Severus sat in the window of the Slytherin common room looking out
over the grounds of the school. The sun was rising and over the forest and
the dew on the grass was now shining, making everything look like it was
covered in diamonds. The first month of his fourth year had ended with out
a word from Potter or his groupies. Lilly hadn't so much as looked in his
direction since that day an breakfast. She hadn't been to friendly towards
Potter lately either. 'I wonder what happened to them.' He thought out
loud. 'What happened to there little plan.' They had never played the prank
on him that they had started to at the first of last year. It wasn't like
them to do all that planning and then not go through with something. Maybe
Lilly got cold feet and turned them in, which would explain a lot of
things. He sighed and jumped from the window. As soon as he hit he floor he
felt a slight pressure on his shoulder. He turned to see his Lucius's owl
now on the back of a chair.
"Hey girl, Do you have a letter for me? Well come here and I will see if I have any thing for you." The owl landed in front of him and stuck out her leg. Severus untied the letter and laid a chocolate frog in the table. The owl chased the frog for a while. When she had finished her snack she landed on Severus's shoulder she nibbled on his ear to say thank you then flew away. He took the letter back to his room. He wasn't sure if he could read it now or if he should wait and read it later. Everyone was still asleep so what would it hurt.
Dear Severus,
I was glad to hear that every thing is going so well for you. I know that you have been having some problems with some of the boys in Gryffindor. Lucius told me about it at dinner last night. I don't know why you didn't tell me. I wish you would have trusted me enough to tell me about this. I guess I under stand why you didn't. I just want you to know that you can trust me. I will help in any way I can if you want me to. I won't do it on my own. I will wait till you are ready to come to me with this. Don't feel like you can't write me with even the tiniest problem. I will always make time for you. No matter what I am doing you are more important. I won't keep you any longer you have class to get to.
V
Severus sat on the edge of his bed staring at the letter. Ever since he was saved from his father that night the Dark Lord had become more like the father he had always dreamed he had. It was odd to have all these people around him that all seemed to care. Why couldn't his parents have been this way with him all along? He folded the letter neatly and placed it in the bottom of his trunk. He would have to write Lucius later and let him know that he was going to pay for talking about things that he shouldn't have been.
Severus went about his day like he did any other day, but his mood was different. He was happier. The Marauder's quickly picked up on this and decided he was long over due for some pranking. They ripped his bag at least twenty times, and made sure that his books were scattered properly up and down the hall. They soaked to of his books in ink when they made the bottles explode. Each childish prank was followed by another, but nothing seemed to get to him. Well, outwardly it didn't seem that way.
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"What the hell is wrong with him?" James screamed. "We have tried all day and nothing, not even one of his dirty I-am-going-to-kill-you looks or any thing."
" Prongs your making a scene. Just sit and calm down a little. We'll get him some how. We just need to think bigger and..." Sirius cut off his friend. "And not involve any of your friends." "How was I to know she would go to Dumbledore? I thought that she hated him almost as much as I do. I didn't know she would help him out." Remus flopped down on the floor in front of the fire when he ran out of things to vent. "Um. Moony? Why do you hate him so much?" Peter asked nervously. He didn't want to get them to mad at him. It usually hurt when he did. Remus pretended not to hear the question, so he was safe for now. "Ok," James said frustrated at his whole having to act calm thing, "Then how do we get him. Last year would have been perfect. If things had went as planned." "If you try any thing I will tell." A small voice chimed in from a corner of the room. "Why don't you just leave him alone and worry about more important thing like your school work or what you are going to take next year or the OWLs they are next year and..." "Would you shut up already Lilly? Look when he has been expelled or is dead then we will worry about something else. Right now he is going to pay for everything he has done... EVERYTHING!!!" Remus stormed from the room almost in tears. It was all his fault and he will pay for everything he did to me and my brother. He thought to him self as he curled up in his bed.
