A/N So the last chapter was a little iddy biddy one; here is a bigger one for you! Hope you like it. Please feel free to suggest something you would like to see in this...beside Sam and Jack lol!!! I know I said Pete would get hit, he still might so don't worry.
Shanks-Away!
CaptainDoctor
Sam watched herself be wheeled in on a hospital stretcher and a group of nurses attach her to a heart monitor and various other pieces of machinery. As Sam watched she could tell it was painful for Janet to watch.
"I should be doing this." Janet murmured.
"What's wrong with me?" Sam asked.
"Can't say." Janet replied.
"Oh you can't be serious. Come on Janet you're a ghost and I am having some coma induced delusion and you are going to keep a secret!" Sam exclaimed.
"There is more to it than that Sam. And as he told you, this is very real, and very important! So pay attention." Janet said slipping back into her old way of giving orders.
"Yes Doctor." Sam said with an affectionate sarcasm.
"Good." Janet said grinning.
"So, I take it this is the present. What can you tell me?" Sam asked.
"Well you have just come out of surgery. It's Tuesday evening and everyone is very worried. But I can tell you that you are fine."
"But I can't know what's wrong with me?"
"No, I said I couldn't say. I never said you couldn't watch someone get told."
"Well ok then" Sam said.
The two women moved to Dr Brightman's office, Sam was stunned to see Pete was in there with Jack, Daniel and Teal'c.
"What is he doing here?" Sam asked.
"Jack had him brought in. He has been here since this morning." Janet said.
"Oh. That's nice of him." Sam said.
"I know, General O'Neill is a nice man, he cares about you." Janet said.
"I meant Pete." Sam replied giving Janet a glare.
"Sure you did." Janet replied.
Sam watched as Dr Brightman told the four men what was wrong with her, and was stunned by the way in which all for of them seem to sit and take in every single detail, even Jack.
"All I can say is that Colonel Carter is an extremely lucky woman. The bleeding she was experience was thankfully her body trying to regulate it's cycle once again." Sam felt the boys get embarrassed.
"There were no other cysts present. However, the infection was still present and had spread into the fallopian tube on the right side." She said looking at Jack.
"Son of a bitch." Pete said, also looking at Jack.
"Watch it." Jack said to him.
"Gentlemen please. Now, we were able to remove the infected tissue. Whilst she will have major scarring, with some future treatment and careful planning there is no reason why Colonel Carter will not be able to have children. I can not say how easy it would be and it will be high risk given her age and circumstances, but it is not impossible."
"Thank god." Daniel said.
"Yeah, that's good news." Jack said.
"That's all you can say?" Pete said to him.
"Mr. Shannahan, I think it only fair to inform you, had General O'Neill not given the go ahead for the surgery, Colonel Carter could very well be dead. It saved her life. We performed a sort of flush out process of her abdominal cavity that will hopefully prevent a relapse and her fever has already dropped. Things are good gentlemen. "
Sam was trying to put together all the pieces of the puzzle when Dr Brightman's words caused her eyes to fly open in surprise and lock on Jack. She watched him as he sat fixated on his own hands.
"He saved your life again Sam." Janet said.
"So, let me see if I have this right. I had a rupturing cyst, which caused a bacteria infection and blood poisoning, I needed more surgery so I would live and Pete tried to convince them not to do it?" Sam said in disbelief.
"In a nutshell." Sam said.
"Why would he do that?" Sam asked.
"Who knows? But you are lucky Jack is able to put his feelings on hold. He risked his friendship with you to save your life. He knew you would never forgive him if the surgery had left you unable to conceive."
"He thinks that?"
"But even knowing that, he knew he had to save you."
"Just one more thing to add to the list of favours I owe him." Sam said with a smile.
"Oh I think you're pretty even." Janet said.
"So what's happening now?" Sam asked as all the men stood up.
"Well Pete has to leave, Jack wants him off base. He's been a little mouthy." Janet said.
"He isn't like that normally." Sam said with a hint of sadness in her voice.
"Maybe that is just a side of him you don't know." Janet said.
The group left the room and Sam and Janet were instantly in the hall with them.
"Daniel Jackson, I do believe that we should return to the translation of the cave paintings from M67 409." Teal'c said.
"Yes we should. Talk to you later Jack. Bye Pete." Daniel said, the two turning and leaving the other two men standing awkwardly with each other.
"I'll send someone in a couple of minutes to get you." Jack said to Pete. "There are some security procedures before you go."
"I take it I'll get a call when there is more to know, and until then I get to sit and wait and worry myself sick." Pete said throwing Jack's words back at him.
