Gordie climbed up the ladder into the tree house, figuring it would be a good place to be alone. He needed some time to think. It wasn't that he wasn't happy about what had happened with Chris…just the opposite, in fact. He was ecstatic! But he was nervous too. Wouldn't it be kinda weird at school now? Sure, it hadn't been weird before, but they hadn't had all this new emotion then. Not that it was bad, just…new. Gordie opened the trap door and felt his heart jump into his throat and his stomach do a flip-flop, from both excitement and nervousness.
"Hi Chris" Gordie said a bit shyly.
"Gordie!" Chris exclaimed when he turned around and saw the object of his thoughts standing before him. He ran over and gave him a happy peck on the mouth.
"Um…hi" Gordie repeated a little lamely, not quite used to this kind of greeting. He hadn't done that before.
"I was just thinking about you" Chris said honestly.
"You just saw me" Gordie said with a chuckle.
"Hence me thinking of you, smart one" Chris said with a huge grin to show that he was only joking.
"Shut-up. You're such a jerk" Gordie said without conviction. He was glad that they could still joke around like that.
"So…seriously, whatcha doing up here?" Gordie asked "Nothing happened with your Dad did it?" Gordie said, sounding a bit protective.
"Naw, calm down Gordo" Chris said affectionately. "Nothing that serious, I just wanted to think." Chris said walking over to the window and looking out it.
"Yeah, me too. What are you thinking about?" Gordie asked.
"Just stuff, you know…you…me…us…school. You?"
"Pretty much the same. Rici's getting really big isn't she?" Gordie said trying to think of something to talk about.
"Yeah, she is. I remember when my brother was that small. Dad loved him so much. He didn't even mind changing his diaper" Chris said with a faraway look on his face.
"Huh?" Gordie asked dumbly. This was all new to him.
"Yeah. He didn't always used to be like this Gordie. That's probably the worst part is that I can remember when he was normal. He was great…took us to the park and everything, then one day, he just…became someone else. I can hardly remember him the way he used to be anymore. I'll tell you this much though…once he changed, they didn't have any more kids. At least that's something," Chris said with an ironic lift of his eyebrows.
"Aw, Chris, you can't do this to yourself man" Gordie said with a deep sigh.
"What do you mean?" Chris said a little defensively.
"Now don't get all upset, all I mean is that you can't dwell on stuff like that." Gordie said quickly.
"Well I am so fucking sorry if I'm bothering you with my stupid fucking petty problems. I'll be sure not to mention them again if it's such a burden." Chris said bitterly "Fuck this" he said, walking away.
"Chris! Stop it! You are not going to do this AGAIN!"
"Man, fuck you." Chris said darkly.
"Do NOT fucking run out on me AGAIN! Just because I say something that you don't love, that doesn't mean you have to run away and go pout. You could always do something crazy and let me explain instead of just assuming I'm an asshole. Doesn't the person you're in love with deserve at least that much" Gordie said the last part softly, knowing it would make Chris stay.
"I'm listening" Chris bit off, not turning around.
"I know you've had a fucked-up life. Man, I know that. It's me, Gordie. If anyone else knows how hard your life's been, isn't it me? You know I don't mind listening to you." Gordie grabbed Chris' arm and turned him around, grabbing his chin and forcing him to look him in the eye. "You know that if anything ever happens with your Dad I don't want you to hesitate to come to me. I love you Chris, I care about you more than anyone or anything in the world. You know that. I know you do. But you can't dwell on the bad things in your life. Everyone has things about their life that they don't like. But you can't dwell on it or you'll go crazy. You have to realize that there are good things in your life and concentrate on them. Your Dad sucks. You know that, I know that, the whole fucking town knows that. He probably wont ever change. But instead of dwelling on that, think about the way he used to be and appreciate that. Lots of kids don't even get that little. Learn from it, and make sure that you're never like that. Instead of being sad that being gay isn't accepted by many, just be happy that you fell in love and it's returned, and fuck everyone else. Nobody else matters Chris, you won't remember any of those guys' names a couple of years from now. And besides, they never liked us before, at least now we're happy. And that's all that matters. I'm not trying to cheapen what you've been through, Chris, but your Dad's been an asshole for a while now, and probably isn't going to change much in the foreseeable future. It's time to accept that and move on with your life. You'll never completely enjoy life if you don't and if we're going to be together I have to have all of you, you can't have a piece of you locked away mourning over a father who's been gone for years."
"Damn" was all Chris said.
"I love you Chris, and I have to be honest with you. Any other way wouldn't be fair to either of us" Gordie said, biting his lip.
"Damn" Chris repeated, then after a few minutes "You sure don't pull any punches do you?"
"I don't like seeing you in pain over that bastard all the time. I know you can't stop caring. I mean…it's your father. But, Chris, he's never going to change, and you have to realize that and stop letting him hurt you or you'll go insane. I'll always be here for you, and it will never go away, but I wanna see you happy. Let it go Chris."
"Damn" Chris said yet again, no longer angry, but more shocked than anything.
