Saturday, neither Chris nor Gordie did much of anything but sleep, seeing as how they didn't get home until after 9:00 a.m.. Chris, not surprisingly, dreamed mostly of Gordie. Gordie, on the other hand was confused to realize when he woke up late Saturday afternoon that his dreams had focused on him and Chris too. However, he quickly came to the conclusion that he still felt guilty about having to turn him down. He spent most of the day wondering what it was going to be like the next time he saw him.
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The next time they saw each other ended up being Monday at school. When Gordie saw Chris coming down the hall, he was nervous at first, wondering what they were going to do, and decided to take the chicken way out.
"Hey Chris! How was your weekend?" Gordie asked casually.
"Oh you know this and that, pretty uneventful" Chris said with a laugh.
This was about how the whole day went, both boys acting like that weekend hadn't happened. Too the naked eye, it would appear that nothing had changed between the two boys. But in reality, they were both extremely nervous, thinking about all of their actions in a way they never had with each other before. Gordie was being careful not to say anything hurtful or that might remind Chris of last night. Chris, on the other hand, double-checked not only the things he said, but how he said them, along with how he sat, how he ate, how he walked…you name it, and Chris was probably making sure he didn't do it to "gaily". He also made sure not to touch Gordie too much, afraid it would make him uncomfortable. Gordie, noticing this change in Chris' behavior, who was usually very big on touching, started wracking his brain for anything he might have said to offend or embarrass Chris. As hard as both boys tried, their friendship was nothing like it used to be.
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That night, Gordie's dreams yet again focused on Chris. He would have used the same reasoning and said it was just a side effect of the happenings of the day, only, these dreams had been a bit different. They were a bit more…personal…shall we say? It's not like they had sex or anything like that! But there was definitely a…gay undercurrent to them. Gordie's first reaction was to be shocked and appalled, but as he sat there, he realized that he had never really considered the possibility, he had simply dismissed the idea as disgusting. But as he sat there, he was anything but disgusted. In fact, it began to make sense. Think about it, what were relationships about? Trust…caring…obviously, you had to care about the person and like them…being comfortable around the person…being able to talk to them…wanting to spend time with them. If someone was lucky enough to find all of those traits and more in one person, and they were already their best friend, should he not be with them because they were the same sex? As Gordie sat there and thought about this, he slowly realized how deep his feelings for Chris were. And he'd told him at great length that he didn't want to be with him and never would. Fuck! Should he just not say anything to Chris? Maybe both their feelings would go away with time. But Gordie immediately realized he didn't like this idea…it made absolutely no sense, he realized. And besides, hadn't he been hurt when Chris hadn't said anything to him, and that was with Chris "knowing" Gordie was straight. It wouldn't be fair of him to not tell him. Besides, neither would be happy with the outcome if he didn't tell him. He would tell Chris as soon as they were alone and the timing was right. With these comforting thoughts, Gordie went back to sleep. For the first time fully enjoying his dreams.
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The next day Gordie woke up fully refreshed and ready for the next day. He got dressed and practically skipped to school, feeling completely at ease.
"Hey there Chris! Have any good dreams last night?" Gordie asked when he saw Chris. For the first time in days not being afraid of saying the wrong thing to his best friend.
"Not really…I did have one where I was a spider though." Chris said as they walked down the hall.
He had immediately noticed the change in Gordie and figured he had finally really accepted that Chris was gay and decided he didn't care. Chris felt a huge weight being lifted from his chest at the realization that he finally had his friend back. Everything was gonna be okay, Chris thought as he walked down he hall, exchanging playful banter with Gordie, his heart feeling lighter than it had in a long time.
They talked more easily than they had in days, confirming Gordie's decision to tell Chris. Everything was gonna be perfect.