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Okay, everybody. This is the next chapter that I promised it wasn't gonna be late but it is late!! Okay, I know I can't be a frequent updater. I can't update it every week. And I'm so sorry...!!!! I already send this story to my editor, but she never answer it back. So I don't have any ideas what's going on to her. So I'm sorry for my lack grammars or vocabs. I know. so just bear with my lack English, okay? If you can't bear anymore *sigh* Just find me an editor who good at grammars and things. And if you want this story to be continue..."FIND ME AND EDITOR" I'm really suck at English now I'm a little bit desperate with all of this things. Ja ne.

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The Cost You Pay

By The Eternal

Chapter 4

"I~~….."

Seshoumaru watched her silently, waiting for her answer. Five minutes past. Still no answer from her.

"I'm waiting, Kagome…" he said impatiently. Yes! She knew he was waiting for her answer but even she hadn't known the answer! If she say 'yes' she would be no more or less like a slut. But if she say 'no…'

What would come after her?

Company bankrupt quicker than everyone predicted. Losing jobs. Kick out from the apartment. Then she had to stayed home as a loser. LO-SER. And her brother would just laughing around at her, saying "Where is that great Sister that said would never stay at her own house before she became success."

That was surely annoying.

But if 'Yes…'

A slut! She is a slut! What kind of woman get marry to someone because his money?! Just a slut.

But many woman out there married someone because their money, Kag. And c'mon..you won't get this changes again! And that's not meant that they are slut.

That shit sound. She wondered where she could get that evil voices in her mind. And yeah… if she said 'yes' what would be in this man's mind about her?

A slut? A bitch? A wench? An old virgin? 'A' what?

Maybe he would think you are his savior, Kag…His heroine… you save his inheritance!

No! That couldn't be!

Yes it is…

No! And just shut up! She snapped her own mind. She was going crazy. She knew it. She gonna be insane!

You gonna be one for sure.

And yeah that's because of you!

While Kagome fighting her own mind, Seshoumaru's patience grew thinner and thinner. Okay, he won't give her another five minutes. He was wasting his time in here with this very 'unattractive' woman in his life, well he had to despite the fact that what he was thinking when the first time his saw her in that black and red gown. The woman who was deciding marries him or no.

Women would just jumping to him or say 'Yes!' if he asked them that question. And why the only woman in front of him was so hard just to answer yes or no question. Just say yes and everything would be fine.

"Okay, Miss. Kagome, Time's up," he said, staring at her coldly. "Answer me, yes or no. I do or I do not. I can or I can't. I agree or I disagree. That's all. All of it just about a business."

Kagome sighed. "Before I answer, may I ask you one question?"

Seshoumaru nodded.

Kagome closed her eyes so slow and opened it with very careful. "Why you offered that to me? I meant, you can offer it to rich women and it will give you both profit."

"And it will end up in a divorce and my money will gone just like that," Seshoumaru answered.

"And don't you think I'm one of them, do you?"

"No. I don't."

She gasped. He never thought that she would use all of his money? Was he stupid or…?

"Because I know, when the first time I saw you, you were not one of those kinds. You were come to me as someone who need my help and you know what it will cost you if you trying to do something, right?"

Kagome smiled sadly. She tried to hold her tears. She started to made invisible circle at the table with her fingers tip. This man could read her. He knew what she would say, did he? He realized it from the first time he saw her, right?

"Yes…" she said for the last, with a very soft voice, almost couldn't hear. Her body started to trembling and shivering. She couldn't hold this tears longer. Something was inside her chest needed to blow up. She had to say it right? No matter what everyone would think about her.

She would marry him. This was her decision. The cost that she had promised to pay. A flash back flashed in her mind. It was about the first time she was going to ask him.

She will make him to. She promised. Anything. She will do anything, just to make him want to. At any cost.

"Then… let it be our celebration, then," Seshoumaru said, seemed so satisfy with his evil brilliant thought. He pulled something out from his pocket. It was something like a small red box.

The ring…

He already prepared it. The ring for her. How much? How could he knew her answer? How??

He put the box on the table and pushed it to her.

Kagome looked at it with a very unreadable expression. Shocked? Sad? Disappointed? Angry?

"Open it," He commanded her.

"I…~"

"Open it. It's for you."

