Chapter 16 - Larry talks to Gordo (I wish I had to chose between 2
beautiful loving women)
Larry looked at his classmate and friend. He could tell something was on his mind. It was always easy to tell when Gordo had things on his mind. His eyes, face, and mannerisms showed it. He quickly decided on the direct approach. "Ok, what are you thinking about?" he asked, while Gordo arranged his things on his part of the table.
"Nothing, just normal stuff," Gordo answered hoping to fool Larry.
"David, you're a horrible liar, you always have been. Now, it's obvious you are trying to decide about something. Now talk to me about it. That's what myself, and all of your friends, are here for." Larry continued in a stern, 'I'm serious' tone.
Gordo just shook his head and handed the poems to him. Larry glanced at the pieces of paper. "This is about Lizzie and Miranda isn't it?" Larry inquired, instantly getting it.
"Yeah, just read them ok?" Gordo responded, wanting to hurry up and get this over with.
"Ok, Ok!" He answered picking up the one that he could tell was about Lizzie. Larry read both poems. A few seconds after putting the one about Miranda down he turned and looked at Gordo. "Has anyone else read these?" He asked, trying to see who else had already given him advice on the matter.
"Just Kate," he answered, still surprised that he had talked to Kate of all people about this subject. Larry gave him a curious, confused look.
Gordo catching the look quickly stated, "Long story."
"Ok, what did she say?" He inquired, deciding that the fact that it was Kate wasn't important.
"She said that I should stay with Lizzie. She said if I lose Lizzie I might never get her back. She said that I'm just curious about Miranda since we have never even considered dating. She said I shouldn't risk losing Lizzie over a little bit of curiosity," He answered trying not to mix words or go into great details about it.
Larry considered Kate's advice. He had to admit she had a point, but he had something else in mind for David Gordon. "David, its not fair to be with Lizzie if you are unsure of your feelings for her. I think you should take a step back and look at things from the outside looking in. Don't make up your mind to date Miranda until you know for sure how she feels either. You don't know that she is willing to date you. If you separate yourself from them you might discover that you can't stand to not be with Lizzie. Or, you might figure out that your feeling were stronger than you thought. You might even realize that you shouldn't be with either one of them. In any event it's not fair to lead Lizzie on until you know for sure where your heart is." He finished.
Gordo just looked at his friend. He didn't like the idea of putting his relationship with Lizzie on hold but he did like two of the things he had told him. He definitely did not want to hurt Lizzie and he could see how she could be hurt in a situation like this. He also did not know how Miranda felt about him or her willingness to date him if he decided he wanted her. Finally, he smiled and told Larry, "Thank you," and they both turned to pay attention to the teacher's lecture. Gordo, however, couldn't help but wonder to himself, how does Miranda feel about me?
Miranda sat in room. She was doing homework and listening to the radio. She then finished the English she was working on and picked up some history notes to study. It was not long however, until her mind began to wander. She truly wanted to be happy for Lizzie and Gordo but she just couldn't make herself do it. She had had feelings for Gordo building up inside of her ever since she got back from Mexico and just couldn't shake them. It would be easier to deal with them if a part of her wasn't so sure that somewhere deep inside of him, Gordo had feelings for her too. One she did not want to be was the reason for a break up between them. She did want her own selfish desires to get in the way of their happiness. Knowing that however didn't make her feel any better. Sitting there on her bed, Miranda heard a familiar song on the radio. She had it heard many times before but it had never gotten to her like it was getting to her on this night. The song was Brandy's "Have you ever?"
"Have You Ever?"
Have you ever loved somebody so much
It makes you cry
Have you ever needed something so bad
You can't sleep at night
Have you ever tried to find the words
But they don't come out right
Have you ever, have you ever
Have you ever been in love
Been in love so bad
You'd do anything to make them understand
Have you ever had someone steal your heart away
You'd give anything to make them feel the same
Have you ever searched for words to get you in their heart
But you don't know what to say
And you don't know where to start
Have you ever loved somebody so much
It makes you cry
Have you ever needed something so bad
You can't sleep at night
Have you ever tried to find the words
But they don't come out right
Have you ever, have you ever
Have you ever found the one
You've dreamed of all of your life
You'd do just anything to look into their eyes
Have you finally found the one you've given your heart to
Only to find that one won't give their heart to you
Have you ever closed your eyes and
Dreamed that they were there
And all you can do is wait for the day when they will care
Have you ever loved somebody so much
It makes you cry
Have you ever needed something so bad
You can't sleep at night
Have you ever tried to find the words
But they don't come out right
Have you ever, have you ever
What do I gotta do to get you in my arms baby
What do I gotta say to get to your heart
To make you understand how I need you next to me
Gotta get you into my world
'Cuz baby I can't sleep
Have you ever loved somebody so much
It makes you cry
Have you ever needed something so bad
You can't sleep at night
Have you ever tried to find the words
But they don't come out right
Have you ever, have you ever
Miranda wiped tears away from her eyes. She couldn't go on like this. She was going to tell him how she felt. She didn't know how he was going to react. She didn't know how Lizzie would react or when she should tell her. The only thing she was sure of was one thing; she couldn't be quiet about the way she felt anymore.
