Disclaimer: I do not own John Cena, Trish Stratus or any of the other WWE
superstars in this story; they are all owned in and by themselves and the
World Wrestling Entertainment franchise.
A/N: So I have decided to write another chapter to this one today, even though I did one last night, because I don't want to forget it's here again and then never come back to it. This chapter will be a song chapter, so be warned it might not be one that you like. It's just a song I have on my list here that seems to suit Trish pretty well. I will tell you what it is at the end of the chapter. Read and Review and let me know what you think.
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// what makes this world go round
Will the answer let her down
She is so sweet and young
and her life has just begun//
Trish ran out of the front of the hotel just as John was getting to the car. Not knowing if she could stop him before he left, she ran with everything she had in her until she reached the car. Knocking on the door, she watched as he rolled down the window.
"What do you want? You want to rub Jeff in my face some more? Being up there and seeing you at work first hand weren't enough for you?" John said, his anger reaching a fever pitch. He didn't want to hear anything she had to say right now. The only thing he knew for sure was what she felt when he trashed her in the locker room.
"Can you just get out of the car for a second? I don't want to create a scene here but if that's what it takes I will."
Not wanting to cause any issues with the hotel, knowing the WWE used it frequently when they were in town, John opened the door, and got out, just as Kurt got in and shut his door.
"Okay fine, you got my attention, what is it you could possibly have to tell me that would make this sick feeling I have go away?"
"Why would you have a sick feeling?" Trish asked, honestly wanting to know why he would be sick when he didn't even want to admit that he liked her openly.
"Seeing you with him, just after Kurt had told me to watch out for him and the past you two shared, it's not something I wanted to see Trish."
"It's not something I wanted you too see either if that means anything."
"Then why do it?"
"Yes Jeff and I have a past, and I got caught up in that past and against my better judgment let something happen that shouldn't have happened. Don't you think I know that? I came to see Amy because of what happened with you, and he showed up." "You didn't go there to meet him?"
"No, he wasn't even in my thoughts when I took off from the arena earlier, he just showed up with Matt and Amy kind of left the room and stuck us together."
// what does her future hold
that's a story left unknown
Will she make it through her days
Let our love lead the way//
John didn't seem convinced and she didn't think there was anything that could make him understand that what had happened had been a reflex, going back in time to when things made some sort of sense. All Trish knew was that she had to do something otherwise he would get in that car and leave her alone.
"Why should I even listen to this?" he asked questioningly.
"Because you came to this hotel room for a reason tonight and I know it wasn't to see what you saw, but what brought you there is keeping you here now."
"When did you start reading minds?" he said with a quick laugh. As much as he wanted to hate her for this, and he did, he just couldn't when she was standing in front of him obviously being completely honest with him and not holding anything back.
"I have been for awhile, but with you it's a real talent. So will you tell me why you came there tonight?"
"I came to make things right with you alright? I felt like shit when I saw that what I had said to you had made you run crying. I couldn't go back to the hotel and just pretend that it didn't happen and sleep. It doesn't work that way with you. I walked in and saw you in his arms and you were so deeply there, and I just don't think I can handle this Trish."
"So you want to get in your car and drive away and forget that I exist?"
"You want the honest answer here?"
"Of course I do, we've always been open with each other before, even when we hated one another."
"I want to get in my car right now and drive to the next city and when I get there I want to forget that I even know you and I want to focus on my angle with Kurt and you can do your title thing. I want this to be over."
//Part of me laughs, part of me cries
Part of me wants to question why
Why is there joy, why is there pain
Why is there sunshine and the rain
One day you're here, next you are gone
No matter what we must go on
Just keep the faith and let love lead the way//
Accepting his words for what they were, she turned and started walking towards the hotel again. She didn't plan on going back upstairs and being around Jeff, because at this point that would just make things worse, but she had to call herself a cab so she could head home. John was right, it was better if they just left things the way they were and walked away before there was more damage.
She heard his car start up and she turned to see him peel out of the driveway and onto the street. As he drove away, she looked up to the sky and felt the tears start to fall. She had made a horrible mistake coming here tonight and it was one that was going to affect her for the rest of her life.
