"So, He just came in and after a bunch of talking everything was back
to normal? Severus you can't be serious. After everything he and his little
friends did to you. You just go back to being friends with him? And your
mom she is acting like a mom again?"
Severus turned away from the large window in Lucius Malfoy's study. "Its like she just woke up and nothing had changed and, yeah, it was like everything was back to normal. But, I just couldn't help but thinking that he was put up to this, like he and those jerks he calls friends are up to something. He never told me what happened that night to him and his brother. He just said that Romulus and his father left. He and his mother are coming over tonight for dinner and I really don't want to go. I don't want to play nice and like everything has been forgiven."
"Then don't. People change Severus. He obviously isn't the same and neither are you, maybe you two just weren't meant to be friends for the rest of your lives. You don't have to play nice and if you don't want to eat there you are more them welcome here any time, you know that."
"I have just wanted things to be normal for so long that its hard not to just stand back and be the little kid I was when he knew me. I don't think that running away to your house is a good idea either. I know that I can't be friends with him not like we were, I also kind of feel like an idiot for showing him those letters and things. It was like saying look at how pathetic I am, make fun of me please."
Severus left the Malfoy estate more confused than when he arrived. He knew that there friend ship would never be the same. 'If it was then he would have told me' he thought, 'He would have said something to me earlier.' Severus made his way to his house slowly. He decided that walking would give him a better chance to think then if he went by Floo. That and walking was less messy. After several hours of the same argument running through his head over and over, he began to make his way up the steps of his front porch. He opened the front door slowly and closed it as softly as he could behind him. He wanted to be left to his thoughts and not disturbed by his mother. His attempts failed. As he made his way up the stairs he was paying attention to his thoughts and not his foot placement. The tenth stair up squeaked louder than normal, like some one had placed a charm on it to magnify the sound.
"Severus, honey is that you?" his mother called from the other room like she had been waiting anxiously for the sound all day.
"Oh bloody hell," he turned and went back down to the room her voice came from, "Who the else could it possible be woman. Did you need something ?"
"Well for starters I would like you to lose the attitude young man. And I would also like for you to tell me where you have been all day Remus and his mother are going to be here any minute and I have had to get ready for them all day by my self."
" You haven't done a single thing the house elves did it for you and if it was any of your business I would have tell you where I was. You don't think that after four years of you not speaking to me and barely acknowledging my existence that you can just all of the sudden be my mother again just because it works for you now." Severus caught him self before the tears began to form in his eyes. He just couldn't play there game any more. He didn't want things the way they were before he liked them the just fine the way they are, he didn't need her of Remus any more.
"That's fine dear. Now will you go get ready for dinner. Oh and you wont be leaving the house till school starts your grounded. I don't care how grown up you think you are you cant speak to your mother that way. Now run along."
Severus walked out of the room slowly and made his way up the stairs to his room. "Just who the hell does she think she is." He yelled at the wall. He made his to his closet. "Why am I changing?" he slammed the door shut and flopped down on his bed. No matter how hard he tried to fight it he just couldn't do it, she was still his mother. Even if she was in his mind a horrible one. He began to mumble all sorts of horrible things under his breathe as he changed into clean robes. Just as he finished he was called down stairs to see to the company. He began mumbling again as he made his way to the door to let them in. He was as sarcastically polite as he could be all night, which earned him a few looks from his mother but nothing else. After dinner they moved to the patio in the back yard to enjoy the fresh air. Remus followed the mothers as the looked at the flowers that had just been planted and as they spoke about the latest attacks on muggles by the Death Eaters. Severus sat quietly in the shadows watching. Trying to think of something to say or if he should stay silent . "Just what are you playing at Remus?"
"What?" The three turn at once. All of them had the same shocked look in there faces.
" You have done nothing to me for the past four years but try to get me expelled or killed and all of the sudden you want to play like nothing happened. Did they volunteer you this time instead of that mudblood Evans?"
"I realize that you may not like her that much because she may be smarter than you, and you of all people have no right to judge the purity of blood you worthless half breed. I am here because my mother missed her friend and she wanted things to be normal again. I could care less about your or your mother. Hell I was only nice to you because I was getting paid to do so." Severus ducked his head and smirked as Remus was back handed by his mother. He looked up to see his mother now sitting in a chair looking like she did before her eyes full of tears.
"Is it true? Did you pay him to be here? What did you do tell him that if he was real nice he might get let out of his cage so he could go eat a couple of poor kids playing in the woods too."
" How dare you!" Severus stepped forward and grabbed Ms. Lupin by the arm and pushed her backwards.
" I think its best if you both leave now." Severus helped his mother up and in to the house.
" Severus," she started to cry on her sons shoulder. He had no idea what to do or say. So he just stood there and let her cry. After a few minutes she was able to speak again. "I know you hate me and I know I have been a horrible mother to you. I wish a simple 'I am sorry' would make things all better between us. I was just as scared of your father as you were, maybe more, I couldn't have stopped him even if I had tried. You know how strong he was. That's why he married me I was weaker than he was. There was no way I would be able to show him up. I begged him not to hurt you. But he would just get mad and hit me too. And then when Lucius showed up that night and began to threaten me on 'You know who's' behalf. That's when I just couldn't take it any more I had lost my best and only friend, my son, and my husband. I just couldn't take it, I wanted to die, but I was to scared to try and kill myself. I was afraid I might mess that up too. Oh please Severus, please for give me. I can be a good mother. Just give me a chance."