Larry looked at his classmate and friend. He could tell something was on his mind. It was always easy to tell when Gordo had things on his mind. His eyes, face, and mannerisms showed it. He quickly decided on the direct approach. "Ok, what are you thinking about?" he asked, while Gordo arranged his things on his part of the table.
"Nothing, just normal stuff," Gordo answered hoping to fool Larry.
"David, you're a horrible liar, you always have been. Now, it's obvious you are trying to decide about something. Now talk to me about it. That's what myself, and all of your friends, are here for." Larry continued in a stern, 'I'm serious' tone.
Gordo just shook his head and handed the poems to him. Larry glanced at the pieces of paper. "This is about Lizzie and Miranda isn't it?" Larry inquired, instantly getting it.
"Yeah, just read them ok?" Gordo responded, wanting to hurry up and get this over with.
"Ok, Ok!" He answered picking up the one that he could tell was about Lizzie. Larry read both poems. A few seconds after putting the one about Miranda down he turned and looked at Gordo. "Has anyone else read these?" He asked, trying to see who else had already given him advice on the matter.
"Just Kate," he answered, still surprised that he had talked to Kate of all people about this subject. Larry gave him a curious, confused look.
Gordo catching the look quickly stated, "Long story."
"Ok, what did she say?" He inquired, deciding that the fact that it was Kate wasn't important.
"She said that I should stay with Lizzie. She said if I lose Lizzie I might never get her back. She said that I'm just curious about Miranda since we have never even considered dating. She said I shouldn't risk losing Lizzie over a little bit of curiosity," He answered trying not to mix words or go into great details about it.
Larry considered Kate's advice. He had to admit she had a point, but he had something else in mind for David Gordon. "David, its not fair to be with Lizzie if you are unsure of your feelings for her. I think you should take a step back and look at things from the outside looking in. Don't make up your mind to date Miranda until you know for sure how she feels either. You don't know that she is willing to date you. If you separate yourself from them you might discover that you can't stand to not be with Lizzie. Or, you might figure out that your feeling were stronger than you thought. You might even realize that you shouldn't be with either one of them. In any event it's not fair to lead Lizzie on until you know for sure where your heart is." He finished.
Gordo just looked at his friend. He didn't like the idea of putting his relationship with Lizzie on hold but he did like two of the things he had told him. He definitely did not want to hurt Lizzie and he could see how she could be hurt in a situation like this. He also did not know how Miranda felt about him or her willingness to date him if he decided he wanted her. Finally, he smiled and told Larry, "Thank you," and they both turned to pay attention to the teacher's lecture. Gordo, however, couldn't help but wonder to himself, how does Miranda feel about me?
Miranda sat in room. She was doing homework and listening to the radio. She then finished the English she was working on and picked up some history notes to study. It was not long however, until her mind began to wander. She truly wanted to be happy for Lizzie and Gordo but she just couldn't make herself do it. She had had feelings for Gordo building up inside of her ever since she got back from Mexico and just couldn't shake them. It would be easier to deal with them if a part of her wasn't so sure that somewhere deep inside of him, Gordo had feelings for her too. One she did not want to be was the reason for a break up between them. She did want her own selfish desires to get in the way of their happiness. Knowing that however didn't make her feel any better. Sitting there on her bed, Miranda heard a familiar song on the radio. She had it heard many times before but it had never gotten to her like it was getting to her on this night. The song was Brandy's "Have you ever?"
"Have You Ever?"
Have you ever loved somebody so much
It makes you cry
Have you ever needed something so bad
You can't sleep at night
Have you ever tried to find the words
But they don't come out right
Have you ever, have you ever
Have you ever been in love
Been in love so bad
You'd do anything to make them understand
Have you ever had someone steal your heart away
You'd give anything to make them feel the same
Have you ever searched for words to get you in their heart
But you don't know what to say
And you don't know where to start
Have you ever loved somebody so much
It makes you cry
Have you ever needed something so bad
You can't sleep at night
Have you ever tried to find the words
But they don't come out right
Have you ever, have you ever
Have you ever found the one
You've dreamed of all of your life
You'd do just anything to look into their eyes
Have you finally found the one you've given your heart to
Only to find that one won't give their heart to you
Have you ever closed your eyes and
Dreamed that they were there
And all you can do is wait for the day when they will care
Have you ever loved somebody so much
It makes you cry
Have you ever needed something so bad
You can't sleep at night
Have you ever tried to find the words
But they don't come out right
Have you ever, have you ever
What do I gotta do to get you in my arms baby
What do I gotta say to get to your heart
To make you understand how I need you next to me
Gotta get you into my world
'Cuz baby I can't sleep
Have you ever loved somebody so much
It makes you cry
Have you ever needed something so bad
You can't sleep at night
Have you ever tried to find the words
But they don't come out right
Have you ever, have you ever
Miranda wiped tears away from her eyes. She couldn't go on like this. She was going to tell him how she felt. She didn't know how he was going to react. She didn't know how Lizzie would react or when she should tell her. The only thing she was sure of was one thing; she couldn't be quiet about the way she felt anymore.