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// Sitting there all alone
in the window of her room
Watching the world go by
Brings tears to her eyes//
Trish poured herself a cup of hot chocolate and sat down on the couch. It had been such a long time since she had been home and not had to do any promotion for the WWE that she didn't know what to do with herself. It seemed that wherever she went she was reminded of what had happened in the last two days. She had gone from one of the happiest girls to one of the most hurt and depressed in just a matter of hours. She stood to her feet and went to grab her book off the nightstand when suddenly the phone started to ring. Picking it up off the coffee table she pushed the talk button, not sure who was on the other end but prepared to tell them to screw off.
"Hello?"
"Remember when I said I wanted to walk away?"
Her heart almost dropped when she heard his voice. She didn't have the luxury of having call display on her phone so she had no words for him. All she could do was sit there and listen in utter silence.
//All she sees is hurt and pain
She wants to break the chains
She'll keep pressing everyday
and she'll find her own sweet way//
"Yes I remember."
"I miss you."
"I miss you too."
"Do you really?"
There seemed to be so much conviction in his voice, like he was seriously trying to tell her how he was feeling but wasn't used to it. She honestly didn't know what to say, but she had to make sure he knew that she did indeed miss him.
"I haven't smiled in three days now; I miss our useless banter, the way you can joke about just about anything. I like the way you treat me like an equal. John if you haven't guessed I miss you. I tried to tell you that the day you walked away from the hotel, but the words just didn't come."
"So what do you want to do about this?"
"Where are you?"
"Not close enough to hold you."
"Then what can we do about it at this point but sit here and talk about how we want to be around each other and can't."
"I can't just walk away from you Trish. I tried and it's only been two days and I am on the phone with you. I have never let someone in my system like this before."
"John where are you? It's so loud I can barely hear you now." Trish yelled into the phone, trying to make sure she was loud enough over the noise traveling around him wherever he was.
// You can be all bad
And still can be who you are
You've got to know for sure
That it isn't make believe
You may feel weak
But you are strong
Don't you give up, then...//
Before she could hear his answer there was a knock at the door. Moving towards the door slowly, she opened it, and saw the reason why he had been breaking up on the phone. The traffic driving down the street was so loud that she couldn't hear him. He had been calling her from outside her house, and God only knew how long he had been there.
"I'm at this chick's house and I am waiting for her to let me in because I am freezing my ass off out here." He said with a small grin, which Trish noticed made his eyes sparkle, something she had never given in to before.
Letting him into the house where it was warm, she helped him get his jacket off, throwing it down on the nearby chair. She noticed that he had also grabbed her mail from the box on his way up to the house, so as he handed it to her she took it, and threw it down on the table beside the jacket.
"So she let you in what are you going to do now?"
"I'm going to tell her how much I missed her, and that I couldn't wait until Tuesday to be around her again."
// If you keep holding on
you'll never be wrong
Just close your eyes
Cause it lies deep in your heart, yeah//
"There's something I want to know though John."
"What is that?"
"You said something on the phone when you were outside before we got all cut off, and I want to hear you finish your thought."
"What did I say?"
"You said that you had never had someone in your system like this before. What did you mean by that?"
John threw her a look, and then pausing a second to think and remember where he was going with it, he threw her a smile, making his eyes sparkle even more. He had something on his mind that obviously pleased him and Trish was dying to know what was making him to smile like that.
"You get to me in a way no one else ever has, and I know this is going to sound really corny but I think I love you."
"You what?"
"Trish, you're really going to make this hard on me aren't you?"
She smiled and he smiled back and she touched his hand gently. "Yeah I am going to make this very hard, so tell me again why you love me?"
"Because loving you is like oxygen for me, I need it to survive, and if I didn't know that before, I suddenly know it now."
Not even bothering to answer, she pulled his face to hers and wrapping her arms around his head, she kissed him, letting him feel every feeling that she had flowing through her, and also silently letting him know that she loved him too.
// Part of me laughs
Part of me cries
Part of me wants to question why
Why is there joy Why is there pain
Why is there sunshine and the rain
One day you're here
Next you are gone
No matter what we must go on //
Just keep the faith and
Let love lead the way (lead the way)//
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A/N: Okay the song was "Let Love Lead the Way" By the Spice Girls. LOL Yes Cheesy I know but I'll be damned if it didn't suit the way the story was going in my head at the time. So let me know what you think thus far!
