Disclaimer: Nope not mine. Only this story.
A/N: I'm feel too lazy to start schoolwork today. So I'll just go on with this drabble here... Only one review for the last chapter, waah... oh well. That's okay... I just posted it yesterday anyway... And I understand that you guys hate me for the fact that I still didn't wake him up huh? (sniff!) Or maybe you haven't read it yet... or stopped reading altogether...(author wailing like a baby!)... kidding...
--Oh well... Note to Shin-no-shibo: I'm glad that you are not too MAD at me .
--I'm sort of experimenting... it's slightly different from the other chaps (at least I think so) why? Guess. Though I think it would be pretty obvious.
---Here goes nothing... the moment you've been waiting for... or is it... read...
Waking by Kage Kurokawa
Part 6 Choices
A Voice:
You cannot escape from the past. It always comes back to haunt you if you do...
You cannot turn your back on your demons. They'll follow you everywhere...
You cannot run away from the present. It becomes your past tomorrow...
For whatever reason, there maybe excuses, there maybe alibis...
But life spares no one...
People live for a purpose, things happen because they were meant to happen...
However irrational that may seem at times...
You are here because you are supposed to be here...
By accident, by chance or by choice...
Things bound to be, happen anyway...
In their own way... when the time is right...
You cannot fight fate... You cannot fight nature...
But you may stir it in another direction...
Choices, decisions... trivial or otherwise...
Yet you cannot change it completely... everything leaves traces of their own existence...
No matter how minute...
But you can deal with it... master it in such a way that you flow with it...
Transcend it... Move with it...
Face it. Then let go.
No regrets...
Do not live with false delusions...
Pain is everywhere...
Everyone wears their masks, everyone covers up themselves...
Smiles, coldness, vices, maybe even innocence...
All these facades to protect oneself from further pain...
Life maybe in the hands of fate... in some instances...
But there are times when it is placed in your hands...
To live or die is your decision to make...
Because life is a sum of many factors...
You cannot escape the cycle of the universe...
Even if you take the easy way out...
Some would call it cowardice... others foolishness...
But we are often fooled by appearances...
There is no easy way out...
Everything is intertwined... in one way or another...
The choices you make affects the world that revolves around you...
It is selfishness not to see that...
The errors of the past can never be corrected...
The lost moments of regret can never be retrieve...
The stains of yesterday may never truly disappear...
You cannot turn back the wheel of time even if you wanted to...
No matter how desperate you are...
So let go...
That's all you can do...
You cannot make up for your past...
But you may long for deliverance...
Maybe along the way you find it...
It could be a long, hard struggle... more aches and bruises...
But what if in the end you find it?
It's all worth it...
What if not? You ask.
The journey in itself is the reward...
You tried... you gave your best...
That is not failure...
Who are you to say that you have nothing to live for?
Who are you to say that you are not needed?
Life brings too many surprises...
Too many unexpected circumstances...
Even the wisest cannot clearly point what will happen tomorrow...
If to live would mean to keep your pretenses for much longer...
To continue the masquerade and stir up illusions for the world to believe...
Then so be it.
You are not the only one suffering...
Everyone has their own share of sorrow...
This world has room enough for one more...
Then maybe in sorrow you can find comfort in one another...
You have your fate in the palm of your hands...
You have to face the consequences of your decision...
What would it be?
The rain stopped. Somewhere in the darkness... two beautiful emerald orbs opened.
Tbc...
A/N: There all done with this chap. What do you think? Was this a good or bad experiment? I think this is a drabble . But at least I woke him up. Or did I? Hehe... kidding. Some consolation huh? Review... Please, please, pretty please (teary puppy dog eyes)... I really need to know what you people think... Comments, suggestions, anything...
Oh well... back to schoolwork now.
Ja, ne minna san!