Pain that never ends
Update update lol well I updated, needed some inspiration :P so sorry that it took me so long bows hope ya like it :D
Disclaimer: Yeah Yeah I still don't own shit! Ohh wait I do!!!!!! I own Daika and Katana!!! Yeahhh finally I own something!!!! XD
' ' is speaking, is thinking, is poetry or something written and this is Music (hope ya can see the differents XD this is word and I guess it isn't the same in -.-)
Tasz: Hi
Ray: Hai got another chappie?
Tasz: Damn sure -
Ray: HEheheheheh coolies but ya look.... Sick....
Tasz: -- I am, damn Ray we live together you should know :S
Ray: Sorry but... hehehe Kai kept me busy all the time -"" rolls eyes
Kai: Pfff blame it on me ... well you were the one that...
Ray covers Kai mouth To the story """
Chapter two Shared
'I said.....'Ray hesitated but grinned and said. 'I said why should I change when you are the one that is weird'. Kai looked at angry and pulled him closer but suddenly Kai had another flashback that took longer then before. / He looks scared!!! Wow Kai and scared that doesn't fit together but why? / Kai's hands became less firm as he let go of Ray and stood up. He looked down sadly, continued his walk and he had no eye for Ray just the disturbing flashback.
/ Why did it come back again! Why do they always come back! / Kai closed his eyes tightly, thinking back of his time in the abbey, the torture and the pain.
Flashback
Kai fell something struck him from behind as he fell to the ground, his head knocked to the floor and blood came out of his mouth. 'How dare you disobey me!' A voice yelled at Kai, grabbing his scarf from behind and pulling it up. Kai gasped for air, the man pulled Kai with him and Kai wanted to run but he couldn't. Suddenly the man toke Kai and threw him in a room, he looked at Kai with a big grin and then shot the door.
Kai sat on the floor and stayed in the room for days. No light, no food, no dranzer, no nothing!
Kai cried softly to himself so that no one could hear it, his stomach hurt and his head was pounding. The door opened, Kai tried to close his eyes but the light purred in. He was weak, a group off people walked in, people of his age as well and they walked over to the wall. Kai was ripped up and smacked to a table that he didn't see before, three strong, big man (is overreacting lol) walked in and grabbed the weak Kai. Kai struggled and screamed but they just did like they didn't hear him or something, suddenly there was that awful man.
'Time for punishment, little Kai'. The man said, he was tall, white skin, tight black pans, white shirt, blue with purple hair and green eyes. He had a big grin on his face, he was Japanese and he has a samurai sword around his waist. He was next to Boris one of the most loyal guyz to Voltaire.
Kai was placed on a table as his hands were chained just like his feet, Kai couldn't move and was scared like hell, he just laid still. With a quick move the man sat on top of Kai, he raised his hand and Kai fell a burning hit slapping his face. Kai was slapped every second and he was burning, his face was red and felt burning hot. The kids that stood over by the wall didn't move a muscle they just stood there watching Kai get beat up. Blood was escaping Kai's mouth as the figure just wouldn't stop hitting. Kai couldn't take anymore, he was in to much pain and everyone was laughing and not helping him. He cried and screamed but it was of no use.
'Pleaz Daika!!! Pleaz stop it!!! It hurts!!! Kai yelled but Daika didn't stop he just went on, hitting harder every time, Kai's face was all red and sweating. Kai was breathing hard and fast cuz he was already weak, Daika toke out his samurai and held it above Kai's face. Kai looked faired at the sharp sword, Daika ripped off Kai's slim shirt and tossed it aside. Daika stroke with his sword over Kai's chest leaving a bloody line, he made four big lines and then started to make small ones between. Kai was crying but no one even looked at him just the blade, a cut was made just above Kai's nipple and it left a red stripe. Daika leaned in and sucked on it as hard as he could, he pushed his tongue in the cuts and Kai cried even more. Daika pulled Kai a little closer and brushed against Kai's cheek as he said. 'One more change Kai or ya gonna die, hear me, die'. Daika laughed and raised the handle of the sword and he knocked Kai down. Kai was knocked unconscious.