Severus sat at the table in the common room with his parchment and quill. He had planned to write Lucius but now something was telling him that maybe he should take this offer for help from Voldemort. He sat staring at the parchment for a good hour then he began to write everything from that night at his house when the twins stayed over to the final prank that they had played on him before he made it to the common room. He left out nothing. When he had finished he looked up blankly at the wall. ' I need to talk to Remus.' He folded up the parchment and went up to his trunk. He hid it with his other letters and climbed into bed. He would talk to Remus tomorrow, if for know other reason then to find out what had happened to his friends. He closed his eyes and fell asleep almost immediately, only to wake several hours later covered in sweat and shaking. It had been so long since he had that dream. While he lay there attempting to catch his breath his head started to fill with the names of ingredients. He always kept parchment and something to write with next to his bed for just such an occasion. He usually created some of the most interesting potions in the middle of the night when he couldn't sleep, but he knew what those were for, but his one he had no idea where it was coming from. He wrote ever thing down as fast as he could when he was finished he lay down again. He went over the ingredients several times in his head to try and figure out what they went to, but no matter how hard he tried it just looked more and more like a shopping list than a potion of any kind. The next morning he woke early and waited for Remus outside of the Great Hall. Hopefully he would be alone. He paced for what felt like days till he finally got his first glimpse of Remus as he headed in Severuses direction down the hall. Severus stood frozen his mind went blank. What would he say? What was it that he even wanted to know? It didn't matter he just had to start the conversation first then worry about the other things later. It was times like these when he wished he was more of a people person like Lucius or even Voldemort for that matter. "Um.. Remus c.could I .." He watched as he walked right passed him like he didn't exist. What had he ever done to him any way? Feeling now more then ever like an outcast he walked to class. Class didn't start for another two hours but he needed to be some place with out people to think. Now what was he going to do?
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Dumbledore sat staring at the wall why had he stopped them. Why couldn't he have just left things alone like he knew he should have? ' You knew what would happen if you interfered you stupid old man.'
" Shut up. Just shut up!" Albus screamed at the top of his lungs.
" Albus, who are you talking ?" Minerva stood on the door way looking at the headmaster who was trying his best to look like he was alright.
" Don't worry about that? Did you need something? Of course you do why would you come see me if you didn't need something." He smiled and laughed nervously as he walked over to his desk and slammed the book on it closed.
" I just wanted to see if you wanted to have breakfast with me and some of the other professors.... Didn't you burn that book last year?"
" Yes, yes I did. And I would love to join you for breakfast? Is there something wrong?"
"If you burned it then... No nothings wrong? Have you been feeling well? You have been acting odd lately?"
" Me, why I always act odd" he smiled this time for real. Even he had to admit that he was a bit of an odd ball at times.
" Yes but this is even odd for you."
" I am just having a hard time dealing with a decision that I made. Now shall we go?"
Before she could say another word he walked from the room. 'Why don't you just tell her, Albus. Yes tell her how the great Albus Dumbledore just single handedly ruined the life of one boy by sticking his nose where it didn't belong. Go on tell her.'
'I don't care what you say' he thought ' things will be better this way for him I know they will.' He knew it wasn't true but he couldn't let it win. Not this time. It just had to be wrong that's all there was to it.
Severus sat looking out the train window. He had tried many times that year to talk to Remus but his existence was never acknowledged. He wished he was still at school and had just one more chance to try something. His thoughts were rudely interrupted by the slamming of the door to his compartment. "What the hell do you want?" he said not even looking up to see who had just come in. " Funny I was wondering the same thing." " Remus, I...um well ...I..." he couldn't believe it he had actually come to talk to him. "Well Snape what have you been wanting. Look its not like I care or anything its just that its been bugging me lately. Why you would even try and talk to me? You never made an effort to before so why now?" " I wasn't wanting to let my self believe that you were the Remus Lupin that use to smash the coffee table every time you came to visit. You couldn't have been. For some reason it just didn't make since to me that it was you. I guess it was cause I hadn't seen or heard from you in so long...." " So, what you want to just go back to the way thing were. With us being friends? How could you possible think that I would want .." " Look I just want to know what happened. I want to know why my best friends just disappeared and then only one of them reappeared. I want to know why I wasn't allowed to have anything to do with them any more after that night. I just want answers that's all Remus."
