HEY U GUYZ!!! I just wanted 2 say THANK U 2 my readers and reviewers and ne1 who has… A) not flamed me B) Reviewed! C) Put me on their faves list! D) Put me on their author alert list! It feels so good when u hear that pple really like wat u have created 4om the depths within ur mind and add u 2 their faves! It's just so cool and inspirational and therapeutic! I should really wrap this up, so I will 1ce again say Thankies! And I'd also like 2 tell u all that is chapter is dedicated 2 Brogramn. I will respond 2 u all l8r cuz right now I think I am getting glared at 4 not moving on… and 1 last thing, the R/S fluff is dedicated 2 my friend Kimmi, who has helped me thru a lot of hard times and made me laugh when I was down… And I would ass more, but I think u all get the point…
As Always,
Marchwarden's Blueeyed Shadow (S)
Disclaimer: Sadly, I do NOT own the teen titans, if I did, Star would be living it high w/ her Robin… Raven and BB would b snogging at least 1ce in every episode, (well maybe not EVERY episode) and Cyborg would SO go w/ the girl who actually IS mine, Lisa Rose. Lisa Rose is dedicated 2 Hello and Rose and no1 but them can copy w/out asking. I actually wouldn't mind if some1 copied, but I ask that u ask me 1st plz! O yeah, and Terra would not come back 4 BB. If she did, I'd b FURIOUS.
A/N (again) I no, I no, I am going 2 make this 1 really short, I promise! I have decided 2 make a goal of getting at least 1 chapter up a week b/c I have the idea 4 the sequel and really wanna get this done so that I can work on it! YEA!! And I 4got some part of my disclaimer that I absolutely ALWAYS say…. I do not own them yet, but I will soon!!! MWAHAHAHAHAHA!!! AHEM!
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"Say what?" Beast Boy walked back and sat by Raven's side.
Raven, finally found control and shook her head, something she was doing quite frequently lately, "Never mind BB, good night."
He gave her a quizzical look but then shrugged it off, "Alright, but anytime you need me, I'll be there."
"And vise versa." she smiled at him.
He gave her a lazy grin and left her there, wondering what it was that made her smile. It wasn't like she loved him, so why did she care?
'But you DO love him Rae.' her thoughts got tossed into the mess.
She argued, 'Do not! He is only a friend! Nothing more!'
'Then how come you're losing composure over a simple thing? How come you keep smiling at him?'
The real Raven growled, 'Leave me alone, I don't need your help, I don't need your care. I don't need to rely on anyone, I do not love anyone, no one at all, and it's staying that way.'
The sweeter side giggled, 'I have seen our future, just you wait. You'll see what I mean in due time, you'll see.'
The empath sighed and fell dead asleep before she even relaxed her head upon the pillow.
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Somewhere in the southern tip of town, a poor, defenseless girl slept upon a hard, cold, stone floor. She was shivering, scrawny, innocent, and was very sick. The only water she had was three drops from the ceiling and food wasn't even a possibility.
She had tried getting a hairpin and hacking her way out, but it didn't work like it did in movies and television shows. She had tried slipping her ankles out and ended up with swollen, puffy, and red ankles. She was at that moment unconscious and whimpering in her sleep.
Every night, ever since she was brought to that horrid place, she had nightmares. Everyone of them including at least one sad thing about her best friend.
She saw Raven lose her mind, she saw Beast Boy being slain, she saw Cyborg's last battery dwindle away, but the most frightening thing she imagined was Robin's death. She could not bare it, not at all. She sure hoped that in real life that she would die first.
Losing Raven would be depressing very much, but losing Robin to her, would be devastating. She couldn't even think about it without flinching or twitching, or crying. Raven and her shared a bond of understanding, but Robin and her shared a bond of, well, friendship, and something else she could not name.
Her worst fear was her loving him and him not feeling the same way. Her living alone. What she was doing right now, was her worst nightmare. The terrible dreams she was sent every night was nothing compared to this, she was quite literally living her strongest fear.
