Title: Secretly Loving You 5/?
Author: sanaaki
Warnings: shounen-ai/yaoi, AU, Heero-centric, romance, sap
Pairings: 1+2+1 (main), not a threesome =P
Rated: PG
Disclaimer: Nothing belongs to me ;_; except the story.
Archives: Eventually The Metaphysical: Gundam Wing Fanfiction at http://www.geocities.com/akikos_mandolin and http://www.fanfiction.net/~sanaaki
Eventually I'll find a spot on my newbie blog (http://silent-whispers.cjb.net/ )
Can always email me if for some odd reason you want to archive it.
Notes: Switching back and forth between different POVs.
Recap: Duo turns down a blind date with Heero. He sees a guy he thinks he might be interested in. He finds out that that guy is Heero. Problem is Quatre has decided to set Heero and Wufei up now since Duo turned it down. Duo and Heero have met by random chance but Duo is the only one who knows that they have mutual friends. Will this pair ever get it together?
Feedback much appreciated.
"Wow …" thought Heero. That guy he bumped into from the cab was seriously gorgeous. He looked down at his hand. He could still feel the tingle from the touch he shared with him. With his luck, probably straight, Heero mused. Duo had long hair too. He had a thing for long hair and that guy had it in spades. Fantastic violet eyes too. He could still envision their vividness even now. Heero involuntarily shivered. He should have gotten his number… Suddenly, he pitched sideways and forward as the cab veered right then stopped abruptly jolting Heero back to reality. Cab drivers in New York took some getting used to. They seemed to have their own set of traffic rules. He looked out the window and realized that he was already at the park. He paid the driver and got out. He stood there for a second. People were all around, passing him by. He really liked this part of Manhattan. The constant buzz created an energy that he couldn't help but feed off of. It had this edge that he felt wholly comfortable with although sometimes the crowds made him feel his loneliness more. He had never really been able to get close to anyone for any length of time because he had been dragged all over during his childhood. After awhile he had stopped trying. It just hurt too much to make new friends and then get suddenly uprooted. People didn't understand his attachment to his laptop but really it was the only stable thing in his life – his lifeline via the net to the few friends that he did manage to keep including Trowa. Now he was trying to forge a new life, one that he never really had before. He wondered if it was even possible for an army brat like him … maybe he just really didn't have it in him to be anything other than a transient. He really didn't want to believe that.
Christmas lights unexpectedly lit up Luna Park, the bar situated in the park. He shook himself out of the mood he found himself in. He looked at the lights that gave the bar a merry feeling. He smirked. Christmas lights in summer – he wondered what person thought of that "cute" theme. This would have been a nice bar to take Duo to. He frowned. What was he thinking? He met a great guy earlier today, someone he could have a possible relationship with and now he was lusting after some random guy from a cab. Was Trowa right? Maybe he really didn't have it in him to be with one person. Trowa was his best friend. Someone he trusted implicitly. He didn't want to believe that he was so shallow. His history spoke for itself though. He had gone through a string of "relationships" with many perfectly nice people. He had always told himself that it was because he hadn't met the right person that they didn't last. He wasn't even sure what he was looking for. Even Trowa, who was his very best friend, who he found attractive and who he clicked so totally with … that hadn't worked out either. He was forced to give some credence to Trowa's assessment of his "problem". He didn't want to be alone for the rest of his life. He was ready to settle down somewhere, put his roots somewhere and share his life with someone. He reminded himself of the promise he made to himself to try his best to commit to the next person he thought he clicked with. And he did click with Wufei … but damn Duo was hot. He chuckled and shook his head. Lusting after some guy he would in all likelihood never see again was a waste of time and energy.