End Flashback
'Kai....Kai...Kai..KAI!!!!' Ray kept yelling but Kai didn't answer he just stood there, frozen and his eyes wide open with fair. Ray grabbed Kai's shoulders and shook him, Kai fell backwards on the floor and looked up at Ray's shocked face. 'Kai.... talk to me what's wrong with you, tell me, pleaz!' Ray looked at Kai pleating for him to answer. Kai shook his sorrow away and stood up walking past Ray, Ray watched his back and remembered the faired look on Kai's beautiful face. 'I'm fine, let's go'. Kai said cold, like nothing had happen and much to their luck it started to snow. Kai was still not 100 % and he didn't really know the way and the snow became a snowstorm. Ray was holding his hands in front of his face and all of the sudden Kai was gone, Ray looked around but he didn't see him anywhere. Kai grabbed Ray from behind and took him to a little cave, Ray saw faintly that it was Kai and he worked with him.
Kai sat down on the right as Ray sat down at the left of the cave, not looking at each other or even make a little contact. Ray fell asleep cuz he was just very tired, Kai saw a little paper fall out of Ray's pocket and he quickly grabbed it so it won't fly away with the wind. He unfolded it and read it.
A boy I wanna know
He is cold as a rock All alone and pained His heart is closed with a lock That no one can ever break
Why won't he let us or me in I won't hurt him, never He looks tick, hard but he's tin He's broken from within
He keeps falling deeper and he can't get out Crawling is of no use , he's getting angry at himself He's like a dark, rainy cloud Who can burst at any time in any moment
Nightmares torturing him, he is hurt I read the pain in his eyes Nightmares filled with sorrow and dirt He screams and cries but no one sees it
It breaks my heart to see him like this Why can't I help him I want to, I really do
Kai's eyes were wide open as he looked shocked at the piece of paper. / I knew that Ray was a poetic but .......This he wrote about me, I'm not sure but..... It reflects me..... damn why did he stop I wanna read more! / Kai closed his eyes, the words were running throw his head and he didn't even hear the thunder. Unlike Ray, he woke up shocking and scared cuz he really hated thunder. Ray pulled his knees up to his face and buried his head in his knees as he sobbed a little. Kai watched the sobbing figure, he fell sorry for Ray but what could he do.
Kenny was nervously watching out of the window, he was worried but Tyson wasn't, the only thing on his mind was the food. / Doesn't Tyson care for Ray and Kai, I'm worried, why aren't they back yet / Kenny sighed and sat down in the chair next to the window but jumped up just a sec later when the thunder strung. Max walked in with a sad look. 'No sign of Kai or Ray but they said that they would be fine'. Kenney nodded and sat on the couch, Kenny was scared of all the scary things and he couldn't sit normal with thunder outside. Tyson was done eating at decided to take a shower, Kenny sat there sadly and scared. Max smiled and sat down next to Kenny, the thunder was heavy and Kenny was scared like hell.
Suddenly Kenny fell two arms grab him and he was pulled closer to Max, Max looked down at Kenny and smiled. 'It's just thunder but if it makes you feel better I will protect you'. Kenny smiled and buried his face in Max's shoulder.
Ray was squirming and squeaking because he really couldn't stand thunder. Ray closed his eyes tightly, a single tear ran down his face and dropped on his shirt. Suddenly Ray fell two strong arms around him, it was Kai who protected him. Ray looked up and blushed, just then some more lightning struck and thunder could be heard, Ray whimpered again. Kai pulled Ray closer then before and Ray curled up in Kai's hug, he felt safe and comfortable. Kai smiled and stroke his cheek against Ray's soft, raven hair, Kai felt good and he had a satisfied feeling in his stomach.
Ray fell Kai stroke his hair, he looked up a bit so he could see Kai's face and his mouth fell open. Kai had a smile on his face and he looked different, he looked happy. Kai looked surprised at Ray because his mouth was still open, suddenly Kai started to feel stupid and the smile disappeared. Ray closed his mouth and raised his hand, Kai flinched but then leaned in the touch. Ray stroke Kai's cheek and it fell soft and good. Kai closed his eyes and he moved a little so Ray's hand was better to be felt. Kai's smile came back and Ray smiled as well as he buried himself in Kai's shoulder again.