Remus looked around and the left the compartment slamming the door. Severus stood there wondering what he had said that would make him want to leave like that. He picked his potions book up that had been sitting in the seat next to him and threw it at the door. He plopped down in his seat and hid his face in his hands. This is why he hated interacting with people. They never did any thing that made since, only things that made his head hurt. He spent the rest of the ride home trying not to think about any thing at all.
He met Lucius at the train station like he always did and they went home the same as they always did. He opened the door to his house and found his mother sitting in front of the fire place like she had every day since a year or so before his father died. 'She really is a pathetic excuse for a woman,' he thought to him self. She was so different before....
"Hello mother. I am home. I had a wonderful time at school thank you so much for coming to get me. I know you are busy and it just means so much to me that you would take time from your busy schedule just to see your only son home from school. I just don't know what I would do if I had a mother that didn't care enough to do things like that. Well I will leave you to what you were doing before I can home now mother. I do hope you will not be to busy to join me for dinner later." Severus left the room as the woman sat there sobbing. She hadn't really done any thing to deserve the attack but maybe that was the problem she never did anything anymore. Well any thing that wasn't crying. He went up to his room and began to unpack his things and then threw himself into his bed. He had been laying there thinking of what to do next with Potter and his gang when he heard his door open slowly and saw a tiny greenish head peeking around the door.
" Hello Missy. Did you need something?" Missy was a house elf that Lucius had let him have to help take care of things around the house. He hadn't really had the chance to get to know her, he left for school on her second day.
" I is not wishin' to bug master, but master has company. I is not letting them in master cause I is not knowin them and I is not knowin if you want them in master."
Severus smiled "Well then why don't I just go see who it is." The elf nodded looking ashamed of herself for even having to ask him for something that may have inconvenienced him for a second. He opened the door shaking his head and smiling at the silly little elf.
" When did you get a house elf?"
" When my mother became a ....Remus?"
" Hi. Your mother became me?"
" No. Its ... It's a long story. Why are you here?"
" You really have know idea what happened that night? You just didn't stop talking to me because of what happened to me and my brother?" Remus stood in the door way shaking so hard he almost knocked himself over.
" I was just told that it was best that I didn't talk to you any more. I went to see you and the house was empty. No, I didn't stop talking to you because of what happened because I don't know what happened." Severus watched as his friend burst into tears. He stood in shock not knowing what to say or do to make it stop. While Severus stood trying to think of something comforting to say to make Remus stop crying, he did not notice his mother standing behind him. She put her hand on his shoulder and moved him out of her way. She reach out and threw her arms around the boy on her front porch. She stood there holding him crying right along with him for several minutes before any one spoke.
"I am so sorry Remus. This is all my fault. I never should have told him that he wasn't allowed to talk with you or your family. I never should have listened to my husband. I am so sorry." Her words were hard to make out with all the sniffling she was doing.
"Its not entirely your fault you know. I shouldn't have listened to you when you suggested the idea." Remus's mother came up the steps to the house to join the hugging. "We just should haven't have told anyone. Nun of that things that have happened since then would have happened and I think we would have all been happier that way."
"Um.. Mom Mrs. Snape could you guys let go. I cant breathe." The two ladies let go laughing between sniffles.
"Oh Severus, you must feel left out."
" No I am alright." Before he could even finish the sentence he was being smothered in a hug by his former best friend mother. He still had no idea what was going on or why there was all this hugging and crying and what they all knew that he didn't.
"Severus," Remus was looking at him with this puzzled look on his face, " Are you crying?"
" Well every one else was I just wanted to feel like a part of the group." He wiped his eyes. He hadn't even noticed he was crying at all.
" Well," Remus's mother looked around and at all of them, " I think we have all got a lot to talk about."
"Yes," His mother agreed. " We were just about to have dinner you could join us and then we could all sit and talk afterwards."
The three moved past Severus who was still in a bit of shock. 'What the hell just happened here?' he mumbled to him self. Not wanting to miss anything so he would be anymore and become even more lost than he already was he hurried into the house to join them for dinner.