"I'll call you tomorrow Pete." Jack said trying to stay calm.
"Why is he being like this?" Sam said.
"Because he knows Sam. He knows that this is who you are. You are a damn fine officer and you are dedicated to this place and the people here. He knows this place is what makes you. "
"But that's not true." Sam protested.
"Yes it is honey," Janet said with a chuckle "what you need to realise is that it is not a bad thing. You are here for a reason and you have a lot left to offer this planet my girl."
"IT IS AWFUL! It's not normal!" Sam screamed.
"What's normal? And hey, don't scream at me, this is your doing not mine."
"Well then how do I undo it?" Sam asked.
"You don't mean that Sam. You need this. Just like I did."
"I don't deserve to be loved?" Sam asked her in a whisper.
"That's not what I am saying at all. And if I could I would explain everything to you, every single detail, but I can't. You just have to trust me when I say you need to think about this long and hard, you need to make sure you consider everything. Because when you make the choice you have to make, and I can't say when, it is going to create or change big things Sam. Bigger than you realise and that is only the beginning." Janet was pleading with her now, trying her hardest to make Sam understand.
"Well sorry, but if this divine plan is so damn important then why don't you just tell me what it is so I can make it happen. If my future is of such great importance then why don't you just point me in the right direction with instructions and stop putting me through all this!" Sam yelled to the ceiling.
"It doesn't work like that Sam. Free will. You have it, they can't take it but you can't give up on this. Trust me."
"I'm finding it hard to trust anything at the moment."
"Trust this Sam," Janet said taking her had "you are loved. A love exists for you that is greater than you can fathom, and it will be yours, but you have to be patient and not force it. And rest assured that love is going to do great things." Janet told her.
Sam was tired. She was exhausted mentally and physically and felt like she had had every proverbial rug pulled out from underneath her. Nothing felt safe anymore, and for the first time, Sam Carter was afraid of not knowing what was to come.
"Janet how am I meant to deal with this? You are telling me to rethink my entire existence. What happens when I wake up?" Sam asked.
"You'll deal with that soon. Come on let's take a walk. We have a couple of minutes before we have to come back here." Janet said. Before Sam could say anything the two were outside the mountain watching the sunset.
They walked around and talked for about half an hour. When Sam saw Pete walking through the parking lot she lost track of what she was saying.
"It's time." Janet said holding her hand. The two then, were once again back in the infirmary. It was quiet, a nurse was in the far corner making a bed and Jack sat beside Sam's sleeping body.
"He won't leave." Sam said.
"He's done that before, not left that is." Janet said. Sam told Janet she understood with the look on her face.
"Go sit with him." Janet said pushing her forward.
Sam moved forward and sat on the end the bed her body was in. She felt a little strange watching herself, so she focused her attention on Jack. She smiled when she saw him take her hand in his own. She listened carefully as he whispered to her body.
"You know you are giving me grey hair Sam. Or maybe it's Daniel I don't know. You've been napping for over a day now, I think it's time you came back to us, to me. Please wake up; I need you too. I know that I have missed my chance, the one that got away and all those other cliche's but I still need you in my life." She didn't hear anything else; she turned to Janet with a pleading look.
"Help me tell him." Sam said.
"I can't Sam."
"Don't give me that no interfering crap Janet you are my friend now help me!"
"There is nothing I can do."
"Bull shit! Janet please, he needs to know...please." Sam begged.
Janet stepped forward and took Sam's hand. "You are going to get me into trouble. Reach out your hand and place it on him. He won't feel it."
Sam placed a hand on Jack's shoulder and was shocked she could feel it. Before she knew it she had wrapped her arm around him from behind, her forearm across his chest and her hand resting on his heart. She pressed a soft kiss to his left cheek and closed her eyes tightly. "I'm coming home Jack, soon, I promise you I am coming back to you." She whispered.
Sam and Janet both stood back in surprise as Jack's eyes flew open and he sat up straight with a loud gasp.
"Janet!" Sam croaked "Did he hear me?"
"That's impossible, he was just meant to get the knowledge...but I think he did."
"Can I say something else?" Sam asked.
"No we have to go." Janet waved her hand around and the two were back in the white room.
"Sam I wish I could stay but..."
"I know, you have to go. It was good to get this chance."
"Thank you for being a wonderful friend Sam, to me and to Cassie."
"It was an honor Janet. Thank you." Sam replied hugging her friend tightly.
"Remember to be sure Sam. Think about what you saw and how you felt, very hard. Don't rush."
"I will Janet. Good bye."