Kagome moved her hand slowly to the box and she stopped. She looked at Seshoumaru. The man was already staring back at his P.D.A. He didn't care about the matter that the girl in front of him will open it or no. He didn't care about anything except his P.D.A. He didn't care that the woman in front of him will become mother of his unborn child. Even he didn't want it. He didn't care that Kagome, someone who so stupid, was gonna marry him.

" I'm not deserve it," Kagome said suddenly. He put the box back on the table and leaned back to her chair. Seshoumaru moved his glance to her. He watched her with a sharp glance.

"You will marry me, Seshoumaru Hamoto, and no one who can against me. And you too, Kagome. Now give me your hand!"

Kagome stared him a while. She moved her glance to the other side then giving him her left hand. She didn't want to see the ring. For her, the ring was just a symbol for her one-year slavery life.

The cold hand touched her warm hand. She could feel the ring was putting into her hand. Kagome still didn't want to see it, even though, she knew from the jewel's reflection, it was diamonds. A real diamonds.

A ring could show how rich the groom isn't it? No wonder he gave her a very expensive ring, she has no doubt about it.

"Well, the food has come. Let's eat," he said as a servant was coming toward them.

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"Next Saturday will be our wedding day," Seshoumaru said after they walked out from the restaurant.

Kagome choked because so shocked about the news. One week?!!

"What?!! I haven't ready if you give me just one-weak?!!" Kagome yelled unconsciously to her bussines- future husband or whatever you call it. "How about the gown? How about the~"

"I've already arranged it. I already made an appointment to a wedding planner. You can tell her whatever you wanted for this wedding. You do your part, I do my part."

"My part?"

"Yes. Everything that connected to the wedding-dress, the bucket, the hairstyle, and everything that connected to your self and your body. The rest let me take care for it."

"But isn't that too soon?"

"And my inheritance wouldn't last forever!" snapped Seshoumaru.

So! That what you care about! Your inheritance, your inheritance and your company!, Kagome yelled angrily in her mind. She hadn't had any brave to yell like that to this man.

"Okay. Who is this wedding planner?"

"Her name is Jill. I'll send my driver to take you there."

"Maybe I'll more comfortable if you let me go there by myself."

"Do whatever you want," was just he answered before they drown deeper in a silence.

"Kagome, pack your things quickly tonight. Tomorrow night, everything should already in my house," Seshoumaru said when they already at the front of Kagome's room. Seshoumaru had accompanied her to her room because she was drinking too much wine at the restaurant.

"To— Tomorrow?"

"Yes," he stated it firmly.

"I—"

"My men will come to help you pack your things. In three days before the marriage you should have already give you company your resigned letter."

"But—"

"I made it clear to you, right?" Kagome nodded nervously. "Then I'll call you tomorrow."

Kagome nodded dumbly. She opened her bag, trying to find her keys. After five minutes without finding it, depressed starting to overwhelm her feeling.

"Shit!" she abused. She looked up to Seshoumaru who still standing near her. "I'm sorry but I'm okay. You can go now. I'm just~~"

She sighed. She turned around and closed her eyes, leaning her forehead at the door, like waiting something would kill her just like that, just in a minute. She opened the door and slipped through it, turning around, to see if Seshoumaru still there, but he had gone.

Somewhat, she felt so empty, so empty with her life, imagined what would her life could be with that man, a man that even didn't wait for his date to close the door but left her. Imagined how could her life be, bearing his child, love his child with all her heart. Just Imagine how her life could be, just imagine it and her future could be imagined. The picture was so clearly in her mind. A single mother who was trying to find more salary to live two people with a fat cat.

Kagome close the door weakly. She leaned her back at the door, closed her eyes, and without she realized it, tears starting to streamed down her cheek. She covered her face with her hand.

And all of this, she done it just for love. One sided love. A real love. A true love.

It is?

Or

It is just a lust?

Don't know. Even she don't know her feeling and how could someone know it?

No sorry for yourself, Kagome. No sorry for your decision. Face it or just turn from it. Which one will you choice? It's not too late to turn back now, voice from her mind told her again.

Oh great. Why she had to choose? Why not someone else? Why she is so confuse?

"Why…?" she whispered to no one. She sat on the floor, still leaning to the door, like waiting for an answer. She cried louder.

"Why…?"

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Okay. That's all about. *sigh* I think for the next update, it'll gonna slow too. I'm so sorry. Sumimasen. I'm trying my best okay but the writer's block is still surrounding me! So I've got to go now. Bye-bye.