Dinner was just like when they use to eat dinner before that night. Remus and Severus sat quietly as the two women played catch up. After dinner the boys headed up to Severus's room leaving the two moms to talk alone.
"Wow, it hasn't changed at all."
Severus sank into his favorite arm chair and hid his face in his hands. The boys sat in silence for a while. Neither of them really knew what to say.
"So, my dad left my mom about a week after that night. He took my brother and we haven't heard from them since. My mom took it really hard. I think she would have been better if she had had someone to talk to. But she had also lost her best friend that night too. She and I moved into this run down little house not two far from the school. I only ride the train to school because its tradition. ..... Look about on the train. I have spent so much time hating you for everything that happened. When you said that you did not know I thought you were lying. That you just wanted to get me to admit that I.. but I was telling my mom and she told me all about what her and your mom had done. I am sorry. You know we have done this sooner. Now I feel a little bad. I played all those pranks on you to get you back for something you didn't do. Look I know you probably hate me for all the things I have done to you and I honestly don't blame you, but I miss having you as a friend. It was so much more fun getting in trouble with you then it has been with Prongs and the rest. You don't think that may be we could try.. I mean I know it will never be the same...."Severus stood up and walked away from the rambling boy on the couch interrupting his speech. He made his way over to the closet and pulled up the floor boards and removed a small dusty box. He walked over to the couch and set the box between him and Rermus.
Remus looked at him and took the box and placed it in his lap. He dusted it off and then opened it and removed to contents, which consisted of ten or more letters that Severus had wrote to his friends that had never been sent and a bag of dung bombs. Remus looked at the bag and smiled.
" A refused to use them until we were able to set them off together. I know it sounds silly and very unlike the me you know from school... I am not saying I haven't changed cause I have but maybe we could try to be friends. I do miss having you around too." Severus watched as Remus looked over the letters. The two boys sat and talked all night. Severus told Remus almost everything that had happened since that night. He felt that telling him all about how he now looked up to the dark lord as a father wouldn't have went over real well.
The two moms stood in the door way of the room where there boys now slept.
"Its just like when they were little. Remus on the couch and Severus in his chair. Do you think we should tell him?" Mrs. Snape looked at her friend who was covering the boys with blankets she had got from the closet.
" I think that Remus will tell him when he is ready. It is his story to tell."
" I guess you are right."
" Now how about some coffee."
"Hey girl, Do you have a letter for me? Well come here and I will see if I have any thing for you." The owl landed in front of him and stuck out her leg. Severus untied the letter and laid a chocolate frog in the table. The owl chased the frog for a while. When she had finished her snack she landed on Severus's shoulder she nibbled on his ear to say thank you then flew away. He took the letter back to his room. He wasn't sure if he could read it now or if he should wait and read it later. Everyone was still asleep so what would it hurt.
Dear Severus,
I was glad to hear that every thing is going so well for you. I know that you have been having some problems with some of the boys in Gryffindor. Lucius told me about it at dinner last night. I don't know why you didn't tell me. I wish you would have trusted me enough to tell me about this. I guess I under stand why you didn't. I just want you to know that you can trust me. I will help in any way I can if you want me to. I won't do it on my own. I will wait till you are ready to come to me with this. Don't feel like you can't write me with even the tiniest problem. I will always make time for you. No matter what I am doing you are more important. I won't keep you any longer you have class to get to.
V
Severus sat on the edge of his bed staring at the letter. Ever since he was saved from his father that night the Dark Lord had become more like the father he had always dreamed he had. It was odd to have all these people around him that all seemed to care. Why couldn't his parents have been this way with him all along? He folded the letter neatly and placed it in the bottom of his trunk. He would have to write Lucius later and let him know that he was going to pay for talking about things that he shouldn't have been.
Severus went about his day like he did any other day, but his mood was different. He was happier. The Marauder's quickly picked up on this and decided he was long over due for some pranking. They ripped his bag at least twenty times, and made sure that his books were scattered properly up and down the hall. They soaked to of his books in ink when they made the bottles explode. Each childish prank was followed by another, but nothing seemed to get to him. Well, outwardly it didn't seem that way.