Severus and his mother sat on the stairs in silence only the sound of her sobbing could be heard through out the entire house, which meant the house elves were listening.
"I was with Lucius. We were talking about what had been going on here all summer." His mother took her head off his shoulder and moved away from him slightly just so she could see his face while he spoke. "I don't know if I can for give you just yet. But I do know you love me. I know you tried to stop him. I may be able to for give you in time but not now." Severus found himself on the receiving end of a bare hug. His mother was squeezing his so hard he could barely breathe. "Does this mean I am not grounded any more." His mother loosened her grip on him and they both began to laugh, which in his opinion was a lot better than the crying. After another minute or so of silence they both decided to go on to bed to get some rest and that they would talk more in the morning. As they walked up the stairs Severus's mother stopped and looked up at her son.
"Did he ever tell you what happened? What he is?"
"No he never said a thing to me."
They walked on up the stairs and when she reached her room she looked up at her son again. "Remus is a werewolf." She stepped into her room and shut the door.
Severus stood frozen, not from shock, but because of how stupid he felt. Why hadn't he noticed on his own? He walked on to his room thinking to himself about the nights events and what he was going to say to his mother in the morning. They did have a lot of catching up to do and he needed to decide if he wanted to bother with that or leave it alone. Before one of the questions in his head could be answered he fell asleep.
"See I told you this would be bad Albus"
"Its not all bad, he did just make up with his mother."
"You should have listened to me and done things the right way you stupid old man then we wouldn't have to go through all this right now. But no you couldn't you had to go and do what you thought was the right thing. You would think that you would have learned by now I know what's best. I have never been wrong before."
"You have been very help full to me in the past. But that doesn't mean that I shouldn't try to change things for the better if I have a chance. It's not like the future is written in stone. It can be changed. Now would you please shut up? I find it very hard to carry on two conversations at the same time."
"I will but only because you frustrate me you stupid old man."
*A/N* I am so sorry that this is short but I have a hard time finding an ending point. I hope to have another chapter of this posted soon (like before the week is over). I would like to apologize to you all for it taking so long between chapters. I just can't seem to find the time to write. After the next chapter is posted I plan to work on Neville's diary. So it might take forever for this to be up dated. But I will feel better if I can get Neville caught up to book five. Then I can move on with this one. I will try and make the next chapter longer and better then this one. Please Review!
Severus turned away from the large window in Lucius Malfoy's study. "Its like she just woke up and nothing had changed and, yeah, it was like everything was back to normal. But, I just couldn't help but thinking that he was put up to this, like he and those jerks he calls friends are up to something. He never told me what happened that night to him and his brother. He just said that Romulus and his father left. He and his mother are coming over tonight for dinner and I really don't want to go. I don't want to play nice and like everything has been forgiven."
"Then don't. People change Severus. He obviously isn't the same and neither are you, maybe you two just weren't meant to be friends for the rest of your lives. You don't have to play nice and if you don't want to eat there you are more them welcome here any time, you know that."
"I have just wanted things to be normal for so long that its hard not to just stand back and be the little kid I was when he knew me. I don't think that running away to your house is a good idea either. I know that I can't be friends with him not like we were, I also kind of feel like an idiot for showing him those letters and things. It was like saying look at how pathetic I am, make fun of me please."
Severus left the Malfoy estate more confused than when he arrived. He knew that there friend ship would never be the same. 'If it was then he would have told me' he thought, 'He would have said something to me earlier.' Severus made his way to his house slowly. He decided that walking would give him a better chance to think then if he went by Floo. That and walking was less messy. After several hours of the same argument running through his head over and over, he began to make his way up the steps of his front porch. He opened the front door slowly and closed it as softly as he could behind him. He wanted to be left to his thoughts and not disturbed by his mother. His attempts failed. As he made his way up the stairs he was paying attention to his thoughts and not his foot placement. The tenth stair up squeaked louder than normal, like some one had placed a charm on it to magnify the sound.
"Severus, honey is that you?" his mother called from the other room like she had been waiting anxiously for the sound all day.
"Oh bloody hell," he turned and went back down to the room her voice came from, "Who the else could it possible be woman. Did you need something ?"
"Well for starters I would like you to lose the attitude young man. And I would also like for you to tell me where you have been all day Remus and his mother are going to be here any minute and I have had to get ready for them all day by my self."
" You haven't done a single thing the house elves did it for you and if it was any of your business I would have tell you where I was. You don't think that after four years of you not speaking to me and barely acknowledging my existence that you can just all of the sudden be my mother again just because it works for you now." Severus caught him self before the tears began to form in his eyes. He just couldn't play there game any more. He didn't want things the way they were before he liked them the just fine the way they are, he didn't need her of Remus any more.