Monsters, nothing. Death, scary, but not as scary as this. Nothing seemed to amount to be as bad as this.
She rolled over during her journey in the realm of never knowing and twisted her chains that stayed to the wall, clamping her feet along with them.
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Cyborg sighed sadly when he saw the scene before him, Robin looking longingly at the sunrise. It was pathetic, but yet, sweet in a way. He was lost without Starfire and that was sweet, the sad part was that Cyborg had another two days to go before the tracking device was completed.
He had worked really hard on the first day, due to the extreme pressure and had a third of the work done, now all the other titans had to do was go into her room and rummage through it for some of her DNA.
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Robin trudged down the street feeling extremely sad, lonely, aggravated, and guilty. He didn't even wear his costume. He didn't feel like a hero, he figured, so why would he dress like one? He looked at the sky and the moon glowing with her bright loving shine.
He sighed and the words he felt swam through his head.
The sky is dark, the moon is bright, I'll be thinking of you tonight. Walking down an empty street, with a t' shirt, jeans, and bare feet.
He moved his melancholy gaze to the stars and he thought of her yet again. He wondered why he had chosen Star?
Looking at the stars shining bright in the sky. looking at the stars and wondering why? Why you cant be with me, why you are so far away, why I'm always thinking of you each and everyday. Why I had to choose the girl that's not here.
Silent, cold tears streamed down his face and he thought of how much he liked her, and it was then he accepted it, he didn't like her at all, he LOVED her. He mused about the love he had, how strong it was… sooner rather than later, he was thinking about how she was even more beautiful than the stars themselves.
With her beautiful red hair that cascaded peacefully down past her lovely, soft shoulders. And her sparkling emerald eyes that outshined even the stars. And her exquisite smile, always bright and optimistic. Her smile that grew wider when she laughed… her laugh was like water tumbling silently on the rocks of a serene and flowing brook. He could go on and on about her sweet figure, and he did while thinking…
Then I think to myself about the love I have, and see clearly through the night, that I shouldn't be so sad. I've found someone dear to me, someone that I love, someone I connect with, and who is more beautiful than the stars above.
Then the depressed boy sat on a bench, not even realizing that he wound himself up in the park, he went where his feet took him. He looked up at the moon once more and waited, waited for a plan. Waited for his Star to come home. His love was as strong as ever, and it sang throughout the night…
So as I wait for you tonight, beneath the moonlit sky, I want you to always remember, my love will never die.
He sighed, "He took a walk, said he needed to clear his mind."
Raven sighed and looked through the movie cabinet, "So do you want to watch a movie or something? I finished meditating and I don't really want to do it again."
Her friend looked at her with widened eyes but quickly nodded and helped her pick out a movie.
"How about a drama?"
"I think we've had enough of it to make a series."
"Oh, you're right, um… horror?"
"Nope, don't want you to be engulfed by my powers again, would you?"
"No… uh… mystery?"
"We saw them all two days ago."
"Oh, right… romance?" He looked at her nervously.
She shrugged, "Well, I don't see anything better, so sure."
It was a good thing that the lights were off and it was dark, because if they weren't Raven would be facing a seriously blushing Beast Boy.
He set the movie on and they sat on complete opposites on the couch. Raven, surprisingly, wasn't reading one of her books and actually paid attention. Beast Boy kept blushing, and the two somehow ended up sitting next to each other during the last scene.
The movie droned on, "Oh Eric, I don't know what I'd do without you…"
"You won't ever have to…"
The lovers kissed and the credits came up on the screen… Raven would have died laughing at the pathetic script and movie lines, but for some reason it wasn't funny anymore.
Actually, it was downright humiliating, watching a romance with Beast Boy? Why had she even agreed to it? Why? Why was she so stupid?
"Um, it's over, you want to watch something else?" Sweat was beading upon the green teen's face.
Raven once again shrugged, "Whatever."
So they looked inside the cabinet again, but came up with nothing. Nothing except another romance movie and they both said a definite, "NO!" to that.