A/N: So I have decided to write another chapter to this one today, even though I did one last night, because I don't want to forget it's here again and then never come back to it. This chapter will be a song chapter, so be warned it might not be one that you like. It's just a song I have on my list here that seems to suit Trish pretty well. I will tell you what it is at the end of the chapter. Read and Review and let me know what you think.
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// what makes this world go round
Will the answer let her down
She is so sweet and young
and her life has just begun//
Trish ran out of the front of the hotel just as John was getting to the car. Not knowing if she could stop him before he left, she ran with everything she had in her until she reached the car. Knocking on the door, she watched as he rolled down the window.
"What do you want? You want to rub Jeff in my face some more? Being up there and seeing you at work first hand weren't enough for you?" John said, his anger reaching a fever pitch. He didn't want to hear anything she had to say right now. The only thing he knew for sure was what she felt when he trashed her in the locker room.
"Can you just get out of the car for a second? I don't want to create a scene here but if that's what it takes I will."
Not wanting to cause any issues with the hotel, knowing the WWE used it frequently when they were in town, John opened the door, and got out, just as Kurt got in and shut his door.
"Okay fine, you got my attention, what is it you could possibly have to tell me that would make this sick feeling I have go away?"
"Why would you have a sick feeling?" Trish asked, honestly wanting to know why he would be sick when he didn't even want to admit that he liked her openly.
"Seeing you with him, just after Kurt had told me to watch out for him and the past you two shared, it's not something I wanted to see Trish."
"It's not something I wanted you too see either if that means anything."
"Then why do it?"
"Yes Jeff and I have a past, and I got caught up in that past and against my better judgment let something happen that shouldn't have happened. Don't you think I know that? I came to see Amy because of what happened with you, and he showed up." "You didn't go there to meet him?"
"No, he wasn't even in my thoughts when I took off from the arena earlier, he just showed up with Matt and Amy kind of left the room and stuck us together."
// what does her future hold
that's a story left unknown
Will she make it through her days
Let our love lead the way//
John didn't seem convinced and she didn't think there was anything that could make him understand that what had happened had been a reflex, going back in time to when things made some sort of sense. All Trish knew was that she had to do something otherwise he would get in that car and leave her alone.
"Why should I even listen to this?" he asked questioningly.
"Because you came to this hotel room for a reason tonight and I know it wasn't to see what you saw, but what brought you there is keeping you here now."
"When did you start reading minds?" he said with a quick laugh. As much as he wanted to hate her for this, and he did, he just couldn't when she was standing in front of him obviously being completely honest with him and not holding anything back.
"I have been for awhile, but with you it's a real talent. So will you tell me why you came there tonight?"
"I came to make things right with you alright? I felt like shit when I saw that what I had said to you had made you run crying. I couldn't go back to the hotel and just pretend that it didn't happen and sleep. It doesn't work that way with you. I walked in and saw you in his arms and you were so deeply there, and I just don't think I can handle this Trish."
"So you want to get in your car and drive away and forget that I exist?"
"You want the honest answer here?"
"Of course I do, we've always been open with each other before, even when we hated one another."
"I want to get in my car right now and drive to the next city and when I get there I want to forget that I even know you and I want to focus on my angle with Kurt and you can do your title thing. I want this to be over."
//Part of me laughs, part of me cries
Part of me wants to question why
Why is there joy, why is there pain
Why is there sunshine and the rain
One day you're here, next you are gone
No matter what we must go on
Just keep the faith and let love lead the way//
Accepting his words for what they were, she turned and started walking towards the hotel again. She didn't plan on going back upstairs and being around Jeff, because at this point that would just make things worse, but she had to call herself a cab so she could head home. John was right, it was better if they just left things the way they were and walked away before there was more damage.
She heard his car start up and she turned to see him peel out of the driveway and onto the street. As he drove away, she looked up to the sky and felt the tears start to fall. She had made a horrible mistake coming here tonight and it was one that was going to affect her for the rest of her life.
