So after about what 2-3 months or so we finally have an update!! YAY!! Anyways, sorry about the wait, family problems became a big issue during the summer and writing was one of the last thing on my to do list but no worries here it is!!

Castra- Sorry for the wait but here's the new one. Fernando should react pretty interesting when he does find out about the affair. He's very passive right now with his whole attitude and doesn't really show much interest with his wife unless asking if she's pregnant yet but then again he is a night world and might just have a completely different side to him. So we'll just have to wait and see how that comes about!!

Terriah- werewolves are pretty cool right ;) I thought it would be interesting to write a story on the least respected group of the night world. Try to show a whole new side to them that not a lot of writers have touched base on! So enjoy and thanks for the review!

Magistrix Mundi- good question about marrying a human. My whole theory is that the night world seems to be rather high on themselves so they wouldn't want to mix blood with "half breeds" so they try to stick with pure bloods. Eventually after a thousand years of this they're starting to run out of witches that aren't already related to them so they need to bring new blood in and slowly change it to new pure blood. Even though Fernando is a male all of the female witches are mostly related to him somehow. It's also explained a little in this chapter too!!

Calisia girl- thanks for the review! Nice to know I can leave people speechless... lol

Babe in black- looks like you got your wish a lot sooner than others. I decided to write this out after I got your review! So thanks!

Enjoy ya'll

Chapter 5 Fumbling Towards Ecstasy

A Hole in the World

"Edmund," she whispered as she felt his hand in circle her waist. He pulled her closer to him and placed kisses all over her neck.

"Yes," he drawled as he continued his work.

"Don't," she said as she looked around quickly. The hallway seemed disserted but that could all change with someone coming out from one of the many rooms.

"Why? You belong to me," he said as he turned her around to face him. She put her hands in front of her to try to keep him away but to no avail.

"Don't fight me joli," he said as he started kissing her.

"Edmund," she said in between kisses, "what about Fernando? Where was he when you left him?"

Edmund pulled back then and looked at her painfully, "you had to mention him," he said almost teasingly but still laced with jealousy and anger.

Emma sighed as she looked at him, she hated even thinking of Fernando when they had these private moments together but she couldn't help it. The stress this affair was giving her was starting to keep her up at night.

"Edmund please," she said almost annoyed as she turned around and started walking again. She felt Edmund following closely behind her but chose to ignore him.

"Oh Emma," he said as he grabbed her hand and pulled her back to him. "Don't worry about that man, he is far from here."

"How do you know," she asked as she looked down the hall again.

"Because I would be able to feel his mind if he came near us," he said tapping his forehead lightly.

"I forgot about that," she mumbled mostly to herself.

"You seem disappointed," he said as he looked at her squarely.

Emma looked at him quickly then smiled, "why would I be disappointed?"

He didn't answer at first and Emma could feel him almost searching her mind, like a reader reading a book.

"Edmund," she said again as she laid a hand on the side of his face. His green eyes darkened but then went back to normal as he kissed the inside of her palm.

"I wish it didn't have to be this way Emma. Us sneaking around the hallways like this," he said as he sighed heavily.

"I know," she replied. An awkward silence followed as neither of them knew what to say. Emma was once again reminded of her marriage vows and even though the situation was unfair she was still breaking them.

"Come on," he said as he grabbed her hand and pulled her close to him.

"Where are we going?" she asked as he started kissing her again.

"Out of this dreary hallway," he said as he pulled her with him.

Emma glanced back at the empty hallway, praying that nobody would come in. Edmund seemed so excited and happy when he was with her that she could hardly ever refuse him. It had been about week since that had been alone with each other. It was always hard for both of them to disappear without making it seem obvious. Emma was mostly worried about the staff talking; she didn't know how loyal they were to Fernando. From what she had learned from them he was always kind and kindness always paid off.

Edmund was always assuring her though that he would know if anyone was suspecting them. He said his abilities stretched far and wide, and the staff knew to keep certain things quiet since they served in a night worlder's home but she was still unsure. It was hard to keep her nerves controlled, especially after she and Edmund would part ways. Did it show that they had been together; could Fernando smell Edmunds cologne on her when he hugged her? She always had to hold her hands in these moments because they would start to shake, for those split moments of contact with Fernando she would never be so frightened in her life. The possibility that he would find out, that her family would find out what she had done, how she had disgraced them would hurt her more than anything and could kill both Edmund and her.