He made his way through the bar scene and saw Wufei and his friends. They saw him and waved him down. Earlier he had realized that he was being his usual antisocial self when he declined joining the others at Luna Park. Being antisocial and cold, common complaints about him, was something he knew he had to change for his new life if he wanted things to be different. There was really no reason to blow them off. He had then decided to return and catch up with them and hence met that gorgeous guy Duo. Heero groaned. Why was he thinking about Duo so much? He took a deep breath and tried to concentrate on Wufei. He didn't want to give Wufei the wrong impression … that he wasn't interested. He walked over to them, pulled up a chair and sat next to Wufei. Wufei looked pleased to see him.
They introduced him to Hilde and Dorothy. He nodded at Relena although he was inwardly cringing. If he had known she was going to be here he might have thought twice about coming to hang out with them. This was awkward to say the least. He still had to go to her birthday party too.
"Changed your mind?" Trowa asked.
"Had a second wind."
"Great."
"Want something to drink?" he asked Wufei. Wufei shook his head. "Anyone else?" The others shook their heads each raising their newly filled glasses in response.
"I'll come with you." Trowa volunteered, getting up. He followed Trowa to the bar. They sat down by the bar.
"So how did it go with Wufei?"
"Good."
"Just good?" Trowa questioned.
Heero shrugged.
"He seems interested in you."
Heero didn't reply.
"That's saying a lot." Heero looked back at Trowa mildly surprised.
"Explain."
"Well he's been through some rough patches with an ex. His self esteem and confidence have been a little shot. So … try not to hurt him, Heero … He's a very good friend …"
Heero gave a mental groan. "You should have told me about this beforehand, Trowa. I'm already trying to get out of a somewhat uncomfortable situation with Relena …"
"Trying to run away already, Yuy?"
The dreaded use of his last name. Trowa was pissed.
"Trowa … this is unfair … I just met the guy … Don't you think you are being a little unreasonable?"
Trowa put on his mulish face although it was hard to tell for the casual observer. Heero knew it well enough though. Trowa simply ignored him and looked off elsewhere. Heero sighed to himself. Heero made a mental note not to go out on anymore blind dates with friends of friends. It was as if he was rejecting Trowa not Wufei. Trowa was taking this way too personally. "Trowa, I like Wufei … really … I am just not sure I am the right person to be dealing with someone else's emotional baggage … I can barely handle my own …"
"Don't make excuses … just give it a real chance is all I ask before you go chasing after the next tight ass …" Trowa retorted bitterly.
"Trowa …" He had never heard Trowa talk so crudely. Trowa turned to look at him. He placed his hand on Heero's shoulder.
"I want you to be happy. You say you're looking for meaning in your life, to be normal, live a normal life. You're not going to be happy if you continue on this way … having such callous disregard for people's feelings, running away from your own. Give it some thought …" Trowa gave his shoulder a squeeze then walked back to the others.
Heero stared after him somewhat taken aback. Trowa was being uncharacteristically vocal and officious of late. He really wasn't sure what to make of it. A voice from his right interrupted him, "Hi there … can I buy you a drink?" He turned to look at the speaker. A good-looking short-haired blond man smiled at him. Heero looked blankly in return. The man gestured towards his empty glass questioningly. The absurdity of the situation wasn't lost on him. Heero couldn't help it. He laughed. The guy looked at him perplexed. He was about to refuse when a hand was placed on his shoulder. He looked over to see that it was Wufei.
"Is this guy bothering you, Heero?" Heero looked in surprise at the possessiveness of Wufei's tone. Did Wufei really think he couldn't take care of himself? He shook his head.
The guy took the hint, winked at Heero and said, "Well if you change your mind just let me know …" and walked away. Wufei glared at the back of the guy for a second before sitting down next to him. They sat together for awhile. Heero didn't know quite what to say. That whole little exchange was unexpected. The silence was awkward.
Wufei finally broke the silence. "I like you, Heero. It's not often that I find someone that I can relate to so well…" Heero looked back in surprise at the directness of Wufei's words. Heero wasn't used to it and felt uncomfortable. It felt as though things were getting too serious too fast. Heero thought back to Trowa's words and balked at its confirmation. He really didn't want to prove Trowa right. He tried to smile back in encouragement. "You've probably heard from the others that I've been in a relationship before …" Heero nodded. "It was … difficult for me. It's been a long time since I've been with someone. I'd like that to change now." Wufei looked seriously into his eyes then and then looked back down into his drink. Somehow the emotion in Wufei's words and actions touched him. Heero decided then and there that he would really try to give it a chance. Maybe they really both wanted the same things. He put his hand over Wufei's hand on the counter and gave it a gentle squeeze.
