Title: Only God Knows Why
Author: Hentai Tenshi
Notes: Second Saiyuki fic. (posted here anyways, my other Saiyuki fics can't be posted here ) Abundant angst, NO pairings, yaoi, BL or adult situations. (OMG! Are you shocked?) Inspired by mental pictures brought on by Kid Rock's 'Only God Knows Why', sleep deprivation and fasting. Not guaranteed to make sense.
Disclaimer: Cho Gonou, Sha Gojyo and Kanan belong to Minekura Kazuya. Goddess Minekura is the sole creator and owner of Genso Maden Saiyuki and deserves our adoration! Bow to the Goddess!
Summary: What might have been...
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Staring up at the clear night sky, Cho Gonou sighed deeply, not wincing, but welcoming the pain in his ribs the heavy action caused. His fingertips pressed the bandages resting against the still healing wound, feeling the hot well of blood against his fingers and laid back on the wooden porch. He continued to stare at the stars, the right side fuzzy, the left perfect.
He continued to stare, not feeling the nights chill or the light drizzle of rain that began to fall as the clouds covered the stars. Cho Gonou closed his eyes, whispering one name softly as he felt the pain in his chest swell and steal his breath, worse than any pain Chin Iiso had dealt him.
He opened his eyes, blinking at the bright sunlight, the familiar sound of laughter filtering slowly through his consciousness. He sat up, looking out over a brightly sunlit yard, a long dark braid flittering in the breeze catching his attention.
Before him in the tall grass was Kanan, her face lit with a smile as she laughed down at someone in the grass. She twirled, once, twice, throwing herself to the ground as a second laughter filtered on the wind to him. Gonou brushed long bangs from his face, watching in awe as Kanan lifted a small boy into the air above her, the child kicking and giggling happily.
He felt the breath catch in his throat again as he watched. They both stopped, turned and looked directly at him and smiled. Standing, they began to run towards him, everything around them slowing. As they reached the porch, Gonou reached for them both, the child calling him as the small hands reached for him in return.
He felt hot wet tears roll down his cheeks as his fingers passed through them and Kanan smiled.
"Wake up, Gonou."
He gasped sharply, eyes blinking back tears as everything around him blurred to darkness. He felt a warm hand on his shoulder, shaking him gently, but firmly. He whimpered his love's name, lifting a hand to wipe tears from his eyes as they began to focus, not on the brown of her hair, but the red of someone else's.
"Hey, wake up. Your going to catch your death all over again out here." Gojyo said, an eyebrow lifted as he noticed the tears in the faint light. "You okay?"
Cho Gonou sat up, wiping the tears that wouldn't stop from his cheeks and smiled, merely nodding. Sometimes, the Gods were too cruel.
-Owari-