"Bye Sam, oh and one last thing, tell Daniel to talk to Nurse Hollans." Janet gave her a wink and walked over to the white wall and was gone.
Shanks-Away!
CaptainDoctor
Sam watched herself be wheeled in on a hospital stretcher and a group of nurses attach her to a heart monitor and various other pieces of machinery. As Sam watched she could tell it was painful for Janet to watch.
"I should be doing this." Janet murmured.
"What's wrong with me?" Sam asked.
"Can't say." Janet replied.
"Oh you can't be serious. Come on Janet you're a ghost and I am having some coma induced delusion and you are going to keep a secret!" Sam exclaimed.
"There is more to it than that Sam. And as he told you, this is very real, and very important! So pay attention." Janet said slipping back into her old way of giving orders.
"Yes Doctor." Sam said with an affectionate sarcasm.
"Good." Janet said grinning.
"So, I take it this is the present. What can you tell me?" Sam asked.
"Well you have just come out of surgery. It's Tuesday evening and everyone is very worried. But I can tell you that you are fine."
"But I can't know what's wrong with me?"
"No, I said I couldn't say. I never said you couldn't watch someone get told."
"Well ok then" Sam said.
The two women moved to Dr Brightman's office, Sam was stunned to see Pete was in there with Jack, Daniel and Teal'c.
"What is he doing here?" Sam asked.
"Jack had him brought in. He has been here since this morning." Janet said.
"Oh. That's nice of him." Sam said.
"I know, General O'Neill is a nice man, he cares about you." Janet said.
"I meant Pete." Sam replied giving Janet a glare.
"Sure you did." Janet replied.
Sam watched as Dr Brightman told the four men what was wrong with her, and was stunned by the way in which all for of them seem to sit and take in every single detail, even Jack.
"All I can say is that Colonel Carter is an extremely lucky woman. The bleeding she was experience was thankfully her body trying to regulate it's cycle once again." Sam felt the boys get embarrassed.
"There were no other cysts present. However, the infection was still present and had spread into the fallopian tube on the right side." She said looking at Jack.
"Son of a bitch." Pete said, also looking at Jack.
"Watch it." Jack said to him.
"Gentlemen please. Now, we were able to remove the infected tissue. Whilst she will have major scarring, with some future treatment and careful planning there is no reason why Colonel Carter will not be able to have children. I can not say how easy it would be and it will be high risk given her age and circumstances, but it is not impossible."
"Thank god." Daniel said.
"Yeah, that's good news." Jack said.
"That's all you can say?" Pete said to him.
"Mr. Shannahan, I think it only fair to inform you, had General O'Neill not given the go ahead for the surgery, Colonel Carter could very well be dead. It saved her life. We performed a sort of flush out process of her abdominal cavity that will hopefully prevent a relapse and her fever has already dropped. Things are good gentlemen. "
Sam was trying to put together all the pieces of the puzzle when Dr Brightman's words caused her eyes to fly open in surprise and lock on Jack. She watched him as he sat fixated on his own hands.
"He saved your life again Sam." Janet said.
"So, let me see if I have this right. I had a rupturing cyst, which caused a bacteria infection and blood poisoning, I needed more surgery so I would live and Pete tried to convince them not to do it?" Sam said in disbelief.
"In a nutshell." Sam said.
"Why would he do that?" Sam asked.
"Who knows? But you are lucky Jack is able to put his feelings on hold. He risked his friendship with you to save your life. He knew you would never forgive him if the surgery had left you unable to conceive."
"He thinks that?"
"But even knowing that, he knew he had to save you."
"Just one more thing to add to the list of favours I owe him." Sam said with a smile.
"Oh I think you're pretty even." Janet said.
"So what's happening now?" Sam asked as all the men stood up.
"Well Pete has to leave, Jack wants him off base. He's been a little mouthy." Janet said.
"He isn't like that normally." Sam said with a hint of sadness in her voice.
"Maybe that is just a side of him you don't know." Janet said.
The group left the room and Sam and Janet were instantly in the hall with them.
"Daniel Jackson, I do believe that we should return to the translation of the cave paintings from M67 409." Teal'c said.
"Yes we should. Talk to you later Jack. Bye Pete." Daniel said, the two turning and leaving the other two men standing awkwardly with each other.
"I'll send someone in a couple of minutes to get you." Jack said to Pete. "There are some security procedures before you go."
"I take it I'll get a call when there is more to know, and until then I get to sit and wait and worry myself sick." Pete said throwing Jack's words back at him.
"I'll call you tomorrow Pete." Jack said trying to stay calm.
"Why is he being like this?" Sam said.