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"What the hell is wrong with him?" James screamed. "We have tried all day and nothing, not even one of his dirty I-am-going-to-kill-you looks or any thing."
" Prongs your making a scene. Just sit and calm down a little. We'll get him some how. We just need to think bigger and..." Sirius cut off his friend. "And not involve any of your friends." "How was I to know she would go to Dumbledore? I thought that she hated him almost as much as I do. I didn't know she would help him out." Remus flopped down on the floor in front of the fire when he ran out of things to vent. "Um. Moony? Why do you hate him so much?" Peter asked nervously. He didn't want to get them to mad at him. It usually hurt when he did. Remus pretended not to hear the question, so he was safe for now. "Ok," James said frustrated at his whole having to act calm thing, "Then how do we get him. Last year would have been perfect. If things had went as planned." "If you try any thing I will tell." A small voice chimed in from a corner of the room. "Why don't you just leave him alone and worry about more important thing like your school work or what you are going to take next year or the OWLs they are next year and..." "Would you shut up already Lilly? Look when he has been expelled or is dead then we will worry about something else. Right now he is going to pay for everything he has done... EVERYTHING!!!" Remus stormed from the room almost in tears. It was all his fault and he will pay for everything he did to me and my brother. He thought to him self as he curled up in his bed.
Severus sat at the table in the common room with his parchment and quill. He had planned to write Lucius but now something was telling him that maybe he should take this offer for help from Voldemort. He sat staring at the parchment for a good hour then he began to write everything from that night at his house when the twins stayed over to the final prank that they had played on him before he made it to the common room. He left out nothing. When he had finished he looked up blankly at the wall. ' I need to talk to Remus.' He folded up the parchment and went up to his trunk. He hid it with his other letters and climbed into bed. He would talk to Remus tomorrow, if for know other reason then to find out what had happened to his friends. He closed his eyes and fell asleep almost immediately, only to wake several hours later covered in sweat and shaking. It had been so long since he had that dream. While he lay there attempting to catch his breath his head started to fill with the names of ingredients. He always kept parchment and something to write with next to his bed for just such an occasion. He usually created some of the most interesting potions in the middle of the night when he couldn't sleep, but he knew what those were for, but his one he had no idea where it was coming from. He wrote ever thing down as fast as he could when he was finished he lay down again. He went over the ingredients several times in his head to try and figure out what they went to, but no matter how hard he tried it just looked more and more like a shopping list than a potion of any kind. The next morning he woke early and waited for Remus outside of the Great Hall. Hopefully he would be alone. He paced for what felt like days till he finally got his first glimpse of Remus as he headed in Severuses direction down the hall. Severus stood frozen his mind went blank. What would he say? What was it that he even wanted to know? It didn't matter he just had to start the conversation first then worry about the other things later. It was times like these when he wished he was more of a people person like Lucius or even Voldemort for that matter. "Um.. Remus c.could I .." He watched as he walked right passed him like he didn't exist. What had he ever done to him any way? Feeling now more then ever like an outcast he walked to class. Class didn't start for another two hours but he needed to be some place with out people to think. Now what was he going to do?
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Dumbledore sat staring at the wall why had he stopped them. Why couldn't he have just left things alone like he knew he should have? ' You knew what would happen if you interfered you stupid old man.'
" Shut up. Just shut up!" Albus screamed at the top of his lungs.
" Albus, who are you talking ?" Minerva stood on the door way looking at the headmaster who was trying his best to look like he was alright.
" Don't worry about that? Did you need something? Of course you do why would you come see me if you didn't need something." He smiled and laughed nervously as he walked over to his desk and slammed the book on it closed.
" I just wanted to see if you wanted to have breakfast with me and some of the other professors.... Didn't you burn that book last year?"
" Yes, yes I did. And I would love to join you for breakfast? Is there something wrong?"
"If you burned it then... No nothings wrong? Have you been feeling well? You have been acting odd lately?"
