The Summer at James'
Rated: PG for romantic content
Pairing: James/Lily and Lupin/Lily
Disclaimer: Harry Potter belongs to J.K. Rowling, (queen of the world), the song belongs to Michelle Branch. I am the one who figured out a story to go to her plotline and her song. Read on.
Chapter 4: Tuesday Morning
Lily's POV:
I woke up on Tuesday morning scared and confused. How could I have done this? I looked next to me, Remus was still asleep. James was going to kill me. We cuddled, and kissed, and he whispered sweet nothings in my ear all weekend. He was so nice. And sincere! James was always joking around! Remus made a nice change. But I still loved James. What was I going to do?
I remember
Stormy weather
The way the sky looks when it's cold
I remembered back to fourth year. We had dated. For a brief moment in time, I was his. It had been this nice then too. Why had I ever gone to James?
And you were with me
Content with walking
So unaware of the world
I remembered one date in particular. Everything was going so well. We walked through Hogsmeade as though no one else existed. Them, right before nightfall, he made us go back. I wanted to stay with him forever but apparently he didn't. I was cold toward him the rest of the year. We'd reconciled since then but it was never the same.
Please don't drive me home tonight
Cause I don't wanna feel alone
Please don't drive me home tonight
Cause I don't wanna go
And now here we were. Kissing till all hours of the night. Living on love. I didn't want to go back to James.
Tuesday morning
In the dark
I was finding out
Who you were
At around three in the afternoon on Monday, he whispered something astonishing in my ear. He's a werewolf. That's why we had to go back that night. He apologized at least twenty times before midnight. I forgave him and we kissed more.
I took you picture
While you were sleeping
And then I paced around the room
Remus stirred. I grabbed the photo I had taken of him an hour ago and hid it in my pillowcase. He just looked so peaceful in his sleep and he had a Polaroid in his suitcase. I would treasure that picture forever.
If I had known then
That these things happen
Would they have happened with you?
As Remus woke up and smiled at me, I got butterflies. I had never heard of this sort of thing happening before. If I had known, would I have been able to look out? I didn't know. All I knew was that I loved Remus and he loved me.
Please don't drive me home tonight
Cause I don't wanna feel alone
Please don't drive me home tonight
Cause I don't wanna go
"Remus-" I began.
"Good morning, Lily." Ah, Remus. As courteous as ever.
"Yes, um, I don't want to go home."
"We don't have to go now, I-"
"No, I mean never."
"Never?"
"Please don't drive me home tonight." Remus had the most puzzled look on his face. "This has been great and I don't want to go back where I feel alone."
"But, alone? What do you mean? You have James."
"Didn't this weekend mean anything to you? I love James but not like, not like," not like you I finished in my head.
"Look, I love you but your place is with James."
"But-"
"I have to take you home, it's...." he looked it hurt to say the next words. ".....it's where you belong."
"But, I don't wanna go!" I fell into his arms and he kissed the top of my head. I never wanted it to end.
Tuesday morning
In the dark
I was finding out
Who I was
"Lily, trust me, this was nice. But, James loves you and needs you and you love him. I don't' want to have it on my conscience that I broke it up."
I felt so sorry for him. He was going to give me up for my benefit. How unselfish! "Even if you have me?"
Remus looked up from unbuttoning his pajama shirt. "That's what's so heart-wrenching about this."
I ran to him. "Remus you don't have to do this for James."
"Don't I?" he grabbed a t-shirt and jeans from his suitcase. "He became an animagus for me! So did Sirius and I'd do this for him in a heartbeat too."
"Oh," he had told me all about their transformations last night. "I guess I can see that." Then a thought popped into my head. What if James beat Remus up for this? It wasn't his fault. I had come here. I had to make sure he didn't. I'd just explain it to him alone. Remus crossed the room to the lavatory.
"I'll just be a few minutes cupcake, then we can get you back where you belong." He ducked in and I heard the shower turn on.
I smiled. James. He was going to beat up sweet, cute, kind, considerate Remus Lupin? I don't think so! And if he even thought about it, I'd slug him. I was seeing who James really was. The sun was coming up.
And if you turned around to see me
And I was gone
Should have looked outside you window
Cause the sun was comin up
I dressed quickly and crossed to the dresser to grab my purse. I paused and thought, was I the kind of girl who was going to tell her boyfriend off for another guy? I heard the shower turn off. Oh yes I was.
Tuesday morning
In the dark
We were finding out
Who we are
I was halfway to James' house when I realized I had left the picture of Remus in the pillowcase.
A/N: well, what do u think? Emotional chapter. Your reviews keep me going! It will be hard to keep up what with school now but I will do my best to please you if you review! ï
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TomTom21: thanx 4 reviewing! And, fear not, there's more. Much more. Only, more concealed than as exposed as before. But, it's cute when Lupin has heartache. Don't u agree? ï