Through My Eyes
Disclaimer: I do not own DBZ or any of its characters, I wish I did!
Chapter 2
Dear Dad,
It's me, Gohan. I know you didn't actually write to me, but I figured that I would write back anyway. I don't blame you for not wanting to write to me, after what I did.
I don't know what to say Dad, I beat Cell and that's good, but I also let you and everyone else down. I held back my true power until the very end, and for that I'm sorry. I let you die when you didn't have to Dad. You died and it's all my fault. If I had of used my full power from the beginning, none of this would have happened.
I wish you were here Dad, not just for me, but for everyone else too. Everyone pretends like it never happened, just so I don't feel bad, but deep inside, I know that they hate me. I hate myself.
Mom is pregnant if you didn't know. She found out about two weeks after you had died. I don't know what kills me more; knowing that you won't be here to see the birth of your son, or the fact that the baby will grow up without you. But I think that it's the fact that once again, it's my fault.
I just want to say how sorry I am Dad, sorry that I let you down. I just want you to know that I'm trying my best to fill your expatiations as well as everyone else's. I still train and even though I don't enter the World Tournaments anymore, for fear of being recognized as the boy who fought in the Cell Games, I still resume my training. I just hope that makes you happy to know that and maybe, if not that, something will make you proud of me again. I guess this just about ends my letter Dad. I hope you can find it in your heart to forgive me for what I did and write. If you don't, I'll understand.
Love Always,
Gohan
Gohan took one last look at the letter before sealing it shut closed in the pink envelope that Chi-Chi had given him. As he licked the envelope to seal it, he couldn't help but wonder what it was that Goku had wrote. He wondered if he had mentioned him at all in his letter to Chi-Chi.
Gohan sighed and slowly retreated back into the back room where Chi-Chi was still staring out the window. She turned as she sensed Gohan walking in.
"Done?" Chi-Chi asked referring to the letter.
Gohan nodded and handed the now stuffed envelope over to Chi-Chi who took it curiously. She wondered what Gohan had said in the letter but decided to respect his privacy and just let it be.
Suddenly, a strong gust of wind blew and the window flew outward to reveal Baba atop her cloud. "I'm here to retrieve the letters," She spoke.
Chi-Chi handed the pink envelope over to her carefully. "Thank you," She whispered.
Baba nodded seriously and with the blink of an eye, disappeared again through the window and back to King Yemma's.
"Goku, your letters are here!" King Kai called from outside the breakfast room.
Goku looked up from the plate of pancakes he was currently gulfing down curiously. "Mmmm?" He swallowed and retreated into the room where King Kai held a wide pink envelope labeled 'Goku'.
King Kai handed the letter over to Goku and smiled. "It's a fat one, someone must be missed."
Goku took the letter and smiled. "Yeah, I guess." He opened the envelope and took out the first letter from Chi-Chi and began reading it. King Kai peered from over his shoulders as Goku finished up the letter.
King Kai wiped away a tear, "Oh, how sad! It's bittersweet in a way."
Goku nodded, "Yeah, I- Hey!" He turned to King Kai, "Um, King Kai, if you don't mind, I'd like a little time alone to read and write these letters."
King Kai began taking off for the other room, "Oh fine Mr. Sensitive, have it your way. The monkey and I will be in the kitchen if you need us!" He called.
Goku nodded and the door to the room closed behind him, sealing him inside the room alone. He scanned over the letter once more before bringing out a pencil and a couple pieces of paper.
Dear Chi-Chi,
Gosh, it fills so good to hear from you again. I can't even describe the feeling. Your letter both made me happy, but at the same time made me concerned. I hope you don't blame yourself Chi, for what happened. None of this was predicted, none of us could have foreseen what was going to happen. If this was anyone's fault at all, it was mine.
I'm sorry that you feel like it's your fault, and I just want you to know that it isn't. I've realized now that Gohan's studies are important and the world doesn't revolve around sparring and fighting. I guess it's just my nature though. Sometimes it's hard for me to see anything else in the world but fighting. But hey, wouldn't anyone if the world rested upon their shoulders?
I guess maybe that's why I choose to leave the earth, to rid the world of evil, so that you and Gohan could live in peace without having to worry about evil. I left the world for you two, and now at least, Gohan can concentrate more on his studies instead of fighting. I guess what I'm trying to say is...don't blame yourself Chi, please don't.
Now to move onto the brighter things in life, I find out that I'm going to be a father again! Chi-Chi, I don't know what to say or what to think. I'm just so happy, knowing that together, we have made another life which will soon come into this world. I only wish that I could be there...For both you and the baby.
I'm glad that you've decided you're going to train him, Chi. It's good that he knows of his saiyan side and I wish I could be there to help him out, but I can't. But at least I'll know what a great mother and brother he'll grow up to be around. I know that you're going to make a great mom to our son, and I know that Gohan will make a great big brother.
Well, I too am running out of room on this small piece of paper, so I guess I'm going to have to come to an end. I just want to let you know that I love you too, Chi; more than you could possibly know.
Love always,
- Goku
Goku sighed and folded the letter up four times and set it on the table. He pulled out the next letter and was a little surprised to see that it was from Gohan. He smiled and began reading the letter.
Several minutes later he finished and placed the letter beside him, a heavy feeling in his chest. Gohan, like Chi-Chi, blamed himself for his death. Goku scratched his head a bit, trying to decide what to write to his son who believed that he hated him. Finally, he whipped out his pencil and began writing.
Dear Gohan,
Hey son, it's good to hear from you again! I'm just sorry I can't be there with you right now.
I know how you blame yourself for my death Gohan and I just want to let you know that it's not your fault. I don't want you to think that it is Gohan, in anyway shape or form, it's not. If anything, I should be thanking you right now. Thanking you for ridding the world of evil for hopefully the last time. You beat Cell and no amount of words can say how proud I am of you. You reached inside yourself to pull out emotions of which you've never seen before and ascended to a Super Saiyan 2. Now tell me, who wouldn't be proud of their son after a performance like that?!
I've heard the news about the baby Gohan, and I just want to tell you that I think you're going to make a wonderful big brother. I just hope since I can't be there that you'll be able to take my place in a way and be a father to Gohan. Teach him about his saiyan race and tell him stories about you, your mother, and maybe even me. I'm sorry that I can't be there for the baby and I wish that I could, but I can't. But I do know that you'll make a great big brother Gohan, and that's for sure.
I'm real proud of you son, and I'm happy that you've continued your training. Just remember to get in a little studying time as well, it's important to your mother, and it's also what's best. I hope you don't pressure yourself to try to meet everyone's needs; I just want you to be happy. Do what you want Gohan and don't let anyone pressure you to do what you don't want to do. I just want you to be happy and I hope you know that.
Love Always,
- Goku
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