" Me, why I always act odd" he smiled this time for real. Even he had to admit that he was a bit of an odd ball at times.
" Yes but this is even odd for you."
" I am just having a hard time dealing with a decision that I made. Now shall we go?"
Before she could say another word he walked from the room. 'Why don't you just tell her, Albus. Yes tell her how the great Albus Dumbledore just single handedly ruined the life of one boy by sticking his nose where it didn't belong. Go on tell her.'
'I don't care what you say' he thought ' things will be better this way for him I know they will.' He knew it wasn't true but he couldn't let it win. Not this time. It just had to be wrong that's all there was to it.
Severus sat looking out the train window. He had tried many times that year to talk to Remus but his existence was never acknowledged. He wished he was still at school and had just one more chance to try something. His thoughts were rudely interrupted by the slamming of the door to his compartment. "What the hell do you want?" he said not even looking up to see who had just come in. " Funny I was wondering the same thing." " Remus, I...um well ...I..." he couldn't believe it he had actually come to talk to him. "Well Snape what have you been wanting. Look its not like I care or anything its just that its been bugging me lately. Why you would even try and talk to me? You never made an effort to before so why now?" " I wasn't wanting to let my self believe that you were the Remus Lupin that use to smash the coffee table every time you came to visit. You couldn't have been. For some reason it just didn't make since to me that it was you. I guess it was cause I hadn't seen or heard from you in so long...." " So, what you want to just go back to the way thing were. With us being friends? How could you possible think that I would want .." " Look I just want to know what happened. I want to know why my best friends just disappeared and then only one of them reappeared. I want to know why I wasn't allowed to have anything to do with them any more after that night. I just want answers that's all Remus."
Remus looked around and the left the compartment slamming the door. Severus stood there wondering what he had said that would make him want to leave like that. He picked his potions book up that had been sitting in the seat next to him and threw it at the door. He plopped down in his seat and hid his face in his hands. This is why he hated interacting with people. They never did any thing that made since, only things that made his head hurt. He spent the rest of the ride home trying not to think about any thing at all.
He met Lucius at the train station like he always did and they went home the same as they always did. He opened the door to his house and found his mother sitting in front of the fire place like she had every day since a year or so before his father died. 'She really is a pathetic excuse for a woman,' he thought to him self. She was so different before....
"Hello mother. I am home. I had a wonderful time at school thank you so much for coming to get me. I know you are busy and it just means so much to me that you would take time from your busy schedule just to see your only son home from school. I just don't know what I would do if I had a mother that didn't care enough to do things like that. Well I will leave you to what you were doing before I can home now mother. I do hope you will not be to busy to join me for dinner later." Severus left the room as the woman sat there sobbing. She hadn't really done any thing to deserve the attack but maybe that was the problem she never did anything anymore. Well any thing that wasn't crying. He went up to his room and began to unpack his things and then threw himself into his bed. He had been laying there thinking of what to do next with Potter and his gang when he heard his door open slowly and saw a tiny greenish head peeking around the door.
" Hello Missy. Did you need something?" Missy was a house elf that Lucius had let him have to help take care of things around the house. He hadn't really had the chance to get to know her, he left for school on her second day.
" I is not wishin' to bug master, but master has company. I is not letting them in master cause I is not knowin them and I is not knowin if you want them in master."
Severus smiled "Well then why don't I just go see who it is." The elf nodded looking ashamed of herself for even having to ask him for something that may have inconvenienced him for a second. He opened the door shaking his head and smiling at the silly little elf.
" When did you get a house elf?"
" When my mother became a ....Remus?"
" Hi. Your mother became me?"
" No. Its ... It's a long story. Why are you here?"
" You really have know idea what happened that night? You just didn't stop talking to me because of what happened to me and my brother?" Remus stood in the door way shaking so hard he almost knocked himself over.