"I guess I'll just go to bed." Beast Boy yawned.
Raven almost agreed when something hit her, "Hey! Wait a minute! Where's Robin? He should be back by now."
"I am." The all too gloomy voice of their leader droned from the door.
Beast Boy gasped looking at him, Raven just stood there. Robin was wearing a plain black shirt and some really baggy and faded jeans, that seemed to have been snagged at the bottom. He had no shoes or socks on, and his mask was loosely tied up in the back. But the weirdest thing was that his hair hung loose in his face and he didn't even bother to fix it.
Raven was shocked, but as usual, never showed it even for a second, "Robin, take a shower and get Star off your mind."
He muttered under his breath a reply, but Raven heard it all the same, "I can't."
"DUDE! What do you mean you CAN'T?!" BB yelled.
"I MEAN THAT I CAN'T EVERYWHERE I GO, EVERYTHING I DO, IT HAS SOMETHING TO DO WITH STARFIRE! IT'S ALL MY FAULT! SHE GOT KIDNAPPED, AND IT'S ALL MY FAULT! AND THERE'S NOTHING THAT I CAN DO TO SAVE HER FROM THAT BOY WHO HAS PROBABLY BEAT HER OR WORSE! AND WHAT ARE YOU TWO DOING?! WATCHING A ROMANCE, LIVING HAPPILY EVER AFTER! SURE, YOU GUYS KISS AND HAVE FUN, IF YOU NEED ME, I'LL LOOKING FOR STARFIRE." He panted after his speech, but left and slammed the door shut behind him.
Beast Boy was angry, but Raven looked at the door that Robin had slammed sadly and with understanding, "Beast Boy, you must understand, he's lost the person he loves the most. Think about it, what if you lost the person YOU loved the most? Oh wait, BB, I'm sorry, you should know that because you already did."
"I didn't love Terra." he sighed randomly.
Raven paused and turned to him, "Oh?"
"She was a crush, but when she betrayed us, I realized that she could never be under control, and if she had anything to do with me in a way more than a friend, we would have been destroyed." He explained, then laughed, "Funny, all the girls I end up having crushes on or loving, are the girls who would kill me."
Raven looked at him absolutely stunned, "What was that last thing?"
Beast Boy finally noticed the power of his words and clamped a hand to his mouth, "Nothing."
"That's not nothing BB, tell me or I'll read your mind." She threatened, seriousness in every word.
"We should help Cyborg or get Robin." He chuckled nervously.
Raven shook her head, "No Beast Boy, you need to tell me what you meant, look at what happened to Robin, he didn't tell Starfire and guess what ended up happening?"
He sighed and shook his head imitating her, "No Rae, like you say all the time, now is not the time."
"Then when will it be?" She yelled, starting to lose her grip on the little control she had.
"I don't know." He took her by the hand., ignoring the adrenalin coursing through his body like a power wave. And dragged them both into the garage.
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"Cy, we need to help you." A panting BB and Raven stood at the door.
He dropped his hammer and took a moment to recover from the shock, "You need to what?"
"Robin just lost control again, this time worse. We need to find Starfire fast, so we need to help you get the job done as fast as possible." Raven stated.
The green teen stared at her with confusion, "Uh Raven, could you have made that any clearer?"
Cyborg ignored him and tossed them some tools, "Sure thing here ya go… wait a minute, is Robin training again?"
The two with the newly caught tools looked down at the cement, as if it would give them an answer, but finally Beast Boy answered the half human, "He yelled at us for watching a movie and basically called us lazy. After that…"
"He stormed out saying that if we needed him, he would be searching for Starfire." The empath finished.
Cyborg nodded and motioned for them to come closer, "Well, he's gone, and the sooner we finish this, the sooner we find Star and the sooner we find her, the sooner we find Robin."
The two panting teens nodded and they all worked hard on the machine, streaming through time. And to even their surprise, they finished it.
