Hey! I just wanted to remind you that this is all in flashbacks if the italics do not do so. READ AND REVIEW! Ryan in next chap!
xoxo Jules
Chapter 10: "Not so good"
Summer, age 17 sat on her bed. Seth Cohen, her now boyfriend was kissing her neck.
"Seth." She said as he kissed her. "Seth." She said again
"Summer." He moaned into her neck.
"Seth, stop it!" Summer said pushing him off of her.
Seth hit the floor with a loud THUMP. He looked up to see Summer fixing her shirt.
"Ow!" He complained. "What was that for?" He rubbed his head
"Nothing. I'm just not in the mood." Summer said straightening out her hair. "Anyway I've gotta be at Coops in five. Shove out kid."
"I'm your boyfriend and all I get is a shove out?" Seth said leaning up to kiss her. But Summer turned away.
"I've gotta jet Cohen." She said walking out of her house Seth following closely behind.
"Summer, but Sum-" Before he could finish she had sped off in her car leaving a very confused Cohen on her door step.
Summer let herself into Marissa and Jimmys apartment. Jimmy wasn't home. He was out at a job interview or something like that.
"Hey Sum." Marissa said as her best friend entered her room.
Summer dove onto Marissa's bed head first.
"How was your date with Seth?"
Summer shrugged face still down.
"Did you tell him?" She asked running her fingers through Summers dark hair
"I tried to, but he just kept kissing me and trying to do stuff." Summer said groaning
"So what happened?" Marissa asked
"Nothing. I wouldn't. As far as I am concerned that stuff is what got me in this situation anyway." Summer said turning over onto her back.
"Well now he's probably wondering why you blew him off." Marissa said
"Well then let him wonder Coop. I'm not going to tell him. It's really none of his business." She said coldly
"Like hell it isn't his business it's his chi-"
"Don't you even Marissa! Don't even call it that. I have an appointment to get this taken care of and then Seth will never know. I can't do this. I mean if I … had… it… I'd screw it up. I've screwed everything up so much already, but to wake up everyday and see someone that is completely messed up and know that it is my fault? To have to put that burden on Seth? I can't do it Coop."
"What is it with you and assuming that you screw up everything? Other people need to be responsible for their actions! Not just you. Seth will be there for you and your child. It will be alright Summer!"
Mr. Mason ran his hand up her leg…
"Really Coop? How would it be for a child growing up as the Newport Beach bastard? Having a mother like me. I don't know what to do with a child. It's better off not having to know this life. Any life at all. And Seth, he would never amount to anything being tied down by me. I just can't be the person to take it all away Coop." Summer said, her voice emotionless.
"You don't have to abort it you could always just give it up when it's born." Marissa tried to persuade her
"Right, and risk Seth and the rest of Newport finding out? Risk the child finding me one day and seeing how much of a loser I am. I can't have that. And besides, I don't want kids, I want nothing to do with them at all. EVER." Summer said as a final thought.
Why is the water red? Is mommy breathing?
"Sum, you know me, we have been best friends forever, since that day on the swing in kindergarten, I love you, I just want to make sure that you are making the right decision."
"I know Coop. Trust me, I thought about this over and over again. I'm not fine with the decision but I have to become fine with it because it I don't go through with it… I just think it would be worse in the long run." Summer said more seriously.
"I'll go with you to your appointment." Marissa said
"No, I'll be alright." Summer said.
"I'm going!" Marissa said definitely
"I have it scheduled for the day after graduation." Summer said.
"Are you SURE you don't want to tell Seth?" Marissa asked
"He can't know." Summer said.
Marissa nodded. There was no way that she was going to change Summers mind and right now she really needed to be on the good side. Marissa herself could never imagine doing what Summer was doing, but still she didn't know which took more strength, going through with it or not…
Summer looked from where she sat on stage at her graduation. Her father could not be there. He was on a business trip on the east coast which he said was non-negotiable, even though Summer reminded him of the upcoming date for the past couple of months. It must take a lot to talent to forget the way that he does.
"Summer Roberts." The Principal called.
Summer stood up and surveyed the crowd. A bunch of Newport socialites was all they were. None meant anything to her, other that the Coopers, with the exception of Julie, and the Cohens.
