disclaimer: No, I'm not blond, rich or British.
A/N: Well. What can I say? This is a songfic (what a surprise) and this is slash (I'm sure you're shocked). The song is For my pain's (for a change) Killing romance. Did I say already that this is slash?
these are flashbacks
these are the lyrics
and these are the present time
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No, I can't go on
Waiting only tomorrow
Life, so meaningless and hollow
It's the circle of sorrow
"Have you gone insane?! Did you really think I would love you? You are insane!"
Harry could still hear Draco's voice in his head. He could hear his laugh.
"Leave me alone, Potter! It's over!"
Harry closed his eyes and immediately saw Draco in front of him. There he was, smiling.
"You know what, Harry?"
"What?"
"I think we're both crazy."
"I've known it all along."
That was the time when they shared their first kiss. A single tear rolled down Harry's cheek.
All I once believed in is dead
A faded halo around my head
Innocence turns to regret
Sinner in white veil
"Draco? What are you doing?"
"I'm holding your hand, Harry."
"But what if somebody sees us?"
"It's the middle of the night and we're in Astronomy tower."
"Your point is?"
"I don't think anyone will see us."
That was the time when they spent the night together. After that being separated from Draco was torture to Harry. Another tear rolled down Harry's cheek.
The bond of trust
Burned by the lust
One wicked glance led in killing romance
Now I know that death can dance
"Draco? Who was that?"
"Who?"
"That guy you talked with?"
"Oh, no one."
"If he's no one, then why were you talking with him?"
"Why are you sounding so jealous?"
"I wonder."
"Oh please Harry! You seriously think I would cheat on you?"
"I didn't say that."
"But you were thinking about it. Harry, hun, I would never do that to you. You believe me, don't you?"
"Um... Yeah... Of course..."
Harry gave a short bitter laugh. That wasn't the first time Draco had lied to him. More tears rolled down Harry's cheeks as he buried his face in his hands.
No, I can't go on
Waiting only tomorrow
Life, so meaningless and hollow
It's the circle of sorrow
"Draco?"
"Yeah?"
"I love you."
Harry should've known it, when Draco didn't say it back. He should've known that Draco was just playing with him. But he was too blind, too in love.
Now when Harry thought about it, he realized that Draco had never said anything which would be even close to 'I love you'. He had never been romantic or loving unless he wanted sex.
In the shadows of the endless night
I'm paying the sins with my life
It hurts to come into daylight
Cursed to roam in dark
"I thought you loved me!"
"I never said so! You made it up! I never said I loved you and I never will! 'Cause I don't!"
"But I thought- Then why were with me if you didn't love me?!"
"Well hello! I thought you were smarter than that, but I guess I was wrong. I was playing with you! I was just having fun with you! I can draw you a picture if you want."
"But-"
"But nothing! You can accept the fact I don't love you and we can go on like we never had this conversation or you can't accept it and we can't go on like before. It's up to you. But remember, I'm not waiting for you forever."
The passion of life
Gone in the shade of night
With no belief and bleeding wings
I'm half of the man I used to be
"Well hello, Potter. What brings you here?"
"I just came to tell you that it's not happening between you and me. I can't do it."
"Well, it's your lost, Golden Boy. Not mine. I can replace you, you know. You're not that good in bed."
"So, you still don't love me? Okay, whatever. I don't care."
"Yeah, sure you don't."
"When I said I love you, I didn't mean it."
"You're not a good liar, Potter. You never were and you never will be."
"Have a nice life, Malfoy."
"Oh, I will. But will you?"
"What'd you care?"
"I don't."
"Yeah, whatever."
"I'll see you in hell, Golden Boy."
"I can't wait..."
No, I can't go on
Waiting only tomorrow
Life, so meaningless and hollow
It's the circle of sorrow
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