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Robin ran frantically down the streets yelling, "Star! Starfire?! STAR?! STARFIRE?!"
He was lost without her, and could care less if Slade came back and took over the city at that exact moment. He was running faster and faster, and soon, he was sprinting. Putting all his effort into the running, he found a police line around a house that said, "DO NOT CROSS".
And Robin being Robin at that moment, tore through the lines and burst into the house.
That's when he heard the screaming, louder at first, but quickly dwindling in strength, "HELP! HELP ME! PLEASE! LEXUS NO! DON'T KILL HIM… ROBIN!!"
He ran and ran to fins who had screamed, but came with no luck. The house seemed empty, but the screaming was clearly coming FROM the house. Maybe he was dreaming, maybe this was a nightmare. But to his dismay, it wasn't.
The voice rung again, raspy but yet flowing… he KNEW that voice… that voice belonged to Starfire.
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Hey! I no, short chappie, but I have been extremely lax and lazy and wanted to stop it there. YEA! ROBIN'S ABOUT 2 FIND STARFIRE!!! O yeah, about that poem, I don't own it either, actually, my friend Scarlet's boyfriend wrote it about her… and that wasn't even the whole poem, I cut out the middle, but that's b/c if I didn't, it wouldn't have fit the fic! Um, I hope u all liked it! I no that it is a bit early for him to find her, but I wanted it 2 happen and I was clean out of ideas of things to happen until then.
O YEAH! And ANOTHER thing… Um, well, Robin may not find Star in the next chapter… (ducks the junk being thrown at her) SORRY!
And now Review time…
Brogramn- OMG, That is the longest and BESTEST REVIEW I HAVE EVER RECEIVED!! WOW! Um, Help me on and idea 4 the end! Here, my email is… ! WOW! I did? Lexus is that cool? (or uncool if that's wat u call a bad dude) WOW! I will take that advice and try! The scenario, is good? WOW! (jumps up and down) WOWIE!! I LUV THAT U LIKE IT!! I HAVE A FAN!! WOW!!! I HAVE A FAN!!! (grins and hugs her AWSOME new fan)
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SpazzFire- Wow! (bows down) U ROCK! And u just said my work is good… (faints and gets back up) WOW! Ok! I can't wait! By the way, GREAT new chapter!
JulesFire- Wow, u did? Sad, yes, Happy ending? Um, not telling! Rob/Star IS always good! I am SO glad that Rae's and BB's relationship is realistic! Well, I was hoping that Star's thoughts while in the basement would be affective… This is my very 1st Teen Titans fic, and I really am glad I've gotten all this good feedback! OKAY I WILL!
Clueless90- I no exactly wat u mean! I've been in school 4... Um… well it doesn't matter how long, but I'm managing, but my last school sucked, we had back pains 4om our really heavy book bags everyday, but at least we got strong! Hey, I shall dedicate the next chapter 2 u! (I think) hopefully that u should help u and ur work load!
Sinfire- (again) Wow! I'm glad! Well, that's good that they no wat they mean, but I STILL hate it when preps wear them! And I'm glad that SOME1 read my profile! (grins) Thanks!
D-I-WaRrIa- Wow, that was hard 2 type… Robin WILL save her soon and he WILL get a shock! Well, it's not exactly that he's starving her, he got caught and sent 2 jail remember? And as 4 y b4 he was caught, um, well, guyz whop kidnap rape and beat do that right? I will!
Bunny133- WOW! I AM SOOO HAPPY! I LUV ROB AND STAR!!! Keep reviewing!
Titans101- Yeah, that name is REALLI catchy ya no, I kept saying it after reading ur review, it has a ring…. LoL, well, um… I have nothing 2 say but THANKIES!!! Star will NOT die!!! I couldn't bear her death, that would be terrible! Well she might die in the sequel, I think… (I hope not..) I will! (hugs reviewer)
SoSweet465- AWW! OK! (hugs reviewer)
Well, that's it! BYEZEZ!!!
As Always,
Marchwarden's Blueeyed Shadow (S)