'Thanx Kai'.... 'Hnn sure'.
Ray moved and fell something hard hurting in his back and he tried to look back. Kai noticed and let go of Ray and got out his Discman, he moved it to his other side and pulled Ray back.
'What music is it?' 'Nothing that you would like, I'm sure'. 'Ohh pleaz Kai, let me hear it'. Ray placed a sad dog puppy face on and Kai couldn't resist it.
'Okay but I warned you, I chose music that reflects my........'. Kai stopped and he closed his eyes as he handed the Discman to Ray. 'Don't be ashamed, just tell me, after all, like it or not, I'm your friend'. Ray said smiling, Kai opened his eyes and looked directly in Ray's tiger orbs. 'Well I choose music that reflects my.....well my.... uhmmm ... feelings'. 'That wasn't so hard now was it'. Ray smiled and Kai placed a little grin on his face. 'I chose music that reflects the way I feel, happy or sad so you're not the only one'. Rei smiled.
Ray pressed 'play', Kai's hand slides over Ray's hand and he presses forward so he went to number 6. 'This is a good one and I mean good'. He rolled the volume roller and the volume was at its highest. Ray and Kai held each other and listened to the music, the words played in their minds and spooked throw their heads.
It's easier to ran Replacing this pain with something more It's so much easier to go Then face all this pain here all alone
Something has been taking from deep inside of me A secret I kept locked away, no one can ever see Wounds so deep they never show, they never go away Like moving pictures in my head for years and years they've played
If I could change I would Take away all the pain I would Trace every wrong move that I made I would I've I could stand up and take the blame I would I've I could take all my shame to the grave I would
If I could change I would Take away all the pain I would Trace every wrong move that I made I would I've I could stand up and take the blame I would I've I could take all my shame to the grave
It's easier to ran Replacing this pain with something more It's so much easier to go Then face all this pain here all alone
Sometimes I remember the darkness of my past Bringing back these memories I wish I didn't have Sometimes I think of letting go and never looking back And never moving forward so that there'll never be a past
If I could change I would Take away all the pain I would Trace every wrong move that I made I would I've I could stand up and take the blame I would I've I could take all my shame to the grave I would
If I could change I would Take away the pain I would Trace every wrong move that I made I would If I could stand up and take the blame I would If I could take all my shame to the grave
Just watching here aside, on love The helplessness inside, pretending I don't feel misplaced It's so much simpler then change
It's easier to ran Replacing this pain with something more It's so much easier to go Then face all this pain here all alone
It's easier to ran If I could change I would Take away the pain I would Trace every wrong move that I made It's easier to go If I could change I would Take away the pain I would Trace every wrong move that I made I would If I could take all my shame to the grave
A single tear rolled down Ray's face and fell on Kai's hand.
/ So this is how he feels! Now I know for sure that he has a secret, that he is in pain and that he has more sorrow then I could imagine. Poor Kai but he is letting me in and now I can help him!!! /
'Is something wrong Ray?' Kai asked with concern, Ray turned around and he had a goofy smile on his face.
'So this how you feel isn't it?' 'Yeah, strange really, every word they sing is........is me'.
Kai closed his eyes and pulled Ray closer to him and held him as tightly as he could. 'Don't worry Kai, I'm your friend and I can and wanna help but only if you let me'. 'Hnnn yeah know it'. 'Really Kai don't shut me out, friends help each other and you don't have to be ashamed to ask it you know'. 'Yeah I know, thanx Ray'.
Tasz: So that's that! Ugh ugh dies X-x
Ray: Ahhh that's all?!
Tasz: O.O Wasn't it enough?!?!? HUH!??! I used 7 pages and about 3000 words!!!
Ray: Uhmm gotta go!!!