"That's fine dear. Now will you go get ready for dinner. Oh and you wont be leaving the house till school starts your grounded. I don't care how grown up you think you are you cant speak to your mother that way. Now run along."
Severus walked out of the room slowly and made his way up the stairs to his room. "Just who the hell does she think she is." He yelled at the wall. He made his to his closet. "Why am I changing?" he slammed the door shut and flopped down on his bed. No matter how hard he tried to fight it he just couldn't do it, she was still his mother. Even if she was in his mind a horrible one. He began to mumble all sorts of horrible things under his breathe as he changed into clean robes. Just as he finished he was called down stairs to see to the company. He began mumbling again as he made his way to the door to let them in. He was as sarcastically polite as he could be all night, which earned him a few looks from his mother but nothing else. After dinner they moved to the patio in the back yard to enjoy the fresh air. Remus followed the mothers as the looked at the flowers that had just been planted and as they spoke about the latest attacks on muggles by the Death Eaters. Severus sat quietly in the shadows watching. Trying to think of something to say or if he should stay silent . "Just what are you playing at Remus?"
"What?" The three turn at once. All of them had the same shocked look in there faces.
" You have done nothing to me for the past four years but try to get me expelled or killed and all of the sudden you want to play like nothing happened. Did they volunteer you this time instead of that mudblood Evans?"
"I realize that you may not like her that much because she may be smarter than you, and you of all people have no right to judge the purity of blood you worthless half breed. I am here because my mother missed her friend and she wanted things to be normal again. I could care less about your or your mother. Hell I was only nice to you because I was getting paid to do so." Severus ducked his head and smirked as Remus was back handed by his mother. He looked up to see his mother now sitting in a chair looking like she did before her eyes full of tears.
"Is it true? Did you pay him to be here? What did you do tell him that if he was real nice he might get let out of his cage so he could go eat a couple of poor kids playing in the woods too."
" How dare you!" Severus stepped forward and grabbed Ms. Lupin by the arm and pushed her backwards.
" I think its best if you both leave now." Severus helped his mother up and in to the house.
" Severus," she started to cry on her sons shoulder. He had no idea what to do or say. So he just stood there and let her cry. After a few minutes she was able to speak again. "I know you hate me and I know I have been a horrible mother to you. I wish a simple 'I am sorry' would make things all better between us. I was just as scared of your father as you were, maybe more, I couldn't have stopped him even if I had tried. You know how strong he was. That's why he married me I was weaker than he was. There was no way I would be able to show him up. I begged him not to hurt you. But he would just get mad and hit me too. And then when Lucius showed up that night and began to threaten me on 'You know who's' behalf. That's when I just couldn't take it any more I had lost my best and only friend, my son, and my husband. I just couldn't take it, I wanted to die, but I was to scared to try and kill myself. I was afraid I might mess that up too. Oh please Severus, please for give me. I can be a good mother. Just give me a chance."
Severus and his mother sat on the stairs in silence only the sound of her sobbing could be heard through out the entire house, which meant the house elves were listening.
"I was with Lucius. We were talking about what had been going on here all summer." His mother took her head off his shoulder and moved away from him slightly just so she could see his face while he spoke. "I don't know if I can for give you just yet. But I do know you love me. I know you tried to stop him. I may be able to for give you in time but not now." Severus found himself on the receiving end of a bare hug. His mother was squeezing his so hard he could barely breathe. "Does this mean I am not grounded any more." His mother loosened her grip on him and they both began to laugh, which in his opinion was a lot better than the crying. After another minute or so of silence they both decided to go on to bed to get some rest and that they would talk more in the morning. As they walked up the stairs Severus's mother stopped and looked up at her son.
"Did he ever tell you what happened? What he is?"
"No he never said a thing to me."
They walked on up the stairs and when she reached her room she looked up at her son again. "Remus is a werewolf." She stepped into her room and shut the door.
Severus stood frozen, not from shock, but because of how stupid he felt. Why hadn't he noticed on his own? He walked on to his room thinking to himself about the nights events and what he was going to say to his mother in the morning. They did have a lot of catching up to do and he needed to decide if he wanted to bother with that or leave it alone. Before one of the questions in his head could be answered he fell asleep.
"See I told you this would be bad Albus"
"Its not all bad, he did just make up with his mother."
"You should have listened to me and done things the right way you stupid old man then we wouldn't have to go through all this right now. But no you couldn't you had to go and do what you thought was the right thing. You would think that you would have learned by now I know what's best. I have never been wrong before."
"You have been very help full to me in the past. But that doesn't mean that I shouldn't try to change things for the better if I have a chance. It's not like the future is written in stone. It can be changed. Now would you please shut up? I find it very hard to carry on two conversations at the same time."
"I will but only because you frustrate me you stupid old man."
*A/N* I am so sorry that this is short but I have a hard time finding an ending point. I hope to have another chapter of this posted soon (like before the week is over). I would like to apologize to you all for it taking so long between chapters. I just can't seem to find the time to write. After the next chapter is posted I plan to work on Neville's diary. So it might take forever for this to be up dated. But I will feel better if I can get Neville caught up to book five. Then I can move on with this one. I will try and make the next chapter longer and better then this one. Please Review!