"I'd like that …"
They made their way back to others later on. They were all fun to be with. He found Dorothy's drollness amusing. He had contemplated letting her beat him at pool but he had a feeling she would greatly hate that were she ever to find that out. Quatre was charming as usual. It wasn't hard to see why Trowa found him attractive. Quatre was very different from Heero though. Trowa's tastes in mates must have changed a lot. Hilde was spunky, warm, friendly and fun. She was a bit too touchy but he supposed that was her nature. He could tell though that Wufei wasn't too pleased at her affectionate touches but there really wasn't too much he could do. On the other hand, Relena wasn't too happy. She sat there sullenly. He knew it was probably because of him. She had certainly always been upfront about what she wanted from him. He knew he should talk to her but he wasn't a fan of confrontations. He had told her before he wasn't interested in her that way but she hadn't been able to accept it. He really hadn't known how to make her accept it. He had to admit, Quatre's idea of dating a close friend of hers seemed to finally hit home to her.
"You know Heero … we give great haircuts … why don't you stop by sometime …" Hilde suddenly leaned on him harder, practically falling into his lap, and touched his hair. "You could use a haircut …"
"Leave him alone, Hilde," Wufei interrupted impatiently.
"We'll take care of you personally, Heero. You can count on it…" she winked. He thought maybe she was a bit drunk.
"Actually Heero, they do give great haircuts. She's being totally truthful there…" Quatre added. Trowa agreed as well.
"You got that right!! Come on down tomorrow …" Hilde rustled through her bag and waved a business card. He took it from her and turned it over to look at it. Unusual name. Shinigami's Scythe.
TBC?
Author: sanaaki
Warnings: shounen-ai/yaoi, AU, Heero-centric, romance, sap
Pairings: 1+2+1 (main), not a threesome =P
Rated: PG
Disclaimer: Nothing belongs to me ;_; except the story.
Archives: Eventually The Metaphysical: Gundam Wing Fanfiction at http://www.geocities.com/akikos_mandolin and http://www.fanfiction.net/~sanaaki
Eventually I'll find a spot on my newbie blog (http://silent-whispers.cjb.net/ )
Can always email me if for some odd reason you want to archive it.
Notes: Switching back and forth between different POVs.
Recap: Duo turns down a blind date with Heero. He sees a guy he thinks he might be interested in. He finds out that that guy is Heero. Problem is Quatre has decided to set Heero and Wufei up now since Duo turned it down. Duo and Heero have met by random chance but Duo is the only one who knows that they have mutual friends. Will this pair ever get it together?
Feedback much appreciated.
"Wow …" thought Heero. That guy he bumped into from the cab was seriously gorgeous. He looked down at his hand. He could still feel the tingle from the touch he shared with him. With his luck, probably straight, Heero mused. Duo had long hair too. He had a thing for long hair and that guy had it in spades. Fantastic violet eyes too. He could still envision their vividness even now. Heero involuntarily shivered. He should have gotten his number… Suddenly, he pitched sideways and forward as the cab veered right then stopped abruptly jolting Heero back to reality. Cab drivers in New York took some getting used to. They seemed to have their own set of traffic rules. He looked out the window and realized that he was already at the park. He paid the driver and got out. He stood there for a second. People were all around, passing him by. He really liked this part of Manhattan. The constant buzz created an energy that he couldn't help but feed off of. It had this edge that he felt wholly comfortable with although sometimes the crowds made him feel his loneliness more. He had never really been able to get close to anyone for any length of time because he had been dragged all over during his childhood. After awhile he had stopped trying. It just hurt too much to make new friends and then get suddenly uprooted. People didn't understand his attachment to his laptop but really it was the only stable thing in his life – his lifeline via the net to the few friends that he did manage to keep including Trowa. Now he was trying to forge a new life, one that he never really had before. He wondered if it was even possible for an army brat like him … maybe he just really didn't have it in him to be anything other than a transient. He really didn't want to believe that.