"I'm sorry, but it needed to be said" Gordie said.
"No. You're right. I know that. It's not like I haven't thought about it before. Its just…hard." Chris said, his voice growing rough with emotion.
"I know…I mean, I don't, but…yeah" Gordie said, at a loss for words.
"Why couldn't I have had a normal Dad Gordie?" Chris asked in a tired voice, like it was a question he had already heard a thousand times.
"No such thing" Gordie said wisely.
Chris looked at him with a half-smirk in his eyes "Yeah, I know, but why couldn't I have gotten one of the nice ones?"
"If you had you wouldn't be the person that I love. If you hadn't had such a hard life you wouldn't have as much appreciation for the good parts. And when we get away from this place, and we have some quaint little house in the middle of nowhere and we don't have to deal with any of this crap anymore, you'll value it that much more. If your Dad wasn't drunk you wouldn't have such strong conviction. Going through what you have has made you stronger, and I wouldn't want you any other way. So don't be sad about the past, be happy that you have so much to look forward in the future." Gordie said with the sweetest smile Chris had ever seen in his life.
Suddenly Gordie felt his body being engulfed by Chris' thicker, stronger one. "I love you" Chris got out desperately before crushing Gordie's lips with his desperate, almost frantic ones. Gordie tasted the salt of Chris' tears on his lips. He didn't shy away, but gave back just as much. After a few moments the kiss lost some of its franticness but none of its intensity. Chris ran his fingers through Gordie's hair a couple of times, then, pulling his mouth from Gordie's, kissed him on the tip of the nose then gave him a quick hug.
Grabbing Gordie's hand, Chris said "Lets go on a walk"
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Chris walked into the school building, looking around for Gordie. He still wasn't completely sure how they were supposed to act in school. Suddenly he felt someone pushing him from behind.
"What the--" Chris started, ready to get mad.
"Come on" the person said, continuing to push him along.
"Oh! Hey Gordie. What's going on?" Chris asked, now walking willingly and allowing Gordie to lead him.
"Come on," Gordie said pushing Chris into the bathroom and then the nearest stall.
What the--" Chris started again but was cut off by Gordie's mouth attacking his in a long, messy open-mouthed kiss.
"There, that's better" Gordie said before giving him a couple of quick pecks on the lips.
"Well good morning to you too mister" Chris said, his hands resting casually on Gordie's hips as he leaned up against the wall of the stall.
"I missed you" Gordie said a bit shyly. Feeling less sure of him self now that he had actually dragged Chris into the bathroom.
"Well then, maybe I should go on a trip or something. See what your greeting would be then." Chris said with a huge grin.
"You better not, I'd miss you so much I'd have to hunt you down and kill you." Gordie said, laughing.
"Don't worry, I wouldn't be able to stay away" Chris said, kissing him on the forehead. (They're getting it all out now since they won't be able to do this kind of stuff throughout the day).
"Um…Chris, is this okay?" Gordie asked.
"What? The stall? Well, I have to say, not the most romantic of places, but we have to make do." Chris said, squeezing the skin beneath his hands slightly, causing the very ticklish Gordie to squeak slightly.
"Stop that! And no, I mean, is it okay that I grabbed you and we're doing this in school?" Gordie asked.
"Well, I personally have absolutely no problem with it. But yeah, we might want to be a bit more discreet." Chris said with a snicker.
"We're in a stall. No one can see us." Gordie said confusedly.
"Yeah, that part's fine, but the part where you shove me down the hall and into the closest bathroom then, without checking for other people, shoved me into a stall…not so subtle Gor." Chris said, pinching his side.
"Oh, yeah, sorry bout that" Gordie said sheepishly.
"Hey, its fine with me. The rest of the school, however, might have a thing or two to say about it." Chris said with a wink.
"True--" Just then the bell rang "Crap!" Gordie exclaimed. "I haven't been to my locker! I didn't know we had been here that long."
"Time flies when you're having fun" Chris said insinuatingly.
"Perv," Gordie said lightheartedly "I gotta go. Love ya" he said, reaching for the stall door.
"Now hold on one minute. Don't I get a goodbye kiss?" Chris said, then without waiting, pulled Gordie in for a deep kiss that lasted for several seconds. "Cya in class babe" Chris said, opening the door and leaving a breathless Gordie alone.
Gordie touched his tingly lips in shock. "Wow" he said aloud.
"What?" Some random guy asked as he walked in.
"What? Oh, nothing, I was just thinking that I'm probably going to be late…again." Gordie lied, making his way out the door to go to his locker before class.
A/N: Sorry if it's a bit short. Not quite as sappy, but still pretty bad, I know. Hope the kissing doesn't bother you. I didn't think it was that bad. I tried to keep the required rant as short as possible. REVIEW REVIEW REVIEW!!! Love you all!!
A/N: okay, I just reread this before I post it, and it's really bad. I really don't like the way this fic is going. I'm actually not to sure if I'm going to continue this. What are your thoughts?