The night world's policy of not mixing with humans was what frightened her the most. Fernando was only allowed to do it because the witch community was slowly dying out. They had all tried to keep their line pure of any other blood but witches that they would have had to start marrying inside their own family if they wanted to uphold the tradition. Edmund had told her that Fernando approached the Night World council twice before they approved him to legally marry a human and that human just happened to be her.

He had also explained to her that night world was ruthless against people that broke the law of involving humans into the night world. He had told her the original plan with her was to wait until total confidence was placed in her then would be told about the night world. Fernando thought it would be best after she had given birth to the first heir so that she would be tied down to the family no matter what. The whole thought of everything about the night world still made her uneasy; even Edmund could unnerve her sometimes with his abilities.

"Hey," said Edmund breaking Emma out of her thoughts. She blinked and his face came into view. "Thought I lost you for a moment," he smiled but Emma noticed it didn't reach his eyes.

"Just thinking," she said as she looked out a nearby window. He had taken her to the left wing of the house which overlooked a small lake in the backyard. She could feel his prescience in her mind, like an extra weight had been added and she knew he was getting angry but she almost didn't care. She was tired of the running and the hiding, the constant secrets that had to be kept, the guilt that never went away, she was tired.

"Just say it Emma," Edmund said in almost a whisper.

"Say what?"

"I can read your thoughts, you're leaving them out so openly," he said as he walked to the other side of the window and looked at her.

"I can't help that okay, and they're just my thoughts, my paranoia's, nothing more," Emma said as she glanced at him then looked quickly down at the floor. The hurt she saw in his eyes felt like it made her heart skip a beat. She didn't want to hurt him; it was the last thing in the world she wanted.

"But its what your always thinking, even when we first touched it was what you were thinking," he said flatly.

"What do you want me to say then; I can't help but not feel this way Edmund. I got thrown this whole new world that I never wanted to be apart of," she felt his anger flash through her mind and realized that she had insulted him.

"Edmund," she said as she looked up at him, his face showed no emotion though, "don't be angry."

"Don't be angry," he repeated? "This world is me, its who I am, I can't change that."

Emma felt the situation slowly falling through her fingers like sand, "I know Edmund but I can't change the way I feel either. I'm married and in the first few months of my marriage I'm having an affair, no less to my husband's best friend and from everything that you told me your world would kill us both if they found out."

"That's why we just have to be careful…"

"No,' she nearly yelled then quickly controlled herself. "No Edmund, I'm sorry but I just need time, I need to think about all of this. I'm scared, I'm so scared," the last part she trailed off into a whisper.

"Oh Emma," he said as he held her in his arms. "I will always protect you, you don't have to worry."

"Yes I do, I have to worry for the both of us because I know you won't," she felt him stiffen and pulled back to look at her. She felt the tears in her eyes ready to flow; she couldn't hold them back any longer.

"What are you saying then," he said as he looked down at her. Emma could feel his walls slowly start to go up around him.

"We need to end this," she said as she dropped her gaze and slowly pulled out of his embrace.

She waited for him to say something but he remained silent. "I'm sorry, I just can't handle this anymore, not now at least," she said after a moments pause as she looked into his eyes.

He stood apart from her as if she was a stranger to him, "so that is it then, a few words and its over with?"

Emma just looked at him as a tear streaked down her cheeks.

Edmund seem to stiffen up then and ran a hand through his hair. Emma could tell she had just broken his heart and was sure he was feeling the same thing she was. She felt horrible and selfish but she felt that she was going to have a mental breakdown soon if the affair had kept up.

"Well then Mrs. Delacruz, please inform your husband that I will be unable to stay for dinner tonight," he said with disdain as he brushed passed her and headed down the hallway.

Emma nearly chocked back a sobbed as she watched him go. He was leaving her now just how she had left him but everything in her body was screaming at her to stop him, to yell out his name and make him come back. He was nearing the end of the hallway and this was her chance to do it, all she had to do was say his name and he would come back and they would make up. Her mouth opened and she took a step forward and maybe because of the bond he looked back at her that instant and what would have been the perfect moment to do something was over just as it had started. Nothing came out of her mouth, she didn't move to go after him, and he only looked at her for a second before turning his head the other way and hurrying down the hallway. Now she was alone, all alone in the giant house and as she glanced out the window she noticed the sun had set, not to return for another day.