Christmas lights unexpectedly lit up Luna Park, the bar situated in the park. He shook himself out of the mood he found himself in. He looked at the lights that gave the bar a merry feeling. He smirked. Christmas lights in summer – he wondered what person thought of that "cute" theme. This would have been a nice bar to take Duo to. He frowned. What was he thinking? He met a great guy earlier today, someone he could have a possible relationship with and now he was lusting after some random guy from a cab. Was Trowa right? Maybe he really didn't have it in him to be with one person. Trowa was his best friend. Someone he trusted implicitly. He didn't want to believe that he was so shallow. His history spoke for itself though. He had gone through a string of "relationships" with many perfectly nice people. He had always told himself that it was because he hadn't met the right person that they didn't last. He wasn't even sure what he was looking for. Even Trowa, who was his very best friend, who he found attractive and who he clicked so totally with … that hadn't worked out either. He was forced to give some credence to Trowa's assessment of his "problem". He didn't want to be alone for the rest of his life. He was ready to settle down somewhere, put his roots somewhere and share his life with someone. He reminded himself of the promise he made to himself to try his best to commit to the next person he thought he clicked with. And he did click with Wufei … but damn Duo was hot. He chuckled and shook his head. Lusting after some guy he would in all likelihood never see again was a waste of time and energy.
He made his way through the bar scene and saw Wufei and his friends. They saw him and waved him down. Earlier he had realized that he was being his usual antisocial self when he declined joining the others at Luna Park. Being antisocial and cold, common complaints about him, was something he knew he had to change for his new life if he wanted things to be different. There was really no reason to blow them off. He had then decided to return and catch up with them and hence met that gorgeous guy Duo. Heero groaned. Why was he thinking about Duo so much? He took a deep breath and tried to concentrate on Wufei. He didn't want to give Wufei the wrong impression … that he wasn't interested. He walked over to them, pulled up a chair and sat next to Wufei. Wufei looked pleased to see him.
They introduced him to Hilde and Dorothy. He nodded at Relena although he was inwardly cringing. If he had known she was going to be here he might have thought twice about coming to hang out with them. This was awkward to say the least. He still had to go to her birthday party too.
"Changed your mind?" Trowa asked.
"Had a second wind."
"Great."
"Want something to drink?" he asked Wufei. Wufei shook his head. "Anyone else?" The others shook their heads each raising their newly filled glasses in response.
"I'll come with you." Trowa volunteered, getting up. He followed Trowa to the bar. They sat down by the bar.
"So how did it go with Wufei?"
"Good."
"Just good?" Trowa questioned.
Heero shrugged.
"He seems interested in you."
Heero didn't reply.
"That's saying a lot." Heero looked back at Trowa mildly surprised.
"Explain."
"Well he's been through some rough patches with an ex. His self esteem and confidence have been a little shot. So … try not to hurt him, Heero … He's a very good friend …"
Heero gave a mental groan. "You should have told me about this beforehand, Trowa. I'm already trying to get out of a somewhat uncomfortable situation with Relena …"
"Trying to run away already, Yuy?"
The dreaded use of his last name. Trowa was pissed.
"Trowa … this is unfair … I just met the guy … Don't you think you are being a little unreasonable?"
Trowa put on his mulish face although it was hard to tell for the casual observer. Heero knew it well enough though. Trowa simply ignored him and looked off elsewhere. Heero sighed to himself. Heero made a mental note not to go out on anymore blind dates with friends of friends. It was as if he was rejecting Trowa not Wufei. Trowa was taking this way too personally. "Trowa, I like Wufei … really … I am just not sure I am the right person to be dealing with someone else's emotional baggage … I can barely handle my own …"
"Don't make excuses … just give it a real chance is all I ask before you go chasing after the next tight ass …" Trowa retorted bitterly.