Ray runs off to safety
Tasz: Yeah boy, you better run!!! XD ugh ugh .... Or maybe I should go to bed
Kai: -- .... Baka's
Pleaz leave the spelling and gramma mistakes alone can't help it, anyways ..... me update sooner in the future Thankies and see ya !! R&R
TASZ
Update update lol well I updated, needed some inspiration :P so sorry that it took me so long bows hope ya like it :D
Disclaimer: Yeah Yeah I still don't own shit! Ohh wait I do!!!!!! I own Daika and Katana!!! Yeahhh finally I own something!!!! XD
' ' is speaking, is thinking, is poetry or something written and this is Music (hope ya can see the differents XD this is word and I guess it isn't the same in -.-)
Tasz: Hi
Ray: Hai got another chappie?
Tasz: Damn sure -
Ray: HEheheheheh coolies but ya look.... Sick....
Tasz: -- I am, damn Ray we live together you should know :S
Ray: Sorry but... hehehe Kai kept me busy all the time -"" rolls eyes
Kai: Pfff blame it on me ... well you were the one that...
Ray covers Kai mouth To the story """
Chapter two Shared
'I said.....'Ray hesitated but grinned and said. 'I said why should I change when you are the one that is weird'. Kai looked at angry and pulled him closer but suddenly Kai had another flashback that took longer then before. / He looks scared!!! Wow Kai and scared that doesn't fit together but why? / Kai's hands became less firm as he let go of Ray and stood up. He looked down sadly, continued his walk and he had no eye for Ray just the disturbing flashback.
/ Why did it come back again! Why do they always come back! / Kai closed his eyes tightly, thinking back of his time in the abbey, the torture and the pain.
Flashback
Kai fell something struck him from behind as he fell to the ground, his head knocked to the floor and blood came out of his mouth. 'How dare you disobey me!' A voice yelled at Kai, grabbing his scarf from behind and pulling it up. Kai gasped for air, the man pulled Kai with him and Kai wanted to run but he couldn't. Suddenly the man toke Kai and threw him in a room, he looked at Kai with a big grin and then shot the door.
Kai sat on the floor and stayed in the room for days. No light, no food, no dranzer, no nothing!
Kai cried softly to himself so that no one could hear it, his stomach hurt and his head was pounding. The door opened, Kai tried to close his eyes but the light purred in. He was weak, a group off people walked in, people of his age as well and they walked over to the wall. Kai was ripped up and smacked to a table that he didn't see before, three strong, big man (is overreacting lol) walked in and grabbed the weak Kai. Kai struggled and screamed but they just did like they didn't hear him or something, suddenly there was that awful man.
'Time for punishment, little Kai'. The man said, he was tall, white skin, tight black pans, white shirt, blue with purple hair and green eyes. He had a big grin on his face, he was Japanese and he has a samurai sword around his waist. He was next to Boris one of the most loyal guyz to Voltaire.
Kai was placed on a table as his hands were chained just like his feet, Kai couldn't move and was scared like hell, he just laid still. With a quick move the man sat on top of Kai, he raised his hand and Kai fell a burning hit slapping his face. Kai was slapped every second and he was burning, his face was red and felt burning hot. The kids that stood over by the wall didn't move a muscle they just stood there watching Kai get beat up. Blood was escaping Kai's mouth as the figure just wouldn't stop hitting. Kai couldn't take anymore, he was in to much pain and everyone was laughing and not helping him. He cried and screamed but it was of no use.
'Pleaz Daika!!! Pleaz stop it!!! It hurts!!! Kai yelled but Daika didn't stop he just went on, hitting harder every time, Kai's face was all red and sweating. Kai was breathing hard and fast cuz he was already weak, Daika toke out his samurai and held it above Kai's face. Kai looked faired at the sharp sword, Daika ripped off Kai's slim shirt and tossed it aside. Daika stroke with his sword over Kai's chest leaving a bloody line, he made four big lines and then started to make small ones between. Kai was crying but no one even looked at him just the blade, a cut was made just above Kai's nipple and it left a red stripe. Daika leaned in and sucked on it as hard as he could, he pushed his tongue in the cuts and Kai cried even more. Daika pulled Kai a little closer and brushed against Kai's cheek as he said. 'One more change Kai or ya gonna die, hear me, die'. Daika laughed and raised the handle of the sword and he knocked Kai down. Kai was knocked unconscious.