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// Sitting there all alone
in the window of her room
Watching the world go by
Brings tears to her eyes//
Trish poured herself a cup of hot chocolate and sat down on the couch. It had been such a long time since she had been home and not had to do any promotion for the WWE that she didn't know what to do with herself. It seemed that wherever she went she was reminded of what had happened in the last two days. She had gone from one of the happiest girls to one of the most hurt and depressed in just a matter of hours. She stood to her feet and went to grab her book off the nightstand when suddenly the phone started to ring. Picking it up off the coffee table she pushed the talk button, not sure who was on the other end but prepared to tell them to screw off.
"Hello?"
"Remember when I said I wanted to walk away?"
Her heart almost dropped when she heard his voice. She didn't have the luxury of having call display on her phone so she had no words for him. All she could do was sit there and listen in utter silence.
//All she sees is hurt and pain
She wants to break the chains
She'll keep pressing everyday
and she'll find her own sweet way//
"Yes I remember."
"I miss you."
"I miss you too."
"Do you really?"
There seemed to be so much conviction in his voice, like he was seriously trying to tell her how he was feeling but wasn't used to it. She honestly didn't know what to say, but she had to make sure he knew that she did indeed miss him.
"I haven't smiled in three days now; I miss our useless banter, the way you can joke about just about anything. I like the way you treat me like an equal. John if you haven't guessed I miss you. I tried to tell you that the day you walked away from the hotel, but the words just didn't come."
"So what do you want to do about this?"
"Where are you?"
"Not close enough to hold you."
"Then what can we do about it at this point but sit here and talk about how we want to be around each other and can't."
"I can't just walk away from you Trish. I tried and it's only been two days and I am on the phone with you. I have never let someone in my system like this before."
"John where are you? It's so loud I can barely hear you now." Trish yelled into the phone, trying to make sure she was loud enough over the noise traveling around him wherever he was.
// You can be all bad
And still can be who you are
You've got to know for sure
That it isn't make believe
You may feel weak
But you are strong
Don't you give up, then...//
Before she could hear his answer there was a knock at the door. Moving towards the door slowly, she opened it, and saw the reason why he had been breaking up on the phone. The traffic driving down the street was so loud that she couldn't hear him. He had been calling her from outside her house, and God only knew how long he had been there.
"I'm at this chick's house and I am waiting for her to let me in because I am freezing my ass off out here." He said with a small grin, which Trish noticed made his eyes sparkle, something she had never given in to before.
Letting him into the house where it was warm, she helped him get his jacket off, throwing it down on the nearby chair. She noticed that he had also grabbed her mail from the box on his way up to the house, so as he handed it to her she took it, and threw it down on the table beside the jacket.
"So she let you in what are you going to do now?"
"I'm going to tell her how much I missed her, and that I couldn't wait until Tuesday to be around her again."
// If you keep holding on
you'll never be wrong
Just close your eyes
Cause it lies deep in your heart, yeah//
"There's something I want to know though John."
"What is that?"
"You said something on the phone when you were outside before we got all cut off, and I want to hear you finish your thought."
"What did I say?"
"You said that you had never had someone in your system like this before. What did you mean by that?"
John threw her a look, and then pausing a second to think and remember where he was going with it, he threw her a smile, making his eyes sparkle even more. He had something on his mind that obviously pleased him and Trish was dying to know what was making him to smile like that.
"You get to me in a way no one else ever has, and I know this is going to sound really corny but I think I love you."
"You what?"
"Trish, you're really going to make this hard on me aren't you?"
She smiled and he smiled back and she touched his hand gently. "Yeah I am going to make this very hard, so tell me again why you love me?"
"Because loving you is like oxygen for me, I need it to survive, and if I didn't know that before, I suddenly know it now."
Not even bothering to answer, she pulled his face to hers and wrapping her arms around his head, she kissed him, letting him feel every feeling that she had flowing through her, and also silently letting him know that she loved him too.
// Part of me laughs
Part of me cries
Part of me wants to question why
Why is there joy Why is there pain
Why is there sunshine and the rain
One day you're here
Next you are gone
No matter what we must go on //
Just keep the faith and
Let love lead the way (lead the way)//
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A/N: Okay the song was "Let Love Lead the Way" By the Spice Girls. LOL Yes Cheesy I know but I'll be damned if it didn't suit the way the story was going in my head at the time. So let me know what you think thus far!