Author's Note: OK, Here's Kratos's POV on Lloyd, for the same timeframe as Chapter One was. Obviously this is going to have more spoilers. And, obviously, I still do not own ToS.
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So. Here we are. Standing outside this infernal ranch. I have no idea why you want me here, or for that matter, why you haven't killed me yet. I would have. But you're not me, thank God...Thank Anna... So I ask.
And you say you want to keep an eye on me.
And I say this is a good idea, because it is. Considering all I've done.
If only you could understand, that no matter how this appears, I could never hurt you. You are all I have left in this world. Anna...Why?...Why?
You are looking at me and I feel like I should speak. So I say we are enemies now. And you nod slightly.
What am I saying? Am I really saying that my only son is my enemy? Is this what I want? Is this really how it has to be? Dammit....Anna.
I shake my head to clear the thoughts. Not the tears. I am not crying. I cannot be crying. This is how it has to be.
We go in and fight. I wonder what for. I know you are fighting for Collette. But what am I fighting for? I have nothing left worth fighting for. Other than you, perhaps.
You have grown stronger. This is good. You need to be strong. Stronger than me, because... Because that's what this will eventually come down to. I know it, even if you don't.
You fall once and shout out "I'm sorry Dad!" and I rush to save you. And I realize that you weren't calling me because you don't know. And I can't let you know or you'll never go through with it. You are too softhearted, Lloyd. Although I guess that is better than to be...like me.
And it's over. Collette is sick and we are at Dirk's house. I think I might hate him, for having what I most desire. I don't want to leave. I don't want to leave. But if I don't go, I know I'll never be able to. And there are things I must do.
So I politely decline Dirk's invitation to stay the night. And I get out of there as quickly as possible. I don't want you to see my face right now. I throw a glance back to see if you had followed me... Like you did that night. You saved my life then, whether you know it or not. I wish you hadn't. I wish I was dead right now. But the reason I look back now...I wish you had followed, yelled out "Where are you going Dad?" And I wish I could answer "To pick up dinner, what do you want?" Heh. Who am I kidding. That will never happen. It won't be like that. You won't ever know. You can't know. Because then you won't be able to do it. And you have to do it. I've decided. This is how it's going to be.
Goodbye Lloyd. I love you.
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Note: So there's chappy 2, what'cha think? I know the ending is kind of strange and a little OOC but I imagine they must think like that at times. If you've made it to Origin you should understand what all of the "You have to do it..."s are in reference to. Related to that, as per the recommendation of shadowfox83, I am contemplating doing another chapter after the battle with Origin. What does everyone else think about that?
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So. Here we are. Standing outside this infernal ranch. I have no idea why you want me here, or for that matter, why you haven't killed me yet. I would have. But you're not me, thank God...Thank Anna... So I ask.
And you say you want to keep an eye on me.
And I say this is a good idea, because it is. Considering all I've done.
If only you could understand, that no matter how this appears, I could never hurt you. You are all I have left in this world. Anna...Why?...Why?
You are looking at me and I feel like I should speak. So I say we are enemies now. And you nod slightly.
What am I saying? Am I really saying that my only son is my enemy? Is this what I want? Is this really how it has to be? Dammit....Anna.
I shake my head to clear the thoughts. Not the tears. I am not crying. I cannot be crying. This is how it has to be.
We go in and fight. I wonder what for. I know you are fighting for Collette. But what am I fighting for? I have nothing left worth fighting for. Other than you, perhaps.
You have grown stronger. This is good. You need to be strong. Stronger than me, because... Because that's what this will eventually come down to. I know it, even if you don't.
You fall once and shout out "I'm sorry Dad!" and I rush to save you. And I realize that you weren't calling me because you don't know. And I can't let you know or you'll never go through with it. You are too softhearted, Lloyd. Although I guess that is better than to be...like me.
And it's over. Collette is sick and we are at Dirk's house. I think I might hate him, for having what I most desire. I don't want to leave. I don't want to leave. But if I don't go, I know I'll never be able to. And there are things I must do.
So I politely decline Dirk's invitation to stay the night. And I get out of there as quickly as possible. I don't want you to see my face right now. I throw a glance back to see if you had followed me... Like you did that night. You saved my life then, whether you know it or not. I wish you hadn't. I wish I was dead right now. But the reason I look back now...I wish you had followed, yelled out "Where are you going Dad?" And I wish I could answer "To pick up dinner, what do you want?" Heh. Who am I kidding. That will never happen. It won't be like that. You won't ever know. You can't know. Because then you won't be able to do it. And you have to do it. I've decided. This is how it's going to be.
Goodbye Lloyd. I love you.
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Note: So there's chappy 2, what'cha think? I know the ending is kind of strange and a little OOC but I imagine they must think like that at times. If you've made it to Origin you should understand what all of the "You have to do it..."s are in reference to. Related to that, as per the recommendation of shadowfox83, I am contemplating doing another chapter after the battle with Origin. What does everyone else think about that?