Seth, who was sitting next to Marissa cheered loudly causing Summer to blush. She loved him so much and what she was going to do was going to hurt him, but at least he would never find out.
That night Marissa and Summer skipped all of the wild parties and went back to Summers place. Marissa was trying to lay off the booze and Summer wasn't up for the Newport party scene with tomorrows pending events.
Summer and Marissa laid on her bed looking up at the ceiling.
"I really need a drink right now." Summer said
"You shouldn't be drinking now." Marissa said looking over at her. "You'd be hurting my 'would be' god child."
"Key word, would be." Summer said "You're not making this easy Coop."
"I'm not because I love you. Besides, what if you run out or something?" Marissa said
"Oh please, that is so lifetime movie." She rolled her eyes
"My mom did." Marissa said pointedly.
"Julie Cooper? With a heart? When was this?" Summer asked
"When she was pregnant with me. It was before they were married and my mom didn't want me, but something happened and my dad showed up and then there was chaos, and then my mom ran out, and then there was a elopement, and then there was me." Marissa said
"What drugs were they on when they told you this story?"
"They were fighting one day and I over heard it." She explained.
"I know that was like supposed to guilt trip me out of it but my mind is made up." Summer said
Marissa quickly glanced at her best friend before she turned over.
"Goodnight." was all that she said, and the Marissa and Summer were quiet. Neither was asleep, but neither in the right mind for that matter.
The next morning Summer and Marissa went to the Newport Health Clinic, which oddly enough sat on the pier. Probably to draw in all of the teens with STD's and stuff of that nature. Or for the Newport women who know that their husbands won't be around there and wanted to see what they contracted from their pool boy.
"Ready?" Marissa asked suddenly
Summer nodded. Marissa glanced back and forth from her watch to the clock as she was waiting for Summer to get finished with the procedure. The Office suddenly seemed as though it was suffocating her. She could not believe that her best friend was back there getting… you know… She got out of her seat and walked outside to get air only to see Ryan and Seth in the distance. She tried to turn away but they spotted her.
"Marissa?" Ryan said coming over with Seth
"Um, Ryan, hi!" She said kissing him on the cheek.
"What are you doing here?" He asked.
"Oh me, I… I um… I'm just here with a friend." She said smiling.
"Are you lying to me?" Ryan asked raising an eyebrow
"Man, you knock her up?" Seth asked looking at Ryan with a grin.
Marissa shot him a glare, her only fully understanding the irony of the situation.
"Shutting up now." Seth said putting his hands up
"No, I was telling the truth. I am here with a friend." She said again, "I have to go-" She began but as she did Summer came out looking miserable.
Everyone was caught in an awkward moment.
"Summer?" Seth said
"Um, hey Cohen." She said crossing her arms over herself.
"Are you alright? Why were you in there?"
"No reason." She lied, "Just a check up."
"Since when do you go to the clinic for a 'check up'?" Seth asked. Right then a nurse rushed out with a bag.
"Honey you left your things." She said handing Summer her bag. "Inside we slipped some brochures about post abortion bleeding and so on." The woman said smiling and going back inside
"YOU DID WHAT!" Seth yelled. "What the hell Summer!"
"You don't understand Cohen." Summer challenged. "Just leave me the hell alone!"
"What do you mean leave you alone! YOU just killed MY baby!" Seth yelled becoming hysterical. He was holding onto Summers shoulders.
"YOURS!" She said pushing his hands off of herself. "YOU don't have morning sickness, YOU don't have to carry it for nine months, YOU won't get blamed when it turns out screwed up like it's mother!" Summer yelled tears coming to her eyes.
' screwed up like it's mother ', Seth took in those words.
"You're not screwed up Summer. But this, this hurt me more than anything ever could have. We were going to have a baby Summer…" He said
"You weren't supposed to find out…" She whispered
"Well I did… God Summer, why?" He asked a tear coming to his eye.
"Because." Summer said pulling together all the strength she had to say the biggest most life changing lie of her life, "I don't love you."
Hey all. Read and review and let me know what you think. I have the perfect ending for this story. I'm not sure others will like it but hey... There are around three chapters left. The song is almost over! BTW: If I did not make a note before each title of a chapter is a lyric of the song "Mediocre Bad Guys", but Jack Johnson. Download it and check it out. It is on his CD "On and On". THANKS!
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