up for that last short chapter. Please read and enjoy...
Kenshin looked at Kaoru from the corner of his eyes, afraid of direct contact. She's so beautiful. I'm going crazy. She was sitting in her bed, looking terribly tired. Her eyes had a hurt look about them that tore Kenshin's heart apart.
I wish I could make her smile. I love her, I need to tell her that. She must know that...
Silence.
I have to tell her.
Silence.
I don't want to lose her again.
Silence.
I love you Kaoru.
None of them talked, both waiting for the other to start first. The silence was killing them.
"Kenshin" Kaoru finally said.
Yes?!
"Hmmm?" was all what Kenshin could provide as a reply.
"I just wanted to...umm...uh" Kaoru mumbled, not finding the words she wanted to say, barely even remembering them.
Kenshin looked up and stared at her beautiful eyes as she struggled to put two words together and saw the amount of pain he had caused her. You're too good for me Kaoru Kamiya, I'm not worthy of you...
"I'm sorry" the words jumped out of his mouth.
Kaoru stopped mumbling and looked at him in surprise.
"Huh?" she asked.
I can't tell her, she must never know that I love her. I've caused her enough pain. The only decent thing left to do is to leave the Dojo and resume my wandering alone. It's the only way I can actually protect her...to be away from her, as far away as possible.
"I...I should've been more careful" Kenshin said in a fake calm voice, "It's all my fault that you got hurt and I want to thank you for saving my life".
Kaoru stared at him blankly.
"Now, I think that I have become too heavy a burden for you" Kenshin went on, his sweet awkward smile on, "I believe the only decent thing to do is to leave".
Kaoru gasped as her jaw dropped.
A knife twisted in Kenshin's heart.
He stood up and turned to leave.
Meanwhile, outside, Megumi, Sano and Yahiko were still fighting over the best spot to eavesdrop on Kenshin and Kaoru.
"Why are they so silent damn it?" Yahiko whispered from on the floor.
"Maybe they're talking too low for us to hear?!" Sano suggested, sitting onto Yahiko.
"Or maybe you two are making too much noise" Megumi suggested quietly, "Keep QUIET!"
"Shhhhhhh" Yahiko hushed in an urgent whisper, his index finger on his lips, "I think they're talking".
All three went silent and listened carefully.
Their eyes widened as they heard Kenshin speak about leaving.
"What?" Yahiko nearly screamed, but both Megumi and Yahiko slapped his mouth hard.
"He was supposed to confess his love and propose to her" Yahiko explained to Megumi.
"Kenshin is sure one weird freak" Sano said.
Back inside…
Kaoru watched Kenshin's back as he walked away, in horror. He could feel her eyes burn on his back, but he was glad that she couldn't see his face twisted in sorrow.
He was about to open the door when he suddenly remembered something and stopped. He took her hair ribbon out of his clothes and turned back to return it to her. At first, she thought that he might've changed his mind and was about to smile, but he merely put it in front of her on the floor and turned back to leave.
He was almost at the door when he heard her get up quickly and follow him. He froze involuntarily, wanting to run, but unable to.
"Kenshin" Kaoru said sternly.
Kenshin was turning to face her when...SLAP.
Outside, the three of them were listening with all their might.
"Was that a slap?" Megumi asked, shocked.
"Seemed very much like it!" Yahiko answered, in the same shocked tone as Megumi.
"Poor Kenshin", Sano said sympathetically, the slap he gave Kenshin earlier that day in his mind, "He's been getting a lot of these lately".
Megumi thought for a second. "What makes you think it was Kenshin who got slapped?" Megumi thought worriedly.
All three of them returned to eavesdrop harder than before.
Kenshin stood there facing Kaoru, his hand on his scarred cheek, wanting to cry on the outside like he did in the inside. Kaoru, one hand on her shot side, the other in mid air after contact with Kenshin's cheek, stood panting.
"WHAT ARE YOU?" Kaoru yelled at him madly, "A DAMNED MARBLE WALL? AREN'T YOU EVEN HUMAN OR WHAT? HOW CAN YOU BE SO DAMN COLD? I LOVE YOU, DON'T YOU GET IT?! I KNOW THAT YOU LOVE ME TOO. YOU'RE A SUPER SAMURAI, WHAT'S SO HARD ABOUT THREE LITTLE WORDS? I EARNED THEM... YOU OWE THEM TO ME".
Kenshin stared at Kaoru blankly.
"If you are going to try and walk out on me again, then you don't love me and I'm wrong to ever think that you did" Kaoru said, trying not to lose her temper again and feeling terribly dizzy, "Tell me that you don't love me, Kenshin. Tell me that I was wrong to think that you ever loved me".
The three outside gasped in horror.
"Tell me that you don't love me Kenshin Himura" Kaoru repeated in a feeble, angry voice.
Kenshin stared at her in horror. Not having a clue as to what to say. Should I tell her that I love her, confess my obsession about her, let her know that she's the reason I want to live, but then won't I be putting her life in more danger and causing her more pain? Shouldn't I just lie and turn away? It'll hurt her a lot for a while but soon she'll move on. She'll be fine while I'll be bleeding, wishing for death to take me away every second for the rest of my life. But she'll at least be safe because she's going to be away from me.
Her eyes were begging him to scream the truth, assisted by his heart, but his brain pleaded him to do what was best for her and just walk away.
Every second passing was like another bullet shot at them, not only the two of them but also Sano, Yahiko and Megumi listening outside in horror.
What will I do? What will I do?
So, what do you think? Any suggestions or comments? Please let me know. More is coming soon (not so soon 'cause I have school you know!).