End Flashback
'Kai....Kai...Kai..KAI!!!!' Ray kept yelling but Kai didn't answer he just stood there, frozen and his eyes wide open with fair. Ray grabbed Kai's shoulders and shook him, Kai fell backwards on the floor and looked up at Ray's shocked face. 'Kai.... talk to me what's wrong with you, tell me, pleaz!' Ray looked at Kai pleating for him to answer. Kai shook his sorrow away and stood up walking past Ray, Ray watched his back and remembered the faired look on Kai's beautiful face. 'I'm fine, let's go'. Kai said cold, like nothing had happen and much to their luck it started to snow. Kai was still not 100 % and he didn't really know the way and the snow became a snowstorm. Ray was holding his hands in front of his face and all of the sudden Kai was gone, Ray looked around but he didn't see him anywhere. Kai grabbed Ray from behind and took him to a little cave, Ray saw faintly that it was Kai and he worked with him.
Kai sat down on the right as Ray sat down at the left of the cave, not looking at each other or even make a little contact. Ray fell asleep cuz he was just very tired, Kai saw a little paper fall out of Ray's pocket and he quickly grabbed it so it won't fly away with the wind. He unfolded it and read it.
A boy I wanna know
He is cold as a rock All alone and pained His heart is closed with a lock That no one can ever break
Why won't he let us or me in I won't hurt him, never He looks tick, hard but he's tin He's broken from within
He keeps falling deeper and he can't get out Crawling is of no use , he's getting angry at himself He's like a dark, rainy cloud Who can burst at any time in any moment
Nightmares torturing him, he is hurt I read the pain in his eyes Nightmares filled with sorrow and dirt He screams and cries but no one sees it
It breaks my heart to see him like this Why can't I help him I want to, I really do
Kai's eyes were wide open as he looked shocked at the piece of paper. / I knew that Ray was a poetic but .......This he wrote about me, I'm not sure but..... It reflects me..... damn why did he stop I wanna read more! / Kai closed his eyes, the words were running throw his head and he didn't even hear the thunder. Unlike Ray, he woke up shocking and scared cuz he really hated thunder. Ray pulled his knees up to his face and buried his head in his knees as he sobbed a little. Kai watched the sobbing figure, he fell sorry for Ray but what could he do.
Kenny was nervously watching out of the window, he was worried but Tyson wasn't, the only thing on his mind was the food. / Doesn't Tyson care for Ray and Kai, I'm worried, why aren't they back yet / Kenny sighed and sat down in the chair next to the window but jumped up just a sec later when the thunder strung. Max walked in with a sad look. 'No sign of Kai or Ray but they said that they would be fine'. Kenney nodded and sat on the couch, Kenny was scared of all the scary things and he couldn't sit normal with thunder outside. Tyson was done eating at decided to take a shower, Kenny sat there sadly and scared. Max smiled and sat down next to Kenny, the thunder was heavy and Kenny was scared like hell.
Suddenly Kenny fell two arms grab him and he was pulled closer to Max, Max looked down at Kenny and smiled. 'It's just thunder but if it makes you feel better I will protect you'. Kenny smiled and buried his face in Max's shoulder.
Ray was squirming and squeaking because he really couldn't stand thunder. Ray closed his eyes tightly, a single tear ran down his face and dropped on his shirt. Suddenly Ray fell two strong arms around him, it was Kai who protected him. Ray looked up and blushed, just then some more lightning struck and thunder could be heard, Ray whimpered again. Kai pulled Ray closer then before and Ray curled up in Kai's hug, he felt safe and comfortable. Kai smiled and stroke his cheek against Ray's soft, raven hair, Kai felt good and he had a satisfied feeling in his stomach.
Ray fell Kai stroke his hair, he looked up a bit so he could see Kai's face and his mouth fell open. Kai had a smile on his face and he looked different, he looked happy. Kai looked surprised at Ray because his mouth was still open, suddenly Kai started to feel stupid and the smile disappeared. Ray closed his mouth and raised his hand, Kai flinched but then leaned in the touch. Ray stroke Kai's cheek and it fell soft and good. Kai closed his eyes and he moved a little so Ray's hand was better to be felt. Kai's smile came back and Ray smiled as well as he buried himself in Kai's shoulder again.