" I was just told that it was best that I didn't talk to you any more. I went to see you and the house was empty. No, I didn't stop talking to you because of what happened because I don't know what happened." Severus watched as his friend burst into tears. He stood in shock not knowing what to say or do to make it stop. While Severus stood trying to think of something comforting to say to make Remus stop crying, he did not notice his mother standing behind him. She put her hand on his shoulder and moved him out of her way. She reach out and threw her arms around the boy on her front porch. She stood there holding him crying right along with him for several minutes before any one spoke.
"I am so sorry Remus. This is all my fault. I never should have told him that he wasn't allowed to talk with you or your family. I never should have listened to my husband. I am so sorry." Her words were hard to make out with all the sniffling she was doing.
"Its not entirely your fault you know. I shouldn't have listened to you when you suggested the idea." Remus's mother came up the steps to the house to join the hugging. "We just should haven't have told anyone. Nun of that things that have happened since then would have happened and I think we would have all been happier that way."
"Um.. Mom Mrs. Snape could you guys let go. I cant breathe." The two ladies let go laughing between sniffles.
"Oh Severus, you must feel left out."
" No I am alright." Before he could even finish the sentence he was being smothered in a hug by his former best friend mother. He still had no idea what was going on or why there was all this hugging and crying and what they all knew that he didn't.
"Severus," Remus was looking at him with this puzzled look on his face, " Are you crying?"
" Well every one else was I just wanted to feel like a part of the group." He wiped his eyes. He hadn't even noticed he was crying at all.
" Well," Remus's mother looked around and at all of them, " I think we have all got a lot to talk about."
"Yes," His mother agreed. " We were just about to have dinner you could join us and then we could all sit and talk afterwards."
The three moved past Severus who was still in a bit of shock. 'What the hell just happened here?' he mumbled to him self. Not wanting to miss anything so he would be anymore and become even more lost than he already was he hurried into the house to join them for dinner.
Dinner was just like when they use to eat dinner before that night. Remus and Severus sat quietly as the two women played catch up. After dinner the boys headed up to Severus's room leaving the two moms to talk alone.
"Wow, it hasn't changed at all."
Severus sank into his favorite arm chair and hid his face in his hands. The boys sat in silence for a while. Neither of them really knew what to say.
"So, my dad left my mom about a week after that night. He took my brother and we haven't heard from them since. My mom took it really hard. I think she would have been better if she had had someone to talk to. But she had also lost her best friend that night too. She and I moved into this run down little house not two far from the school. I only ride the train to school because its tradition. ..... Look about on the train. I have spent so much time hating you for everything that happened. When you said that you did not know I thought you were lying. That you just wanted to get me to admit that I.. but I was telling my mom and she told me all about what her and your mom had done. I am sorry. You know we have done this sooner. Now I feel a little bad. I played all those pranks on you to get you back for something you didn't do. Look I know you probably hate me for all the things I have done to you and I honestly don't blame you, but I miss having you as a friend. It was so much more fun getting in trouble with you then it has been with Prongs and the rest. You don't think that may be we could try.. I mean I know it will never be the same...."Severus stood up and walked away from the rambling boy on the couch interrupting his speech. He made his way over to the closet and pulled up the floor boards and removed a small dusty box. He walked over to the couch and set the box between him and Rermus.
Remus looked at him and took the box and placed it in his lap. He dusted it off and then opened it and removed to contents, which consisted of ten or more letters that Severus had wrote to his friends that had never been sent and a bag of dung bombs. Remus looked at the bag and smiled.
" A refused to use them until we were able to set them off together. I know it sounds silly and very unlike the me you know from school... I am not saying I haven't changed cause I have but maybe we could try to be friends. I do miss having you around too." Severus watched as Remus looked over the letters. The two boys sat and talked all night. Severus told Remus almost everything that had happened since that night. He felt that telling him all about how he now looked up to the dark lord as a father wouldn't have went over real well.
The two moms stood in the door way of the room where there boys now slept.
"Its just like when they were little. Remus on the couch and Severus in his chair. Do you think we should tell him?" Mrs. Snape looked at her friend who was covering the boys with blankets she had got from the closet.
" I think that Remus will tell him when he is ready. It is his story to tell."
" I guess you are right."
" Now how about some coffee."