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The Cost You Pay
Chapter 8
Whisper of the Heart
The small voice was inside me
Screaming to me
Begging to me
That one day, I will listen to it
-=The Eternal=-
SANGO wrinkled her nose and snorted. "You're the silliest woman that I've ever met in my life…"
Kagome glared at her but Sango didn't seem affected by it. Sango was still playing with Kirara and didn't lift a damn eyelash to her. Desperate, Kagome gulped her soda again.
"So, when he will come?" Sango asked again after she put Kirara on her lap and started to open a car magazine. Yeah, Sango was crazy about cars, especially sport cars. She jumped excitedly if she saw a cool car pass on the street down her apartment. But, since Sango was a really cool girl, she only jumped when she was alone in her room.
"Soon," Kagome said, looking at Sango's confused eyes. "Since your apartment is only three blocks from Yasha.Inc …yeah. He'll come here in about another fifteen or thirty minutes."
Sango's eyes turned wider. "What? You mean he's still in the office? At nine o' clock. PM?!!"
Kagome shrugged. "Well, now it's eight fifty, Sango," she smiled. "Maybe he's a workaholic. I don't know, I've just known him for this last three days. Last Friday I met him; yesterday he gave me the ring, today I searched for the gown, then next Saturday you will be my bride's maid. Life changes so fast, doesn't it?"
Kagome laughed bitterly. Feeling something that stabbing her heart now. She laughed and laughed and laughed until she didn't realize that tears were starting to stream down form her face. Running down from her eyes to the floor.
"Kagome?" Sango stood up from her sofa and stared at Kagome caringly. "Are you okay?"
Kagome wiped her tears quickly with the back of her hand and tried to smile. "Yes, Sango. I'm okay…I'm just"
Sango hugged her quickly, knowing what her best friend needed now: Kagome needed someone to help her to do these things, someone who wouldn't blame her for her decision, someone who…
Helped her to gain her confidence back.
"Sshh…," Sango hushed, stroking her best friend's hair. "It's okay now…You do the right thing, Kagome. But if you feel that it's getting too much for you, just…let it go. I know, sometimes life is unfair. To your love, to you, to other people, but" Sango let out a sigh. "That's life, but what you have to put it in your mind is that everything you do must make you feel happy. Yeah. Happy. If you're happy doing this, Kagome, I don't mind at all. But if you feel this like a burden then…you have to stop. It's not too late, Kagome. It's not too late…"
Kagome sobbed quietly. Was she happy doing this? Was she? She'd made it this far. She succeeded to make herself believe that she was happy, but why every time she remembered it she felt so sad? So unhappy. So
Afraid. Afraid doing what she already decided. She was really afraid that her decision would turn bad again.
The sound of the bell made Kagome wiped her tears quickly.
"Shit," Sango abused. "What is it now?"
"It must be Sesshoumaru," Kagome whispered it weakly. "Tell him I won't be long. I'll wash my face first."
"But, Kag…"
Kagome smiled to her friend. "I'm okay now, Sango. I'll still do it." With that, Kagome walked quickly to the bathroom, opened the water tap and splashed the cold water on her face.
Was she doing the right thing? Or…was she doing the right thing? Or…
Yes, I'm doing the right thing, once again she assured herself.
-=oOoOoOoOo=-
Sesshoumaru watched Kagome carefully out of the corner of his eye while he was trying to concentrate on the road, but the silent girl seemed much more attractive.
Damn! What happened to you, Sesshoumaru Hamoto?! What do you expect from her anyway? Talk and chat to you like she will be your real wife? Just dreaming. She does her part well and you do your part well. That's it. That's all about it. No more no less. And don't you try to ask her, Sesshoumaru. I've warned you, don't you dare
"Why do you keep silent?" His mouth betrayed his mind.
Damn you, Sesshoumaru Hamoto.
Kagome turned her head, looking at Sesshoumaru confusedly. "Huh?"
Keep silent, Sesshoumaru. Keep silent!!
"Are you regretting your decision?" His silly mouth was betraying him once again. He promised he would cut it if he kept talking in this car.
There was silence between them. In this car, he could smell perfectly well that woman's scent. Her sweet scent that almost filled his head by now. Being there, with her, made him feel like a puzzle piece of his heart was back, making it complete.
But not with her. Not in another life time. She was just a silly girl who was in love with his damned half brother who didn't even realize it.
And all silly girls must be thrown out with the trash. And so did this one. The only difference was he would throw her one year later, or more— if her baby was not a boy.
Well, maybe choosing Kagome Higurashi was the right thing. His decisions never go wrong. Kagome would not waste his money with clothes and such, and she wasn't the demanding type. Kagome was the perfect one. She promised him to do what they already agreed on, and only asked him one thing. Yeah, helping Inuyasha's company. And helping that company wasn't that hard. Just a bit of fresh funds and a little backing from his men then… voila, Kagome got what she want and so did Sesshoumaru.
"No," He could hear Kagome's voice softly. "I'm not regretting it."
Well, what a thoughtful woman. I'm touched, Sesshoumaru thought sarcastically.
"Good," He said with his usual cold tone. "That means we can start to do the part of our business tonight, right, Ms. Higurashi?"
Kagome gasped slightly as Sesshoumaru stated that thing. Oh dear God, what did he mean to
Kagome gulped at the thought. She felt her face turning red. Make love. Well, no, 'making love' was supposed to be done with the one you love, not something you did with your business partner… This was just 'having sex'.
But why now?? Can it be later in their wedding night like all the virgins do or…
Well, Kagome, now or later is just the same. In the end, you'll have to do it! He didn't pay you to do artificial insemination! Why would he do that if he can get two advantages from you? First he'll get his baby and second he gets your body.
Yeah. Profit. Sesshoumaru probably thought of it as profit, advantage, benefit and so on.
"N-now?" She asked him again.
"Not now in this car," answered Sesshoumaru coldly but that made Kagome's giggled nervously a bit. She just imagined that in this traffic, if they did 'that'. Kagome could see Sesshoumaru's frown, confused by what Kagome was laughing at.
"Okay." Oh my, who was saying that? Who gave that answer?! It wasn't possible that had come from her mouth!
Kagome could feel Sesshoumaru's stare but she kept pretending not to feel anything.
"The sooner I know you're pregnant, Kagome, the sooner our marriage will end." Sesshoumaru said. "Two or three days difference may make my chances better."
Kagome sighed. "Aren't you afraid that I couldn't be pregnant or my baby would turn out to be a girl?"
"About you being pregnant, I believe you can: I've checked your data. And about the gender, just hope it's not a girl, or then the marriage will be long term until I get a son. From you."
Kagome shivered when she heard 'from you'. Doing a long-term marriage…
Kagome stole a glance then let out her breath slowly. Maybe having Sesshoumaru as a husband really was a nightmare. Even though he was handsome, had a well built body, had the most beautiful silver hair that she ever known, was the richest bachelor in whole Japan, a success businessman, but…
He wasn't warm hearted like Inuyasha. He didn't laugh mischievously like Inuyasha. He didn't act like Inuyasha and the most important, Kagome didn't love him like she did Inuyasha.
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