'Thanx Kai'.... 'Hnn sure'.
Ray moved and fell something hard hurting in his back and he tried to look back. Kai noticed and let go of Ray and got out his Discman, he moved it to his other side and pulled Ray back.
'What music is it?' 'Nothing that you would like, I'm sure'. 'Ohh pleaz Kai, let me hear it'. Ray placed a sad dog puppy face on and Kai couldn't resist it.
'Okay but I warned you, I chose music that reflects my........'. Kai stopped and he closed his eyes as he handed the Discman to Ray. 'Don't be ashamed, just tell me, after all, like it or not, I'm your friend'. Ray said smiling, Kai opened his eyes and looked directly in Ray's tiger orbs. 'Well I choose music that reflects my.....well my.... uhmmm ... feelings'. 'That wasn't so hard now was it'. Ray smiled and Kai placed a little grin on his face. 'I chose music that reflects the way I feel, happy or sad so you're not the only one'. Rei smiled.
Ray pressed 'play', Kai's hand slides over Ray's hand and he presses forward so he went to number 6. 'This is a good one and I mean good'. He rolled the volume roller and the volume was at its highest. Ray and Kai held each other and listened to the music, the words played in their minds and spooked throw their heads.
It's easier to ran Replacing this pain with something more It's so much easier to go Then face all this pain here all alone
Something has been taking from deep inside of me A secret I kept locked away, no one can ever see Wounds so deep they never show, they never go away Like moving pictures in my head for years and years they've played
If I could change I would Take away all the pain I would Trace every wrong move that I made I would I've I could stand up and take the blame I would I've I could take all my shame to the grave I would
If I could change I would Take away all the pain I would Trace every wrong move that I made I would I've I could stand up and take the blame I would I've I could take all my shame to the grave
It's easier to ran Replacing this pain with something more It's so much easier to go Then face all this pain here all alone
Sometimes I remember the darkness of my past Bringing back these memories I wish I didn't have Sometimes I think of letting go and never looking back And never moving forward so that there'll never be a past
If I could change I would Take away all the pain I would Trace every wrong move that I made I would I've I could stand up and take the blame I would I've I could take all my shame to the grave I would
If I could change I would Take away the pain I would Trace every wrong move that I made I would If I could stand up and take the blame I would If I could take all my shame to the grave
Just watching here aside, on love The helplessness inside, pretending I don't feel misplaced It's so much simpler then change
It's easier to ran Replacing this pain with something more It's so much easier to go Then face all this pain here all alone
It's easier to ran If I could change I would Take away the pain I would Trace every wrong move that I made It's easier to go If I could change I would Take away the pain I would Trace every wrong move that I made I would If I could take all my shame to the grave
A single tear rolled down Ray's face and fell on Kai's hand.
/ So this is how he feels! Now I know for sure that he has a secret, that he is in pain and that he has more sorrow then I could imagine. Poor Kai but he is letting me in and now I can help him!!! /
'Is something wrong Ray?' Kai asked with concern, Ray turned around and he had a goofy smile on his face.
'So this how you feel isn't it?' 'Yeah, strange really, every word they sing is........is me'.
Kai closed his eyes and pulled Ray closer to him and held him as tightly as he could. 'Don't worry Kai, I'm your friend and I can and wanna help but only if you let me'. 'Hnnn yeah know it'. 'Really Kai don't shut me out, friends help each other and you don't have to be ashamed to ask it you know'. 'Yeah I know, thanx Ray'.
Tasz: So that's that! Ugh ugh dies X-x
Ray: Ahhh that's all?!
Tasz: O.O Wasn't it enough?!?!? HUH!??! I used 7 pages and about 3000 words!!!
Ray: Uhmm gotta go!!!
Ray runs off to safety
Tasz: Yeah boy, you better run!!! XD ugh ugh .... Or maybe I should go to bed
Kai: -- .... Baka's
Pleaz leave the spelling and gramma mistakes alone can't help it, anyways ..... me update sooner in the future Thankies and see ya !! R&R
TASZ