I know I haven't updated this forever, but I don't want to hear it. I'm not in a very good mood right now, that's why I am writing. I got a new job too and I'm going to be working lots of hours so I don't know how often I will update this from now on, but I won't abandon it in case that's what you were thinking. Thank you for the reviews though.


Chapter 3 of Love is Sweeter Than Thee

Is This Right?

The next day, neither Wakka or Lulu spoke of what had happened the night before. It was their secret, between them. Lulu had steeled her will and was trying to forget it had ever happened; while Wakka berated himself for it, and longed for more.

Everyone was focused on Yuna and her loss, that no one noticed the inner turmoil of her two guardians. They both cared so much for Yuna that they didn't *want* anyone to know. Feeling selfish they ignored their own problems in order to remain strong and comfort their heartbroken friend.

Lulu had risen early in order to center her thoughts. She sat under a tall pine tree and gazed across the ocean with glassy eyes. Brushing her lock of hair out of her face Lulu sighed and wrapped her arms around her bent knees and lowered her head. Since it was early she had little worry of someone stumbling upon her and seeing how fragile the black mage really was. Lulu could not afford anyone to know about her and Wakka's situation, though she suspected Rikku might have suspicions. Either way, the young Al Bhed was too preoccupied with her cousin to worry about her and Wakka.

"What am I doing?" Lulu asked herself. "Nothing acceptable!" she snapped at herself. For the second time in twenty-four hours Lulu felt tears on her cheeks. How she wished that Chappu was still alive, that he could hold her and promise everything would be alright.

"Don't be foolish." Lulu thought harshly. Nothing could bring him back, and thoughts like those were helping no one. Lulu choked with emotion, don't go down that road again she told herself.

If Chappu was still alive this wouldn't even be happening anyway. She had never had feelings for Wakka while Chappu was alive. It was because Chappu had gone that she started to feel deeper things for Wakka. The instant she thought that Lulu could've used Flare on herself.

"I don't blame you at all Chappu." She whispered out loud, as if her lost love could hear her and say he did not fault her. How that would be a blessing, to know whether or not he would be angry or feel betrayed. Of course, he could not answer her questions and that was the problem. If only she could know how Chappu would feel, would bless her and Wakka's feelings? Did he not love them both? Wouldn't he want them to be happy? Even if it was with each other?

Lulu thought of her beloved constantly, and as long as she retained her feelings for him and her heart belonged to him.....she could never be with Wakka. Maybe that is for the best. Lulu thought. Lulu was a strong woman, she had lived a difficult life, not including that her fiance was taken from her. The mage would rather have no romantic life with Wakka then chance on the fact that Chappu was waiting for her in the Farplane, loyal to her even in death. For how could she face him if she became involved with his brother? Easy, she couldn't. Decided, and determined not to consider this line of thought again, Lulu rose and made her way back into the village; just as the sun breasted the sparkling water of the horizon.


Wakka had tossed and turned through the night, finding no peace from his own thoughts. Resigned to no sleep, Wakka lay on his back and stared out the window at the glittering stars over the ocean.

"What am I doing?" Wakka unknowingly asked himself the same question. He didn't know what to do. Follow his heart and remain loyal to his brother's memory? or do what his soul demanded and be with Lulu. That is if she would even consent. Wakka knew how much Lulu had loved Chappu first hand, and how she withered away slowly without his presence. Though he couldn't help but wonder... he had caught the mage watching him with an unreadable look in her scarlet eyes on more than one occasion. Did she think about him as often as he did her? Wakka's thoughts followed in this vein until the sun's rays had filled his room.

Wakka sat up and ran a hand over his face. He had to not think about this so much, there was nothing he could do about it at the moment. His first job was to take care of Yuna, who was in everyway but by blood, his little sister. Wakka knew that Lulu was troubled, distraught even, but he also knew she loved Yuna as much or more than he did. If Lulu could go on and do her duty through her emotions, then Wakka would follow her example. With new resolve, Wakka got dressed and left his hut; to find his summoner.


Depression helps focus these feelings, you should be able to see that in the writing. Leave a review.

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