"Because he knows Sam. He knows that this is who you are. You are a damn fine officer and you are dedicated to this place and the people here. He knows this place is what makes you. "
"But that's not true." Sam protested.
"Yes it is honey," Janet said with a chuckle "what you need to realise is that it is not a bad thing. You are here for a reason and you have a lot left to offer this planet my girl."
"IT IS AWFUL! It's not normal!" Sam screamed.
"What's normal? And hey, don't scream at me, this is your doing not mine."
"Well then how do I undo it?" Sam asked.
"You don't mean that Sam. You need this. Just like I did."
"I don't deserve to be loved?" Sam asked her in a whisper.
"That's not what I am saying at all. And if I could I would explain everything to you, every single detail, but I can't. You just have to trust me when I say you need to think about this long and hard, you need to make sure you consider everything. Because when you make the choice you have to make, and I can't say when, it is going to create or change big things Sam. Bigger than you realise and that is only the beginning." Janet was pleading with her now, trying her hardest to make Sam understand.
"Well sorry, but if this divine plan is so damn important then why don't you just tell me what it is so I can make it happen. If my future is of such great importance then why don't you just point me in the right direction with instructions and stop putting me through all this!" Sam yelled to the ceiling.
"It doesn't work like that Sam. Free will. You have it, they can't take it but you can't give up on this. Trust me."
"I'm finding it hard to trust anything at the moment."
"Trust this Sam," Janet said taking her had "you are loved. A love exists for you that is greater than you can fathom, and it will be yours, but you have to be patient and not force it. And rest assured that love is going to do great things." Janet told her.
Sam was tired. She was exhausted mentally and physically and felt like she had had every proverbial rug pulled out from underneath her. Nothing felt safe anymore, and for the first time, Sam Carter was afraid of not knowing what was to come.
"Janet how am I meant to deal with this? You are telling me to rethink my entire existence. What happens when I wake up?" Sam asked.
"You'll deal with that soon. Come on let's take a walk. We have a couple of minutes before we have to come back here." Janet said. Before Sam could say anything the two were outside the mountain watching the sunset.
They walked around and talked for about half an hour. When Sam saw Pete walking through the parking lot she lost track of what she was saying.
"It's time." Janet said holding her hand. The two then, were once again back in the infirmary. It was quiet, a nurse was in the far corner making a bed and Jack sat beside Sam's sleeping body.
"He won't leave." Sam said.
"He's done that before, not left that is." Janet said. Sam told Janet she understood with the look on her face.
"Go sit with him." Janet said pushing her forward.
Sam moved forward and sat on the end the bed her body was in. She felt a little strange watching herself, so she focused her attention on Jack. She smiled when she saw him take her hand in his own. She listened carefully as he whispered to her body.
"You know you are giving me grey hair Sam. Or maybe it's Daniel I don't know. You've been napping for over a day now, I think it's time you came back to us, to me. Please wake up; I need you too. I know that I have missed my chance, the one that got away and all those other cliche's but I still need you in my life." She didn't hear anything else; she turned to Janet with a pleading look.
"Help me tell him." Sam said.
"I can't Sam."
"Don't give me that no interfering crap Janet you are my friend now help me!"
"There is nothing I can do."
"Bull shit! Janet please, he needs to know...please." Sam begged.
Janet stepped forward and took Sam's hand. "You are going to get me into trouble. Reach out your hand and place it on him. He won't feel it."
Sam placed a hand on Jack's shoulder and was shocked she could feel it. Before she knew it she had wrapped her arm around him from behind, her forearm across his chest and her hand resting on his heart. She pressed a soft kiss to his left cheek and closed her eyes tightly. "I'm coming home Jack, soon, I promise you I am coming back to you." She whispered.
Sam and Janet both stood back in surprise as Jack's eyes flew open and he sat up straight with a loud gasp.
"Janet!" Sam croaked "Did he hear me?"
"That's impossible, he was just meant to get the knowledge...but I think he did."
"Can I say something else?" Sam asked.
"No we have to go." Janet waved her hand around and the two were back in the white room.
"Sam I wish I could stay but..."
"I know, you have to go. It was good to get this chance."
"Thank you for being a wonderful friend Sam, to me and to Cassie."
"It was an honor Janet. Thank you." Sam replied hugging her friend tightly.
"Remember to be sure Sam. Think about what you saw and how you felt, very hard. Don't rush."
"I will Janet. Good bye."
"Bye Sam, oh and one last thing, tell Daniel to talk to Nurse Hollans." Janet gave her a wink and walked over to the white wall and was gone.