Secrets withheld

Chapter 12- changes

You would have thought that Harry's home life would have improved somewhat with James trying to make things better and all. However somehow it really hadn't, not that much anyway. Life was just as difficult but with different circumstances but now Harry had a father.

Harry had been at college a week now and as fun as it was it was also hard work but completely enjoyable. Hermione and Ron were doing exactly as Harry had asked them and he was grateful for that, he and Draco were spending every hour of the day they could together. It was good that his friends were supporting him, they knew he deserved the happiness he had found, and they didn't want to spoil that.

After college Harry and Draco would wander the streets, sit in starbucks or if they wanted a full out snogging session then they would return to Harry's place.

Lily was hardly ever there anymore, Harry suspected she was with one of her friends, James was also hardly there also, in a bid to keep his biological son he had got his lazy arse off the sofa and had got a job in a local supermarket as a cleaner.

For the first time in at least ten years James was sober and Harry could actually say for once in his life he was proud of his father.

However in the happiness that they were basking in Harry and Draco were forgetting to be careful in their affection for each other. They were often seen around college holding hands, cuddling in starbucks, or kissing in the car park. They were so happy that they forgot what was at risk if they were ever discovered.

The couple were currently sitting in the living room, cuddled up on the sofa together, talking and occasionally sharing intimate kisses.

"You know we're not the only gay couple in school, I met this guy the other day called Mathew, he and George have been going out for two years, they've been hiding it all that time, they say it's really hard."

"Are you saying you want to be more openly affectionate?"

"Well I don't see why we should hide in the shadows, it's not like we're ashamed of dating each other."

"Of course not, but your father, if he ever found out you'll be disowned for sure."

"I like that life, full of money and riches, however that is not the life I want, I can't share it with you, where everyone puts on a front to show how high and mighty they are, I don't want to live like that, I don't want to pretend I'm someone I'm not."

Harry smiled, acknowledging the fact that his boyfriend was willing to give up everything he had for him, it was an unbelievable notion but here it was.

"Are you sure, I mean, you've grown up rich and..."

"Snobbish?" Draco offered.

"You, never, I was more thinking aristocratic."

"Oh really, it's nice to know you don't see me as a prat."

"Oh I do, just not like that."

The two of them burst out laughing, which ended up in a heated kiss that continued for quite a while. Draco ended up on top of Harry, their lips never separating. They were still in this stance when Lily came home and sneered at them in disgust as the teens jumped apart.

"You are foolish; following your heart instead of your head, all you will find down that path is poverty and eventual loathing."

"You hypocrite, you fell in love with dad, you wouldn't have married him if you hadn't."

"Yes, I suppose I did once and look where that got me, living in this hell hole with a drunk, a son that hates me, a dead son and pregnant with another mans child."

"All that is your own fault, you put yourself in that position, why don't you sort your life and get a job like dad has."

"I have a job." Lily snapped irritably.

"Prostitution isn't a job, last time I checked it was against the law."

"I have raised you, provided food and a roof over your head you ungrateful little brat."

Harry paused, the loathing he felt for the woman in front of him that was supposed to be his mother was raising, Draco sat on the sofa nervously, glancing from Harry to Lily, fearing what was about to be said.

Trying to prevent a full on row he stood up beside Harry and took his hand whispering soothing words into his ear, trying to calm him. This seemed t work, Harry no longer looked angry, just upset.

"Is that what you think of me?" Harry asked slowly and calmly.

Lily didn't respond right away, it looked as if she were considering what she was going to say so she did not hurt her now only son, however anyone that truly knew Lily knew that she never cared to spare people feelings.

"I wish you had died instead of Will, he was always the better son."

At that Harry did start to cry, Draco took him in his arms gently rubbing soothing circles on his back. "Its ok baby, I'm here, I've got you." He whispered, kissing Harry's forehead. He was sending the Malfoy death glare at Lily who was glaring straight back.

Having had enough Draco carefully led his distressed boyfriend to his room and shut the door. They lay down on the bed together in each other's arms facing te window rather than the door. They snuggled together and watched as the afternoon turned into evening and then the evening turning into night.