"Trowa …" He had never heard Trowa talk so crudely. Trowa turned to look at him. He placed his hand on Heero's shoulder.
"I want you to be happy. You say you're looking for meaning in your life, to be normal, live a normal life. You're not going to be happy if you continue on this way … having such callous disregard for people's feelings, running away from your own. Give it some thought …" Trowa gave his shoulder a squeeze then walked back to the others.
Heero stared after him somewhat taken aback. Trowa was being uncharacteristically vocal and officious of late. He really wasn't sure what to make of it. A voice from his right interrupted him, "Hi there … can I buy you a drink?" He turned to look at the speaker. A good-looking short-haired blond man smiled at him. Heero looked blankly in return. The man gestured towards his empty glass questioningly. The absurdity of the situation wasn't lost on him. Heero couldn't help it. He laughed. The guy looked at him perplexed. He was about to refuse when a hand was placed on his shoulder. He looked over to see that it was Wufei.
"Is this guy bothering you, Heero?" Heero looked in surprise at the possessiveness of Wufei's tone. Did Wufei really think he couldn't take care of himself? He shook his head.
The guy took the hint, winked at Heero and said, "Well if you change your mind just let me know …" and walked away. Wufei glared at the back of the guy for a second before sitting down next to him. They sat together for awhile. Heero didn't know quite what to say. That whole little exchange was unexpected. The silence was awkward.
Wufei finally broke the silence. "I like you, Heero. It's not often that I find someone that I can relate to so well…" Heero looked back in surprise at the directness of Wufei's words. Heero wasn't used to it and felt uncomfortable. It felt as though things were getting too serious too fast. Heero thought back to Trowa's words and balked at its confirmation. He really didn't want to prove Trowa right. He tried to smile back in encouragement. "You've probably heard from the others that I've been in a relationship before …" Heero nodded. "It was … difficult for me. It's been a long time since I've been with someone. I'd like that to change now." Wufei looked seriously into his eyes then and then looked back down into his drink. Somehow the emotion in Wufei's words and actions touched him. Heero decided then and there that he would really try to give it a chance. Maybe they really both wanted the same things. He put his hand over Wufei's hand on the counter and gave it a gentle squeeze.
"I'd like that …"
They made their way back to others later on. They were all fun to be with. He found Dorothy's drollness amusing. He had contemplated letting her beat him at pool but he had a feeling she would greatly hate that were she ever to find that out. Quatre was charming as usual. It wasn't hard to see why Trowa found him attractive. Quatre was very different from Heero though. Trowa's tastes in mates must have changed a lot. Hilde was spunky, warm, friendly and fun. She was a bit too touchy but he supposed that was her nature. He could tell though that Wufei wasn't too pleased at her affectionate touches but there really wasn't too much he could do. On the other hand, Relena wasn't too happy. She sat there sullenly. He knew it was probably because of him. She had certainly always been upfront about what she wanted from him. He knew he should talk to her but he wasn't a fan of confrontations. He had told her before he wasn't interested in her that way but she hadn't been able to accept it. He really hadn't known how to make her accept it. He had to admit, Quatre's idea of dating a close friend of hers seemed to finally hit home to her.
"You know Heero … we give great haircuts … why don't you stop by sometime …" Hilde suddenly leaned on him harder, practically falling into his lap, and touched his hair. "You could use a haircut …"
"Leave him alone, Hilde," Wufei interrupted impatiently.
"We'll take care of you personally, Heero. You can count on it…" she winked. He thought maybe she was a bit drunk.
"Actually Heero, they do give great haircuts. She's being totally truthful there…" Quatre added. Trowa agreed as well.
"You got that right!! Come on down tomorrow …" Hilde rustled through her bag and waved a business card. He took it from her and turned it over to look at it. Unusual name. Shinigami's Scythe.
TBC?