They ignored the sounds from the other side of the door that was Lily wrecking the flat and James coming home, trying to stop her, to calm her down but only engaging in another loud argument.

The couple just lay quietly in each others arms. An hour later Draco got up to leave, it was late and if he was gone much longer he'd be in trouble.

Harry walked him to the front door through the living room that was littered with broken glass and mirror shards, the sofa cushions had been torn and the dinning room table over turned sending the objects sitting on it to the floor also. All in all it looked as if a bomb had exploded within the flat.

Draco looked around at the mess; he pitied Harry for having to live here. James and Lily were no where to be seen but that was properly a good thing. Harry looked oddly ashamed, he had grown up with this but he'd never wanted Draco to see it.

"I'll see you tomorrow right." Harry asked hopefully, the next day was Saturday, a free day to spend together.

"Of course, I couldn't go an entire day without seeing you." Then Draco noticed why he had actually asked this and decided to reassure him. "Harry, you don't have to be ashamed of your parents, I know you are so don't try and deny it, all of this." Draco motioned at the strewn wreckage. "Doesn't change how I feel, I'll see you tomorrow, and the day after that and the day after that."

"Sometimes I don't understand why you're with me, you could have anyone you wanted and yet here you are with a low life like me."

"You're not a low life, you're gorgeous." Draco placed a soft kiss on Harry's lips. "Sweet." He did it again. "Kind." And again. "And the best boyfriend I could have asked for. Never think that your not worthy of me, we're equals and always will be."

Harry flung his arms around Draco's neck and kissed him passionately, the blondes hands came to rest on the other teen's hips pulling them closer.

They had to once again pull away from each other as lily strode out of her bedroom with a suitcase in hand. Harry stared at her wondering what she was doing now. However she didn't wait for him to ask.

"I'm leaving." She announced.

"You'll be back."

"I'm not telling you where I'm going."

"That means you have no where to go."

"I'm never coming back."

"Sure, you've walked out three times before yet her you are doing it a fourth time, what makes this time any different from the last."

"Don't start another fight baby, it's not worth it, just let her go." Draco said.

Lily glared at the blonde before storming towards them, she had just crossed the thresh hold of he door when she stopped to speak. "I know I was never a good mother to you Harry, you have every right to hate me."

"Glad that you agree." Harry agreed coldly, it was clear that he was still hurting from Lily's earlier comment.

"However, in my defence, not that I deserve one mind, but in my defence I did try. I may have failed miserably but I did try. I don't know how long James will be around, I know him back to front, he may come looking for me but the flat is yours. I hope for your sake that you never see me again."

"Goodbye...mum."

Lily looked like a fish out of water at those words, she had never expected to be called that by her son, she knew she didn't deserve that title.

"That is the first time you have called me that since you were seven."

"Well you may not have been a good mother but that is what you are, even if you think I'm a complete brat, even if you wish I was dead, or a complete annoyance."

Lily didn't smile at this, instead she turned on her heal and departed not looking back once. A few minutes later Draco left as well leaving Harry very much alone in the flat. He knew his boyfriend would be back but he doubted every much that he'd ever see his mother again.

James was mysteriously absent for an age after everyone had left, Harry suspected he was down the pub spending money he didn't have drowning his sorrows.

Harry, in this time had cleaned the flat back to his normal spotless state (he couldn't stand mess) but unfortunately cleaning was tiring and made him extremely hungry. However there was no food in the fridge, apart from some milk that had gone out of date three weeks ago and some mouldy cheese, all of which he threw out.

Harry knew exactly where Will used to keep his savings and did not feel any guilt taking some and ordering pizza, he used his mobile as neither Lily nor James had ever hooked up a phone.

A while later after the pizza had arrived, been eaten and the boxes that had come with it thrown away Harry was stepping out of the shower. It had been a cold shower for a reason Harry did not care to think about, he knew all about the dodgy things that the kids on the estate did to the place.

It was just as he was finishing dressing there was a sharp persistent knocking on the front door. Harry knew it wouldn't be James, he had keys, it could be Lily, but Harry doubted this, the only other options was a client of either his mother or brother, that or Draco. The teen hoped it was the latter but took no risks.

Before opening the door he slid the lock in place before opening the door.

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